#mae's ANGSTY rambles!

[buggybambi]

anyway. another thought i had? champagne problems with carmen.

"you had a speech, you're speechless. love slipped beyond your reaches." carm proposes. after years of dating, years of tears and laughter, he's on his knees in front of you.

it's a gorgeous proposal, the one you've dreamed about since you were little. the kind you'd plan on a playground during recess. he has donna's ring, his sister is across the room. his friends just outside with champagne and party poppers.

"she would have made a lovely bride, what a shame she's fucked in the head."

except you didn't expect to be saying no. that was never in the plan. begging him to talk in private. pleading him to hear you out as tears fight to escape his eyes, ones he blinks away as you say this isn't what you want, not yet. to just slow down.

"but you'll find the real thing instead. she'll patch up your tapestry that i shred."

you watch through a camera lens on social media, photos from nat and even the new girl, how happy he is. how she's the one by his side, holding his hand. nat posting videos of them dancing together, holding each other close.

he found the real thing instead.

[moonstruckme]

Sometimes I get too deep about Sirius in narration and I have to hit the backspace button because I've lost the plot

[angstigone]

osha is a stronger woman than me because from the moment I woke up and realized he took care of me, I'd have jumped qimir in the water

[n7viper]

HEY i was creeping in maeves tag can you tell me about her too if you want??? Like fave songs for her or fave weapons or just whats on your mind about her rn!

Ooh, thank you for asking! :3 This got away from me and is rambly, so strap in. But first, I’ve got a playlist for her here:

A lot of it is angsty because that’s just the kind of music I listen to lol. It’s a bit of a mix - the first part is sad angsty music, then it goes into a handful of Mae/Crow songs, and then finally into some sort of “happy” songs. I update this every so often, so there will be more OTP and happy songs in the future. I’ve just been a little depressed in the first half of the year, and her playlist has suffered for it 😅

A bonus fact before we get into my rambling is that her tag (Maezi) is a nickname that I imagine Saint giving her. I don’t think I ever said that here, now that I think about it? It really just came about because I was thinking of her normal nickname combined with her last initial, Mae Z. It sounded like Maisy when I said it aloud, and it also sounds like a funny name someone would give her, Saint being an obvious first choice. I spell it like that because her last name is Zin.

Mae is my main guardian, one half of my Young Wolf pair. I only recently started playing D1, so I don’t have a ton of info about that time. For D2, I’ve mentioned in a few random places (so forgive me if you’ve seen this) that I started playing a few months before Forsaken came out and then left sometime around Season of the Drifter, I believe. I didn’t come back until last year, about halfway through Season of Plunder. So there are a lot of gaps in Mae’s story and things that I haven’t really thought about because of having to rely on going back to watch videos on Youtube to absorb the story. So as a general disclaimer, things change in her development A LOT. I know this is normal for OC creation, but I always feel really insecure about it. There are already some things from just a few months ago that I've retconned. So yeah lol

Mae is a jack-of-all-trades hunter who is primarily an arcstrider, sometimes nightstalker (spectral blades). She is capable of using solar light but chooses not to, and doesn’t often rely on either of the Darkness subclasses. For long-range combat, she prefers bows; Wish-Ender and Le Monarque most often (no, I’m not projecting that at all). Melee and close-quarters combat is more of her jam, though. She most often uses hand cannons and SMGs, swords and glaives for actual melee. For armour exotics, it’s a little complicated. In an ideal world, she would wear Liar’s Handshake and have some leg armour that looks like ST0MP-EE5 but don’t necessarily function as they do in game. She wears (fake) stompies because of their bracing; she has a persistent stasis-induced injury to her right ankle that is not easily healed. (Things might have changed on this since BL was quite some time ago, but Ghost repeatedly says in that campaign that there isn’t much he can do to fight stasis. Seems like if you got a shard of that embedded in your skin or in a joint, it would be difficult for a Ghost to heal, even if the shard was removed. That’s my thought process on this little aside.)

This is her canon armour, as long as you pretend that those hardened basilisk vambraces are Liar's Handshake :P

High level overview of what I currently have in mind for her general story — the other half of my little YW pair (Phaeston) dies between Curse of Osiris and Warmind. She handles this pretty poorly. Phaeston had been with Mae since she was revived, and they’re sort of a platonic bonded pair. She feels a little lost without him, feels like it was her fault (WIP), and becomes a bit reclusive. She has a pretty significant shift in personality as a trauma response, going from being a playful hunter to a quiet and solitary lone wolf. Cayde tries to help in his own way, feeling like she may be feeling like he did after Andal died (not that he would ever admit that to her). It only sort of helps and mostly just makes things worse after he dies too. She feels a little skeptical of the Vanguard after she kills Uldren and takes an extended assignment to the Dreaming City to help Petra try to contain the curse cycle. Anything between the end of the Forsaken campaign and Season of the Lost is mostly just a WIP.

Mae is also a Crow-mance because I am weak lol. Loosely, Crow is the one who takes the lead in their relationship and initiates it in the first place. Mae originally takes him under her wing as a sort of protégé, remembering what it was like for her when she was trying to find her footing as a guardian. She also feels mildly guilty for his early life, whether she necessarily should or not. He’s a good catalyst for getting her back to her old self and getting her to reconnect with her friends, but I do want to stress that it’s the early mentor/mentee relationship that does this, not the romantic one.

These days, she’s doing about as well as most guardians can be, I suppose. I haven’t even started thinking about her mental state this season with [potential spoiler] bringing up past regrets for several of the main seasonal cast. I’m still stuck in past seasons 😂 I could ramble on for an eternity about Forsaken and Season of the Haunted if you let me.

God uhhhhh idk if this really answered much of anything, but it’s been 2 hours since I started typing some of this out, so I should just call it here. I’m trying to get better about engaging with ask games again, so hopefully I can answer some specific things in the future.

[tricobicoart]

su half agate si au 1: dan vs crossover

og ramble, 2021: "alternate dan vs self insert: Half-agate mae gets transported to a world where rose revealed herself or was discovered as pink diamond and did some other stuff in order to save the crystal gems & keep the earth left alone (so the warp pads r still there as a plot device for mae) Mae, instead of giving up or going nuts, lands halfway between the two & decides to give less fucks (everyone she knew & loved is gone. there might be a fully-human her out there, but she doesn't wanna disrupt their life). She forges an identity, meets dan & chris in a brief stint of college, & the rest is history. Also she gets top surgery.

The explosion scar is from a mission with some rogue rubies, the curved scar is from a sword training session gone wrong(not in an angsty way just in an "oops steven wasn't on hand to heal it right away so they had to use regular first aid" way), the jagged scar on her forearm is from a self-harm incident with her claws post-danvs-arrival, and the smooth scar on her shoulder is from a close blow on a gem mission. The discoloration on her wrist is simply a birthmark. Also, she's been retconned to have a corrupted quartz claw scar on her torso, and no belly button on account of her growing in a species without an umbilical cord(her agate mom). Also also mae's an age regressor--she does it to deal with stress mostly, sometimes involuntary sometimes for fun--ranges to about 5-9 years old. Apollo(from morningstar) and mae are in a poly v with dan(with dan at the center of the v). Apollo starts dating dan during the series, and Mae starts dating dan(after talking it over with apollo & him) sometime around/after 'vs the family cruise' or post-series! Together, they make the Chaos Trio!!

[thanatosangels]

100 Celebration <3

first actual milestone - WHAT

i cant believe that this many people want to like,,, see my dumb ramblings on their dash?? like.... thank you for wanting to vibe with my weirdness. i really appreciate that!!!

just a reminder to everyone, mutuals or not, if we’ve spoken or not, im here for you and i love you and you are so appreciated. if you need to talk to someone or rant about anything or want someone to just try and make you smile - dont be afraid to reach out! dont be afraid to talk to me in general aswell. i always want new friends :)) anywayyyy, onto the asks <3

🥺 for a first impression :)

🍓for a song that reminds me of you :p

👀 with a question you want to ask me - could be anything!!

🥰 with a TSC ship/character for a short fluffy fic <3

😭with a TSC ship/character for a short angsty fic :(

thank you so much everyone. I love you all so much!!! <333

(also imma be tagging this stuff ‘mae 100′ so if you dont care then block that hahahaha)

tagging some mutuals for a signal boost pleaseeee :D 

@churchthecatismyspiritanimal @princesslucretia @chaoticallybookish @fairchild-squad @abigneignenn @magnus-the-fabulous-entp-bane @forthetscgays @vintage-morning-wine @nolu @jon-the-rat @daisyherxndale @mebells @manar-637-x @d3monp0xx @booksandbeanbags @purplebass <3

[starryeyed-char]

flames of sorrow

Belated Christmas gift for @elsie-mcclay who is currently asleep, and I should be too. This took me too long to write because it ended up being WAY longer than I thought it’d be, but I have no self control when it comes to writing, so. I of course chose to write for FMA for her because she’s the one who recommended it to me, and now it’s my favorite thing ever. Plus we’ve talked about she and I are a lot like Hughes and Roy, only without the dying part. Those two are the focus of this story because I’m still bitter that Hughes dies so early.

Basically this story is my take on what would happen if in the fifth episode Scar ran into Roy instead of Edward, since they’re both alchemists that he’s targeting. This is, of course, because Roy is my favorite character and apparently all my writing is just me throwing angst at my favorite characters. Though to be fair, Roy was already pretty angsty to begin with. Enough of the rambling! Please enjoy!

Nowadays, every time the phone rang, Maes Hughes always imagined the worst.

The case regarding murders of state alchemists in Central was getting to him, whether he wanted to admit it or not. He'd dealt with serial killers before, sure, but now every body he saw had a familiar face. Not only that, but they still had next to no concrete information about their suspect.

Finding the guy as soon as possible was a necessity, and as head of investigations the pressure to put a stop to what was going on fell to Maes.

And it was taking a toll on him.

The phone ringing startled him out of his thoughts, and Maes sighed before answering. He really needed to solve this case.

“Lieutenant Colonel Hughes,” he said, and winced slightly at the clear exhaustion in his own voice. He wondered, with a morbid sort of resignation, which state alchemist had turned up dead now.

“It's Colonel Mustang, sir.”

Maes' world seemed to fall out from under him. Roy was... he was still at the Eastern Headquarters, and all the murders had taken place in Central. He did have a habit of not telling anyone he'd come to visit until after he'd arrived, but... but... he couldn't be...

A horrible image came to his mind's eye. He would go the crime scene and find, instead of someone he barely knew, his best friend in a pool of his own blood with blank, dead eyes. A corpse looking as if it had been destroyed from the inside out.

Maes felt like he couldn't breathe. “Roy?” was all he could manage to choke out. “He's... where is he, is he—?”

“He's on the other line for you, sir.”

Oh, thank god. He didn't know what he would've done if...

He took a deep breath, collecting himself. He was determined to not let his subordinate know just how thoroughly she'd terrified him. “Put him through,” he said, his voice still shaking.

A small click, and then—

“Hughes, do you ask your officers to be as slow as possible when I'm on the phone, or are the people at Central really just that incompetent?”

Maes, despite all the emotions that were still circling his brain, couldn't help but laugh. “What, no hello?”

“If I tried to start with pleasantries you'd go off on a tangent about your wife or daughter again, so you'll excuse me for wanting to get straight to the point,” Roy deadpanned. “But sure. How've things been in Central?”

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[seasaltmemories]

FE echoes or 5d's for the meme?

how about both?

FE Echoes

Popular Opinion

The art and general aesthetic is amazing, I love Hidari’s style, it’s very elegant, the OST is also great, Heritors of Arcadia stands out for coming with little warning in the credits yet really capturing the bittersweet tone of the ending (and the meta connection of Silque’s VA singing it only adds to the feels)

Unpopular Opinion

For the most part I love the gameplay, part of the appeal is that it is something fresh and weird in comparison to the rest of the series, so I understand it not being appealing, but just so many elements clicked for me, magic costing hp balanced out in that you could depend on items like the blessed ring and nosferatu to help make it a fun risk-reward sort of game, clerics with shields are especially fun as they can make semi-tanks who self-heal, the range of archers made up for any difficulties I had with accuracy and it is just nice to have more flexibility with positioning them, same goes for mages with increased range

I don’t know a lot about map design, so i won’t contest the complaints about it (and on my second playthrough I’ve noticed more repeating and all) but that hasn’t outweighed my love for turning my squishy units into cold blood killers

Share a song that makes me think of the series/a certain character

The Violence by Rise Against really captures the conflict between men and gods, how both Duma and Mila have failed Rigel and Zofia specifically and so much of the different conflicts are about humans trying to surpass and overcome the systems they left behind and both failing and succeeding in different ways

Ramble on about OTPs/characters that make me giddy and/or rage

I’m a hoe for celicalm bc they’re both adorable and love each other but you can play with cool and angsty ideas surrounding being the children of fate and kinda how tragedy almost seems to be unavoidable

but 99% of the canon couples in echoes are adorable: 

Clive/Mathilda are like always like seconds away from making out and Clive worshipping the Valkyrie goddess Mathilda is, is such good shit

Tatiana/Zeke have that same constant heart eyes though while less pda-ish they are still very in love and good

Mae/Boey are a great arguing pair bc at the end of the day it is obvious they care about each other and are best friends, also their ending is A+++ with going home and having tons of kids

Gray/Clair kinda tread cliche ground but I still enjoy their dynamic and Gray for all his faults is truly into her and cares about her as a person

just like while fandom is fun to ship crazy ships and come up with all the thousands of ways they could get together, just getting to see couples be couples is something I love as romantic material often leave out that one detail

gotta say tho the only canon couple I could not get behind was Berkut/Rinea, I don’t want to shame others for liking it but I really can’t believe he would hurt her like that if he loved her, FE plays with the the trope of loved ones being forced to fight/kill each other (it happens with Alm and Celica not long after these two) but even if he was tempted by Duma and having a breakdown over losing his birthright, he still made the conscious choice to sacrifice his girlfriend for his selfish gain, those are explanations for why, not excuses, regardless of your thoughts on the ship we have to accept the straight canon facts because I don’t like seeing literal abuse rhetoric trying to explain away the damage and pin the blame on anyone other than Berkut

besides that big elephant in the room, they never had super romantic scenes until after they died, and I might have been able to enjoy the tragedy if I was at all invested, and so I can still enjoy works for it by the fandom, especially the darker stuff, but I can’t help but side-eye too fluffy stuff

5ds

Popular Opinion

Yusei can be a pretty reactive character and seem too perfect so I went in a bit hesitant about him but alas even I was unable to keep from falling for his charms, I don’t want to deliver a critique of s2 just yet as I am still in the middle of it, but in S1 Yusei can get away with being more reactive and not losing really bc holy shit is the world set on making him suffer, he’s a great underdog who just wants to take care of the ppl he loves and do the right thing, especially with how ensemble-like S1 is he is perfectly serviceable as a protagonist and just a really likable guy

Unpopular Opinion

5ds is simultaneously overhyped and undeappreciated

Like often ppl who don’t like the spinoffs will say that DM and 5Ds are the only YGO’s that matter and regardless of your feelings on each individual installment that’s just a shitty attitude to deal with

But at the same time, 5Ds’ fandom is like the least active, at least here on tumblr, I see more content for even GX, which is also a spinoff and older, like even before I got back into it was really sad to see fandom events where each installment was represented except for 5ds

And when it gets mentioned at all it is the same old beats glorifying/trashing it, like it making card games on motorcycles cool, s2 being horrible, being the “darkest and most mature” ygo (which is arguable and not as important as presumed), Aki’s the greatest, Aki was ruined and irredeemable, Dark signers is the peak of ygo, WCP was horrible and drawn out

I agree with statements on both sides but man I am just so tired of the same discussions and I wish there was more appreciation for just what we got and general love for the characters and all

Share a song that makes me think of the series/a certain character

People Like Us by Kelly Clarkson is a good signers song, especially with the fire motif

Ramble on about OTPs/characters that make me giddy and/or rage

Scoopshipping gets its own mid-season romcom and is so good and canon and while I understand why they retcon it, my heart is still broken

Faithshipping is also good and pure and I think you can have a discussion about Aki’s mistreatment without pinning the ship as irredeemable 

Feeding into that, Aki is still an amazing and iconic female lead, I do have criticisms of her treatment but man I want to celebrate her as much as we mourn those choices

I really can’t see the Yusei/Jack/Crow trio as romantic in any combination, they feel like brothers, the closest I can get is some lowkey onesided feelings Crow might have had for Yusei, but all in all they feel like family

Also we got good f/f content with Misty/Carly and Sherry/Aki

Kiryu is Yusei’s ex and you can’t convince me otherwise

[moonstruckme]

Hiii I just recently followed cause of the james potter roomate fics and I gotta say they're so cute omg I love how much care u have for what you write ♡♡ congratulations on 6k♡

Could I please play 𖥔 — mae rambles ; send me a character + a concept and I'll write some headcanons with james potter and a very physically Affectionate reader?

Congrats on 6k again !! Have a nice dayy

(U don't have to do it if it adds to the load of all the requests u have already mwahhh)

Aw thank you, I do care lots and lots and it warms my heart to know that comes across :)

honestly I think he'd just be like "thank goddddd someone who can match my energy"

always always always holding your hand or better yet holding you, you're in his lap or curled up against his side or you're walking and he's got an arm around your shoulders

he's not a massive pda person but he is not being shy with things like holding your hand or kissing you on the cheek like he might be with a less physically affectionate person

if ever you come into a room where he is and don't immediately get in his lap he's like ":(( babe what's wrong"

also is just so relieved that (as is not always the case with his angsty friends) he knows exactly what to do for you when you're upset, and it's exactly what he wants to do naturally so that's perfect

hugs. for. days.

seriously. remus and sirius have a secret joke about how they're going to record the amount of time you and james spend touching each other versus not touching in the duration of a hangout so they can work out the proportions. they're convinced it'd end up being 95% touchy time

but it's undeniably cute, and they're all very happy their jamie has found someone so receptive to him :)