#like you know i'm several anxiety disorders in a trenchcoat so do you just not realize you trigger my discomfort strongly?

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Okay, I've decided I need to make some new icons. That always helps me get out of a tumblr rp wriitng funk because then I'm like :)))) Time to show off my hard work :)))))))))))))))) Trying to decide if I want to ruin my Pinterest dash and make a Buffy pin board for icons. Idek....I'm pretty content with it being currently mostly GOmens fanart and David Tennent thirst. I'm a simple creature. Maybe I'll make a second account for Buffy pins. I'm honestly just so scared of the inevitable bad take machine.

(As you all prolly know, Pinterest became thievery central when they changed something about it ages ago. I can't remember anymore, only that it was suddenly mostly imbedded links. Anyway, even before that, it was 50% meme and fandom meta screen shots from tumblr, and that hadn't changed. Lord though, fandom makes me feel so old. It's like, if I didn't think I'd end up cringing out of my skin, I'd pop onto my og dreamwidth account. Not for the DW content, no no no, it's gets so much worse. When I switched over from LJ, I imported my blog there too, so there's also ancient stuff that makes me both happy and kinda wanna vomit. You know, it's nice to see that kinda thing be preserved but also oh god, oh no. My point is, in my typical roundabout way, has fandom changed and lost its sense of literacy and humour, or was I also taking the funny bits of a story and spinning it into incredible grimdark head canon I'M LOOKING AT YOU GOOD OMENS FANDOM JFC CROWLEY PSYCHOLOGICALLY TORTURES PLANTS BECAUSE IT'S FUCKING FUNNY. IT'S NOT ANY DEEPER THAN THAT UNLESS YOU WANNA SAY THAT IT'S EMBLEMATIC THAT CROWLEY IS A SHIT DEMON. HE'S AT HIS MOST TERRIFYING WHEN HE'S BULLYING PLANTS. FUCKING PLANTS. Ahem. Sorry.)

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18, 19, 8 and 1 for the ask game!

1) Who is your favorite character to write for and is this the character you find easiest to write for?

I mean Cloud obviously. The "six different anxiety disorders in a trenchcoat" aspect of him means he bounces nicely off pretty much every character or situation.

8) Do you take inspiration from real life? If so how do you incorporate it into your fics?

I mean there's the usual, "Oh yeah I watch for weird anecdotes or details and use those in writing," but everyone does those. The most important takeaway is just knowing how people fucking talk. (It actually infuriates me how people manage to struggle with dialogue. YOU'RE a people. YOU know how to talk. Just have them do that. Do you think another human being would say these things in this way? Great, then don't have them do that. Please you're slowly killing me.)

Some people double back and stutter and clarify more than others. Some people like turn of phrase. Others don't. Almost no one talks in a clean, unbroken line, and the ones that do have either had a moment to think about it or have had a moment of clarity, and then that needs to be incorporated into the dialogue: the thought process, the rhythm of what they're saying, so on and so forth. Writing dialogue might not be second nature to you, the writer, but talking is second nature to everyone with sufficiently language skills, in one form or another, whether or not they're thinking about what to say as they say it, and if they are, whether that makes them suddenly pivot on subject matter halfway through.

Everyone KNOWS these things, even if they don't know they know them, and in fact everyone does them every day if you are ever around another human being. Just do that.

18) What's the most obscure thing you've researched for a fic?

All the different ways you can apply for a doctorate in certain regions of France before realising I didn't give a shit. I should've never tried to do anything fun with Cissnei, she's caused me nothing but pain.

I don't even know if that's a good answer. Google thinks I actually for sure have crippling erectile dysfunction even more than Google usually assumes that. Does a set of all sets actually contain itself? Are any of my friends familiar enough with fluid dynamics to be able to calculate how long it would take something to float up a specific distance through water, as in several miles, and how buoyant is a human body anyway? What all is even in a blood test if we ignore the usual rules about sample viability? (Not a lot as it turns out which is why I had to lock myself into that stupid chromosome setup/payoff thing.)

I have done a frankly disgusting amount of number fiddling for the sake of TNI and I look forward to never doing it again.

19) What is some random info you happen to have that you used in a fic?

I'm decently-ish familiar with how engines work because I had a stupid gearhead phase in high school and therefore have decided that Fenrir's engine is a rotary that Cloud designed himself, and I shove this headcanon into every fic I can because I'M RIGHT.

I think it's apt, metaphorically speaking, and also given what Fenrir's canonical top speed is (a whopping 250 miles per hour -- would need to be packing some serious power under the hood without it weighing too much).