#meanwhile i'm the tenant paying the bills and if this were a legally binding situation i could sue the shit out of her

[cqcandchill]

going through a moral conundrum that i don't know what to do about for the 17263627th time

on one hand i feel obligated to help my mother by staying in her home for financial reasons and keep talking myself out of leaving bc i feel guilty. on the other hand she's repeatedly violated my boundaries and very obviously doesn't respect them when i'm not around (like having people sit on my couch/use my personal shit while i'm away, when i've asked her to keep her guests downstairs regardless of how they're related to me).

and now the latest in that series is sending my cousin to inspect the house - when i wasn't home, without my permission or consent - because i'm not talking to her rn and i'm pretty fucking mad at everyone involved. (and i know this happened bc i came home one day and lights were on that i didn't leave on etc.) and it just feels so violating.

and as much as i hate moving idk how much longer i can keep snapping my last straws because i've been on the brink for this entire year. and i knowwwww that i can't fully heal until i'm out of this deeply codependent situation with somebody who has made it clear she doesn't respect me as a human being. but man i really don't know what the right choice is here.