#man and my parents hate my therapist because she's bi CANT HAVE SHIT IN THIS HOUSE

[yuyu-bubu]

girl why you so horrors

homophobia all fun and games until im reminded my parents are genuinely homophobic and they'll always hate this part of me no matter what i say

[rogue-snorunt]

Hi. I’m gonna unload here. Hope you don’t mind. I’m someone you’ve talked to before. I may seem pretty upbeat, if a bit anxious. In reality, I’m a mess. I’m depressed and angry. I get so mad. Then I get sad for being so mean. I keep what I really want to say hidden and let it burn in me. I should probably get a therapist, but I refuse to waste money like that because words don’t help me and I refuse to drug myself. I keep myself together for my son. Have a nice day. Sorry for bothering you.

this been in my inbox for a while, not because im ignoring it but because this is some heavy stuff and Im not a medical professional. Im sorry you feel like this homie and I get where you are coming from. I am a card carrying member of the sad kids club (TM) and I got some physical and mental health issues myself that Ive mentioned before Im sure: Manic Bi-Polar depression with ADHD So I can relate butthe following is going to be just like.. my thoughts and ideas and shit and like I just said, I am NOT A MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL, nor am I trained and licensed therapist etc...:I personally have alot of rage and sadness going but I think  alot of it is PTSD from a childhood trauma and parents, one fucked up more than the other, who had no business being so and gave their kid some pretty intense complexes. Thank goodness for grandparents amIright?I am on medication and it took some trail and error but I found one that helps me alot and the side effects are almost 0. now obviously just because I am for medication and it helped me doesnt mean it works for everyone but theres alot of hate on meds and I just wanna say, the stigma of it is dumb. if you are willing to try it out, keep in mind that if one doesnt work for you that there are others out there that can. Ritalin worked but it amplified my temper and made me fatigued. Vynsense was wonderful and chilled me out but also made me tired. Im on concerta right now and its lovely, im chill and not tired because of it. but also if i miss a dose, I cant function. but like, hey man, I’ll take it.I love feeling like a real functional human bean :DI also had a therapist, lovely woman and the only reason I dont anymore is because she wanted to be able to spend more time with her daughter and help younger people like kids. I gotta get other but I keep forgetting D: it helped me alot to just be able to talk to someone and have someone call me out on my shit and give me ways to get better and deal. theres alot of stigma around that too and its really harmful and toxic. theres nothing wrong with it and my insurance covers it. they have programs for those that cant afford, it just takes alittle research and calling around to find out more,  and it does help.dont be afraid to reach out for help from professionals homie, I really think it can help you even if its just the therapist bit.. it’ll be good for you and it’ll show your son that everyone needs help sometimes and theres nothing wrong or embarrassing about admitting that, asking for it and getting it.