#middle school is the worst poor quentin doing it over and over again

[hayley566]

I've been watching Emirichu's videos on fictional crushes and got inspired to draw some of my own.

Hinata Hyuga from Naruto: It's funny looking back on when I was younger and in denial about my bisexuality. Especially when it comes to Hinata. I would get so angry if anyone disrespected her, drew countless fanart of her(some of which were in sexy outfits) and desperately wanted to buy merch of her. I had a crush on her and was like "No, I just think she's really cute...also, talk bad about her and I will block you!" I'm not proud of my early teens and how mad I got over the naruto shipping wars but it's funny to look back and realize I had a waifu and denied it. Quentin Beck from MCU: This is more of a hate/lust thing. Jake Gyllenhaal plays him so well and makes him so charismatic and awful but damn is that not kinda hot. Again, I hate the shit Mysterio does to Peter but I cannot deny how hot he is while doing it. L from Death Note: Death Note was my first adult anime and as much as I hate/lust Light, L stole my heart with how cute he was. He made me actually start to like messy looking characters and I love how he's a genius despite his appearance and behavior. As someone on the autism spectrum, I related a lot to people thinking there was something off about my "quirks"(those being walking on my tip toes which I still do today and how I had trouble with social quos) and it helped my middle school self a lot to see other characters like that. Sasuke Uchiha from Naruto: While Hinata was always my #1, I didn't hate Sasuke and honestly just wanted the poor guy to get some actual therapy. He watched his brother murder their entire family at the age of eight and it made me so angry when fans were like "He's older now, so he should get over it!" like trauma is something you can just grow out of without therapy and medicine. It might be why I ship him with Sakura so much. She saw him at his very worst but still loved him and I feel like that's something a lot of us with mental illness want. Miguel O'Hara aka Spider-Man 2099: I first discovered him while watching cutscenes from "Spider-man: Shattered Dimensions" but ultimately fell in love with him when I played "Edge of Time". Soon after reading his comics, I became a life long fan. Starfire from Teen Titans: I always loved Starfire from he appearance to her cute personality and her awesome powers. I also shipped her and robin so friggen hard. Alfred F. Jones aka America from Hetalia: This was one of the first few positive portrayals of my country/nationality that I've seen in foreign media. I love how he still has flaws but wasn't portrayed as some evil warmonger(except in the early english dub but we ignore that). I felt ashamed about being American because of what my country's government has done to so many other nations over the years but Alfred reminds me that there are good things about us too. My favorite aspect is that he has a willingness to learn about other cultures and has a puppy-like excitement about it. There's also his overall personality, how he's a fully fleshed out character in recent years.