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neonpigeons · 8 days ago

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I really wish I had a better relationship with my parents. I wish they had been more patient and cared more about what was going on with me. and that I hadn't been told time and time again to keep bad things to myself

#maybe then i wouldn't have grown up to be an incredibly repressed anxiety-ridden mess #maybe i wouldn't feel so alone #maybe i wouldn't have the urge to hide and cry by myself whenever i don't feel good #maybe then i wouldn't have completely failed when i tried therapy #cuz i wouldn't feel so bad and guilty for just existing and saying my problems out loud #ari speaks #and now my dad is having health problems and signs of dementia and the worst thing is. i don't really care #and it makes me feel so ashamed and guilty #but whatever man. im gonna go back to not thinking about reality. to cope

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