#maybe because i am too loud and outspoken and independent

[freebooter4ever]

here i am making fun of this weird rich girl who has been taught to only value her youth and beauty (despite attending an ivy???) meanwhile the only thing i go on dates with these days is my mobile studio bag. big talk from my high horse of loneliness. (but i think i would rather have eternal loneliness than a dictator thanks)

[tastyykpop]

May I request seveteen's ideal types like you did Got7 's? I just found your blog and it feels like i hit the jackpot!! We both Stan the same groups.:)

sᴇᴜɴᴄʜᴇᴏʟ

Confirmed ideal type: someone who can cook well and who eats a lot

Just cook and eat a lot i guess🙄 jkjk thats like the base for his ideal type, he would also want a girl who works hard just like him. A girl who is an extrovert. Since he's the leader of 13 men, she would have to be the mom of the members, so she should have a warm heart. Not only that, she should be his number one supporter. A fierce girl who will protect him, though he doesn't need it because he can protect himself but it shows that she cares for him. Seungcheol also wants someone he can spoil. For body appearances, he doesn't really care but he prefers someone with tanned skin and smells good.

ᴊᴇᴏɴɢʜᴀɴ

Confirmed ideal type: a girl is someone who loves them and buys their albums

Carats are you listening 👂👀👄👀👂jeonghan wants someone who cares about him a lot. He wants someone who isn't shy ok bye then and who isn't that loud. He likes someone who can be serious yet crazy at the right times. Jeonghan would like a girl who is immature and mature depending on the situation. The most important thing is she must be kind to others. For appearance, he wants someone petit and cute, who is also very feminine. Someone with a cute haircut and a puppy like face.

ᴊᴏsʜᴜᴀ

Confirmed ideal type: someone who is kind

Joshua wants someone affectionate and caring towards him and others. Joshua doesn't care if they're an introvert or extrovert, as long as they're talkative because surprisingly, he is too. But he also prefers someone who can stay calm at times. He wants a girl who can stay home and also go out with him. Joshua likes someone with passion. As for appearances, he doesn't want so much as someone who's super perfect, but he wants someone who's pretty and cute with a good personality. Joshua doesn't care what they wear either.

ᴊᴜɴ

Confirmed ideal type: a girl is someone who looks pure. He also likes sexy girls

Jun wants someone playful and shy. He wants someone supportive, encouraging, and loves him wholeheartedly. Jun also wants someone who thinks about him, but also bond with the other members. For appearance, he likes an innocent and clean image, almost like an angel. Also someone who's elegant, but sexy.

ʜᴏsʜɪ

Confirmed ideal type: someone who is fragrant and likes him

Hoshis simple man who wants someone to give him chocolate, kisses, and hugs🥺💔. He likes a girl that makes him feel at home whenever they are together and someone who doesn't go out often. A girl who is an extrovert but also has a shy side, is someone he prefers. For looks, hoshi likes girls who are cheerful and laugh a lot, especially at what he says, but not when he's being serious.

ᴡᴏɴᴡᴏᴏ

Confirmed ideal type: someone who suits him well

Wonwoo wants someone closer to his personality. He's quiet on camera, but alone he's very talkative so he'd like someone who can talk a lot and that is also a good listener. Wonwoo prefers someone who's cute and fun. He wants someone he can be comfortable and safe with. Also he wants a girl who loves books. Wonwoo doesn't have a preference for look, but he'd prefer someone who matches his appearance.

ᴡᴏᴏᴢɪ

Confirmed ideal type: a girl who is bright and friendly

Jihoon prefers someone introvert and calm, but with a cheerful and bright personality. Someone who is caring and honest would make the cut. He likes someone serious and careful, but is also fun to be with. The girl must have a passion for music so he can relate with her. Jihoon would like a stubborn girl who can tell him when he is overworked. He is another member who doesn't have a preference for appearances, but maybe a girl who is cute.

sᴇᴏᴋᴍɪɴ

Confirmed ideal type: a girl with long dark hair, has aegyo, and has long slender legs

The girl must be sweet and kind. Seokmin wants someone who knows how to have fun and is happy. He wants a genuine girl who is honest. Also, a girl who is younger. He prefers someone open minded and can understand him well, like when he is in a bad state even though he is smiling. Appearances are already said but to add to that, he wants someone sexy😌

ᴍɪɴɢʏᴜ

Confirmed ideal type: a girl who is tall, kind-hearted & easy-going

Ayo mingyu I'm right here 😑🤌. Another one that wants someone caring, kind and understanding. Someone who is carefree and isn't hot tempered nvm I am not right here. Mingyu likes someone romantic and sweet and independent with a different way of thinking and can understand that a lot of girls like him. So she must be a good listener. His ideal appearance is someone charming and someone tall like him with a chic style.

ᴍɪɴɢʜᴀᴏ

Confirmed ideal type: someone who is cute and kind

He wants someone who has a personality similar to Joshua's dont we all. Minghao likes someone caring and loving, a girl with lots of aegyo. Someone who is also positive and thinks about him often. Someone who can speak Chinese would be a bonus because then he could speak easier with them. Hed like someone who isn't too loud nor too quiet. In terms of looks, minghao would most likely prefer someone cute yet reserved with their appearances.

sᴇᴜɴɢᴋᴡᴀɴ

Confirmed ideal type: an easy going girl with big eyes and is like a friend to him

Because seungkwan has such a hype personality, he wants a girl just like that so they could have fun. He likes extroverts and sassy girls. Seungkwan prefers girls who are loud and easy going. He also likes independent and ambitious girls. A girl who can push seungkwan to do good and is very supportive is what he looks for. Someone honest and outspoken like himself. Seungkwan doesn't have a preference for appearances.

ᴠᴇʀɴᴏɴ

Confirmed ideal type: someone his heart can connect with

Vernon prefers chill girls that can support him whenever he is insecure. Someone who is also very expressive with her feelings and affectionate. He wants someone to embrace him as a person, not an idol. Vernon prefers personality over appearance but he liles girls with short bob hairstyles and pretty legs.

ᴅɪɴᴏ

Confirmed ideal type: pretty girl who does aegyo

Basically just like the other members 🤺. Dino wants a girl the same age as him or older. He likes noonas who can support him. Dino wants someone who doesn't sush him since he's still young. He needs someone who can help him through the dating life and has experience. Hed like a noona who doesn't see him as a kid and can trust him. Dino likes girls with pretty faces who are also cute.

[fandomwtightsunderneath]

Bad At Love | JBB

Summary: Based on Halsey’s “Bad At Love”. Reader has always been bad at love. Bucky being her best friend, realized he might be just as bad at love.

A/N: I’m stupidly obsessed with Halsey. Neither the song nor the characters belong to me (unfortunately). Lyrics will be italicized and bolded.

Word Count: 1882

Warnings: Cursing/swearing, controlling douche

Got a boy back home in Michigan

And it tastes like Jack when I'm kissing him

[Y/N] walked through the entry hall of her boyfriend’s apartment. Even from outside the strong smell of cigars permeated the air.

Her boyfriend, Greg, was hosting his weekly poker game. All of his friends had come over to hang out, get drunk, and try to clean out the others’ pockets. Usually [Y/N] tried to avoid coming over during his weekly guys’ night, but she had accidentally left her phone charger here last night.

Creeping up the stairs of the apartment she tried not to make a noise, she didn’t want to mess up the flow of boy’s night.

Smiling triumphantly at the charger in her hand, she made her way back down the stairs. Freezing at the bottom of the stairs when she heard her name. [Y/N] released a breath she was holding when she realized that she hadn’t been caught, they were just talking about her.

“Greg! Seriously! [Y/N]?! I mean come on man…” one of his friends boasted.

“What? What about her?” Greg’s voice became defensive.

“[Y/N]? She’s sort of a bore man, not even that good looking.”  another one of them retorted.

Although [Y/N] could feel tears filling her eyes, she could feel anger shooting up her spine.

“Yeah seriously Greg. I mean is she at least a good lay?” The group burst out laughing.

She made her way over to the closed doors of the den where she knew they were situated. Opening the door as loudly as she could announcing her arrival.

“Hey boys!” Her voice chipped coldly. They quickly quieted down, looking amongst themselves.

“Hey babe!” Greg jumped up as quickly as he could. Kissing her on the lips, before ushering her back through the doors.

Behind her, she could hear the quiet whispers, “do you think she heard us?” “How long has she been standing there?”

“Hey [Y/N], what’s up? You know it’s guy’s poker night.” Greg nervously laughed.

Holding up her charger, “I forgot my phone charger.”

So I told him that I never really liked his friends

Now he's gone and he's calling me a bitch again

Forcing herself to smile, she met his eyes. “I don’t like them. Don’t expect me to ever like them.” She said loud enough for the guys in the den to flinch.

Turning on her heel she headed to the door, “goodbye Gregory.”

As the door began to close she could hear the guys hounding, “WHAT A BITCH.”

Pulling out her phone, [Y/N] dialed one of her best friends. “Buck? Can you come pick me up?” Her voice began to crack.

“Text me the address I’ll be there, doll. You okay?”

“No.” A sob ripping through you.

15 minutes later, Bucky’s car rolled up.  Jumping out of the driver’s seat, his arms wrapped [Y/N] in a tight embrace. Tears began to stream down her cheeks. “I’m bad at love, Buck.” She mumbled into his shirt.

There's a guy that lives in a garden state

And he told me that we make it 'til we graduate

It had been a few weeks after ending things with Greg when [Y/N] felt like she needed to move on.

Her best friend, Wanda, set her up on a blind date with one of her coworkers, Brock Rumlow. Wanda didn’t really expect them to go anywhere in terms of relationship, just a palette cleansing date. Getting [Y/N] out of the house, getting her back in the game.

Wanda and Bucky had been there helping her get ready for her date. Bucky couldn’t help but smile at how beautiful she looked with a smile on her face. He grit his teeth at the remembrance of all the crying she had been doing the last couple of weeks.

Wanda couldn’t help but notice Bucky’s tense shoulders when they watched [Y/N] leave for her date. Her two friends were idiots for not seeing each other as possible partners.

Rumlow had been aggressively confident during the date. Ordering [Y/N]’s drinks and food for her.

He seemed to want to dominate every aspect of the date. And every aspect of the next date. And the next. And the next three.

[Y/N] had began to grow tired of his possessive nature. She had only been seeing Rumlow for 3 weeks, when he dropped a bomb on her.

So I told him the music would be worth the wait

But he wants me in the kitchen with a dinner plate

“[Y/N]. I like you. I can definitely see us going somewhere.”

“Well -” She began to argue.

“No. Don’t interrupt me. I can see a future with us. I want you to move into my place. And I want you to stop working, I’ll provide for you. I think you would make the most beautiful housewife.” His eyes bore into hers.

“No.” [Y/N] snapped.

Rumlow’s eyes grew. “I’m not going to uproot my life because that’s what you want, Brock. I am entitled to MY OWN LIFE. I’m not some trophy that you can put on a shelf.”

[Y/N] stood up and stomped away, pulling out her phone she quickly dialed Wanda, “I’m going to be there in 15 minutes.”

Sitting amongst her friends at Wanda’s apartment [Y/N] couldn’t help but groan out loud.

“Not to rub salt in the wound [Y/N], but how could you not tell that that douchebag was an asshole?” Tony asked before taking a long sip from his whiskey.

“Because I’m bad at love, Tony.”

Wanda looked to her right only to find Bucky’s jaw clenched. His eyes were trained on [Y/N]’s puffy eyes.

“You should tell her, you know.” Wanda’s whisper was barely audible to anyone other than the man sitting next to her.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” He sipped his own glass of alcohol.

I believe, I believe, I believe, I believe

That we're meant to be

“You can play ignorant all you want. But I can see it. You guys are meant to be.” Wanda smiled before getting up to walk over to the moping girl.

Bucky seem to have less and less control over his feelings for [Y/N] with every passing day. No, he reminded himself. She had just gone through another break up. He had to give her time to grieve the relationship.

He had to be there for her, as one of her best friends.

But jealousy, jealousy, jealousy, jealousy

Get the best of me

Bucky couldn’t help but reflect on [Y/N]’s current situation. How could any fool think that it was a good idea to leash her to being a housewife? [Y/N] was independent, outspoken, and in love with her job. There was no changing that, Bucky couldn’t help but admire your ambition.

Just thinking about Rumlow shackling her to a stove to cook and clean caused Bucky’s blood to boil.

He hadn’t even noticed his tight grip on his glass, until it broke.

“OMG! Bucky! Are you okay?” Everyone’s attention turn towards him.

From across the room he met Wanda’s eyes. A smug smirk painted on her face.

“Hey Buck?”

“Doll?”

They had been out to brunch a week after the Rumlow incident. [Y/N] had been sulking, and Bucky had to drag her out of her house.

“Why don’t you have a girlfriend? I mean I know you date on and off, but in all of the time that we’ve been friends I don’t ever recall you having a girlfriend.” Bucky froze at her question.

[Y/N] didn’t know why she was asking Bucky this question. Maybe she was tired of dwelling on the fact that she was once again single. But Bucky was one of her best friends, and she never understood how someone as amazing as him could remain single.

Got a girl with California eyes

And I thought that she could really be the one this time

“What about that girl from California? What was her name again…? Madison! What about her? She seemed really into you. What went wrong with her?” [Y/N] inquired.

Madison, Bucky remembered. He had gone on 3 dates with her before introducing her to his friend group. She was blonde, tall, and tan. She was fun, he remembered.

For a while Bucky thought he could have fallen in love with Madison, but something held him back.

But I never got the chance to make her mine

Because she fell in love with little thin white lines

Madison had fallen in love with Bucky almost instantly, but he felt deep in his bones that she was more so in love with the idea of being in love with Bucky.

Plus even when he pushed her blonde hair out of her face, he couldn’t help but imagine [Y/H/C]. When he leaned down to kiss her, he always imagined that [Y/H] was the perfect height and she didn’t quite match it just right. When he caressed her tan skin, he couldn’t help but imagine [Y/S/C] slipping passed his fingers.

“She just wasn’t the perfect match. She was more in love with being in love.” Bucky continued. Looking at [Y/N] as she pondered once more.

London girl with an attitude

We never told no one but we look so cute

She lit up once more when she recalled another perfect partner for Bucky, “what about Elizabeth? The girl from London? Remember? She had those colorful highlights?”

Bucky couldn’t help but chuckle at [Y/N]’s excitement.

“We were kind of cute together right?” He raised his eyebrow.

After Bucky said that, something gross began to bubble in [Y/N]’s stomach.

[Y/N] just couldn’t shake the feeling of uneasiness, the idea of Bucky thinking he’d be cute with another person was too strange.

Both got way better things to do

But I always think about it when I'm riding through

He thought for a moment before speaking, “she was working with the UN, working odd hours. We could never really go on regular dates. We both had other things to do. Plus she had one of those hard ass attitudes.”

“So what? I have a hard ass attitude!” [Y/N] argued.

“Exactly. Do I need ANOTHER hard ass attitude around me all the time, doll?” He joked. [Y/N] couldn’t help but nod in agreement.

Elizabeth had actually pointed something out to him before they broke up. She had noticed that Bucky only seemed to light up when [Y/N] walked into the room. She had noticed that Bucky’s eyes always sought out [Y/N] when he entered a room. She had noticed that [Y/N] had been the first person her texted in the morning and the last person he texted in the night.

“You know what though? I do still talk to Elizabeth actually.” He noticed [Y/N]’s frown, “as friends! What? Are you jealous?”

[Y/N] puffed out her cheeks, “no, who could ever be jealous for someone like you, jerk?!”

She could feel something brush her hand on the table. Looking at it, she realized that Bucky had moved to gently hold her hand.

“I think I don’t have a girlfriend because I don’t say what I need to say when I need to say it. I think I don’t have a girlfriend, because I think I’m bad at love, too.” Bucky looked straight into her eyes.

[notfrancisann]

#30daywritingchallenge

Day 17. Post about your zodiac sign and whether or not it fits you.

🌻 Hi! It's me again! This will be quite long because I'll be pasting here the facts I googled about my zodiac sign. I hope you finish reading this one. So, let's start.

Hi, I was born on April 2. So technically, I am a certified ARIES. ♈🐏

The Aries woman is typically confident, fiery, bold, spontaneous and independent. Very modern and self reliant she is often an inspiration to other women.

Often highly motivated and ambitious this isn't a woman who takes no for an answer, at least not for long! She will typically make a good living, though probably isn't the best at saving the money she makes, instead preferring to enjoy it as it arrives.

Aries is a mixture of fearless warrior and undisciplined child, and this is one of the easiest signs to understand. These are action people, extroverted and assertive. They want to be in charge, the boss, the hunter, the instigator. Uncomplicated, bold, aggressive and impulsive. Sometimes they are selfish, insensitive, domineering, blunt, outspoken and impatient. They're never afraid of taking a risk. Lacking in self control they more than compensate in resilience - this is one tough cookie, who will live life to the fullest.

Source: https://www.compatible-astrology.com/aries-woman.html

>>> So based on the claims above, I can really say that those attributes fits me. Everything that you've read above is really my personality. Well, the way I personally believe.

I can be stubborn at times and take no for an answer. I am fiery and I am really a warrior, myself. I can be an extrovert and introvert at the same time. :))

I also have the bossy aura. I like to do things my way. I want always to take part in every activity that concerns me. I always want to be the one in charge. You could say I have the leadership in me. (Well, that's really true. HAHAHAHA)

Sometimes, I can be selfish too. I am the type of person to save myself first during tough times when it comes to academics. Well, who would want a failing grade anyway? I won't take the fall for my groupmates. LOL. I am really competitive in life in terms of self betterment and development.

And it's true! I'm not the thrifty type of person. I love to spend my money on things I enjoy a lot. Especially books and journals and foods!

Maybe the only thing that I'm certain is that I am really outspoken and opinionated. People close to me can guarantee you that. I am blunt. I make harsh comments. I offend people sometimes with my bluntness and honest criticisms. And I am not the one who's afraid to take the risk.

Aries woman are best lovers too. We're the jowable type. But at the same time, attitude problems. HAHAHAHAHA it takes a lot of patience to deal with us.

I've read somewhere that Aries people are so much alike with people sorted into Gryffindor House in Hogwarts. And I personally agree with that. :))

So, that's it! I am an ARIES. Loud and proud. I hope you get to know me more after reading this.

Love,

Francis

P.S.: The picture attached was a visual representation of an Aries who's irritated and so done with life and everything. Typical attitude selfie of me.

---- Thank you for reading! For more of my writings, please visit my tumblr account. msfrancisann.tumblr.com

[kopfkinoes]

It’s really annoying how there are Sansa fans acting as if they just can’t understand why Missandei was “triggered” by Sansa’s comments because “omg she wasn’t taking a jab at Daenerys she was just saying her and Tyrion wouldn’t work because of Tyrion’s Queen” like, can you stop being so dishonest? You know damn well what she meant to say what’s the purpose of playing dumb? 

We all say Sansa is smart and politically minded but still you cannot realize what she actually means? Last week, during her conversation with Daenerys, people were reading all manner of stuff in the moment she smiles and looks down, that Jon has been lying and manipulating Daenerys all along, that Jon actually loves her (Sansa) and is just using Daenerys for her manpower (and dragonpower). All that from a smile. But you suddenly cannot comprehend what she’s literally talking about. “Courtesy is a lady’s armor”, Sansa was not going to just say “Yeah, Daenerys should suck my dick” and people saying what she said this episode was “mild” as if she had ever been more insulting....she’s literally never been. Sansa is a refined, ladylike woman. She just be like that. So obviously she pretty much never was very outspoken in public (private talks to Jon don’t count, that time she told him not to go to Daenerys is the only time I can think of her being loud like that) and she was never rude at face value. She very rarely says exactly what she thinks in public since “courtesy” is what she’s all about and always had been. 

People are acting as if anybody is demanding that Sansa love Daenerys. Literally nobody does that. Many Daenerys fans thought it would be better if they were friends. That’s not a horrible thing to want. If they cannot be, they cannot be. Not liking her has nothing to do with casually taking a dig at her while she was fighting outside to protect Winterfell and its people. You don’t have to like her but you should recognize she came to help you and maybe stop bringing her up in conversations as a way to remind everybody that nope, you still don’t like her. Nobody forgot. There are Jonsa fans out there saying stuff like “Now the Night King is dead Jon can finally have a personality considering he no longer has to be obsessed with him he can finally man up” like....Sansa’s whole personality this season so far was hating on Daenerys and before that it was Northern Independence. Before that, since the end of season 1, her whole personality was getting out of King’s Landing. Since having an aim means you have no personality, how come you don’t see her as one dimensional too? 

I really, really think this whole shift in Sansa’s personality happened after the season 5 scenes with Ramsay. People were really pissed back then, many saying that Jeyne being raped and abused in the books was “not as bad” as Sansa being raped in the show (consider Ramsay was making Jeyne have sex with dogs as well, in the books, a thing that, to the best of our knowledge, never happened in the show) because “we actually got to see Sansa develop and grow as a woman, unlike Jeyne” which is....entirely gross but ok. People were mad and of course the show writers don’t want this show, which costs a lot of money, to drop in ratings, stop having viewers and stop making money. Which is how this sudden shift in Sansa’s personality happened and a lot of her stans are glad because this is their version of Sansa coming to life. Remember last season the original plot was to have her manipulated by Petyr and have Bran show the truth to her which leads to her executing him. But they changed it because it would undermine Sansa as the smartest person in the room despite Baelish being the man who manipulated the entire Westeros, seven freaking kingdoms, into war, but cool. 

Book Sansa never was, and I’m quite sure never will be, like this. Show Sansa was not like this either and the change in her personality is so sudden and so drastic and I’m sure I’m not the only one who noticed it. Of course everybody wanted the simplistic “Head Bitch in Charge” and “Yas Kween” and I think a lot of what happened with the character has to do with the show runners making her what the fans were demanding left and right. 

Also, I am so freaking sure that if Missandei was not played by a black actress, people on tumblr would be destroying her left and right. I am honestly so certain of that, considering how many of them defended the racist stares of the Northerners as them being unaccustomed to foreigners. But since A LOT of people enjoy pretending they’re the wokest on here, they’ll only say she was “triggered”. This coming from the people calling Daenerys a “problematic” ruler at times. But Northerners being racist isn’t problematic. Missandei had been dealing with stank faces since day one and never said a word, besides, she’s by far one of the smartest characters in this show. She would say more than that if she were truly triggered. 

[jelenedrake]

Ellashan Veslar

I get to play my favorite bard half-elf again and as such, her background story got a re-haul. Posting here because I am a nerd and you all love me anyways. (Art commissioned by the lovely @kiikiibee)

Ellashan Veslar Inspiration Music

Myers-Briggs Type: ENTP Quick, ingenious, stimulating, alert, and outspoken. Resourceful in solving new and challenging problems. Adept at generating conceptual possibilities and then analyzing them strategically. Good at reading other people. Bored by routine, will seldom do the same thing the same way, apt to turn to one new interest after another.

Ellashan is curiosity personified. Something dark, dangerous, and scary? She has to take notes in case it’s a new species. She doesn’t rest until her interest has been satisfied.

Knowledge is meant to be discovered and shared. No matter how dangerous (it belongs in a museum!)

Main inspiration for this character: Evie from The Mummy. Will read from The Book of the Dead, save her idiot brother, and throw sass at whoever deserves it. Goes from the uptight librarian to bad ass heroine at the end of the day.

Ellashan wears a rather simple throng necklace. It’s a simple looking crystal that glows in the moonlight. ((Gem of Brightness/Trinket Combined))

Life Moments:

Ellashan’s childhood was not an easy one. Her mother died when she was very young. She doesn’t remember much about her mother. Only that she had a kind smile. Her relationship with her father was much more strained. Allorn’s level of affection for Ellashan would best be described as dismissive. Her own accomplishments being “good enough for a half-breed, I suppose”. Outwardly, he doted on her and spared no expense towards her ‘refinement’. His indulgences in her education was mostly to keep her out of his hair. The value of her existence was priced soley by what benefit she was to him.

As she got older, Allorn didn’t take kindly to Ellashan’s growing defiance and independence. She was… noticable now. He couldn’t ignore the fact that she had started running around with her half-brother. Despite being the elder of Allorn’s children, Octavius wasn’t around much as Ellashan was growing up. Their father would like to pretend that Octavius doesn’t exist but every once and awhile Allorn would have to “deal” with Octavius’ latest indiscretions. Her older brother was constantly in trouble with the authorities or dealing with the fallout of Octavius latest shenanigans. Ella adores her brother, one of her proudest acts of teenage rebellion was seeking out her half-brother. He is wild and exciting, everything that Ellashan was not. It was Octavius that showed Ella how to use her rapier and other unladylike activities. He offered to help Ella sever ties with Allorn once and for all, “We could see the world and live our lives without him, El. We don’t need him.” Ultimately, Ellashan’s insecurity kept her from taking him up on it. Though the offer still stands. Ellashan owes Tavi so much, for being one of the first people to show her true affection. Thankfully, Tavi is always getting into trouble so she will have plenty of opportunities to pay him back.

To get her away from her brother, Allorn sent Ellashan away to study at The Halls of Ivy. Even though it was a punishment, it wouldn’t do to send her anywhere less prestigious. His reputation may have been at stake, after all. Ella threw herself into her studies, reading anything that she could get her hands on. It was here that Ellashan finally felt like herself. Her father was far enough away that she didn’t feel the weight of his crushing disappointment and she was free to be as “embarrassing” (his term for her excitable nature) without fear of retribution. She missed her brother greatly, but she made new friends quickly. Her affable nature meaning she was well liked despite any conversational missteps.

Ellashan was a frequent visitor to the Grand Repository at The Halls of Ivy. Of course, the more dangerous and possibly forbidden the text was, the more interested Ellashan was. It was here that she met Paladain Initiate Kydius Etan. The Archivists quickly determined that she needed supervision or she might wander off with something from the Deep Archives absentmindedly. Kydius Eitan was short tempered and rude at first about his “assignment”, but Ellashan’s persistent optimism and enthusiasm eventually won him over. He might have grumbled and made noises like he had better things to do, but he came to look forward to her visits. She was drawn to him at first, just taking advantage of the time he was there with her. Then she started making up excuses to visit the Repository whenever she could. Eventually, she was coming to the library just to visit him. While their relationship never progressed to anything more substantial, it was not for a lack of disinterest. Their closeness led to him being a bit more lenient than maybe he should have been. In the end, he had a hard time telling Ellashan no. Which may have been his downfall.  

During one of her forays into the one of the older sections of the library. Ellashan uncovered a mysterious tome. A large ancient black leather bound tome with an intricate crystal embedded on the cover. The language was written in a curious and tangled script that made her head ache to look upon. She couldn’t wait to share it with Kydius. He had his reservations about her reading it, but ultimately did nothing to stop her. In yet another forgotten corner of the library, she poured over the tome while he looked on, as he always did. It wasn’t until she was midway through reading a passage that Kydius realized that she had been speaking in the same tongue as the Chaos. Suddenly fearful for her safety, he rushed forward to stop Ella from reading further. It was too late. Whatever dark knowledge laid within the tome had a hold on her and she kept reading. Energy twisted and dark tendrils reached out for her from the book so he did the only thing he could think to: lift the book from her grasp and flung it away. The curse she had twisted lashed out at Kydius and there was a loud shattering of reality. When the dust cleared the book... and Kydius were gone.

There was an investigation, of course, the Grand Masters at The Halls of Ivy wanted to know what happened to Kydius. Unfortunately, there was no book and no trace of what happened to him. The only thing they found was a shard of the crystal. No one could determine its make or origin nor was anyone able to find any record of a tome of Ellashan’s description. Not even the most senior of magic users have been able to use divination or scrying magics that have been able to reach Kydius. Most have written her protestations that he isn’t dead as some sort of post-traumatic denial. While she was never charged with anything in regards to The Incident, Ellashan was still seen as responsible for Kydius’ disappearance by most. They believe him dead and gone and have given up. Ellashan has not and has devoted the rest of her time at the Ivy Halls to studying the various planes of existence and how they overlap and affect the Prime Material. She will find a way to find out what happened to him and clear her name.

This latest scandal was the straw that broke the camel’s as far as her father was concerned. He aided her how he could, because it was expected of him. Allorn had no way of “making good on his investment now” as any marriage prospects he might have been attempting to arrange for her quickly dried up when it became known that his daughter was dabbling in dark magics that caused a man to disappear.  Allorn severed all ties with Ella and left her bereft of his money and connections. With the Halls of Ivy no long the friendliest of places, she was tolerated at best. Ellashan leapt at the chance to volunteer for the King’s mission. The Halls of Ivy were able to say they were sending a “promising researcher” to the cause and the King didn’t care who she was as long as she fulfilled her duty. She was eager and willing to be sent to the ass end of the Borderlands for half a chance to restore her reputation.

Goals

Character Goal: To prove to others (but mostly herself), that she can accomplish great things. While her quest for knowledge is a passion, ultimately, she wants to do something with it and if not clear her name, then be remembered for something good and not for the mistakes she has made.

Personal Goal: I want Ellashan to grow more confident and assertive. That all her father’s “good enough for a half-breed” epitaphs aren’t true.

Secrets

Known: While everyone knows she is responsible for Kydius’ disappearance. Ellashan has seen proof that he is alive. Or least she think she has. She had managed to convince the tribunal to let her keep the crystal remnant found after his disappearance. It was the first full moon after his disappearance and she awoke to the crystal emitting a nearly blinding bright light. When she reached out and touched the crystal (because of course she would), in her mind she heard with ringing clarity Kydius’ voice calling out to her. Ellashan has now taken to wearing the crystal as a necklace as a way of keeping him close. She suspects that he has somehow been bound within the crystal. Though her research hasn’t uncovered anything even vaguely similar to the book or the crystal she found she found nor is she any closer to discovering a way to undo it. It has been nearly a year now, she still hopes that she will figure out a way to bring him back. ((Of course, it might not actually be him calling out to her. It might be whatever has been bound to the crystal is using his voice, but Ellashan is 100% convinced it is him))

Unknown: Octavius may not be Ellashan’s only sibling. He is just the only one she knows, but her father has been alive a long time and it is possible that she has even older siblings that may wish to meet her. She also doesn’t know if Octavius knows of what happened to her in Galria

Bonds

(Hostile) Father: Allorn Veslar, High Elf.

Allorn is a shrewd and well to do businessman that always has his eye on his next acquisition. Allorn is the type of man that views his family as commodities and assets to expend. He expects to have the ability to dictate all aspects of their life. Part of his “business model” is marrying wealthy human women and then outliving them as a means to increase his own capital. He has done this countless times, though legitimate children were rare as he tends to target weak, older vulnerable women. To him, humans are weak, stupid short lived creatures. He hates living with humans, but Allorn was not well liked in elvish society, so he moved to [nearby human kingdom] and has made his way here because he has no other choice. He lords himself over humans with this false sense of his own superiority. Even if he could go back to his homeland, he wouldn’t go back with his half-breed daughter in tow. It would be too shameful in his eyes. People don’t seem to hold elves in high regard and it is hard to blame them if their only example is someone like Allorn.

(Friendly) Half-Brother: Octavius Uriah Montgomery Drutherford III aka “Tavi” Half-Elf.

The man of many names, he was born with only one of them. Self-styled international man of mystery. With a flair for the dramatic and wit as sharp as his blade, Octavius is short, slender, and exceptionally well-groomed. He wears spotless clothes and carries a rapier with a hilt of white ivory . Octavius’s talent with his blade is matched only by his prissiness about his appearance; Partnered with people who can put up with his quirks, Octavius will quickly prove himself to be a valuable, and fearless, ally. He knows a surprising amount about wilderness survival and monster lore for someone who hates to get mud on his best traveling cloak. He loves adventure and if he isn’t in trouble already, chances are it is only because he hasn’t been caught yet.

(Friendly/Possibly Hostile Now?) Friend: Kydius Etan. Tiefling.

“Oh, you have… fangs. That’s...ah fascinating. Oh, gods, I’m sorry! That was terribly rude of me, but I’ve never met a tiefling before!” Ellashan’s blurted exclamation shocked Kydius into laughter. Kydius was a young paladin initiate that Ellashan encountered during her days studying at university. A fledgling martial servant of the God of Knowledge, Kydius and other initiates were called to serve as guards at Grand Repository to keep order, prevent theft, and keep watch over the more dangerous texts housed there. Kydius is a dour and serious young man that hides a gentle demeanor. Ellashan found him captivating, still waters running deep and all that.

Other Potential Hostiles:

Anyone that might hold her responsible or that might be a bit raw about Kydius’ disappearance. Her involvement is well known and that notoriety and public nature of this mission might cause complications.  

Personal

Memory: Ellashan remembers quite clearly and with great detail, every time her father said how much of a shame it was that she wasn’t a full elf. He says that she could have been really something if she didn’t have human blood weighing her down.  “Humans will think you beautiful and charming because they don’t know any better. Had they met a real elf, like myself, they would quickly see what a pale substitution you are.”

Mannerism: Highly excitable, with a tendency to not filter her own thoughts. This tendency to speak first and then deal with the consequences goes hand and hand with her curiosity.

Quirk: Ellashan is easily distracted by the promise of the new or interesting. Her insatiable curiosity has gotten her into trouble on more than one occasion. Of all the people you would want noticing a secret, Ellashan would be last on the list because she WILL notice and then it won’t be a secret anymore.