#maybe someday i'll share more abt their version of things

[holistichiatus]

1999 hex chat spoilers - Eleanor

just did eleanor's fifth chat and i want to talk abt my own theories about tenno telepathy and how drifter tamm's interactions diverge from canon.

for a while I've thought of tenno being telepathic to a degree on their own. they can broadcast feelings and touch lets them share thoughts. it's much harder to do when they are using their warframes, especially if they are still hidden on lua and haven't woken. it makes casual, direct touch a gesture reserved for those closest to them and touching palms rarely happens unless tenno are close. it's stronger through their main bodies, operators and drifters alike.

i think this gives them a unique resistance to broader telepathy. and given how drifter had to control their psyche in duviri + some amount of influence from MitW that i haven't figured out exactly, i think this would make them a blind spot to her. she can't pick up any surface thoughts, general emotions, or even strong thoughts.

When she first meets Tamm, it's disorienting to feel a hole in the noise. she pushes only slightly to try and find the vague feelings, not searching for anything specific, but nothing. in fact, he feels her and that is when he first notices her. and she knows he felt her pushing and still hears nothing at all, but she feels her own dread bc it's nothing like any other attempts ppl have made to keep her out (with varying degrees of success)

he can hear her if she broadcasts generally, but drifter is the one silent spot in her new world and it freaks her the hell out. they do eventually become friendly, but it's much slower than the others. when she hears the angels, it's a conscious effort Tamm makes to share the memory at her request. he can hear her no problem, but she can't hear anything he doesn't want her to hear and eventually she finds it kind of comforting to have a singular, normal friendship with someone in the world

[radioblonde]

so I'm starting this here

I'm just some other happy, free, confused, and lonely junior in college who didn't understand how perfectly aligned those four words were back in 2012 when Red (OG and ONLY version) was released.

So, I'm taking a rhetoric of pop culture class (pop cultural analysis thru the lens of Taylor Swift AAH!) that has inspired me to finally join Tumblr after the literal decade I've spent taking influence, in every single way, from this damn site.

Like, why haven't I been blogging my life down forever? What the fuck is the use of a journal anyway? jk #diaries4ever

I write a lot about the things that I'm blessed to experience. and I'd love to share for whoever might relate or love it themselves.

I spoke to my about this last week. I used to get insecure when speaking up about my opinion sometimes, like I wouldn't say the right things or hurt the wrong feelings. She told me that sometimes--people forget that we're all going through the same shit. some are more scared than others, but only because the others were once just as scared too. we all move past it someday. So as it turns out, all those ppl were actually right when they said comparison is the thief of joy. we've all got things to say and do, whether independently or with ppl alongside. if it's in words, it's in the world. Why tuck it away in your own world, when nothing's as it seems even in the real world? We learn best when put into practice. So fuck it.

separate thought, but remember needing to put "Tumblr" when searching up anything online? it was literally the only way. why did Tumblr even fall off like that. I feel like it's so creatively unique. I get the surface-level mainstream community online kinda giving up on it, but how abt the writers, creatives, and artsy girls of our generation? are they on it, and I'm just late af??

I used to have one of those Tumblr summer bucket list accounts with my best friend growing up...without actually using Tumblr. in all fairness, we were literally on the internet at like 10 years old. a pre-teen can only learn so much at once LOL.

I started stanning Taylor Swift when her and I stopped being friends. In like 2014. iconic ass time. even tho I was literally 11, I'm so nostalgic over it lol. I wanted to be a teenager then so bad. I wonder how I'll feel about high school in 2019-2022 in the future--If that nostalgia could ever beat Tumblr nostalgia (and that's coming from someone who lived vicariously thru it on IG!)

her and I were besties for like all of high school. but our second breakup, end of senior year, was the realest. everything and everyone was embarrassing. especially me. Lowkey depressing. So, I left Miami for college, excited to meet new people or new vibes... until I eventually realized that I've never comfortably fit in anywhere just yet. Maybe I should just blame Florida. or maybe it's cause I've been made to believe I'm not Latina enough (that's bs. Ik where I come from). maybe it's all bs, and I just need to finally move to NYC with Chan, my childhood bestie. all I know is that it doesn't really matter what city I'm in if I know where I wanna go.

Third year now. Still got Taylor. and I've come to love those random experiences and memories that once felt like blades puncturing my lungs. the bright side of every situation is actually, really cute. cause fr, apart from irl limits or calamity, what you see is what you get.

Anyways, I'm bringing back Tumblr, if it's even as dead as it seems rn.