#listen. it's 1:30am on a Tuesday night and I'm thinking about how she's never gonna say she's proud of me.
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I am an adult and that means I can cook an impromptu dinner at 1am on a Tuesday night if I want to
#him: I'm going to make a cheese sandwich#me: lol cool I'm making egg fried rice and chicken. enjoy your bread n cheese homie#listen. i had a craving and I'm tired of catering to what other people want#listen. it's 1:30am on a Tuesday night and I'm thinking about how she's never gonna say she's proud of me.#she's never gonna say i made the right choices. she's never gonna tell me I'm living the life she wanted for me#and even though we did talk out some of our issues. there's no covering the fact that i have always been a disappointment#and the thing is. that's all i will ever be to her. like i know the love was there. but overriding that was the reality that i could never#be what she wanted me to be.#her hands were so shrivelled in the end. looking at her was horrifying.#i survived the day but am i processing? i just want to be alone. and no one wants to leave me alone.#yes they're worried but this is why i stay in bed late and stay up late. it's the only time i have to be alone lately.#i don't want a return to normalcy. but i want to scream and cry and break down if I want to#and i simply cannot be vulnerable with people watching. i cannot melt down if there are witnesses.#and the thing is that i really do need to melt down#personal#hello I'm losing my shit
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Eden's Gate: Left Behind Chapter 2 - Secret Admirer
Warnings: None
Word count: 1.5k
Once again John Seed is slightly out of character (because Winchester 😂😂). Locations I added in for this series that don't exist in game because #HeacanonShit.
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Kate’s been living in Hope County for a week already, and she starts her first day at the University that same morning, taking 8 classes, and working 4-7 hours shifts at the cafè & diner on the weekends and her days off from class. Her class schedule is.
Introduction to Therapeutic Skills
Monday & Tuesdays: 8:30am-11:00am
Human Sexuality
Monday & Tuesdays: 12:15pm-3:00pm
Drugs & Behavior
Mondays & Tuesday: 3:30pm-5:45pm
Abnormal Psychology
Wednesdays: 7:15am-10:15
General Psychology
Wednesdays: 10:45am-1:30pm
Social Psychology
Wednesdays: 2:00pm-3:55pm
Adolescence
Thursdays: 8:30am-11:30am
Personality
Thursdays: 12:30pm-2:15pm
She wakes up at 6:30am, slamming her hand down on her phone trying to shut off the alarm. She forces herself to sit up, rubbing her face aggressively.
After a few minutes she gets up and takes a quick shower.
She gets dressed, grooms and eats something.
She looks at her phone for the time it's 7:21am.
She feeds Haley, she grabs all her books, and other class supplies, puts them in her backpack. Still has over an hour until her first class starts.
Looking at her work schedule, she starts her job at the cafè on Thursday from 4pm until 10pm.
Thursdays: 4:00pm-10:00pm
Fridays: 8:00am-5:00pm
Saturdays: 8:00am-5:00pm
Sundays: 9:00am-5:00pm
She goes over her class material, looking through her syllabus, modules and everything else. She checks the time, 7:32am.
"I gotta get going" she says to herself.
"Bye Hale I'll be back later" she says petting her dogs head.
She goes outside to her car, locks the front door, and drives off to the University.
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Meanwhile at the Seed ranch, John is working on his computer, paperwork, lawyer shit, and sending out threatening messages to property owners to take over their properties to expand the Project.
His mind keeps throwing him off his work. Kate keeps coming to mind, he kept thinking about her non stop even when he was asleep.
She kept interfering with his thoughts, he didn't even know her name.
Only that she drives a black 1970 Chevy Monte Carlo, he leans back in his chair, and closes his eyes. He sees her face, how she walks, how her brown eyes reflect off the sun.
He gets up from his chair and looks out a window.
"What's going on?' he asks himself, that feeling in his stomach comes back, he tries to ignore it but it won't go away.
It takes him a moment to realize that he's fallen in love with her.
How can he fall in love with someone he doesn't even know?!.
He doesn't know her name, where she lives, what she does for a living.
Is she a sinner? a nonbeliever?
Should I have her confess and atone so she can be near me!? So she can be underneath me!?. All these thoughts come flying into his mind.
He takes Joseph’s advice, he should go to her.
He goes back onto his computer, and accesses personal information about the residents of Hope County.
He goes onto some illegal public records website.
Types in “Hope County, Montana residents” and a bunch of names pop up.
Scrolling through the names. He figures, she's new, because he’s never seen her before.
He narrows it down to recent residents of Hope County, he finds Kate but it only gives him her first initial, middle initial and last name.
"K.E. Winchester?'' he mutters to himself.
Taps the keys on his keyboard, and shows an image of her house
"That house looks familiar" he tells himself.
Zooming in on the photo to see the cross streets
"Melrose and Kelley?" he asks himself.
A few hours go by. He was able to get her full address.
He wasn't able to get her first name.
All he knows is that it begins with the letter K, her middle name starts with an E, and her last name is Winchester.
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Kate is sitting in her first class
Introduction to Therapeutic Skills, listening to the professor go over their syllabus and the lecture.
She still has 2 more classes to go to that day.
*A few hours later*
Her class finishes, she walks out the building, and looks at her clock on her phone, she has a whole hour and 15 minutes until her next class begins.
So she goes back home and checks in on Haley.
As she’s walking to her car, her friends Alissa and Sarah call out for her.
“Kate!!!!” they call out. She turns to them.
“Hey!!” she responds.
“What are you doing on Friday?!” Sarah asks.
She looks around, humming incoherently.
“Nothing. Why?!” she replies.
“We’re gonna all hang out Friday night at the Whitetails” Alissa says.
“Sounds fun. Who else is gonna be there?!” Kate asks.
“Me, Alissa, Morgan, Ryan, Dylan, Kevin, Becky and a few others” Sarah answers.
Kate shrugs, and says “Yeah sure, I’ll be there. Just text me where its gonna be, and I’ll be there”
“Awesome, see you later. Bye” Alissa says, and they all go their separate ways.
Kate goes into her car, and drives back to her house.
*10 minutes later*
She pulls into the driveway and goes inside her house.
Leaving her backpack and books in the car.
When she opens the front door Haley jumps at her in excitement.
"Hey girl, I'm gonna be leaving again in 45 minutes. I'll give you more food before I leave" she tells her, petting her head.
Dropping herself on one of the chairs, turning on the TV.
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At the Seed Ranch, a desperate John looks up potential names for his mystery crush.
Klaire Winchester?. No records.
Kara Winchester?. Nope.
Kali Winchester?. Nope.
Kimberly Winchester? Nothing.
Kandace Winchester? Nothing.
Kristen Winchester?. Still nothing
Tapping the keys of his keyboard on his computer.
None of those names come up in any records.
He groans, leaning back in his chair.
Groaning somewhat frustrated.
He can't seem to figure out her name.
It's probably something simple, and he can't think of it.
He has her home address. He can probably send flowers, or something to her house.
That’s what he does, take notes fellas.
He puts in an order of roses to be sent to her house that same day, and as a bonus he puts in a card with a short but to the point message.
Time passes by relatively fast.
Kate looks at her phone's clock 11:55am.
"Shit I gotta get going!!" she says, shooting up from her seat.
As she's about to open the door.
Haley lets out a loud bark to get her attention,
"What?" she asks her.
She lets out another loud bark.
"Oh that's right, I have to feed you".
She goes into the kitchen and pours some food into her bowl.
"Okay I'll be home later" she says, petting her head.
She goes into her car and drives back to the school.
Driving the 10 minutes back to school, going to her next lecture which is in the same building as her first class that morning.
*An hour later*
Kate is in her Human Sexuality class sitting at her desk taking notes while the professor goes over the lecture and class work.
Several hours later at 5:45pm, Kate leaves her final class for the day, and walks back to her car. Throwing her stuff in, starts up the car, and drives off.
She decides to go into town and buy some stuff for dinner.
Parking her car in the same spot as before next to that gas station.
She walks to the same grocery store that's near the church.
John, who is at the church, sees her walking in the distance.
His heart literally skips a beat.
He steps outside, taking a drag of his cigarette.
"A student?" he says to himself.
Admiring her beauty as she walks by
"Kaitlyn? Kourtney? Karen? Katherine? Kara? Kathleen? Khlöe?" he whispers to himself.
Trying to guess her name.
"Math? Science? History? Law?" he continues to whisper to himself.
She looks back coincidentally, looking in his direction.
Giving him a little smile.
He smiles back while taking another drag of his cigarette.
She walks into the store, grabs a shopping basket, browsing the aisles, and grabs stuff for dinner.
John stands outside the church waiting, and hoping she walks by like she did the other day. Maybe he can say more than "Nice car" to her.
Kate pays for her stuff and goes outside.
John sees her walk out the store. and prepares to say at least more than 2 words to her.
But unfortunately God wanted him to be patient.
She doesn't walk by the church.
Walking on her side of the street.
"Damn it" John mutters to himself, disappointed he really wanted to get to know her.
Hopefully the flowers he sent made it to her house.
He leaves the church, goes to his car, driving to her house.
Hoping he beats her to her house so he can see her reaction to the flowers.
5 minutes of driving, he makes it to her house.
She hasn't made it home yet, the flowers are sitting on the front porch.
He parks his car across the street while trying to remain hidden.
A few minutes later he sees her car from up the street.
Kate pulls into her driveway, and sees something at her front door when she gets out of her car, she sees that it's a vase with 2 dozen white and red roses.
Surprised, and completely caught off guard by the unexpecting gift.
She picks it up, and sees a card on it.
"You're beautiful ❤" a smile on her face, and she goes inside her house.
A smile grows on his face just by seeing her smile.
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Later that night, John is doing lawyer stuff and gets an unexpected visit from Joseph.
“John!” he says, walking into the ranch.
He turns around, and sees his older brother.
“Yes, Joseph?” he says.
“That girl?. Did you do what I told you to do?’ he asks, his voice soft.
“I-I sent her flowers” he answers, his going soft.
Joseph nods his head, and says.
“Don’t let her slip from you John. God has plans for the both of you. She will be one of us”.
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