#like. chatting w/coworkers n getting to know people from scratch doesn't feel like an arduous task at all anymore? | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

rubberbandballqueen · 2 years ago

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briefly went to war in my o chem server over my server nickname (someone kept switching it to my REAL NAME which, like, fair, i guess, since we're all classmates, but DAMMIT i am TRYING to GATEKEEP who can TAG ME), and for now it seems like we have a truce (i changed it to the literal chinese translation of my english name), but i think i've concluded that i hate it when people know who i am so immediately in these kinds of situations bc i tend to draw a lot of attn to myself irl anyway, n people get too afraid to approach me, but when they can't read my name at all, their eyes just kinda glaze over that part at all, n they seem to approach me with fewer biases

#the older i get the more often i'm told that i subvert/defy a lot of people's expectations/first impressions of me #which like. is cool! but the first impression i give off is apparently pretty unapproachable #so i guess i feel like when people don't know it's Me they're more willing to approach for help which i'm happy to give #smth smth the burden of having built a particular identity/perception over the course of the years #before you rlly knew what you were doing n now you don't know quite how to adjust the existing reputation #like don't get me wrong!! i love to subvert people's expectations of me; n i think i've been getting better at sociability #like. chatting w/coworkers n getting to know people from scratch doesn't feel like an arduous task at all anymore?#i think i just like the feeling of being approached on equal terms; n having an unreadable name online helps that #the worm speaks

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