#looking back at his couterintel job though he's often seeing it through rose tinted glasses

[elvenbeard]

Arasaka!Vince is my great weakness...

Especially in the beginning, throughout all the training and whatnot, he often wonderd "How the hell did I end up here... and why am I not getting the fuck out again?" He grew up in a world of corporations, his own parents plotting against each other, and yet this was a side of it all he didn't know. He felt so out of place and yet like he shouldn't feel this way at the same time.

But as time went on and he began to realize "Hey... I'm actually really good at this" he began to not mind it as much anymore... the scheming, the intrigues, the violence, the high stakes and costs. It was like an intense rush at times, like going onto an extreme rollercoaster while high, but after years of life just passing him by it felt like he was finally living, like he had found his calling.

All his life being told "you're not good enough, and you'll never be good enough" and similar things, people at a place like Arasaka going "well done" did something big to him.