#me vc: they're both crazy fndkndkgnjkdfng

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it   always   felt   good   helping   others   in   small   ways   ,   be   it   with   a   smile   after   service   or   a   short   conversation   at   a   church function.   helping   others   has   always   been   his   sort   of   calling   it   seemed   ,   &   people   gravitated   toward   his   help   &   sought   him   out   whenever   life   took   a   turn   for   the   worst.   even before   he   joined   the   priesthood   ,   he   really   enjoyed   offering   his help   to   others   ,   but   the   kindness   he   shared   would   eventually   lead   to   deeper   feelings   &   drag   him   down   a   hole   that   became   almost   difficult   to   really   get   out   of.   that's   why   the   priesthood   is   really   so   good   for   him   in   the   long   run.   now   he   can   focus   on   helping   others   &   there's   no   mess   in   it   ,   &   he   can   fully   focus   on   others   without   having   to   ever   think   about   himself or his own long list of problems.   it's   better   this   way   ,   he   thinks.   it   makes   things   less   complicated   &   more   peaceful   for   him   ,   albeit   a   bit   fucking   lonely.

the   loneliness   is   the   price   you   pay   when   you   give   your   life   to   the   church   calling.   it's   what   makes   these   moments   spent   with   people   outside   of   the   church   all   the   more   meaningful.   sharing   a   gin   &   tonic   with   a   priest   probably   isn't   something   most   had   on   their   yearly   bingo   card   ,   but   he   does   appreciate   @erebius   for   taking   him   up   on   his   offer   ,   the   two   of   them   sitting   in   the   courtyard   on   a   nice   ,   sunny   day.   pam   ,   a   notoriously   nosy   volunteer   ,   is   not   in   today   due   to   some   family   emergency  or what   have   you   ,   so   he   doesn't   need   to   hide   his   alcohol for once.   the   last   time   he   remembers   sharing   a   gin   &   tonic   with   someone   was   with   .   .   .   well   ,   best   not   to   think   about   her   that.   ❝   i'm   a   crazy   person.   ❞   the   statement   comes   out   of   nowhere   ,   but   it   doesn't   surprise   the   priest   at   all   to   hear   it.   instead   ,   he   just   takes   a   sip   of   his   drink   &   directs   all   his   attention   to   victor   ,   a   man   who   definitely   isn't   the   sort   to   go   to   church   ,   but   clearly   needed   a   friend   ,   just   as   he   needed   one   himself.   it's   odd   to   think   priests   could   ever   have   friends   ,   but   he's   trying   his   damndest.   he   doesn't   want   to   sink   into   another   hole   like   he   did   after   .   .   .   ❝   yeah   ,   i   reckon   you   must   be   if   you're   hanging   out   with   a   priest   &   drinking   right   before   noon.   ❞   he   laughs   ,   taking   another   drink   without   a   care.   it's   five   o'clock   somewhere.  ❝   you're   not   crazy   ,   victor.   craziness   is   subjective   ,   anyway.   you   could   be   crazy   smart   ,   or   crazy   in   the   creative   sense   .   .   .   eccentric   , i   think   is   the   right   term   ,   &   no   one   would   lock   you   away.   i'd   say   you're   the   right   sort   of   crazy.   the   kind   that   is   living   life   &   handling   it   as   best   he   can.   ❞   he   doesn't   know   victor   very   well   yet   ,   but   something   tells   him   there's   more   to   his   story   if   he's   seeking   company   from   a   priest   when   he   isn't   a   religious   man.   ❝   me   ?   oh   ,   i'm   definitely   a   fucking   nutcase.   a   priest   ,   dinking   g   &   t's   ,   swearing   all   the   time   &   bluntly   telling   others   what   i   think   ?   ❞   hiding   my   problems   behind   the   priesthood   ,   almost   throwing   it   all   away   for   the   woman   i   loved   .   .   .   ❝   yeah.   yeah   ,   i'm   fucking   mental   ,   i   tell   you   .   .   .   ❞