#lmao lit cant believe im coming out to reblog this

[last-starfighter]

plural playlist? plural playlist

ive been makin a playlist thats all "songs that make me think about bein plural/have plural vibes/are about trauma and systems/whatever" for a hot second. im not 100% happy with it but yknow i think we all need a distraction rn so.

have like 3 hours of ✨songs to split yr personality to✨ /s

if u vibe with this u can reblog it. this aint just for did systems or endo systems or trauma systems or whatever its for anyone who wants it.

content warnings: self-destructive vibes/suicidal ideation, drugs/alcohol, unreality, amnesia, bad choices, bad headmate relationships, breakups, fuckin kpop for some reason

tracklist + explanations under the cut

hive mind - tmbg i think this one speaks for itself

birdhouse in yr soul- tmbg listen this one has fucked up headmate to host vibes tell me im wrong. im yr only friend/im not actually yr friend/make a place in yr soul for me.

voices in my head- naked eyes pure goddamn 80s cheese but the lyrics are on point

simple and clean- utada hikaru raise yr hand if yr a sora fictive, have a sora fictive in yr system, or were personally victimized by the end of kingdom hearts 2. yeah thought so.

my truth's a lie- psylosia i think this ones supposed to be about schizophrenia but tbh it works.

where is my mind? - the pixies ik its a cliche but you cant really have a crazy playlist without it.

paranoid android- radiohead again. ik its a cliche but here we are. it fuckin works. like half of radioheads back catalog does

blow up your mind- the cramps ok i know this is mostly here cause i wanted more punk shit but it works for how i feel about this shit? idk

my own worst enemy - lit tfw you have that One Guy who keeps makin the WORST DECISIONS (its me im the guy)

the becoming- nine inch nails the me that you know/he doesnt come round much/that part of me/isnt here anymore. WHAT ELSE IS THERE TO FUCKIN SAY.

i'm not there - sonic youth ok this is mostly there for the title and for the good distorted guitar but fuck me i like noise rock

never let me down again- depeche mode ik what this song is rly about but. sometimes you just gotta let the other guy take the wheel.

carousel - tempting fate thx @eklesia-system for this one- it has THE VIBES

disintegration - the cure and now that you know that im breakin to pieces/ill put out my heart and ill feed it to anyone/crying for sympathy crocodiles cry/for the love of the crowd and the three cheers for everyone

otherside- red hot chili peppers this ones for all the fictives out there who want to blow up their lives.

bodies (ghosts) - 1000 eyes can you believe we aint never played signalis? it has the vibes tho.

myth- delerium thx @endogenesis-evangelion for this one. its on fuckin point.

voices in my head- steve aoki/bassjackers/teddy bee can you tell part of this was just searchin spotify for 'voices in my head' lol. i think it has the vibes but ymmv

my favorite stranger - depeche mode can you tell host really fuckin likes depeche mode. lmao. ht to @the-masked-bandits-system for this one tho

voices inside my head- the police again do i really need to say anything

the passenger- siouxie and the banshees this is for all of us who sit and watch while other people do shit

the projectionist- thoushaltnot another @endogenesis-evangelion banger. thx forte

disconnection notice - sonic youth the narrator may not be plural but hes profoundly alienated from everyone and everything and thats close enough /meme

clones (we're all) - smashing pumpkins can you believe that there aint anything from siamese dream that fits on here. that title is ~pluralcore~ af. but nooooo

personality crisis - new york dolls is this a new guy or am i going crazy??? who knows???

imaginary friends - splitsville i hate the 'i' word as much as the next headmate but the song is good so.

who do you want to be - oingo boingo listen i know this is about 80s tv pop culture but like. ~source separation~ vibes. who do you wanna be today?

am i awake - they might be giants ik ik ik ik. tmbg is lemon demon for 80s/90s kids. but this has the dissociative vibes

voices in my head - falling in reverse what can i say about this one other than that its got the content warnings and its catchy.

birthright - celldweller thx @eklesia-system for this one - i think i got a new fave band from yr recs cause this fucks

lucretia my reflection - sisters of mercy lucretia / my reflection / dance the ghost with me

personal jesus- depeche mode feelin unknown n yr all alone/flesh and bone by the telephone/lift up the reciever ill make u a believer

voices in my head - vicetone + chelsea collins anxiety, wanting yr fuckass headmate to fuckin shut the fuck up

voices in my head - dj univxrsel another one from the spotify mines

imaginary friends - deadmau5 we needed more good fuckin crunchy edm on here. im tryin to get more into edm so if u got recs hmu. also fuck the title but this slaps

voices in my head (they said) - jack harris instead, instead of panicking again/ i'm making friends with the voices in my head

mad world - tears for fears i know this songs kind of a meme but the lyrics man. if you got hte trauma and u dont listen to tears for fears yr missin out on a band that gets it

whistling in the dark - they might be giants theres only one thing that i know how to do well/and ive often been told that you only can do what you know how to do well/and thats be you/be what yr like/be like yrself

over my head - lit overwhelm is a v system feel for us ig? ok ill own it this is mostly here to lift up the mood at the end.

imaginary friend (english version) - itzy ok this song is the whole reason this playlist exists. hosts partner is real into kpop and was listenin to this and we started laughin about how big the system mood is with this one and how"LYRICS GUY YR EXPERIENCES ARENT UNIVERSAL." it made me wanna see how many songs i could find about the system experience tho. i dont like kpop. at all. but this one speaks 2 me.

@endogenesis-evangelion @lizardywizard @furyfuzz @eklesia-system @thegmsys @the-masked-bandits-system all either wanted to see this playlist or recced songs to put on it. i didnt get to everyones songs so if u want urs on here- well ill see if i can cram it in somewhere lol

[hotgirlmoment]

tagged by @sunpetals and my dash is dead rn and im trying to ignore sth so might as well overshare again smh....

last

1. drink - coffee

2. phone call - my mum

3. text message - telling my friend that were gonna work it out somehow even though her decision to change universities really fucked me up and im still not ready to think about it (well that “Ignoring sth” thing really isnt working out for me)

4. song you listened to - sonando de ti (thank you @luthoring lmao)

5. time you cried - today haha see last text message

ever

6. dated someone twice?- haha no

7. kissed someone and regretted it - yeah

8. been cheated on - no

9. lost someone special - luckily no

10. been depressed - ??? honestly who knows

11. gotten drunk and thrown up - uhm YA!

fave colours

12. red!

13. dark green

14. softish light turquoise

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends - yeah!

16. fallen out of love - no

17. laughed until you cried - yeah!

18. found out someone was talking about you - hm yeah but i dont really remember what it was about, luckily I pretty easily forget upsetting but irrelevant stuff like that

19. met someone who changed you - no i dont think so

20. found out who your friends are - i already knew!

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list - yeah!

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl - all except 1 or 2

23. do you have any pets - yeah a cat !!! see here (but she lives at home with mum)

24. do you want to change your name - nope i actually love my name a lot

25. what did you do for your last birthday - saw star wars with my friends

26. what time did you wake up today - 8am WAY Earlier than the last days where I spent all of it in bed lmao

27. what were you doing at midnight last night - on my phone

28. what is something you can’t wait for - eh finally getting my shit together to write applications for an internship and getting one! I hate having open deadlines like that

30. what are you listening to right now - nothing

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom - yeah

32. something that’s getting on your nerves - a lot about how uni works in general

33. most visited website - atm tumblr

34. hair colour - darkish blonde

35. long or short hair - asuhfaisugh the worst question! love my long hair but been meaning to cut it REAL short for like 2 years now. i just cant decide so i do nothing

36. do you have a crush on someone - what are crushes haha :(

37. what do you like about yourself - i guess mostly everything #positivity

38. want any piercings? - maybe!

39. blood type - i have no idea 

40. nicknames - loads of embarassing german ones from my mum! apart from that not really

41. relationship status - single

42. zodiac - sagittarius

43. pronouns - she/her

44. fave tv shows - ohhh so many! just look at what i reblog tbh

45. tattoos - none yet

46. right or left handed - right

47. ever had surgery - yeah on my chin but i was awake so does that count?

48. piercings - nah only my ears

49. sports - uhm i used to do horseback riding! I love all kinds of action sports and cant really be bothered with “boring” stuff sadly 

50. vacation - dream vacatioN? anywhere i guess! 

51. trainers - LOVE sneakers but i dont train in them haha (got the usual converse, nikes...)

more general

52. eating - had a vanilla donut earlier

53. drinking - a lot

54. i’m about to watch - depends on what my mum and i can settle on

55. waiting for - april 7th!! Basquiat exhibition at fancy museum feat. art party afterwards (new wave dress code, 70s/80s vibe ALL OF THAT its gonna be lit)

56. want - gf!!!!!

57. get married - YEAH!

58. career - scientist!

which is better

59. hugs or kisses - kisses i guess! im not thaaat big on casual intimacy like hugs sadly (trying to get better though) 

60. lips or eyes - oh both!

61. shorter or taller - i really dont care

62. older or younger - idc but since im usually the youngest person around everywhere i go anyway i guess older

63. nice arms or stomach - idc

64. hookup or relationship - relationship!

65. troublemaker or hesitant - REALLY depends on my mood! usually id say hesitant but the sun sag tends to really come through sometimes

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger - yeah

67. drank hard liquor - too often

68. lost glasses - 20/20 bitch

69. turned someone down - if we talking randos @ the club then yes!

70. sex on first date - no

71. broken someones heart - i wouldnt know

72. had your heart broken - nah

73. been arrested - no

74. cried when someone died - at funerals yes

75. fallen for a friend - nah

do you believe in

76. yourself - yeah!

77. miracles - YEAH

78. love at first sight - attraction but not love

79. santa claus - nah

80. kiss on a first date - yeah why not

81. angels - hm hard question

other

82. best friend’s name - several i couldnt pick!

83. eye colour - blueish grey

84. fave movie - thats a loaded question!

85. fave actor - I could never pick! 

tagging uhhh @mistaekn and anyone who sees this and is bored and wants to overshare or distract themselves!!