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when you receive a comment on a fic you're already feeling insecure about, just asking if you'll continue asking on another fic... and nothing else :/
I know it can feel frustrating when you're waiting on an update and the author is working on different stuff, but please don't do this
#to me it just feels like you're disappointed in the fic itself#and that might not be the intentions but its hard to discern when there's no other sentiment to the comment#man I don't know#I know I'm sort of sensitive but this just made me feel so sad#i rarely vent about comment-related stuff on here but I just felt so discouraged and needed someplace to put that feeling#at least put questions like this on the fic you're wishing for an update on#or ask... I don't... with some added kindness
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im thinking about cindy again
i need to replay the game but in my mind i remember her as a creature pushed into a corner, hiding her pain and love behind a mask of indifference, nihilism and smug disdain
i liked her well enough then, but then she painted the square in that blood red motor oil
UN JOUR JE SERAI DE RETOUR PRÈS DE TOI
and it almost made me cry, it felt like a hope that is kept alive even in the darkest of times, even with the veneer of nihilism she actually still cares and wants things to be good
this hits so very different after reading A Sacred and Terrible Air
#man i don't know#i could be just making things up#thoughts jumbled from a long day#but there has always been something that struck me about cindy and i could not get it out#the mural really was the point of no return for me#before i was enjoying the game#i really really liked it#but that dragged me deeeep#anyway#cindy the skull#disco elysium#blbl
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I need to, like... smack some of your legendaries and mythicals with a pillow sometime. The non-asshole ones. The asshole ones can just go fuck themselves, so this ain't about them.
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Why is your blog being recommended to me.
i'm cute
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I need to get drunk and have a smoke
#can things get easier please? or at least cheaper??? I'm#I don't have words#can people in my family use their brains or what#how...#man I don't know#thank god I went to work to pay the school after the high school or I wouldn't have done that either#cause I have already a hard time studying normally can you imagine with everything that went down?????? naurrrr#or hell maybe it wouldn't have made a difference#hah. can you imagine that. fuck me.#personal
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this came to me in a vision at like 11pm
is this anything
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Instagram is an interesting place
#what do I even tag this as#instagram#the trolley problem#meme#funny#infinite suffering#?#man i don't know
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Spiderwebs #7: Tape III (Hypochlorite)
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content: lab whump, captivity, defiant whumpee, very brief nudity (non-sexual), mentions of religion
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This is a good time to mention that any of the characters' religious views do not necessarily reflect mine. That's all, enjoy the chapter <3
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Jackie was aware enough to be embarrassed. That was a good sign. His mind was intact. He had curled up in a corner, arms splayed to block off as much as possible. His eyes traced the ceilings, the floor, anywhere but Heather. She, on the other hand, resolved to not show any sign of discomfort about the whole thing. Keeping her gaze on the floor, she dropped the pile of clothes next to him and turned away until he was done.
“Are you finished?” she called, crossing her arms.
“Just a moment—” He pulled something on. “Okay, you can look now.”
Heather swiveled around. “What was that?”
Jackie glanced down at himself. “I wore a shirt?”
“Not that, idiot. Wait.” She turned the recorder on. “What are you?”
“Who can say?” He crossed his arms as well, a mocking mirror of her own pose. “I didn’t know you were a fan of Nirvana.”
“I wouldn’t be caught dead listening to Nirvana. The shirt was a gift.”
“From who?” It appeared to be a genuine question, not sarcastic, but Heather didn’t trust him. There was something a little too curious in his tone.
“A distant relative.” She walked over the the briefcase. “Now, can we—”
“Speaking of relatives, don't you have any siblings? Do you live alone?”
There it was. “Yes, Jackie, we’re alone. Nobody is coming to help you. Now, can we just—”
“What—”
She spun around to face him. “Quiet.”
He clammed up in an instant, although the curious glimmer didn’t fade from his eyes. Distractedly, he touched the palm of his hand, where it had burned. There were no scars replacing those layers of char. Not even any discoloration or distortion of the skin. Even stranger was the fact that he’d somehow regained a full head of hair. He looked exactly as he did before the fire, right down to the shape of his eyebrows and the exact tone of his skin. It might as well have never happened.
Heather forced herself to speak calmly. “How much of it were you awake for?”
He shrugged one shoulder. “Enough.”
“I need specifics. A numerical amount. Guess, if you have to, give me a general range.”
“Five, ten minutes?”
“Did it hurt?”
He nodded.
“Does it still hurt?”
“Kind of, yeah.”
“Well, that’s not my problem.”
He tilted his head to the side, watching as she retrieved another bottle from the briefcase. After she handed it to him, she nodded at the cap, gesturing to open it.
“This is literally bleach,” was his only response.
“Thank you for the observation. How astute.” Heather held up the tape recorder. “Subject has been able to withstand external injury, but what about internal? For the purposes of this experiment, the injury will be inflicted via a normally toxic substance, sodium hypochlorite. It is fatal in high enough quantities.”
“Heather.” He pushed the bottle back into her hands. “How am I going to drink an entire bottle of bleach without throwing it up?”
She scowled. “I don’t know. Figure it out yourself.”
“Figure it out?“ He was smiling, as if this was funny, as if this was all a joke. “Did you not think this through? All bleach does is make you sick, trust me. Feels terrible going down and coming up. I thought you were a chemist. You should know this. Bill Nye would not approve.”
“Bill Nye is a coward.” She tossed the bottle into a corner. “What do you propose we should do, then? What’s your brilliant idea? Go on, spit it out.”
He held his hands up, placatingly. “Hey, I’m just pointing out the obvious. Nothing personal. I’m tired. You’re tired. It’s getting late, I think. What time is it?”
“None of your business. Don’t try to distract me.” Heather grabbed him by the collar of his shirt. “We’re doing the experiments now.”
“If you want, I guess.” Jackie stifled a yawn, or pretended to. “Hurry up with it, though. I’m already half asleep.”
“You’re tired because you didn’t eat. That isn’t my fault. Now.” She let go of his shirt. “Stay there.”
Heather had never witnessed an exorcism before, and the priest had been too busy with the details of his payment to explain anything. She decided that skin-to-water contact was all that was needed. A few Bible verses for good measure, sure. That would do it.
Jackie seemed unimpressed as the water dripped down his face. He gazed at the cross with only mild contempt. He certainly was not disappearing in a puff of smoke, or sizzling away, or spitting out curses in unholy tongues.
Heather waved the cross at him. “Jesus!” That was about all she remembered from the Bible. Sunday school hadn’t proven to be of much use.
“I’m not a demon.” His gaze flicked up to her. “And, if I was, why would you assume I was a Christian demon?”
She let the cross fall to her side. “I think these sorts of things are universal. It was worth a try.” She tossed the cross in the same corner as the bleach. “We’re done, then.”
“Really?” His face lit up.
“Yes.” She walked over to the freezer. “Just one more thing.”
That spark of joy was immediately doused. “No.”
“Yes, actually. Get in.” She cracked the freezer open. She had plugged it in and stuffed it with ice while she waited for him to wake up. It was cold enough to kill a man, she gathered. More importantly, there was a high chance of asphyxiation. Two birds with one stone.
“Into the freezer?” He made no move to step into it. “Why?”
“That’s irrelevant. Get in and I’ll leave you alone for the rest of the night. You can go to sleep in there, I don’t care.”
“But I’ll be cold!”
“Yes, genius. You’ve figured it all out. Great job.”
He scowled, but relented, and walked forward. “You don’t have to be so rude about it.”
“Oh, but I do.”
Jackie clambered into the freezer. It was deep enough that he fit in, but short enough that he needed to curl up. He glared up at her, though his attempts at scorn were interrupted by bouts of shivering. He crossed his arms in a half-hearted effort to preserve warmth.
Heather frowned, though it was small enough to go unnoticed. Jackie continued to glare.
Whatever. To hell with it. She retrieved the thin cotton blanket that used to line her briefcase, not warm enough to impede her results but enough to make him stop looking so sad and pathetic in there. It was a cheerful article of fabric compared to the dull shades of the basement. The cotton was dyed cherry red, hatched through with yellow fibers within its weave.
He took the blanket with a reluctant hand. “What’s this do? Suffocate me? Is it coated with poison? Will it… explode?”
“Yes, all of the above. Good night. I'll be here again tomorrow.” She shut the freezer before he could respond. Then, she placed the considerably heavy briefcase over the top. That would hold the lid down, prevent him from leaving and ruining her experiment.
“Okay,” came his muffled reply. “Good night.”
#whump writing#lab whump#defiant whumpee#sort of?#man I don't know#my writing#there's a lot of ice in that freezer btw#probably a couple cardboard boxes at the bottom too#I mean how deep is the average freezer#I guess we'll never know#whump#Spiderwebs Toyybox
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hey Seb what the fuck man
#🦅.homelander#he's fine by the way#genuinely he was crying tears of joy#this was apparently the validation he was waiting for or something?#man I don't know#I'm just smoking my weed and hanging out in this cool bunk bed#have fun in the innerworld buddy you deserve it#say hi to Ben and Mish for me
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i wrote a book
i don't even know what to say frankly; i've spent my entire life trying to be humble because my parents and sibling have called me an annoying know-it-all; but i promise, it's decent; there are some grammar errors that i'm trying to work on fixing because i published through amazon kdp, so it takes a lot of money to rectify that stuff, but please; rating would be super appreciated !!!
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lighting is so haard!
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current background music for writing: K & J-Pop
listen, if I can't understand it and it's a bop, it's good enough for background music
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arcane ships be like
i love a show that teaches equality (😭😭😭)
#guys i don't actually ship jayvik but it was necessary for the reference#sorry for the quality btw i threw this together#timebomb#jayvik#caitvi#arcane#arcane spoilers#arcane season 2#EDIT: multiple people have pointed out that the labels i've used aren't the characters' real sexualities. and they're right#there's actually NO labels in runeterra so i shoulda said m/f m/m and f/f relationships#but you guys already gave this 13k notes so whatever bro#just know!!! they are more than whatever nathaniacolver post labels them as! :)#EDIT AGAIN AFTER THE FINALE: I DO INDEED NOW SHIP JAYVIK. DAFUQ#DOOM IS DOOM#edit number 3 or something idk man people keep asking stuff:#i made this after act 1 and before acts 2 & 3 so this is an ACT 1 MEME#and yes timebomb are whatever the frick you want them to be. *sighs*. i should've said f/m relationship so bad
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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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yeah annoying people is a power trip because i like power disregard all previous lore :D
#your brain might just be fried from interacting with me and turning it inside out doing various abuse apologism at this point to be honest#so#you lose :)#it's not funny at all you're like sad awful and we should be like enemies instead of whatever i always do#man i don't know#i certainly don't really trust you anymore not to make it sound like something random and talking to you about these things feels stupid so#let's just leave it at that#just don't get mad again omg!#fun would be fun yeah#aaand i can do whatever i want about the cult sorry#not like i would ask you if things were better between us or anything#you just don't get it after all#like you're cool i don't know don't get upset if you manage to#this but also if anyone is horrible in this it's you not me#i just don't like talking about you like that though#and i'm pretty sure i'm still cooler and funnier than any abusers any day#as a friend or whoever i don't want to be rude like that either#your loss ����#i'm not missing anything dw#in terms of seeing things#and i'm saying all this mhm#it's like look#expressing either affection or sadness is a torture in this environment#and even feeling not to mention showing interest just gets exploited into more math to be constantly harassed about#not to mention that in general me hurting myself is absolutely required every time for you to do like#the 1% bare minimum of what treating someone like a person would involve#and it's you who created this environment around me and just keep going along with every worst thing you see or that happens in your head#the cult is still just what they are whoever anyone is and you already saw what i'm like when not abused for like a few days or something#and now i've just been feeling sick for a pretty long time this whole time probably i can't like do anything with it#it really was cool before you did all that though 🫶
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Haolonggood Concavenator just dropped!
And as always, the photos are oversaturated to hell and back
Here they are in more natural lighting:
I love how obnoxiously bright that yellow one is. That's an insta buy for me! Also knowing Haolonggood, these figures will look three times as good in real life.
#dinosaur figurines#dinosaur toys#Haolongood's figurines are always so nice but whoever is in charge of taking the photos ...#man I don't know#I've straight up had figures where I was like “eeeeew what?” before I saw them irl and then I was blown away by how pretty they actually ar#like whoever's doing those photos ... please ...#it is a feat to accomplish I guess to make all promo pics look so so so much worse than the irl figurine#usually it's the other way round#my stuff#anyway I'm happy to add a nice Concavenator to my collection#I've wanted one for a while but none of the other ones available appeal to me at all
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