#looks like i can send oncor an email to report the tree limbs close to the lines so I'm gonna try that

[kitkatt0430]

So freezing rains on Wednesday and Thursday and...

I honestly still don't know which makes more anxious - staying at home or going to my parent's place

But I need to decide tomorrow because if I do decide to go to their house and then don't leave by tomorrow evening, then I'm basically stuck at home anyway.

The rest of this is just me anxiety rambling...

Spending what'd amount to three or four days at my parents place doesn't bother me in and of itself, it's just... my house is easier to keep warm in a power outage, so there's one point of anxiety. I know my fireplace works, I can block up the one hallway exit, the ceilings aren't particularly high, the room actually retains heat fairly well. Twelve hour power outage the other week and the room was 50 degrees when the power came back on.

My parents house, on the other hand, has two fireplaces, but one is in the one upstairs room that I don't like going into because I'm no longer comfortable going up and down stairs. The other fireplace is in the formal living room which has high ceilings, multiple entrances/exits to other parts of the house that are difficult to block off, huge windows, multiple doors to the outside...

I've procured two small, low wattage heaters. I've got my power backup, which I need to plug back in just to top it back off, which can do up to 600w. I've got a ridiculous amount of blankets. I've got a bunch of tea candles I've got a few options for cooking either without power or using my little power backup. Food that doesn't need to be cooked. Lots of water stored up. Lots of warm clothes.

I also have a tree outside that, despite having been trimmed back, dropped another limb over the driveway the other day and it has limbs closer to the utility lines than I'm comfortable with. I had asked for my tree trimmers to pull the limbs back, but apparently the limbs are too close for them to safely trim, which means it has to be the electric company that does it. Of course, they didn't actually tell me this last week so I had thought they'd trimmed the limbs back as asked. Until I finally had a chance to look down there and see they hadn't. So I got to have a text conversation today to find out why and... they should have told me this while they were out doing the trimming last week. So I'm kind of pissed off that they didn't because... they knew how concerned I was about that. Now I have to figure out how to get the electric company to send out tree trimmers. Lovely.

So it basically boils down to me being far more likely to encounter another outage at home than at my parents home.

(Of course, if I'm not home and a pipe bursts like last year then I won't be there to turn off the water line to prevent my house from being a swamp. So if I go, I have to make sure that I leave the faucets dripping/running a small stream and then spend three or four days super fucking stressed about it.)

I'm trying not to anxiety/stress cry over this because it's just... nothing I can really do about the weather and it feels like this... huge decision and I don't have a lot of time to make it and no matter what I'm going to wind up stressing about my decision after I make it either way. And of course stress crying on top of recovering from bronchitis won't make my lungs happy. :/

I'm tired and stressed and I'm sick of coughing and being sick and i really hate that damn tree right now and...