#maybe i'll wear my pronoun pin next time. and i could make an english name kandi?

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Auditions went soooooo much better than last year & i probably only Minorly embarrased myself (so i say before i get to thinking......)

Dues went up, albiet not by too much. Or, i don't think by too much... i forgot how much it was last year. All in all, still pretty affordable! And our show *song* if not the theme (i do have my reserves about the proposed props) absolutely fucks. It's SO good & i'm so excited for it already

............ welllllll,

not without some reserves, obviously. I still feel like.... unconsciously excluded from the rest of the group. It's partially because of who i hang out with (why do they not talk to the others???? I love All the group :( ) and partially because .... idk i guess i give others too much personal space. And, obviously, new people! That's part of the guard ecperience that no two years are the same, but the amount we had laat year was like .... sooooo much already. Impossible to hang out with Everybody. But maybe i'll be more integrated this year, we'll see.

All i have to worry about now is my consult. I think if this time I can find people (???) to do the fundraisers, then i can pull off my crazy-stupid top surgery AND guard While Closeted (!) plan. So long as the consult doesn't mean i need to pay anything day-of.... eep. Things have been a bit TOO smooth sailing* so far, so i think there might be something. Or maybe we won't be able to park anywhere idk.

*aside from the Incident