#like; dysphoria is the closest word i can descri8e it with; 8ut not at all gender dysphoria; like 'this is someone elses 8ody' dysphoria | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

cornflowercanine · 3 years ago

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its weird to me that ppl will say you shouldnt have kids for the stupidest reasons 8ut when YOU'RE the one saying you dont want kids they pull out even more stupid-ass reasons why you HAVE to have kids like this random person's life depends on it

#clove rambles #'ohhhh kids n33d a mother AND a father so y-- w8 you dont want kids anyway? 8-8-8ut what a8out your /8loodline/!!!!'#so gross lol #anyway i was thinking a8t thos 8ilateral salpingectomies again most of the night #cause i remem8er when i learned they existed i cooooooould not stop thinking a8t them the idea i Could have kids 8iologically made me f33l #like; dysphoria is the closest word i can descri8e it with; 8ut not at all gender dysphoria; like 'this is someone elses 8ody' dysphoria #8a8y dysphoria? .....reproduction dysphoria??????????? 8largh #8ut anyway the past few months ive kinda just forgotten a8t it 8ut i still want to get it when i can #and i realized im kinda unconsciously having a f33ling of like.... 'ok so you dont wanna have kids thats fine;#8ut why go so far why make it permanant cant you just leave it as is and not have kids and 8e neutral a8t it?!?!'#and i f33l like thats a f33ling im gonna wrassle(??) with for a good while 8ut just.... god #'ik you dont want kids 8ut why dont you just leave your 8ody as is' f33ls like its missing the point for me #i dont want kids! 8ottom line! getting my tu8es removed would 8e part of that affirming and going through with Not Having Kids #and also i just like it i like knowing theres not even a slight possi8ility 8a8ies can happen (which is why i dont want other forms-#-of 8irth control) i like 8eing a8le to exist in my 8ody w/o worrying a8t stuff i like it 8eing My 8ody and not smth cr33ps will f33l-#-the right to Comment8 on (warding off/shutting down losers making uncomforta8le invasive comments a8t smth as 8ig as having kids-#-is a small part of it i prommy 8ut GOD.) I LIKE THE COOL SCARS i wanna get em im tempted to ask my future doctor to make em More visi8le #cause my 8ody's made of anti-scar cream and i just like it 8eing a choice i can make instead of having to settle with ...this #and f33ling trapped and doomed and like its smth i have to live with even if the chances of me having an accident are like. minute #thats not really the issue here i just dont like the fact It Is There hence the earlier dysphoria comment #ANYWAY its ma 8edtime now zzz #personal

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