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tripably · 6 months ago

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I'm honestly pathetic enough to keep checking my email just to see if there are any new ao3 mails because every time a fic author replies to a silly lil comment I've left on their work, my brain goes "THIS IS GREAT. I'M GOING TO GET A GOOD GRADE IN COMMENTING ON FIC, SOMETHING THAT IS BOTH NORMAL TO WANT AND POSSIBLE TO ACHIEVE" and I seem to live in a perpetual state of craving such academic validation

#welcome to my diary #like yes i obviously also adore every email i get telling me i've got a new comment on one of my own fics #that's a given #but the thrill of getting a reply is different and something i've caught myself looking for multiple times a day recently #no one checks their email as vigorously as i do #i dont check my work email this vigorously #i don't check my messages anywhere as vigorously as i check my email for new ao3 post #i wish i could filter email notifications so that gmail would only alert me to emails from ao3 #though that would be a waste of software development because honestly i'd just refresh the app every half an hour regardless #it's like when you (or at least i) were a teen and read over old text messages and chats and laugh at your own jokes #and feel thrilled about how they landed #except i do that for ao3 comments and replies #i need to get a grip i think #maybe if i write it down and send it to the world like this it will stop being true #that happens sometimes

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