#mathamota's musings

[mathamota]

My sister wanted to see how tall she's grown while I was abroad for studies. She got super excited when she realized that she reaches my heart now.

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An apple a day, keeps the doctor away. An apple a day, you'll die anyway.

My sister's reason to not eat apples.

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Post one favourite from 10 fandoms and tag ten people. Thanks for tagging me @fxck-off-komaeda! Griffith - Berserk Saitama - One Punch Man Mello - Death Note Thumbelina - Thumbelina (the Don Bluth one) Julia Ogden - Murdoch Mysteries River Song - Doctor Who Decim - Death Parade Yato - Noragami Lucifer - The Devil Is a Part-Timer Dean Winchester - Supernatural @thebuttercupprincess & @youresostrongandquiet, I can't really think of anyone else to tag but if you ant to do it feel free to consider yourself tagged :)

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My trash can of a blog turned two today 😊

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I checked out the haphephobia tag and now I'm mad

I’ve known about my haphephobia for a while now. I’m one of those individuals who developed it without any reason and it has been getting stronger and noticeable as I’m getting older.

But my haphephobia is sort of controllable, so only people I can’t stand have to leave me alone, including some of my family members, people I dislike and strangers. My only reaction to unwanted touch is consciously or subconsciously wipe the spot as if I’m just wiping or scratching some dirt away from my body. Excessive amounts do drain me out of all my energy and at times might fuel depression in me but I don’t think these are as bad as many things other haphephobics go through.

Despite being able to hide it most of the time, my haphephobia has still been obvious enough to piss people off. Like my mother. She's understanding (which is why I let it slide) but sometimes she decides it’s alright for her to touch me to “cure” me. When, no, it’s not. I didn’t sign up for any exposure therapy, I wasn’t ready for the touch, and the magic of motherhood is a myth.

My ability to be rather sneaky with my reactions works only because it’s I LEARNT TO CONTROL IT BEFORE IT GOT OUT OF HANDS. Now just imagine if despite having everything I manage to get severely depressed and wash my hands almost obsessively then how bad it could be for people with inborn haphephobia or people who just can't control it. So if I’m having things bad then how do you think others have it?

Do people really think haphephobics are using damn telekinetic powers to cause skin reddening for instance? Like what the f are people thinking when they decide to bully haphephobics by touching them in anyway or by questioning their “choices”. Because, of course man, I chose it. I chose not to be able to hug my parents, I chose not to be able to sit next to my sister. I chose to stand like a limp noodle when my friend hugged me after a long vacation.

All of those little shits who think that haphephobia or any other phobia is something we can cure easily only if we want to can go and get some treatment themselves for their arrogance.

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This is one of those first world problem moments. Dad's coming today and he was allowed 30kgs of stuff. Since I can finally buy my own food I'd asked mom to pack all my books. But ofc she didn't do it. Now she's packed 30kgs of food. It's great, I'm grateful but seriously. I would've rather starved to death and gotten all my books than gotten all that frozen food.

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I just saw someone selling a thumbelina cosplay costume as a Disney product -.-

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Can we pls normalize super hairy girls?

I'm tired of torturing my skin

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Messy is my second name

My life: messy

My place: messier

My appearance: the messiest

My bag: even more messy

My wallet: even more messier

My mind: the most messiest

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I knew water's heavy. But I had no idea that one liter can do so much difference. Like I haul up this mega bottle of 10 liters all the way to my apartment on the fourth floor without a break, but when I try to do the same with 11 liter one I'm dead. Like I stop 5-6 times and by the time I am inside my apartment I'm totally out of breath.

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Snuggle shirt

Otabek: *Wearing an oversized shirt gifted by Yurio* Why is there an extra hole on the front and two on the sides?

Yurio: *Takes own shirt off* *Goes under Otabek's shirt, slipping head out of the front hole and arms from the side ones*

Otabek: ...?

Yurio: *Standing his back against Otabek* It's a snuggle shirt.

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Victor: So a snuggle shirt, eh?

Yuri: *Tiptoes to kiss Victor*

Victor: Maybe we should take it to the bed?

Yuri: *Tries to move instead falls down dragging Victor along* *Can't get up anymore*

*

Yuri: No, you've got to stand facing Otabek.

Yurio: Figured so.

Yuri: ...

Yurio: And you've got to be lifted up by Victor to move.

Yuri: Learned the hard way.

Yurio: ...

[mathamota]

My nail broke. Nothing surprising, since I’ve been growing them for quite sometime. But the nail broke from the middle. I can’t rip it because pain, blood and gore. But I can’t keep it the way it is either because it’s just frickin’ annoying me to no end. Now I’m trying to keep it protected with terrible amount of nail polish layers.

[mathamota]

Anything you say can and will be used to fuel conversations about myself, because I'm just too full of myself and can't help it.

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200 Followers!!

Thanks guys for following my crappy blog and liking the stuff I post/reblog. I know that 200+ followers isn't much but I've been here for quite some time already, so it feels like a great achievement. I'd really love to do something for you guys, but I've got no idea what since my blog is such a mess of different things (and there's more to come). Idk, suggest me anything but giveaways (I'm still trying to learn the postal system here).

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My autocorrect turned a normal word into Judeau and I was so happy I could die. Cause usually it's the other way and it tends to get frustrating to first stop the damn autocorrect a thousand times and then finally write the character's name. Plus among the good guys, Judeau is my favourite.

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Does anyone have any idea about Griffith's past?

I haven't started reading the manga yet, so I don't know at all what happens after the eclipse. Thanks to s1 I know about both Guts and Casca's past. But I was wondering if Griffith's ever been shown??