#more pairings welcome but i'm too lazy to list them all lol

[tartagliaxx]

i'm late by like 3 days but like,,, you missed me???? 🥺🥺🥺 i'm saddd oh yeah, hello🕯 anon!!! i legitimately can't tell whether i missed an anon, hopefully not lol

and it's more like i just don't like ppl in general? i can talk to ppl online bc well, they're online and there's not rlly a sense of intimacy that's the same as irl. ppl irl either treat me as air (which is good) or bother me a lot (which is not good). i only have a couple ppl i've been comfortable with (like 4) in my entire life but all of them are gone except for my mother. and idk why my mind automatically goes ew whenever i see someone. my mind basically says that nope, that person is gonna hurt you or smth, so don't get too attached. actually, don't even get attached at all. so now even if somebody leaves or gets upset at me, i don't feel anything bc i just don't care. ngl, that's probably abnormal but well lmao

and for once when i actually wanted to lose my 50/50 to someone not diluc, kazuha came home. i have literally nothing for him bc i didn't expect him to come home??? like, i was just grinding for zhongli's artifacts but well. the good thing is that i have abt 50 pulls leftover since i only needed to hit 80 for him and my pity was already at 60. idk whether to be glad or sad that i didn't lose 50/50

— r. anon

of course i missed chu bby!! you’re my og bestie!! you’re up there in my tier list of favorite people! don’t go being sad on me now bc i’m going to cry w you 😭 anw,, hm... i dont think you missed anyone. actually, can i just say that it always makes me smile when you’re the first one to welcome the new anons? at this point you’re the honorary manager of this blog. i love that.

well, i kind of understand your pov? it���s very hard to be trusting nowadays when people are just,, so hard to trust. everyone’s a lil fucked in the head and it’s p hard to read through their actions especially when you’re worried abt their sincerity. i dont... really care for people? like i dont have much opinion on them. they exist the same way i do and i just like leaving them to their own devices. i recognize that social interactions are integral to one’s humanity but well... i’m incredibly lazy and paired w my hideous anxieties? dang, look at the time. it’s avoiding humans in general bc i cant be bothered to deal w the side effects o’clock.

is this what they call mission failed successfully? um idk but still! congrats!! kazuha’s v pretty and i’m sure that he’ll grow on you soon! i also have quite the few pulls left in my alt so i’m considering pulling for ayaka there instead of in my main so that i can stay devoted to my albedo conquest. ah idk anymore. so many first world problems. *head in hands*

hey hey bestie,, if you have the time let’s play together again! we could do that dreadful event together or maybe farm artifacts as well. it’s what i’ve been doing nowadays.