#mostly bc she'd probably just worry more than get upset with him and that's Too Much For Tomo

[cosmicmoved]

✨✨ HEADCANON for TOMO ✨✨

LET’S TALK NPCs...this is specifically an npc in TOMO’s plotline. she’s not a super vital character (compared to, say, minwoo) and she probs won’t come up in threads a lot but i still think she’s important to tomo himself so it’s worth talking about her! also i like her so there ):<

this is KOJIMA SAYA! she’s 33 years old (born in 1986) and she’s a former j-pop idol. she was in the group between the ages of 14 and 24 so she spent a good, long decade in this group before finally graduating (bc that’s just how it goes in the female j-pop idol scene rip). since then, she’s made a career for herself as a tv & social media personality and her female audience flourished since her idol days. also look at her. she’s so pretty. i’m love her. wife.

so, how does tomo come into this? immediately after her graduation, saya decided to go live in the US to study english for a little while (this is a pretty common thing in the j-idol world?). she’d met mitsuko (tomo’s mother, just want to clear this up so i don’t have to say ‘tomo’s mother every 5 seconds’) during a tv show recording where they’d brought showa and heisei era idols together & mitsuko ended up being something of a mentor figure for saya, being that she had once been an idol herself. that’s why, when saya announced her plans to live in the US for a while, mitsuko opened up her home to her. if nothing else, it would give her something to focus on besides her stroppy teenaged son. saya lived in their home with them for about a year and a half before heading off to restart her career in japan, and made a point of getting close to tomo during that time, approaching him as the little brother figure she didn’t have in real life. despite tomo going through a bit of a stormy phase at that time, being the 14 year old kid whose dad had only been dead 2 years and also just...a 14 year old kid who was trying his best to look cool all the time bc, again, he was 14, tomo grew to like saya pretty quick. at the time, he assumed it was a crush or something but, later on, he realised he’d sort of gotten the feelings of a crush and admiration a little muddled because, hey, she was a girl and she was pretty and he didn’t really know that he generally preferred guys yet (and, when he did realise, saya was one of the first people he spoke to about it because he trusted her but also she’s a lesbian).

they’ve kept contact over the years and tomo sees her as someone he can go to for support & encouragement. she knows what it’s like to be famous as a teenager so, although she was active in a totally different industry (in the sense that she was a singer and she was in japan), she’s a little more aware of tomo’s situation than a lot of people. his mother was also famous when she was in her late teens but she’s a little distant with tomo and, as i’ve said before, isn’t exactly the most supportive of everything he does. saya, on the other hand, will hype tomo up any chance she gets, always promoting his films on instagram if they get a japanese release. she’s super proud of him and it’s cute (’: they’ve kind of got a sibling-esque relationship, despite the ten year gap in age. during tomo’s year in japan (i.e; summer 2018-summer 2019), she hung out with him a lot and gave him a lot of advice about how to act on japanese tv. unsurprisingly, she’ll always post a bunch of pictures of him on her instagram when they meet up but she’ll give them silly, over-the-top captions and refer to him almost exclusively as tomo-chan. she’ll hype up the younger girls from her group & company like that too but tomo is probably the only young, male celeb she knows who gets this treatment bc she’s SUPPORTIVE AND PROUD OF HIM!

[mallowstep]

(Reedwhisker anon) Reed just gives me Misty FEELS. Like, if he's from a second litter, (likely, hopefully) Misty has healed enough to love and want to raise kits again. And it likely that he's either a kit still or a really new apprentice when Feather and Storm go missing, so I can see Misty being extra protective? Especially once Storm returns without Feather in Canon. (I can also see her thanking Leafpaw personally if she found out/knew Reed nearly drowned.)

Misty AU....same thing about if he's a second litter, only one kit....I can see THIS Misty being extra protective. Or if it's because of a Head Injury, I can see her and Feather camping/stopping by his nest in the medicine den constantly to check on him, Feather keeping him entertained maybe while Misty interrogates Mudfur, wondering what's wrong with her son, why has he forgotten bits and pieces of his life, how has he forgotten how to walk, just--

(Mistyfoot watches as Feathertail helps Reedpaw re-learn how to walk, the silver she-cat gently guiding her brother. Reedpaw is frustrated with how he stumbles and twists, his paws falling out from underneath him. Feathertail gently purrs, telling him he's doing much better than he was before, and the memory of having Reedpaw wake up, and NOT remember her, or his siblings, or who he even was...it's one of the things she will never forget. The utter confusion in her kit's eyes as he looked at her, wondering who he was and who she was to him. Hatred of Tigerstar burns I her throat as the memories come rushing over her.)

Or

(Feathertail is looking at her wide-eyed, shock glimmering in her eyes at Misty's announcement. Stormheart feels the same kind of shock, but thinks...maybe this is a good thing? He remembers Perchkit, Pikepaw and Primrosepaw, and how Mistyfoot used to playfully play with all of them in Riverclan's nursery. Perhaps Mistyfoot willingly wanting and having another litter is a good thing. Perhaps some wounds Stormheart thought would never heal in his mother actually are. He remembers how distant she was with Hawkpaw, Mothpaw, and Frogpaw, and thinks...yes, maybe this is a good thing.)

Leopard AU, Reedpaw sobbing and just telling his mom and uncle what happened in Riverclan during those three days before the Bloodclan battle, him resting between her front paws, Misty gently making sure he eats--she noticed how he wouldn't touch Thunderclan's prey, and had gone and caught him a trout, but he hadn't eaten that either. That's when even more worry had bubbled up. Out of all her kits, Reed had always been the one who enjoyed eating. Him not...was concerning.)

Reed just breaks down and spills everything to Misty after she and Feather had escaped, everything that happened...Cinderpelt giving him poppy seeds to help sleep, the grey medicine cat gently telling Misty that Reed's wounds were more mental then physical.

Like...Misty you deserve to watch your son grow older and to die before him. You've been through so fucking much.

I literally had my heart in my throat when Reed was captured by Darktail and was prisoner. Like... was he going to kill Reed? Was Misty going to find her son's body tossed away like it was nothing? Just the thought of her reuniting within and seeing how skinny he'd gotten, his ribs showing through his pelt, infection scent rising from scratches and wounds on his pelt. Like...fuck. if that didn't bring back PTSD I don't know what would. Especially if he is a second litter, (third in Misty AU, (and Leopard AU too, maybe??))

Like. She'd probably seriously start to doubt her ability to be a mother/queen at that point. Her sixth son (?? Think that's the right number, idk) has basically gone through nearly the exact same shit she, Feather,cStorm and Stone did.

Like...fuck, just let Misty have her last fucking kit and be happy.

yeah...like i should be clear...i have 0 feelings for him but 100 feelings about him. finding out mistyfoot had a kit was such fucking whiplash that it took several weeks for it to set in, which is when i wrote a primrosepaw lives excerpt, which is...how we got here. in a very convoluted way. but i digress.

ohhh yeah mistyfoot would be Hella protective. i do Know she is like -- in canon, because she's the one who's like "mothwing why aren't you doing anything" and it's like mistyfoot babe i know you're upset (valid) but you're not helping the situation.

and oh -- okay so. as a second litter yeah. she has -- i mean there's a Reason mistyfoot does not have more kits in the misty au. she's not really. ready to be a mother. she's got a lot of trauma around the whole concept. but -- oh. yeah. she would be extremely protective of him.

and oh like -- okay stonefur and feathertail both already have memory problems, so now they're just Memory Problems Gang.

(stonefur has persistent word issues; feathertail has a lot of gaps in her memory, mostly during tigerclan, but also some before and after.)

very Good. i like that.

and mistyfoot is just -- so tired. god. she's trying to do so much and she's trying so hard and. feathertail keeps forgetting things and reedwhisker has forgotten so much and they're both -- oh. yeah. good stuff right there.

and -- she's split, right? there's so much. because feathertail doesn't want to be in mudfur's den even though that would probably be better for her but reedwhisker is in mudfur's den and she's trying to be deputy and. god. and she did so much to protect featherpaw and reedpaw got hurt and it's not her fault but that doesn't mean it doesn't feel like it's her fault.

Fun Times.

on the other hand like -- fuck if I Know with Whom mistyfoot had kits bc i'll tell u it ain't blackclaw but. okay mix of feelings but mostly positive from the Crew.

feathertail is Happy if very Surprised and a small bit worried mistyfoot was coerced into this,

stonefur is just -- you know. he's happy, but it's really bittersweet.

and stormheart is being angry that his sister raised three kits and now mistyfoot is having kits again but he eventually settles on happy. shadepelt might have to yell at him again.

and yeah -- it's good. everyone is good, it's good. because mistyfoot -- before everything, she was proud of being a mother. and it's such a terrible thing, to have that taken from you. so yeah, yeah. it's good.

and god yeah. mistyfoot and reedpaw reuniting and just. hnng. realizing -- you know. god. god god god. there's so much -- leopardstar and mistyfoot and i don't even know what to say except yeah

and like -- i don't even -- feathertail is on the No Poppy Seeds list because they tend to cause more harm than good and i-

like cinderpelt tries and then he has the Worst nightmares and she feels bad and it's like -- what is she supposed to do? what can she do?

misty really does. i don't want reedstar. i want mistystar to die and reedwhisker to die before he gets nine lives but still after her and for riverclan to have a leadership crisis. that's what i want to happen. because i don't want reedstar but mistystar deserves for at least one of her children to outlive her.

and yeah? oh my god the ptsd? like? fuuuuuuuck. and i think -- hnng. reedwhisker being held, thinking about what mistyfoot went through and i. god.

like. you know. reedwhisker is the last kit mistyfoot has. and she feels -- okay. i'm okay. he's safe and whole and a warrior and i'm okay.

and then he gets taken and all of her children have been harmed and i-

i don't-

god. mistystar my beloved <3 i hope the erins mercy kill you <3 but i hope riverclan's time in isolation was full of family bonding and happy times.