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litgwritersroom · 3 years ago

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This is a first for us, but oh my god! A response fic for Jaded which captures Jade's perspective of the whole argument. And it is AMAZING!

Thank you so much @luckyqueenobject for this amazing fic!!!

Come Back Home x Jaded

I was in awe and Inspired by @mrsbsmooth JADED writing prompt re: Suresh/MC – that I had to write from the MC perspective. I tried to follow their timeline but did change a few things around. I wasn’t sure if I should change the conversations fully, and decided I should keep them similar but change them a little as this was coming from the MC’s POV.

This is my first time, so please be kind lol.

** This also contains the spoilers from Episode 11 **

Story Inspo and credit: JADED @mrsbsmooth Suresh / MC

Come Back Home - Suresh / MC - MC POV

TODAY

For the past four months, Jade, had been hiding a big secret from Suresh. And tonight, it would all be revealed.

It all started the night of their one-year anniversary…

**4 Months Ago**

Jade walked into her apartment and gasped. All around her were beautiful, elaborate arrangements of all of her favorite flowers that took up every inch of her small flat. Short vases with pink hydrangeas and tall and large ones with different types of exotic flowers. As she walked around the maze that was now her apartment, she found Suresh sitting in the living room taking in her sheer delight.

“Babe!” she shrieked as she hurried over to him and jumped in his arms. She kissed him passionately, biting down on his lower lip before releasing the kiss.

“Happy Anniversary,” he said smiling.

“How did you do all this?”

“I don’t want to give away my accomplice, but it might be nice if you give a certain lovely downstairs neighbor by the name of Mrs. Atkinson one of these bouquets as a thank you.”

Jade got up to take in all of the beauty around her, she could feel Suresh starring at her and when she looked over all she saw was pure adoration. He got up and hugged Jade from behind, she melted into his arms as he whispered, “We’re not done yet.”

She turned around to face him with an excited look on her face. He grabbed her hand before she could say anything else and led her to the bedroom. There were more flowers in this room, but on her bed sat two beautifully wrapped boxes. One much smaller and thinner than the other. Suresh grabbed the bigger box first and handed to Jade.

She brushed her finger across the lush white and gold wrapping paper, the satin bow gleamed. Even the tape felt expensive. “It’s almost too pretty to open,” she said.

“I’m sure you’ll like what’s inside way more than the wrapping paper,” he laughed.

She smiled at him as she started to unwrap the first box, she noticed a familiar name at the top. Her favorite boutique! She slid the first half of the box up and it revealed a gorgeous, sequined black mini dress.

“Oh my god, babe. It’s stunning. I absolutely love it,” she said as she pressed the dress against her body and looked at herself in the mirror.

“I would love for you to wear it tonight, that is if you don’t have another outfit, you like more.”

She rushed over to him, “Of course I’ll wear it! I love it so much.”

“Good, and here’s another one,” he slid a skinny envelope looking box over to her. It was wrapped in the same paper as the first package, as she started to unwrap it, she noticed it was a non-descript box. She opened It just as delicately as the first, there were what seemed to be plane tickets in the box as she took them out, she realized he purchased two tickets for them to go on holiday in Turkey in two weeks.

Before she could even say anything, he said “Don’t worry, I already spoke to your boss, and he approved your time off. We leave in two weeks.”

She ran towards him and kissed him fervently. “How are you this perfect? I love you so much.”

“Well get ready, because the surprises aren’t over yet,” he said as he walked back to the living room. He had a few more tricks up his sleeve before the night was over.

Over the years, Suresh dated his fair share of women, but he could never truly commit to them. After a few weeks of courting, he became bored with them and would ghost them. Jade was different. From the very first day they met he knew she was someone special. She was fiery and put him in his place. She was kind and funny. She constantly put others before herself and she was loyal to the core. And it didn’t hurt that she was drop dead gorgeous. Tonight, Suresh was taking Jade to the restaurant they went to on their very first date. He had one more surprise in store for her that was tucked away in a small box in his pocket.

As they arrived at the restaurant holding hands, Suresh got a call from his office. They knew this was an important night for him, but he was also on the fast track to partner. Jade saw the name pop up on the screen, “If you need to get it, I can wait babe. I’ll go inside and grab my first glass of bubbly.” He loved that she was so willing to compromise with him and because of that he declined the call and ushered her into the restaurant.

They hadn’t been back to this restaurant since their first date, after a few glasses of bubbly, Jade and Suresh were having a hard time keeping their hands off each other. Much to the chagrin of their waiter and nearby patrons. As their hostess lead them to the same table they sat at on their first date one year ago, Jade turned to Suresh and whispered “I hope they have stronger glassware this year. It’s been a year but I’m still having a hard time keeping myself together when you look this good,” she said as she bit her lip. He winked at her and nodded to the table.

And that’s when she noticed them – two plastic champagne flutes. She turned around to see he was grinning widely at her.

“I thought these might be a better option, so we don’t risk almost getting kicked out again,” he said smiling.

“I don’t think I can possibly love you more than I do right now,” Jade said as she leaned in to kiss Suresh. As they parted from the kiss, she noticed there was a small box under Suresh’s hand. “What’s that?” she asked with a mischievous glint in her eye. Suresh looks at her with an intensely sincere and passionate look, “Jade I’m utterly and completely in love with you. This past year with you has been incredible and I want to take our relationship to the next level.” He pauses and slides the small gold leaf box over to her. Jade stares at the box before making any motion to open it, in her mind she screams to herself OMG!!!! IS HE PROPOSING?!?!?! But when she takes the box in her hand, she realizes it’s flatter than a normal ring box. She starts to open it and she sees a brand-new shiny set of keys. As she looks back to him with a smile he asks, “Will you move in with me?”

“Yes! Of course!” she exclaims as she sidles over to him to give him another kiss. And this was the exact moment when the scheming and the lies began.

After returning home and properly celebrating their anniversary in the bedroom, Jade lied awake while Suresh slept peacefully beside her.

Moving in together.

She’d never lived with a guy before this and realized that the next step would be marriage. They never discussed marriage before, but she couldn’t imagine that it wouldn’t be in the cards for them. She believed Suresh loved and cared for her deeply, it was the healthiest relationship she had ever been in, and she wasn’t sure how she got so lucky. As she laid in bed listening to the rhythmic sounds of his breathing, she thought about the moment he gave her the keys to his apartment. Deep down she believed he was proposing, thinking it over now she knows she would’ve said yes to him, had he asked.

As he stirred in bed moving closer to her, she realized there was no reason why she couldn’t ask Suresh to marry her. It wasn’t traditional, but neither were they. She knew she’d have to lie and sneak around for a few weeks until she figured out what kind of ring, she wanted to get him. She knew that a lot of jewelry companies were moving to online, and it might be easier and more discrete if she would be able to receive samples of the ring in the mail.

I’ll keep my post at my old apartment after I move and have Mrs. Atkinson hold my mail for me! She absolutely adores Resh, and I know she will be so happy for us.

TODAY

Jade checked the time on her phone again, where was Mrs. Atkinson? She called last night and earlier in the day to confirm she’d be home at 5. It was now 5:15 and Mrs. Atkinson was nowhere to be found. As she tried to call her for a third time, Jade noticed her elderly neighbor’s car pulling into Jade’s old street. For the past four months, Mrs. Atkinson had been Jade’s one and only accomplice in Operation: Propose to Suresh.

“Darling, I’m so sorry. The lines at the market were out the door today!” Mrs. Atkinson said as she shifted a brown bag of groceries in her arm from the back seat.

Jade rushed down to help her, “Please, let me help you, I can carry the bags.”

“Oh, thank you dear,” she said as she swung her large brown purse over her arm and shuffled up the drive. She fiddled with her keys as she excitedly said, “the package arrived this morning!”

“Thank goodness! I’m planning on doing it tonight,” Jade beamed as she simultaneously called an uber on her cell. 4 minutes away. As she entered Mrs. Atkinson’s flat, she realized her whole life was about to change tonight. Her elderly neighbor shuffled to the kitchen where she returned with a box, and some of Jade’s mail.

“Here you go dear!” She said as she handed Jade the package. “You know in my day I would never have been as bold as to ask my Henry to marry me. But I’m so happy that the times have changed and that you are going to be able to show that lovely man how much you love him. Please send him my love, I always loved when he would come around and help me around the house.”

“Thank you so much Mrs. A, we will be back round soon enough.” Jade said as she heard two car horns outside, a sign her uber was outside. “I’m sorry I can’t chat longer today, I’m running behind. Bye Mrs. A!

She ran down her old drive and got in the uber and checked how long it would take her to get home. Normally this drive would be 15-20 minutes but an accident on the main road had caused a massive delay and it would now take her 35 minutes to get home. She was going to be late. As if on cue, Suresh texted her.

S: babe are you close? We need to leave here in 20 minutes.

J: got held up but im on my way…there’s a massive accident

S: jade….

S: you know how impt tonight is for me

“You know how important tonight is for me” …if only he knew how important it actually was, she thought. He’s going to be my fiancé tonight!

As she opened the door to their penthouse apartment, she could see Suresh sitting at their kitchen island, ready to go.

“Sorry, sorry, I know, I know. I got held up and there was so much traffic,” she said as she rushed to their bedroom, in their massive master closet she pulled her favorite clutch bag and snuck the ring box in the inside pocket. She slipped on the new dress she bought for this exact occasion and rushed to the bathroom to do her makeup and touch up her hair.

Her plan for tonight was simple, but she knew he would love every second of it. After he got his much-deserved promotion, Jade would let him revel in his accomplishments with his co-workers and suggest that the two of them go celebrate. She made reservations at the same place he took her on her first date and their one-year anniversary. She had already called ahead, and the staff knew to reserve their booth and bring them dessert first with the ring in the middle and “will you marry me” written on the outside of the plate.

When she emerged from the bathroom, Suresh looked at her incredulously and gave her the sweet half smile that she loved so much. He opened his arms, and she ran into them. All of the nervousness of the day washed away as he held her.

Once they got in their car headed to his event, they started to make small talk about their day.

Be normal.

Talk about everyday things.

Don’t think about the ring burning a hole in your purse.

Jade was a terrible liar and she felt it was always best to keep her lies as close to the truth as possible. So, when Suresh asked her about her day, she inadvertently mentioned the one thing she knew would make him kick off.

“I had to run some errands and I had to go pick up a package all the way over…” before she could finish, she stopped herself and noticed that his body stiffened and shifted over a few centimeters.

She could see his jaw clench as he asked her “What was in the package?” This had been a major point of contention for Suresh, he didn’t understand why Jade still hadn’t changed her mailing address from her old place and why she continued to collect her mail from Mrs. Atkinson.

“Oh, um just a few things…” she didn’t want to dwell on this further and cause a fight in the back of the car.

“Jade…. you promised,” he said as he shifted his body closer to the window and looked outside at the foreboding dark clouds above.

“I know, Resh, I will. I promise.” As she said this, the sky began to open up and pour all around them.

“You said that the last time,” he whispered under the roar of the rain around them. The rain, to him, was synonymous with how he was feeling right now. Hurt and angry.

Why did I have to mention the stupid package, I could’ve just said I got held up at work, or traffic, anything else. I wish I could just tell him the truth about why I haven’t changed my address. He’s probably assuming the worst right now. At least tonight he’ll know I had a very good reason to not change my address.

Jade sidled closer to him and held his hand. He squeezed her hand and gave her a light kiss on her thumb, as if to say let’s not fight.

Less than two minutes later, the car came to a stop at a beautiful modern building where the event was taking place. He exited the car in one fluid motion and ran to her side to open her door and cover her from the rain. He held her tight against him as they walked quickly inside.

Once inside, they walked over to the bar, and he ordered two glasses of champagne. Jade couldn’t help but stare at him from afar in pure adoration. Everything about the way he moved felt like a beautiful song.

As they moved about the event, Jade was charming the senior partners and his fellow co-workers. They found her to be charismatic, amusing, and witty. She knew the night could not be going any better.

“So how long have you two been together?” one of the partners’ wives asked, her face warm and inviting.

“Just over a year,” Suresh said smiling down at Jade, who met his eyes as if he were her entire universe.

“Ohhhh,” she squealed. “So, it must be getting near time to….hmmm?” she asked, as she motioned her own ring finger to him, with a chuckle.

“Who knows?” Suresh chuckled. They hadn’t talked about it, so he just shot her a smile and a coy wink, silently apologizing for putting her on the spot. “Maybe?”

Jade’s eyes widened like she’d been stuck with a branding iron.

“What?” She laughed, loudly. “Don’t you even think about it!“

How could this women know anything about what was to happen tonight, it’s just a coincidence, Jade thought to herself. Did I come across too awkward? Did I sound like I hated the thought of marriage? At least I’m doing this tonight.

She felt a small buzz from her purse, her phone lit up with a message that read. “Update?” it was from the waiter, at this point it was about 1 hour to the time she told him they’d head over.

J: Not yet. They haven’t announced the promotion yet.

As she finished hitting send, Suresh’s boss Charlie started to clink his glass as he held a microphone with the other hand.

This is it.

She squeezed his hand and smiled up at him. The moment he had been waiting for, for the past 6 months.

Charlie launched into a long speech about hard work, loyalty and their massive success stories this year. She knew Suresh had been integral in bringing in three huge accounts this year that had easily pushed him into junior partner territory.

She could sense Suresh’s nervousness as Charlie continued his speech, “So we’re here tonight to announce and welcome our newest junior partner, and the youngest to ever be offered the role….Marisol Io Truglio.”

She could feel her heart beating through her chest, through her ears and she realized she was holding her breath. She looked at Suresh but realized he had let go of her hand and was now applauding Marisol loudly. She knew he was compensating for his own disappointment.

Jade was frozen, as she watched Charlie pull Suresh aside to explain the decision.

This isn’t ideal, but maybe I should still propose tonight. He will have something really special to look forward to, even if he didn’t get what he originally wanted tonight.

She was lost in thought when she noticed Suresh bounding past her towards the bar. He was clearly fuming about the promotion, so she let him have a minute to himself. She walked over to Marisol and congratulated her on her promotion, and they chatted for a bit. In the corner of Jade’s eye, she could see Suresh downing a double scotch and ordering another one. He immediately drank that one too and ordered another.

As she was about to walk over to stop him, she got a text from the waiter, who she just had saved as W.

W: update?

J: we may need to postpone…Think it may need to be another day.

W: im so sorry I know you had ur heart set on today

J: its ok. Thank you so much for your help.

In the few minutes she spent texting she could see that he had now ordered another drink and was downing that one too. Jade picked up her pace as she walked towards him. She noticed that most people had headed over to the stage area where soon they would be shown a few presentations for their year ahead.

“Babe, it’s time to go” she said.

“I’m staying out for a while” he said.

“Resh, you don’t want to do this here. I know how badly you wanted this, but you can’t beat yourself up over this. They probably went with Marisol because she’s ….”

“Committed,” he growled.

“I was going to say extremely boring, but sure, why not?” she smiled trying to make light of the situation.

Suresh slammed his scotch back down on the bar, louder than he expected. This made Jade jump and the few people that were still in their vicinity look over to see what the commotion was.

“Is that what you think? That being committed to something is boring?” he snarled.

Jade looked at him confused, and she could sense the conversation wasn’t about Marisol and the promotion anymore. “That’s not what I said Suresh. Can we please go? We’re surrounded by your co-workers and although you may not care right now you will care tomorrow.”

“As if you fucking care about me Jade,” he snaps.

Jade looks deeply hurt and offended by this accusation.

“Go on Jade! Act shocked. Act like it’s a fucking surprise to you. Act like you don’t know how much if fucking destroys me. I swear, it’s like you enjoy watching me suffer.” He snarls.

“Excuse me?” She asks, absolutely incredulous.

“You’re so desperate to cling on to that one link to your single life. Anything to remind yourself that you’ve still got an out. Just fucking admit it. That’s why you won’t change your fucking address and why you shot down marrying me in front of half the fucking partners.”

“You’ve got no idea what you’re talking about, Suresh.” She picks up her bag, still holding the ring inside, turns around and walks out the door. Jade holds back tears as he screams behind her “Bye Jade. See you at the apartment you apparently don’t live in.”

Jade is burning red hot with anger and embarrassment. Their town car is still waiting out front, and she asks the driver to please take her home.

“Are you alright miss?” a low sweet voice comes from the driver.

Tears have started to flood out of Jade like the storm that continues to rage on, even angrier than before they arrived at the event tonight.

“I’m ok. I’m ok” she says as she takes a deep breath and looks out the window.

When they arrive at the apartment, she thanks him, and her doorman George is rushing to get the door for her with an umbrella in hand. The driver looks at the rear-view mirror and says to her, “don’t let any man make you cry. Even a handsome geezer like Suresh.” She laughs and thanks him once more.

Jade walks into their apartment defeated. She is exhausted from the turn of events tonight. She heads to her closet to undress and as she opens her purse the ring box stares back at her. She takes it and shoves it in her bed side table for now. She takes a hot shower and puts on one of Suresh’s oversized university t-shirts as she locks the door to their bedroom.

After his antics tonight, he can sleep on the couch or in the guest room, but he won’t be sleeping with me until he apologizes.

She settles into bed around 11 but goes into a fitful sleep. She tosses and turns half awake and half dreaming about Suresh telling her she doesn’t care. She’s awoken by a phone call; she sees the name on the screen. Babe <3, it’s Suresh but she notices It’s after 2AM… where is he?

“Hello?” she croaks. Her voice sore from crying and lack of sleep.

All she could hear at first on the other line were whimpers and someone crying. This woke Jade up and she sat up in bed.

“Hello, who is this?” she asked again

A woman’s voice answers back “I’m sorry I didn’t know you were together,” she cries as she continues. “Please what’s your email address??”

Without thinking Jade tells her, her email address but asks her, “Please who are you and why do you have Suresh’s phone? Is he ok?”

“I’m sending you an email, and this will explain everything.” The mystery woman continues to cry but is able to get out, “Suresh is a bad guy” before the call ends.

The soft tone of a dropped call plays.

Jade tries calling again, and again. But the phone seems to have either died or been turned off.

Jade rushes to the office and checks her email. She stares into the void of her emails and clicks refresh again and again. It takes another minute because the file is so large, but in her inbox is an email from McGee’s pub with the subject line, “I’m sorry I didn’t know he was married” with an attached video.

Jade instantly feels uneasy, her chest is pounding, her head is throbbing, and her hand trembles as she moves to click play. On her screen she makes out a tiny, cluttered, dark office space. It looks exactly like what a pub office would look like. Papers strewn about on a wooden desk haphazardly, stacks of beer bottles in a corner, a small folding chair and an out-of-date computer. She notices there’s a timestamp on the right-hand corner of the video with today’s date, 12:55AM. And then she sees him stumble into the office with a waitress. His hand is bleeding, he’s clearly hurt himself and she’s helping him. There’s no audio but she laughs at something he says. He can barely stand up and he falls into the waitress, she turns around and kisses him. He pulls away from the kiss but pulls a condom out of his wallet. She helps him put it on and he bends the waitress over the desk, he starts to fuck the waitress with zero hesitation. She snaps the laptop shut, she’s seen enough for today.

Jade can’t believe her eyes; she lets the tears come and she cries a guttural cry. She quickly reaches for the waste basket underneath the desk and throws up into it. She doesn’t understand how or why he would do this.

He went on and on about commitment, but he was cheating on me? I need to get my shit and get the fuck out of here.

Through heavy sobs, Jade begins to pack up all her things. At around 7AM she called her brother David, her voice hoarse from crying. He asked her what was wrong, but she couldn’t get it out without crying.

“Do you want me to come over?” David asked. “what’s he done? Are you ok?”

“Come over please…. We’re done” Jade croaked.

David rushed over and was there within 10 minutes, he hugged her tight.

“Where is he?” David asked

“Probably with the girl he’s been cheating on me with.” With that Jade started to bawl all over again. It took David an hour to get her to stop hysterically crying and to attempt to load up their cars with her things to get her out of here before he returned. When Jade came back for the last of her things, she saw a picture of Suresh and her in Turkey. They were both smiling back at her so happily. In her anger she ran to the kitchen and pulled out garbage bags. She threw one at her brother.

“All the pictures of us in the trash.”

“Jade are you sure?” he asked nervously.

“If I’m in it, toss it. I don’t want him having any of these memories of me.”

She headed into their bedroom where they had a nice gallery wall of pictures from their year together. The two of them at Christmas last year with his family. A selfie of the two of them giggling on the hot air balloon. A picture of them at his birthday last year. One of him kissing her under the Eiffel Tower. One of them in Italy. In a fury, she ripped all the frames off the wall and tossed them in the bag. The glass breaking inside as she tossed the frames in without abandon. It was almost 11 when she finally threw the last bag of broken glass and broken dreams down the garbage shoot.

She walked back into the apartment one last time, went into the office and got his laptop. She then started a new email. No subject, no text. Just a video attachment and sent it to Suresh. She left the laptop where she knew he would see it, and with his emails opened.

“Are you ok to drive,” her brother looked at her with concern.

“Yes, let’s go” she said as she put on her biggest, darkest sunglasses and tried to not let brother see her cry.

As she got in her car, she grabbed her phone and blocked Suresh on everything. She deleted all their pics on IG and went private. He wouldn’t be able to call her, email her, dm her, nothing. There was no need for an explanation for what he had done.

The next three months seemed to pass by in blur for Jade. She couldn’t taste food anymore, jokes weren’t funny, music sounded dull and altogether impossible to listen to without taking her into a black hole of grief, it seemed like life itself had lost color and vibrancy.

Her friends pestered her to hang out, but she couldn’t force herself out of the house. It was bad enough that he haunted her dreams nightly, some nights with apologies, other nights the video just replayed in her mind on a loop. Everywhere she went was a reminder of him and she saw his ghost everywhere. The first time she went to the coffee shop by her brother’s flat, she almost choked on her scone as someone who resembled him walked in. She didn’t want to be reminded of him. She didn’t want a chance of seeing him out with someone else.

She’d heard from some friends that he had reached out imploring them to connect them or arrange a meeting for him to explain. Jade vehemently refused every ask and told them to stop asking. She couldn’t imagine a day where she would be able to see him and it wouldn’t shatter her in two.

The pain of it all seemed insurmountable for months. And then on an ordinary day, about four months after their breakup, she laughed again. This wasn’t the fake laugh she had taught herself to do, but a real laugh. She realized that the ghosts were also haunting her dreams less frequently. She knew she wasn’t over what happened to her, but she was definitely at a better place, and life started to feel good again.

8 Months After the Breakup

Jade was leaving the gym one afternoon when she saw she had 15 missed calls from her best friend Gemma in the hour she had been at the gym.

Gemma answered in one ring “Jade, OMG WHERE ARE YOU? You’re going to kill me. Please, please, please don’t kill me. Omg I never thought this would actually happen. We did it for a laugh. Me and Fran. We thought it might be good for you if you were picked….” She continued to ramble off a bit.

“GEMMA! Stop, calm down!” she said. “Please tell me what’s going on”

“Can you just come over and I’ll explain everything? Fran is on her way too,” Gemma said.

“Ok, I just need to shower first, and I’ll head over.”

“JADE, there is no time for showers. Come here now please.” Gemma shrieks.

Jade calmly says, “Ok, I’m on my way.”

As Jade pulls up to Gemma’s drive, her and Fran are already opening the door and bounding outside to greet Jade.

“Ok, what is going on? You guys are scaring me now.” Jade says.

“We first need you to promise that you won’t be mad at us,” Fran says.

“Yes, I promise. Now out with it,” Jade says.

Gemma starts to explain, “I hate to bring up that sad sack excuse for a man but after Suresh you were really down, and we felt terrible that we couldn’t do anything for you. We mentioned it to Fran’s boyfriend, and he jokingly said, ‘let’s get her in next season of love island’ and we were like actually that’s a great idea, what do we need to do?”

“Wait….what?” Jades face is pale, and she looks terrified.

“Jade let me finish! So, Fran and I told him what happened, and he told us he just needed us to fill out an application form and he would bring it to the head casting director. We sent them your pictures and some fun videos of you on night outs and they loved you.”

“What does that mean, they loved me?”

“Babe, they want you on the show,” Fran exclaimed!

“This is your chance to have the summer of your life, meet new guys and maybe even leave with a relationship.” Gemma said. “So, what do you say?”

Jade looked at her two best friends in disbelief as she said “I can’t believe I’m saying this but…I’m in.”

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