#losing faith christ'an

[asklosingfaith]

What does Christ'an like to do for fun? Also, how exactly is their name pronounced?

Christ’an: Ah, the name question. Don’t worry, I get that question all the time. It’s pronounced exactly like the feminine given name “Kristen.” While we’re here, let me attempt to circumvent the inevitable “but why Christ’an” question.

Christ’an: My legal, given name (Coda recently told me in trans circles this is called a “deadname”) is… well, exactly what you’d expect. I’m not as uncomfortable with it as most trans people are with their deadname, but it always struck me as… odd, for more than a few reasons (combine my deadname the fact that my sister is named “Faith” tells you a lot about our parents, I think, or at least how they used to be). When I started to realize that I might not be a boy, the name felt even worse on me. I wanted to make a bigger change, but I was kinda scared. People in my community (and my old school) are not exactly known for being super progressive?

Christ’an: Not to mention that I wasn’t even sure I was trans. I’m still not, really. Maybe I’ll wake up in a year from now and realize I’m definitely a guy, or maybe I’ll look back in a few months and think I’m probably a girl, or maybe I’ll just remain nonbinary and uncertain forever, and all of that is fine! But for now I’m kind of wobbling on this uncertainty, so I wanted to make a small change. So I took out a letter. Teachers couldn’t complain that I wasn’t using my “real” name, because I technically was, I was just using a variant. The spelling is masculine, the pronunciation is feminine, and overall it just kinda seems like… well, it seems like me.

Christ’an: Alright, now to answer the fun part of the question! I actually really like to draw and make art. I’m, like, really not good at it, but I love doodling and stuff. Coda is trying to teach me how to play ukulele, and the BQ (love those guys!) are always keeping my singing voice warmed up, so I guess music is a really big part of my life and my community. Really, as dumb as it sounds, if I have one hobby, it’s learning. I love learning about things. Sometimes I’ll just get a random impulse to learn something, and I’ll just spend an afternoon looking that up.

Christ’an: Like, one day I was curious about imaginary numbers. I’d heard of them before, and you use the letter “i” for the notation, right, but I didn’t know what they were. So I looked it up and it’s just the square root of negative one (and I mean, I get square roots), but that just didn’t make sense to me. So I just kept researching and it turns out that there are whole sets of numbers that have no applicability to counting things, but they make perfect mathematical sense! Like, negative numbers have some real-world applications, namely in things like debts and subtraction, but imaginary numbers can’t really exist? Like I can potentially have five apples, or negative three apples (like I can owe somebody apples) and I can arrange two rows of two apples to get four apples, but I can’t arrange i apples to get negative one apples, because that doesn’t make any sense. But if you just kinda pretend that i is a thing, then a lot of math actually starts to make sense????? And apparently, you can use it for a lot of different equations that do hold some real-world meaning. There’s one where you raise another number represented by a letter (“a” or “e” or something like that) to the power of i (which means you multiply it by itself i times??? what????) and you actually get a number!?!?! I think you get 1 or something? How crazy is that?!??!!? And it turns out all of this can be applied to electricity and stuff apparently?? Isn’t that just amazing!!?!??!? Like, here is something which, by definition, shouldn’t exist, but you pretend it does and then suddenly you can use it for something! I mean, I don’t fully understand it but that just astounds me! And then you get into–

Christ’an: …I was rambling again, wasn’t I? Sorry. I really love learning. I was always that annoying child who asks, “why?”

Christ’an: I guess I still am.

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Losing Faith Characters as “things that 15 year old me did sophomore year that my southern-bred god-fearing conservative christian teachers Did Not Like” (Art by the amazing @pandaotter1000 bc they’re awesome) (Click on them for captions lmao)

Bonus: Alternate design for Colton