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What War Is
(A sort of poem by me.)
What is war?
To me, war is
The streets of my city lined up with makeshift tents
The run-down school next to my place now hosting refugees
Every public school now closed because they are hosting refugees
Seeing places that were once so familiar to me, get destroyed in a wink
Passing apartments destroyed by bombings, and
Seeing workers already working on rebuilding them
The instructions and maps for bomb shelters on the website of my university
My professors constantly reminding us that we are going through uncertain times (but please take your responsibilities seriously)
The countless online lectures on stress management and living through times like these
The hybrid class arrangements where only a maximum of four students show up to class in-person, because many are out of the city or even out of the country
The extra burden of balancing stress from this situation and class requirements we fell behind on due to schools and universities closing for a while at the start
Learning the difference between the sound of a sonic boom and a bomb
Briefly mistaking every loud noise I hear for a bomb sound
Hearing more sirens outside than usual, and
Wondering more than usual where these sirens are headed to
Anticipating every day the familiar buzz of a reconnaissance drone over my city (I keep trying to troll it)
Losing sleep from being startled awake at night by distant bombings
The most depressing kind of packing for a trip ever
Living half a live in one place and half a life in another
Missing things I once took for granted
Texting and calling loved ones living in a certain area after a bombing, to see if they are still alive
My family always leaving the TV on for news and updates while I am catching up on my assignments
Me and others telling each other jokes about the politicians and military forces perpetrating the destruction
Feeling a certain sense of extra kinship with my fellow countrypeople
Discovering new points of view, on- and offline, new allies and new enemies, surprising or not
People online, living thousands of kilometers away, who see us as collateral damage or think we somehow deserve this suffering because of our political situation
Finding out how very little some people know about our lives here
Sometimes resenting people overseas for living their best life
Reminding myself not to let the situation corrupt my mind and turn me into an asshole
Learning more and gaining wisdom (but at what cost)
"Relatable" posts on Tumblr taking a whole new meaning
Understanding famous stories of war, real or fantasy, the true effects of war, more than ever
My friends and loved ones overseas asking me near-daily if I am okay, and
Me replying every time that yes, I am okay, I am safe
Being grateful that I am alive and well, but still not being quite happy
The awareness of the unreality of the situation
Living through historical times, and resenting it
Agreeing with others that we are experiencing a Lite™ version of survivor's guilt
My weekly therapy sessions now becoming more necessary than ever
Generational trauma becoming not-so-generational-anymore
Oscillating between complete desperation, and determination to not give my enemies the satisfaction of my submission to fear
The tiredness and stress I carry, often without knowing, and
Being aware that everyone around me carries that same tiredness and stress, often without knowing
Reflecting on hypothetical scenarios
Reflecting on where to go
Reflecting on whether the next bombs will drop on me or on people I know
Reflecting on what I might leave behind
Reflecting on the possibility of suddenly losing everything I hold dear
Reflecting on the possibility of suddenly losing everything
Reflecting on the very possible eventuality of death
Reflecting on my life itself.
But even so, I see that I am privileged, because
I still have access to food and clean water (some don't.)
I still have a roof over my head (some don't.)
I still have access to my education (some don't.)
I still have enough money to afford those basic needs (some don't.)
I still have all of my brain, both my eyes, ears, my nose, both my arms, legs, and all my fingers (some don't.)
I still have nearly all the trinkets and indulgences, useful or trivial, that are dear to my heart (some don't.)
I still have some time to focus on leisure (some don't.)
I haven't developed any serious mental issues from all this (yet) (some did.)
I live in a relatively safe area (some don't)
Me and my family have at least one option for areas to retreat to (some don't.)
My loved ones are all still alive
I am still alive.
(some are not.)
#raya reflects#raya writes#sonic boom chronicles#my writing#writing stuff#original poem#poetry#(sort of)#war#on war#free lebanon#hands off lebanon#i had the idea for this on my way to uni earlier this morning after seeing streets lined with makeshift tents#i would be quite happy if this could spread beyond the confines of my tumblr space#maybe i'll pin it
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I’m sure anyone who cares has already noticed, but I’ve uninstalled tumblr from my phone. I needed a little break. I’m on my browser now (something that, if you know me, you know is completely weird to me). I don’t think I’ll reinstall tumblr yet, but I’ll check it out once in a while.
I uh. I read 3 books in the past week. I’ve been reading more since the year started, especially since I got my meds, but uh... Yeah. I am recognizing myself again. Even now I’m itching to read some more, I just got to my PC to get some school work done. Voluntarily! I went to my desk, voluntarily, to do some school work. I don’t even have a test coming up!
I also finished a whole game with my boyfriend last week as we both had the week off from school. In 7 or 8 days, we put nearly 43 hours into Tiny Tina’s Wonderlands (a great game, by the way), completing every quest and finding every collectible. Yesterday I came back from an overnight trip to Germany with my sister-in-law to see Hamilton. In German. Lmao. (Ah yes, my toxic trait, being a Hamilton fan). It was the must fun I’ve had in months.
All this to say that I’m doing great. It’s not that I’ve taken a break because of anyone on tumblr, but more so because I was just overwhelmed by it, and since I’ve left I have rarely missed it. I’m not leaving permanently, but I hope to be less active.
#I just had to have a little rant#I doubt anyone will see this#maybe I'll pin it#Anyway nobody worry about me#I'm doing really good#I can only hope it'll stay this way#and maybe I'll adjust who I'm following so I don't get so overwhelmed by everything#I want to stress again that it's nothing personal to anyone#I appreciate all my mutuals#That's all#really#love yall
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Perhaps I should leave my marks all over your body... so that you won't be naughty with anyone else.
THE LOYAL PIN, ep. 7
#the loyal pin#tlpedit#wlwedit#wlwsource#perioddramaedit#this scene should have been longer and kinkier... but whatever#i'll probably gif it some more later and maybe make gap parallels idk#gifs*#**
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— and this light will keep us warm
#yes i got lazy doing charles' pins ok !!#dead boy detectives#edwin payne#dead boy detective agency#charles rowland#payneland#dead boy detectives netflix#the dead boy detectives#dead boy detectives fanart#maybe one day i'll add more detail who knows#my art
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newdles (new needles)
#zeno's art#ocs#reassassination#needles#new pins coming soon enough#or maybe i'll be lazy and use his old sketch
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for writing game, iwaizumi + assistance <3
hope this sparks some inspo and thank you in advancee
hi there!! thanks for sending in a prompt 🫶
contains: friends to lovers (ish), halloween parties, reader is dressed as catwoman, expletives, iwaizumi is thiiiiis 🤏 close to murdering seijoh4 (jk)
iwaizumi + assistance
this is a set-up.
iwaizumi knows he shouldn't have fucking believed anything the boys "promised" him back when they assigned him this costume.
the suit is fucking tight, spandex digging into his groins and all other crevices that definitely should be aired out after after a few hours. he's had to constantly readjust his stance almost every few minutes, the black fabric compressing his thighs and torso, significantly constricting the range of motion his shoulders and arms are typically used to. if anything else, it could double up as a back brace from how rigidly straight it's kept his posture all night.
he'll give it to makki though; he did outdo himself sourcing this year's costumes―this batman set looks pretty damn legit.
except for one tiny problem.
there's no fucking pee hole. it's a zip-up, zip-down one-piece situation. and that normally wouldn't be a problem, except that oikawa "accidentally" knocked over a cocktail straight into his pants, the sickeningly sweet liquid now seeping straight into the fabric and past his boxers―cold and sticky as it touches his skin.
and so, the problem: his pants are wet, it makes him want to fucking pee, and coincidentally, the only vacant bathroom is across the hall, at your apartment.
this is why he believes this is a set up. that, and the fact that you're dressed in an outfit strikingly similar―just with cat ears.
he's been asked five times in this party if you're in matching couple outfits.
it catches him off guard, flusters him because of how badly he wants to say yes. but, you're just friends, and he doesn't even think you like him that way (despite mattsun and oikawa practically begging him to confess. makki tells him he thinks you're going to do it first).
so he politely smiles and says no, but you look good, your costume clinging to you in all the right places. thank fucking god he has a cape because he's pretty sure he spent the first 30 minutes in the party hiding his boner.
"hajime, it's fine, i swear," you stand beside him in front of the conveniently locked bathroom in oikawa's apartment. from the other side of the door, he's pretty sure he hears mattsun and his girlfriend mumbling. maybe fucking? who knows. "you can just use the bathroom in my apartment."
he glances at you before closing his eyes, contemplating, before finally agreeing to you.
"okay."
if he's being honest with himself, friends is definitely an incomplete label to what you are. as oikawa's neighbor, you are conveniently around all the time; and oikawa being oikawa, the ever-social butterfly, he's somehow managed to carve a space for you in the friend group.
(never mind the fact that oikawa's sniffed him out from the moment he first introduced you.)
you were a crush, then a friend, and now you're someone he picks up from work and drives back home three times a week, because he "has to train oikawa." you don't question it, even when you both know he stays over for dinner way past the gym's open hours.
"you know where it is," you open your apartment and urge him in.
"sorry again," he turns to face you.
"yeah, yeah, just pee!" you laugh, shoving him towards the bathroom door.
getting out of the suit is manageable, and he's able to wipe off a bit of the cocktail that's leaked to the suit and his boxers just to make sure it isn't gross and sticky when he gets home later. peeing is a big relief once he gets it over with, but it's when he has to suit up again that things become difficult.
stretching out the spandex one body part at a time is a workout in itself―the hardest task being when he has to pull it over his shoulders, adjusting it to fit properly over his arms and chest.
but then the zipper breaks.
and he truly thinks makki has fucked him over.
iwaizumi contemplates what to do next for a good, good while. he tries calling oikawa, only to no success every time; no way in hell is he calling mattsun in the middle of having sex. and calling makki isn't even an option; he'd never hear the end of it.
then you knock on the door, your voice soft and concerned as you ask, "hajime? you good in there?" you hit it spot on, too, "do you need help with your suit?"
iwaizumi presses his palms to his eyes. he's a rational man, straightforward and logical in thinking. there is literally no other option for him right now but to ask help from you. again.
fuck.
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it's 30 minutes later when oikawa barges in your door, and the sight that greets him is iwaizumi in nothing but a hoodie (the hoodie you borrowed some time ago) and his boxers, with his hands on your waist as you hover your hairdryer over the crotch of his batman costume―cat headpiece off and all.
"you finally got together?!"
#iwaizumi x reader#hq!! x reader#shotorus.workbook#omg i hope u enjoyed this!! i had fun thinking it up ehehe and writing it#in my mind this is set in the same universe as the halloween one i did for mattsun―actually its the same party HABFHBSF#some stuff about the fic: iwaizumi is hot in that costume i spared the details bc i was going to combust MYSELF#but it clings to his muscles REAAAAAAL good and there's really not a lot of padding in the costume itself#bc makki believes in iwaizumi's anatomy enough to deliver#what happened in between iwaizumi asking for help and oikawa barging in??? we may never know 🤷♀️ kidding !#i just didnt write it in bc it would be too long but#if anyone is curious maybe i'll write it as a separate thing!#other stuff abt the fic: reader became good friends with oikawa first bc neighbors but then oikawa admittedly wanted to play matchmaker#so he invited reader a ton to their group things so he could introduce em to iwaizumi HAHA and iwaizumi crushed hard#they become close pretty quickly too hence why reader calls him hajime HAHAH and they hang out even outside of the group#theres definitely something like they text a lot and stuff but neither of them are sure of how the other feels so they arent admitting#reader has borrowed a hoodie from him tho#(aka the one he's wearing in the blurb bc it's the only article of clothing that fits him in reader's apt)#also they figured they'd just kill time by drying iwaizumi's costume bc for sure they couldn't chuck it in the dryer so the next best thing#was to just use a dryer and spot dry it#makki did source most of the costumes! except mattsun's and his gf's#uhhh they go back to the party afterwards but reader literally had to makeshift lock iwaizumi's costume with safety pins HAHA#i guess his muscles just be too popping 🤷♀️#fvntybomb#ask#rep#ask game answered
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machete’s legs are an international treasure
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#this depressed repressed man with the legs of a pin-up girl#answered#stardragons#maybe one of these days I'll stop finding them funny but it hasn't happened yet sorry
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Did you remove the link to the drive folder that had a picture of your cat and nothing else?
I got a 'hey girly we know you exist' email from Wizards of the Coast regarding my dnd drive so i took down the link to my cat's picture as well just in casies but here's the picture of my cat and nothing else
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I've been watching Ink Master lately and it always makes me want to try designing tattoos. I feel like a lot of tattoo principles can easily apply to pin design too. Here's a stab at an American Traditional seraph 👁️
#maybe I'll make this into a pin eheh#angel#angels#eldritch angel#eldritch angels#biblically accurate angel#biblically accurate angels#tattoo design#seraph#seraphim
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I'm absolutely obsessed with the way Crowley and Aziraphale IMMEDIATELY started doing their canon things as soon as I put them in the bookshop (the actions are random, but you can set them if you want)
Naturally Crowley also has his plant room (yellow couch in case a certain angel wants to come read)
Was playing this fairy village game and finally got similar-ish enough clothes to make the boys. Having an absolute blast now 🤭 (I did try to match the eyes as much as I could though)
It's not the Ritz but it's close enough I guess, Crowley with a drink and Aziraphale with his food 💙❤️📚🐍🫖🍷
#good omens#Aziraphale#Crowley#I'll get a yellow wall soon the shop is kinda random#Game's called Fairy Village by Hyperbeard if anyone's interested. It's early access though#I'll post more when I get the new house in maybe I can make a proper restaurant#at least here they get to be happy huh?#I'll see myself out#Ineffable Fairy Village#(is my official tag for these now btw! also found in my pinned post)
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HOW TO PIN YOUR INSECTS:
Position limbs into desired arrangement and pin in place
Maintain eye contact
Pin should pass through the center of the thorax
Move slowly; lest the divine light leak out along with the ichor
Wait for the embers to die.
Wait for the embers to reignite.
#Ultrakill#V1#V1 Ultrakill#Gabriel Ultrakill#Gabv1el#Insects#Disclaimer. Not actual insect pinning advice. If that wasn't obvious from the start.#Cw:#Blood#Should I tag this animal death. Maybe? Hell if I know#Hm. I think I'll leave it at#Ask to tag#Just in general.#Don't ask me to put this in the ship tag though I'm not doing it (if I tag it ship know it was a moment of weakness... Joking.)#Anyway I don't want to talk about how long this took. Fuck's sake. This is like the third attempt at this concept#The first one I just didn't vibe with and the second you couldn't see the pins well enough (I would say it was also too horny-looking but.)#(but so is this one. As told to my by my peer reviewer. And by that I mean my friend I sent the sketch to and they said-#''I don't see how your other sketch could possibly be worse than this''. Thank you for the encouragement. I'll add more bloodlust next time#EDIT: FIXED A MISTAKE THAT WAS BOTHERING ME#EDIT 2: I caved. It's in the ship tag now.
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For the art requests - is it ok to ask for Dr Orpheus enjoying chill out time with his cat Simba? lol
Absolutely.
#I always say I'm bad at drawing animals and here's me showing it#Simba is more angular but fuck if I know how to draw a cat#I was gonna do a joke pin up drawing with him holding the cat like megan fox in that one picture where it covers her naked torso#cause I thought it'd be funny#but I didn't have it in me#I'll do it some other time#maybe#thanks for the request! loved doing it as usual#venture bros#vbros#the venture bros#venture bros fanart#dr orpheus#dr byron orpheus#byron orpheus#my art#fanart#wmp requests#100
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question on tumblr etiquette:
if you fall under a user's DNI list, but that user reaches out to you via ask or DM, without knowing you fall under their DNI list, do you still respond?
hypothetical example: user A specifies on their blog "DNI if you're over the age of 18", but then user A reaches out to user B. User B is over the age of 18, but user A does not know this because user B doesn't mention it on their blog. User B does know that user A does not wish to interact with people over the age of 18. does user B respond to user A?
#crab chatter#someone sent me an ask and i happened to see they have a detailed list of DNI criteria#and i fall under it#but now i dunno what to do?#i don't wanna be rude by ignoring their message#but i also don't want to be disrespectful for breaching their DNI#even if they don't currently know#maybe i'm overthinking things#i tend to do that#i might just play it safe and not respond#cuz i feel like everyone has their own reasons for their boundaries#and it's not my place to determine whether or not my well-intentioned attempt to be polite/friendly is comfortable for them#the other user put in the effort of communicating their boundaries#they just didn't know i fall under their DNI before reaching out#but it's MY responsibility to act responsibly and uphold their boundary#i'll add this to my pinned post rules#i will not reply if I feel uncomfortable or if I feel like my response could potentially make someone feel uncomfortable#of course i'm not going to talk to them about the topic(s) they have boundaries around#but if they truly do not want to interact with people of certain ages or beliefs or lifestyles etc#i want to respect that#i just feel bad about giving people the cold shoulder#but i'd feel worse if the other person felt hurt or betrayed#yeah i'm definitely overthinking it
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[ID: A digital illustration of Orym from Critical Role. He is wearing a bunny suit, minus the collar and wrist cuffs, with fishnets and small black high heels. He poses in a floating sitting position, leaning back with his hands clasped behind him and his legs not quite crossing in front of him. Behind him is a large green heart shape. End description.]
A thought that's been in my head ever since Orym said he'd be a were-bunny
#orym#orym of the air ashari#my art#critical role#critical role fanart#bell's hells#bells hells#i do have alternate versions of both this and the last fearne piece i did so maybe i'll do a pin up dorian to complete the trio#and put the nude versions (nothing more salacious than nips tbh) and the clothed ones in a little collection you could get on kofi
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Decided to redraw a piece from last year because I hated it eme
You might find the uncensored version on my tweeter
#bart the bard#Bartemus Bagiery#sidhe fae#unseelie fae#redraw#mild#im much MUCH happier with this version#maybe i'll redraw it again next year#tablet doodle#pin up#fanservice
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"we wanna see a reeeeally heart-thumping blood-spilling cool fight, so don't be another boring target! pleeeease!"
needles of the church, an assassin and one of the key characters in reassassination. a prodigy who sees death as a game, she 'fights' using pins, a giant zombie who protects her from harm, as a weapon.
#zeno's art#ocs#reassassination#needles#the silly billy#i decided on no spirals - pure black eyes though i might end up changing my mind i dont know!#i know i said 'maybe ill finish this sheet on saturday' last week but it is saturday so hey was i really lying#next up should be angel#i'll do pins later man... and the mascots too#i've been writing factfiles for every character as well and its so fun
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