#maybe it's 2 am and I desperately need to stop trying to psychoanalyse tumblr and go to bed

[will-o-wips]

One of these days... I will figure out how tumblr works (finally) and make actual posts y'know. (Currently the only thing I'm struggling with is figuring out how to like, make links that don't take up the entire page, but rather are hidden with words. Can you do that on the mobile app? Or do I need to use my laptop and NO HTML knowledge whatsoever to try and get it? If anybody who knows sees this [frankly barely a handful of people, I know] please educate me I will actually thank you so much.) I will write and refuse to not write.

Out of everything I've been doing lately, me finishing a bunch of stuff from my Genshin WIP checklist is like my proudest moment ever. The wordcount and green coloured boxes are increasing exponentially. This means, however, I gotta make a masterpost of all of my Genshin fics once I actually do finish that enormous checklist in my spreadsheet. I think that me pinning that post will label me as either a madman or a traitor lmaooo, since I am not playing Genshin anymore nor will I ever return, but I think also making an introduction post with more links would be handy for that. That way I can categorize the fandoms I have written for, and what my interests are ig.

(side-tangent: I still don't entirely get how sideblogs work? Like I've made one and deleted it after I saw that it was not allowing me to detach this blog from that one, but like... is it useful for anything else? Like genuinely some people have sideblogs that seem so unrelated to their main blog and I'm worried that maybe I'm just horribly incompetent with technology atp. I should look up "how to tumblr" tutorials on youtube or somewhere man. Wikihow my next best friend, huh.)

This is more of a personal account anyway, but I'd like to think I could end up making some friends via tumblr only, rather than sit around in discord servers hoping for the best. Maybe participation in fandom is also gonna be good? I'd like to be a part of this thing that I'd never really had a chance to explore fully because I'd been too socially awkward to be anything more than a ghost when I was younger.

I wanna write. I wanna see whether people like my writing, whether it resonates; whether I can do justice to the work that inspired me to write it. I wanna have discussions with people about things.

It's such a large and exciting world out there, and I wanna see it. I wanna see it even if I end up flying too close to the sun and sink into the depths of oblivion.

At least then, I'd have seen it.