#man that last note is a mess lol sorry but it's late and i'm tired

[redrocx]

«Mutter» English Translation

Artist: Rammstein

Album: Mutter

Year: 2001

Requested by: Twitter poll

«Mutter»

[original lyrics]

Die Tränen greiser Kinderschar Ich zieh sie auf ein weißes Haar Werf in die Luft die nasse Kette Und wünsch mir, dass ich eine Mutter hätte Keine Sonne die mir scheint Keine Brust hat Milch geweint In meiner Kehle steckt ein Schlauch Hab keinen Nabel auf dem Bauch

Mutter, Mutter Mutter, Mutter

Ich durfte keine Nippel lecken Und keine Falte zum Verstecken Niemand gab mir einen Namen Gezeugt in Hast und ohne Samen Der Mutter die mich nie geboren Hab ich heute Nacht geschworen Ich werd ihr eine Krankheit schenken Und sie danach im Fluss versenken

Mutter, Mutter Mutter, Mutter Mutter, Mutter Mutter, Mutter

In ihren Lungen wohnt ein Aal Auf meiner Stirn ein Muttermal Entferne es mit Messers Kuss Auch wenn ich daran sterben muss

Mutter, Mutter Mutter, Mutter

In ihren Lungen wohnt ein Aal Auf meiner Stirn ein Muttermal Entferne es mit Messers Kuss Auch wenn ich verbluten muss

Mutter, Mutter Oh gib mir Kraft Mutter, Mutter Oh gib mir Kraft Mutter, Mutter Oh gib mir Kraft Mutter, Mutter Oh gib mir Kraft

«Mother»

[English translation]

The tears of a geriatric group of children I bead them on a white strand of hair1 Throw the wet chain2 into the air And wish I had a mother No sun that shines for me No breast has wept milk There’s a tube inserted in my throat I don’t have a navel on my belly

Mother, mother Mother, mother

I wasn’t allowed3 to lick any nipples There was no wrinkle I could hide in Nobody gave me a name4 Conceived in haste and without sperm To the mother that never gave birth to me I swore tonight I’ll give her a disease And will drown her in the river afterwards

Mother, mother Mother, mother Mother, mother Mother, mother

In her lungs there lives an eel5 On my forehead there’s a birthmark6 Remove it with the kiss of a knife7 Even if I’ll die from it8

Mother, mother Mother, mother

In her lungs there lives an eel On my forehead there’s a birthmark Remove it with the kiss of a knife Even if I’ll bleed out

Mother, mother O give me strength Mother, mother O give me strength Mother, mother O give me strength Mother, mother O give me strength

[Additional Notes]

1 I wasn’t sure whether you usually use the word “hair” in English when you only mean one single piece of hair, so I added the word “strand” to make it more clear that he’s talking about a single strand

2“chain” (Kette) refers to the bead he’s been beading; though “Kette” can mean a variety of things, such as necklace or chain, so I went for chain since “bead chain” is also a thing that exists. It’s technically a necklace he's talking about lol chain just fit the ambiguity of the German word a bit better~

3“Ich durfte [nicht]” can both indicate that you’re not allowed to do something, or not able to do it. I chose the word “allowed” because the lyrics gives off the feeling that the narrator was “prevented” from doing all these things, aka be a normal infant by forces beyond their control.

4 The song can both be an interpretation of the motherless person either being a clone or a reference to Frankenstein’s monster. Especially with the narrative of Frankenstein’s monster this line makes a lot of sense, since the monster doesn’t have a name either. 5 I gotta be honest with you, I have no clue what Till is referring to here. It may be some sort of disease (like the disease the narrator said they’d give the non-existent mother), or the idea that after they’d drowned the mother in the river, an eel would enter her body/corpse. Or maybe it’s a paraphrase for something else entirely, I let you guys decide for yourselves what Till means by that line! 6Just a nice-to-know thing, birthmark/mole in German has different words, one of them being “Muttermal”, which is a compound of “Mutter” (mother), and “Mal” (mark). I thought it’d be fun to mention that Till specificially chose that word for it, since it contains the word “mother” again.

7 Till uses the word “Messer”, which means knife, but I think in English it’d be more natural to use the word blade. But yeah, it’s basically the same idea.

8 This part was kinda tricky for me lol. The idea behind “auch wenn ich sterben muss” is basically “even if I have to die/must die”. So it could be understood as a consequence of the narrator’s previous actions (cutting the mole out), and something that happens because of what they did before. “Müssen” showcasts a sense of urgency and inevitability. Though that same inevitability could very well just be described by a conditional phrase, “If I do x, then y will happen.” I guess you could say that “auch wenn ich sterben muss” in German weighs heavier with the idea of “even if I HAVE TO die” in mind as opposed to “I will die”. That being said, while I didn’t really know which one to pick, and kinda like the urgency with the first possibility a bit more, the second one just sounds a lot more natural in English; hence, why I went with that option.

[moonlayl]

I'm curious, what did you wish was different about Daisy and Lincoln's storyline? (that you mentioned in the tag game)

Oh did you just mean you wished Lincoln hadn't died? lol sorry its really late here and I'm tired😂 😅 Same with Philinda? Or was it something else?

(NOTE: this will criticize s3, staticquake, lincoln, and philinda, Even though I do not hate the character or the ships at all, I just wish they were given more development and that some things were differen. I love the characters and the ships though andw think they deserved better)

Okay so no, it's not that I wished Lincoln didn't die, it's just that I wish their romantic relationship was handled differently, and I wish Lincoln's character was as well.

I really loved their friendship and dynamic in s2, and I won't lie, I found myself shipping them. In s2, it actually made sense for them to eventually develop a romantic relationship. and they were cute.

But then in s3, they really weren't given enough focus properly (even though they should've been because she's the main character and it should be the main romantic relationship...) And there's the whole 'shield is apparently right'. Jiaying and the inhumans were completely right in s2 and even Daisy 100% saw that. But Jiaying had to be the villain and shield had to be the good guy so they made her 'evil'. And the inhumans lost their safe place and their lives, and now even more inhumans started popping up, ones who didn't know how to control their powers.

At the end of season 2, we're told that shield is going to help inhumans and Daisy will be in charge of the project. This isn't long after Raina said that Daisy was the one who would lead the inhumans.

the aos writers completely messed this up, and it really affected any possible relationship between Daisy and Lincoln from being a truly good one that could last long-term.

Of all the inhumans that appeared in s3, they either joined shield as agents, or they died. Joey eventually stopped with shield but we never heard from him again.

LINCOLN, was made to join shield, even though he did not want to at all. I know there was crap going on with Lash and the ATCU and all, but the ending of s2 and the chemistry between staticquake made me think that while shield was help out with inhumans, a new type of afterlife would be built to try to help inhumans and reintegrate them into society. Daisy would be the leader of it and Lincoln by her side doing what he does best. He's a doctor who specializes in inhumans. He would help them like he helped Daisy. Something he was content with in s2. A new afterlife didn't even need to happen. We just needed Daisy and Lincoln on the same side, and to agree. Something that literally did not happen throughout their entire relationship.

Look it makes sense for him to want nothing to do with any of it after what happened in s2, but after he literally joins shield for protection, THAT's when he should've gotten more involved.

Instead we get "maybe an inhuman cure that would erase who they were is good." Daisy, after finally accepting who she is, and after having to deal with her whole team acting like working with the atcu that literally locks up inhumans like animals is a-okay, now has to deal with the fucking guy who was all 'it's not a curse, it's a gift' say THAT. And she's the one made to apologize for it.

Her saying (paraphrased) "just because you went to med school doesn't mean someone like me can't have an opinion about human rights" wasn't isn't even an insult at all, and yet his reply is to basically undermine her entire traumatic and unstable childhood. "At least I didn't hack my way through life" what the hell man. That was so uncalled for. And it had nothing to do with the situation. It was literally changing the subject in the worse way possible. Like, it makes it sound as if Daisy never actually accomplished anything? and again, he DIDN'T APOLOGIZE. SHE DID. SHE went to him and apologized. I'd chalk it up to 'a moment's anger' but that only works if you apologize for it.

and then the rest of their relationship is Lincoln not wanting to be with shield, which yeah I completely understand, but Daisy is a shield agent. No way would their rl last long term because they want complete different things from life. And clearly the writers were never going to actually make her lead inhumans. I guess being the leader of a four-person team for one episode is what they meant.

Then we get the hive incident, and Lincoln being obsessive, and when Daisy gets back, he doesn't even visit her, and then: Death.

yeah, they definitely needed better storylines in s3. I don't want to say it was 'rushed' because that's not the right term, but also there was so much antagonism between Daisy and Lincoln due to Lincoln wanting NOTHING to do with her in the beginning of the season and them suddenly kissing and then like a few days later the crap with Hive happening, and Lincoln hinting at taking a a break and eventually Lincoln dying without their relationship getting any kind of resolution or closure, that their relationship felt doomed from the start. I went from happily shipping them in s2 and wanting more of them, to waiting for them to break up and remain friends throughout s3. And then he died so that was that. I guess killing him off was easier for the writers because they could use the angst and Daisy leaving shield for s4.

I guess the bottom line is that 1) I wish Daisy had had a boyfriend who was more supportive, especially right after hive. Lincoln of s2 would've been, 100%, but the writers wanted him to be edgyier. Because I guess edgy and pained white men is what they think makes a better rl (look at fitzsimmons). 2) I wish we'd gotten Lincoln and Daisy actually actively looking out for and helping inhumans together. Didn't Lincoln like literally try to kill a few other inhumans? I know with Lash it was because he'd killed his friends, and with the other inhuman girl it was to find Daisy, but we varely even saw Lincoln interact with other inhumans except for Joey and Yoyo, and that episode ended with all of them fighting.

Like imagine if we'd gotten a few scenes of Lincoln helping out Joey or Yoyo (like he did with Skye, teaching them not to fear their gift) and then scenes of Daisy teaching them how to control. We literally got a scene in s5 of Simmons teaching a young girl how to use her gift, but nothing like that with Daisy? really? Joey just gets training off screen and he ends up barely interacting with Daisy outside of the first episode, and Elena already mastered her powers when she appears. And they screw up her friendship with Elena eventually. Like, inhumans loving and supporting each other in the show happened SO rarely, and it could've been something that Daisy and Lincoln created instead. a safe place for inhumans and them actively challenging the atcu.

With Philinda, Maybe during s2 it would've worked to start showing us that they were into each other, but then they brought in Andrew and Rosalind. Bringing in Andrew wouldn't have been a problem since they were divorced, but then we got the whole 'May wants to get back with him" which I was all on board for, but like with staticquake, that was destroyed in s3. Not only was May x Andrew doomed that season, but Coulson also found another love and both May and Coulson lost someone they loved and at that point, there was too much drama for me to get into it. It doesn't help that we don't get a clear idea of just when Coulson apparently decided he really likes May that way. In s4, he kisses her robot which I was not expecting that conversation at all. And it was gross. Then in s5, we get May loving Coulson back, but only after we find out Coulson is dying.

Philinda could've worked and been great if it had had more development in the earlier seasons, but aos writers decided making them get together right before Coulson would die was better instead. So yeah, I would've shipped them and cared more about their relationship if they had had different storylines. (don't even get me started on Sarge, and LMD coulson)

sorry this got so long and I got carried away with other points outside of the ships lol. I'm pretty sure everything I said was controversial. 😅😅😅

[nad-zeta]

Hi, hi! I'm not following you for long, but I already love here! ♡ Can I ask a HC? Suddenly, I've been thinking about Yukimura, Ieyasu and Mitsunari, more specifically their lack of experience with women. I believe they've never been with a woman before MC, because of reasons (two tsunderes and too focused on work, respectively). So I'd like to ask for their first time with MC, if that's ok. Maybe forget they did it in their route? Sorry if I wasn't very clear, English is not my native language♡

Hehehe, thank you so much for the request, love! I could feel myself blushing the entire time while writing this lolz. I had to ask my brother what it’s like for a boy’s first time, so yeah, that was a strange conversation. Anyways here you go love, I hope you enjoy it!

It’s noting to NSFW but lolz I don’t know, I guess I would rate this read at own discretion lol PG13 

First Time HC with Yukimura, Mitsunari, Ieyasu 

Yukimura

So its no secret this boy has like 0 woman communication skill, he has basically spent most of his life training and fighting battles

But that all changed when he met you

You were the first woman he has ever been in a relationship with or even loved for that matter

Your relationship with this boy officially started when he kissed you on new years eve while the fireworks were going off

That was the first time he had ever kissed well anyone in his life, and after he thought darn why haven’t I done this before its great.

The two of you were starting to get really serious and you have been dropping hints like mad to take your relationship to the next level.

Yukimura knew you were dropping hints and during you intimate cuddle sessions he would always look for an excuse to delay doing THAT

Lol it was time to get some expert advice

He went to Shingen bright red, and before even opening his mouth, Shingen knew what was up

“So my little boy has finally decided to become a man, I’m so proud” Shingen said as he used his hand towel to dab the fake tears in the corner of his eyes

“I knew this was a bad idea,” before Yuki could leave Shingen grabbed his shoulder and sat him down

By the time Shingen was done with his explanation this poor boy was so red, and he felt like he was going to melt in a puddle of embarrassment

He left Shigens room in a daze, Sasuke saw his friend and instantly knew what had just gone down.

It was now Sasuke’s turn to impart knowledge, halfway through the explanation Kenshin walked into the room. Lol even he had some words of advice for Yuki. “Wait, but I thought you hated women.” To that Kenshin simply rolled his eyes and left giving one last final piece of advice

Today was the day, Yuki was 100% determined

The two of you are laying together in bed as you’ve done a 100 times before

Yukimura is overwhelmed with the overload of the advice and you can definitely tell something is up

You peer into his eyes asking him what is wrong

He covers his face with a pillow muttering into it that it’s his first time and he is a bit nervous

You take the pillow off his face and gaze into his amber eyes reassuring him, you now were also a blushy mess cause it was your first time too

Yuki immediately propped himself up on one arm and looked at you a little shook, “wait, really.” “yeah dummy so let’s figure this out of together okay”

He smiled and nodded

There was a lot of fumbling and awkwardness at first and both of your faces were red AF

In the beginning, there was lots of laughing at how nervous both of you were

Yuki kissed and touched you softly, loving and unhurried.

Each touch was tender and warm

As nervous as the two of you were, you wanted to take your time and make the experience last, taking your time exploring, touching and loving one another

Yukimura moves slow and lovingly, making sure you are comfortable and okay the whole time

His face will be close to you’re the whole time, either resting his forehead on your or kissing you, cause it is his first time he wants to take in your beautiful face and perfect body. 

He honestly can’t help but get lost in your beautiful eyes

This boy worships your body thanx to all daddy Shingen’s advice

Loves your soft moans, it definitely gives him the confidence he needs to keep going

The whole affair is very awkward, loving and gentle

Once he has reached his orgasm, he will keep going until you reach yours, Shingen didn’t raise no selfish boy

When both of you are tired and spent from the hours of lovemaking, he will clean you up and give you some tea or water. Will cuddle and snuggle the shit out of you whispering how much he loves you (Thanks to Kenshin’s softie boy advice). Watches you fall asleep while stroking your hair. Will fall asleep while hugging think about just how much he adores you

Mitsunari

The two of you have been together now for quite some time

Mitsunari has definitely been feeling an unknown feeling lately when the two of you are cuddling together

The poor little angel is so confused about what is going on with his body

Will go talk to Hideyoshi about it, and Hideyoshi will basically give him a crash course about everything he would need to know. 

Mitsunari still feels like there is more to be learned on this subject at hand

And what does Mitsunari do when he knows limited knowledge about a subject, jip research

Basically becomes a sex scholar now, he will learn everything and anything he can, even consulting some of his warlord friends

When the two of you are cuddling while reading together as you’ve done many nights before, he can’t help but start kissing your soft skin

He looks all cool and calm on the outside, but this boy be nervous

You look up into his Amathist eyes and see something you haven’t yet seen, desire.

This ain’t your first rodeo, and you have been waiting for the moment that Mitsunari would want to get a bit more intimate.

Mitsunari confessed to you that it was his first time, you reassure him by telling him, you will teach him everything you know

He starts by running his fingertips along your body, just savoring the the feeling of your soft skin

Mitsunari wants to take his time getting to know your body and finding all those spots that would bring you immense pleasure

He will kiss every inch of your body until his lips feel numb

He wants you to convey just how much he loves you through the gentle touches and kisses

Will spend most of his time pleasuring you, he has discovered that he LOVES eating you out!

Who knew this angel could be so naughty

This boy has discovered the art of teasing, will find each of your sweet spots and exploit them

He wants to feel you shiver beneath him, he loves you so much and wants to know that you want him as much as he wants you

This angel boy will legit give you his most innocent angelic smile while teasing the shit out of you- seems like he consulted with Mitsuhide

His actions are slow, soft, gentle and teasing

He is making love instead of merely just having sex

Will whisper the sweetest things in your ears the whole time

Will give you constant compliments, as well as ask you if you would like him to do anything, he will follow each one of your instructions to a T

Will gently clean you up afterward, he is really attentive and super sweet afterward, He just wants to love and hold you.  Angel boy will be pressing soft kisses into your hair, while spooning you from behind. He might even read you a sweet story to lull you into sweet dreams

Ieyasu

This tsundere boy has never found anyone who could love his fluffy contrary ways, until he met you

Gosh he loves you so so much

One day you went to his palace to visit him, the two of you had been in a relationship for a super long time now.

You guys were just chilling and having tea when all of a sudden it started raining

It was getting pretty late, and as the day progressed it seemed to get colder

Ieyasu went to light the fireplace and sat next to you wrapping a warm blankie around the two of you

Honestly, he has wanted to go down on you and is constantly desiring you, he is just super good at hiding it but now thanks to the rain, the mood and atmosphere was perfect

He doesn’t waste a moment he immediately reaches for you and starts kissing you softly, slowly moving down your neck

He picks you up and gently put you down on his futon, he is looking at you questioningly, you nod and give him the go-ahead.

The rain creates the perfect dim lighting

He hovers over you for a few moments just taking in your pure beauty

He will take his time enjoying the feeling of your soft skin under his calloused palms

Ieyasu is a fast learner even though it is his first time he will gently kiss and touch you all over finding all those little spots that makes you moan and scream out his name.

 After a while, he will know exactly which spot to nibble or touch to make you shudder

This boy loves kisses and will legit kiss every inch of your beautifully soft skin, he might just leave a few love bites in its wake

He will move slow, soft and lovingly, every kiss and touch will be gentle and feather-light  telling you exactly just how much he loves you and how much you mean to him

The boy is very vocal

Every moment is filled with sweet whispers, of him telling you how breathtaking you are, how much he loves you and how perfect you are

Softi boy will make sure both of you are completely satisfied

He loves touching your face and staring into your beautiful eyes

Afterward, he will clean you up and spoon you from behind, while drawing soft circles on your bare skin for hours. You are the only one he will show weakness to. He will whisper to you afterward that you were actually his first, poor boy will be blushing the whole time. Aftercare with Ieyasu will consist of the sweetest softest snuggles, soft words, and sweet endearments

I hope ya enjoyed it, love! ❤❤🔥🥰

[baromaiden]

A Day Too Late

Jungkook is a shy 18 year old who has a major crush on his childhood friend and classmate Kim Namjoon. Because of a series of unfortunate events the two aren't close anymore. However the possibility of change is presented by Namjoon who invites the shy boy to his birthday party. Maybe this could be a new beginning for both of them or so they thought.

Where Jungkook and Namjoon finally come to terms with their feelings but are a little too late.

*note*

Hello this is my first fanfiction in awhile lol so I hope people enjoy it. Sorry if it's kind of stiff I'm trying to get back in the swing of things 💞 It can also be found on Ao3 aswell! -> baromaiden or follow it on Twitter @charmycho

Chapter 1

Breaking News:

“The small lake town of Paradise morns the lost of a young man tonight. Eighteen-year-old Jeon Jungkook was found dead by the edge of Whalien Lake caused by a fall which result in a head injury that killed him with in minutes of impact. Authorities don’t know why the young man was so close to the cliffs side, but they have determined it to be an accident.”

 Two Days Earlier

Jungkook woke up from his bed with a jolt as if his body was jump started, heart beating fast and breathing unsteady. He held his hand to his chest as if to calm himself down from the nightmare he just escaped from. As the fuzzy images start to fade from his memory, he catches his breath slowly.

“That seemed a little to real.” He sighed as ran his hands through hair. His dreams are never this vivid or intense, so it caught him off guard with the wind rushing passed him as he fell into colors of blues and greens.

Jungkook slowly gets up and moves around his room to shake the rest of the dream off making sure to grab his phone in the process. Thus, his usual day begins, checking his notifications as he picks out his cloths for the day. He reads over his usual texts from his best friend Taehyung but that’s not what catches his attention.

September 10th  D-2

Jungkook smiles softly at the little reminder that he long forgotten to delete. Old memories play at the front of his mind, days of bike rides, ice-cream eating contest, and wizard fights but before he falls to deep into nostalgia he is interrupted by his little brother.

“Hyung, mom says hurry down before you’re late.” Taehyun mumbles as he rubs his sleepy eyes. Jungkook rolls his eyes as he chuckles softly.

“You’re telling me and yet you’re just waking up too.” Taehyun sighed as his older brother proceed to mess up his already bed head.

“Yah, I’m actually sick so I won’t be late to anything.”

“Is it your stomach again?”

“Yeah its like I’m allergic to everything.” He sighs as he leaves Jungkook in his room to get ready. Being the predictable boy, he was, he dressed himself in a long black t with jeans and his black adidas, complimented with his black hood. He eyed himself in his mirror and nodded at his appearance.

“Jungkook” his mom called as he makes his way into the kitchen. “Hurry up and eat so you can go.”

“Nah I’m good.” He mumbles as he reaches across the spread his mom makes for a packet of pop tarts.

“But I cooked all this for us.” She pouts as she sees her oldest son shove a pop tart in his mouth. He dips he head apologetically and kisses her cheek leaving crumbs.

“Got to go got to meet Tae.” He yells as he dashes through the front door. As he makes his way to his bike, he already sees his best friend Kim Taehyung on his own bike waiting for him. Taehyung has been his best friend since the end of freshman year when I tried out for the swim team. He taken as much good care of Jungkook as equal trouble he’s gotten him in. Though he is mischievous sometimes he’s a good dependable friend.

“Kook, Kookie, the kookanator. What’s happening?” greeted Taehyung as he put his phone away.

“Nothing much as usual.” He said as he shrugged.

“We need to work on that. We haven’t had anything eventful happen to us in a while. Even swim team is starting to get repetitive. “sighed the brown hair boy as he began to peddle his bike with hands in his pocket.

The two boys made it with sometime before the bell ringed, making their way to their lockers next to each other. As they were having small talk and getting what they need to get Jungkook got distracted from loud laughing down the hallway. The culprits happen to be Jung Hoseok, Park Jimin, and last but defiantly not least… Kim Namjoon. Jungkook couldn’t seem to look away from the tall dimpled boy. He was sporting his usual blond hair, dressed casually in a white t, blue jeans, and red converse, his signature look. Namjoon laughed carefree with his friends dimples on full display taunting Jungkook mercilessly.

“Kook, stop staring like an idiot and go talk to him for Christ sake.”

“Talk to who?”

“Kim Namjoon, the guy you are so in love with.” Taehyung grunts a little too loudly.

“Hey, I’m not in love with him.”

“Uh yeah you could have fooled me. When are you going to man up and talk to him? You guys are childhood friends, right?”

“Y-yeah but we haven’t spoken to each other in three years.”

“More like he would say one thing to you then you get all poo brain on him and he retreats from the awkward tension. What happened between you two?”

Jungkook glanced back at Namjoon as memories push forward of their freshmen year and how life got in the way of a lot of things back then.

“Life, I guess.” He shrugged. That answer didn’t satisfy Tae not one bit, but he couldn’t voice his disapproval when they were greeted by the dimpled devil himself.

“Hey Jungkook, Taehyung.” Namjoon greeted with his timid smile. Jungkook quickly shuffled around to properly see the boy.

“H-hey Namjoon” stuttered the shy boy. Taehyung grinned wider at his friend’s nervousness. Namjoon nodded in his direction as he reached for a piece of paper in his pocket.

“I came over to ask you a question, do you remember what’s coming up this week by chance?” Jungkook tilted his head in confusion as he eyed both his friend and the older boy.

“This week?”

“Yeah.” Namjoon said meekly.

See Jungkook knows the answer to this simple question but his nerves aren’t helping with his brain function right now. He knows the very important day that happens every year, he’s memorized it six years ago but unfortunately, he can’t at this very moment. Namjoon pulls out the paper and holds it in front of Jungkook’s face.

“I know this is last minute but here is an invite to my birthday party this Friday or should I say tomorrow.”

Jungkook wanted to kick himself right now. He knew it was his birthday but why didn’t he remember in that very second. He reached for the flyer and read the bright colored lettering.

“Why are you having a party on the 11th if your birthday is the 12th?” Asked curiously.

“So, you did remember?”

Namjoon smiled softly as he cleared his throat.

“Well my parents are out of town till Saturday afternoon so Hobi and Jimin convinced me to throw a party before they come back.”

“You let those two wild party animals you call friends convince you to have a house party?” exclaimed Taehyung as he looked over to the rowdy pair as they had a dance battle in the middle of the school hallway.

“Yeah well I turn 18 so it’s kind of a big deal you know. So… Jungkook would come?”

Jungkook froze dare I say Jung shook as he eyes Namjoon curiously. Jungkook isn’t sure it’s a good idea. Namjoon is popular and there would be a lot of people there. He wasn’t sure it would well. What if Namjoon is only inviting him out of pity? As if seeing the wheels turning in his head Taehyung nudges Jungkook in the shoulder.

“We will be there.” Said Taehyung with that mischievous smile of his.

“Cool.” Nodded Namjoon as back away. “Remember 8pm sharp.”

As Namjoon made his way back to his friends, Jungkook elbowed Tae.

“Why did you do that?” exclaimed Jungkook big doe eye wide open.

“Cause I’m so tired of your pining, Jesus try an actually work some moves on Kim at his party please. Its starting to get sad. Plus, Jung Hoseok will be there, and you know he’s been trying to hit me up since saw me sporting that speedo last week at our swim meet.” Jungkook rolled his eyes so hard.

“Are you helping me or yourself.”

“Both of us?” laughed the brown-haired boy.

The school day dragged on as Jungkook was in deep thought, paying very little attention to classes. His hand, pen in hand moved across the sheets of his sacred notebook. He dumps all his thoughts, hopes, and reams in here. Pages made up of poems, lyrics and list. And if you already guess the subject for most of his writings is none other then Kim Namjoon himself.

But you

That smile is so cruel

Cruel

I shouldn’t have seen that cheek

You

What’s really dangerous

Is only in possession

That dimple is illegal

Maybe Taehyung was right. Well he is right. Jungkook is in love with Namjoon but of course the quite shy boy won’t ever tell him his feelings to scared of how the older male would react. Reject him. Probably. Laugh in his face? Most likely. The two aren’t close anymore. That all changed once high school started and Namjoon fell into the cool crowd while Jungkook hung out with the art kids. However, that wasn’t the only thing that put distance in between the two friends.

Jungkook shuffled through the pages of his notebook to pull a small polaroid of him and Namjoon at Whalien lake. The two sits next to each other smiling with kites that they made together that summer of 7th grade. That’s one of the last photos that they had together.

The bell sounded interrupting his thought singling the school is over. Kook looks at the photo one more time before shoving it in his hoodie pocket with the invitation. The student all moves towards the front of the school to exit the building. Swiftly Jungkook moves through the crowd to head to his bike outside. Popping his headphones in then hops on and heads home.

He continues to be lost in thoughts of Namjoon and what they were finding that summer day by the lake playing over and over in his head. Jungkook slows his bike down and turns to his right staring at the woodsy area that leads to the lake. He ponders for a second before heading towards the clearing. Slowly he makes his way down off the path to the beach retracing steps he took as a kid till he got to his favorite spot, the high cliffs of Whalien lake.  He laid his bike down as he climb the short path of rocks till, he gets to the top of the flat ridge just above the beach of the lake. See Jungkook and Namjoon found this place years ago by accident as they were exploring from the public beach on the far right.

“Ugh, it feels good to be back here.” Smiled Jungkook as he sat in the middle of rock.

He pulled out his notebook opening the book to a new page. Carefully he pulled out his pencil case grabbing the roll of tape he kept in there. Jungkook pulled out the invitation and the photo from earlier.

“Wow. Who knew you would talk to me again? Even after everything that happened.”

Jungkook was filled with excited thoughts as he taped the invite into his book. What if he did want him at his birthday party? Maybe he wanted to be friends again? Or maybe he was just being nice? However, Jungkook was to ecstatic to care. This could be a new beginning from them to burry that hatchet and move on. Maybe even the chance Jungkook need to tell the dimpled boy how he really feels about him? Could he really do that? Confess? That was something out of his comfort zone but right now he feels like he might be able to tell him. Tell him that he loves him dearly even after everything that happened.

Jungkook sighed in content as he looked at the lake daydreaming about his crush.

Soon it starts to get dark in his little corner of the world, so he decides to start packing up and heading home. Notebook in hand Jungkook gets up to head down where he came from till something caught his eye. He turned around and saw the small polaroid that he cherishes so much getting picked up by the wind. Jungkook lunges for it right as the its being flown away over the edge of the cliff.

“Got cha.” Exclaimed Jungkook happily... unaware of his surrounds. His knee in front lands just beyond the cliff’s ledge.

Jungkook tries to catch himself but both his hands full one with the photo the other with his notebook, his efforts are in vain…

He falls.

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