#me randomly throughout the day: [showing a picture of some guy] don't you think it'd be so nice if i looked JUST LIKE HIM? hehe | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

s4pphoiduser · 2 years ago

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microdosing coming out by macrodosing "ooo i wanna look Just Like Him. HIM. HE HIM HIM HIM. JUST LIKE HIM." like oh look at the broad shoulders and wide, flat chest. oh, oh, so interesting, isn't it? wouldn't it be fun if i were a guy? imagine That!

#me randomly throughout the day: [showing a picture of some guy] don't you think it'd be so nice if i looked JUST LIKE HIM? hehe #being trans is fun #incoming in the tags:#dysphoria #sometimes i feel like maybe im not actually trans and that im just ~an imposter~ because it's ''''''trendy''''''#and then i remember that i literally cannot bear calling myself a girl + my chest makes me so.... [no words for it] +#everytime i have to accept what i have DOWN THERE whenever i pee or like idk put on underwear i have to like.#pretend that i dont know what what i have is and that i am a small child again who does not know that people have different parts #until like. halfway through last year i thought everyone wanted to be out of the skin they were born in. i thought it was a normal thing #brought on by puberty.#and i also thought that maybe i just felt that way because i didn't look ~conventionally attractive~#but then i started ~working on myself~ and changing these things and i still couldn't stand the fact that this was my skin.#that i couldn't tear it away so i could finally be ~real~#i remember that i was watching a video and i thought he looked cool but at the same time the voice in my head that was like #'you want to look like THAT so bad and that's going to k ill you' and i had to pause the video and look away for a sec because #i couldn't accept that i just didn't look like that....#like yeah dude. you're trans #not 'not like other girls' in a pick me way but 'not like other girls' in that im a guy and feel incredibly alien in my body #sorry i started talking about all that. i'll tag it no worries

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