#m literally 2016 or so to today in 2023 they would be like 'yeah. this bitch should noooot be writing this down'

[pochx]

so like some thoughts yeah?

i've always had a love and fascination for like forever right? reading either fictionalized diaries or historical ones as a kid and then to how i still like to follow random people doing their silly little micro blogging.

it's fun and y'know feeds that need to be a nosy little bitch. and uh. i think it's something very human to do.

ironically i've never been able to keep a diary or anything of the sort lol god knows i've been trying since i was like 7 or 8. and idk i've just been thinking on like. not having anything to say.

not everyone does i think? there's a lot of things that people kinda assume to be relatively universal, but i don't think that's true entirely. (which as an aside: this might be where i get friction w a lot of ppl who get offended on my behalf (did not ask) when i say smth that goes against this. if only bc i think they assume i mean i am the only person like that. in reality i think there are many ppl in whatever way i mean! just it's a minority. not everyone lives or sees the world the same<3)

anyways. "this is a lot for someone who doesn't have anything to say" but like am i really saying anything orrrr

point being at the end of the day that there are people out there who don't have anything to say. there is nothing going on and i mean that genuinely while also knowing that i have a lot going on in my brain but trying to verbalize it outside of myself makes it all go away (perhaps another point of my struggles to communicate: i leave a lot out and a lot gets assumed)

at the end of the day i am trying to say "i am jealous and deeply interested in people who have things to say. all there is to say from me is....there is nothing."