#lucia at least has thrived and come into her own at the castle; kirsi feels like she's diminishing bit by bit

[humanoidtyphoons]

i think kirsi's had like a really awful month, where it's essentially dad died > got married > lucia suffering mage fever/fairy stress curse > possibly threatened by quinn/at the v. least intimidated by them when she's trying to save her sister's life > gradually being estranged from her sister > thinking possibly that reimund/lucia is a thing with their special bond > husband died > possibly murdered herself by the person who promised to be like family to her even tho he repeatedly gaslit her anyway > sister revealed to be a fairy who healed her back to life

and i'm reminded of smallville's lana lang, and it's like. the poor girl goes through such a traumatizing time, (bc clark just refuses to be honest and refuses to let her go), that she's kind of forced to cling to clark, bc she's been so beaten down by life, and terrible circumstances, she'll accept the lies she just doesn't want to be left alone and that's exactly when she gets taken advantage of the most

like, sure, it depends on the magnitude of hurt kirsi feels at being lied to for so long. whether she secretly knew all along or not. if grateful at being saved trumps the hurt at finally understanding the reason why lucia kept her at arm's length all along. if she's afraid of lucia or not after this.

i just. idk. i don't want kirsi to be beaten down and diminished by the end of this story, bc i do love bratty princesses who are bubbly and flawed in their own right. and she just keeps on losing and losing people close to her that i don't know if she'll be so desperate to keep the one person she grew up with, which is lucia, or become even more of a puppet of ricon, who she may or may not know is the person who killed her and her husband. i want to see her friend group, bc i have no idea who she talks to if it's not lucia and reimund and ricon, so i just. idk. she just. i want more for her.