#maybe I'll rb this and add more to it once that shyness leaves me system and I feel like rambling again xP

[nightthinker-08]

Wish Ragatha being a people-pleaser and maybe unknowingly act a little passive aggressive is explored more in the fandom.

then again, thats my own personal HC, so maybe I should do that exploring lol

There's just something interesting to me to see a character that is very emotionally open but very emotionally distant as well. Like "Oh, sure, you can open up and I won't judge, but you won't ever know anything about MY emotions" kind of situation? And she WANTS people to open up to her, but then she herself cuts people off from getting too close to her.

I think it's both because she doesn't want people to worry and because she doesn't want to acknowledge that she has negative feelings either. Like admitting its there opens her up to a weakness she CAN NOT AFFORD-

Is she the pillar of the group? Yes absolutely! But did she ever WANT to be? She is the 2nd longest person there, and she probably feels very responsible for everyone's wellbeing because of that. She HAS to be the one who guides people, because literally no one else is capable. (It would be interesting if Kinger was like that to her before he was crazy.) It probably frustrates the living hell out of her that she's put in that spot, but what can she do?

The worst part is that she does this so much and so often that it practically "default" in everyone's mind that Ragatha is ALWAYS going to be there—so much so that they don't appreciate her as much as they should, if at all. And she probably wants at least that. For someone to see her hard work and say thank you, but everyone is so fukin jaded already.

That's why maybe Pomni can be a breath of fresh air for her, you know?

(kind of gay thoughts, but it can be platonic.)

Don't get me wrong, Pomni is a fukin mess, but at least she doesn't know the default roles of the group. So she would notice things much faster than anyone else because she's new. And for Ragatha, finally having someone see her is, well… it would probably lead to a lot of confusing emotions swirling inside her lol

I have more thoughts on this, but blegh- this is too long already, and I'm getting shy again. lol so yeh thanks for listening to my Ted talk xP