#like what other reason would I just Randomly get so violently depressed I can't think abt anything other than kms
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Straight up not having a good time rn
#my brain is still being incredibly stupid#atp I genuinely don't think it can b anything other than the start of a flare#like it feels like my brain got completely rewired by a self-taught dropout electrician. it's all wrong and bad for literally no reason#like what other reason would I just Randomly get so violently depressed I can't think abt anything other than kms#plus my adhd meds are absolutely not working rn either#normally I'd have more of a warning before we got to this point but it's been so fucking hard to tell when smth physically is wrong anymore#but also. I've been saying 'I think this is the start of a flare' since I got sick and it's never been a flare. so it's possible I'm just#permanently gonna b stuck in this state of 'my brain is non functional' and idk what to do abt that#like I can mostly cope with physically getting worse. it sucks and I hate it but I can adapt and manage myself ok.#I CANNOT however cope with being debilitatingly suicidal at all hours of the day anymore.#my brain doesn't work well enough anymore to deal with that shit again. I cannot do that. so idk what the fuck I'm gonna do here#was any of that coherent? I don't think so lmao#oh well. I'm exhausted and my brain is fried and all I can think abt is hurting myself so what can ya do#armchair speaks#suicide mention#tw suicide mention
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Good morning, your highness! (Or good evening. Maybe I should just not include time involved hellos???) I’m so glad to hear you’re doing well post surgery. I mean what would we do without you? Probably better to not think about it
With Leone I think you’ve implied him kidnapping us. For whatever reason he thought yeah, fuck it, yoink and suddenly we’ve lost rights. What would drive him to do that and what would that entail?
Is that a threat, anon? Do you know something I don't? Should I lock my windows a bit tighter? When you sent this ask I was dead asleep, but I read it in the morning, so I'll count it as a "Good morning" still.
Panic is how humans survive. It doesn't seem that way- humans survive off of calculated decisions to lengthen their lifespan, such as eating and seeking shelter and whatnot, but when it comes down to it, it's all about that one moment. What do you do when someone bigger, someone stronger has you? Do you bend? Do you hit them? You're not thinking clearly, whatever you do is pure instinct- and entirely different depending on the individual.
You can try to guess what someone will do in certain situations based off of their personality, but you never really know someone until you see them in high stress. Friendly, easy-going types can snap and get violent. Serious types can break down sobbing. You just don't know, you can't know. How many cases have you seen of people snapping in their fifties and sixties and killing their partner after five or six decades of peace?
You especially don't know Leone, who takes you in a moment of pure opportunity. There's nothing you could've done to guess that the man pretending to hate you would seize the opportunity. Leone is a very impulsive man. Irrational, impulsive.... He makes big decisions, or rash decisions, when he feels even a twinge of anxiety. To get Leone to the point of no return, he needs to be:
1. manic.
2. previously stressed out about the state of your relationship.
3. presented with an opportunity where he can act on impulse and doesn't have room to think about it.
I classify Leone as a bit of a loser. He's secretive and perverted- but he's too ashamed to really touch you, so he gets off on the fake you.
And, well, there's no guarantee that he took the real you. He's delusional enough to believe that you're just not real, sometimes. It doesn't hit him that he took an entire person until it does. Randomly. On a Tuesday at 2pm kind of hit. He didn't really take you! It's just Moody Blues fucking with him again and replaying you in- in. Something! Maybe this is something from your past!
The delusion clears when you can touch him and respond. Ohh, God, he's done. He's so done. You'll never love a man like him.
The drop after a long phase of mania is tough. Especially after you've done something you just can't take back. Settling into your new home isn't easy, especially considering your captor is too depressed to really take care of you.
Leone probably takes you back to his apartment, foolishly. He locks you in his room for the first few days and sleeps on the couch, which isn't abnormal to Guido when Leone's been drinking a lot. But you need to come out eventually. He doesn't have the luxury of having a bathroom attached to his room, there's only one in the whole apartment, and it's in the hall next to Guido's room. You also need to eat, and any other needs that your body tells you to take care of.
You may think Guido would freak out, and Leone does too, but he flat out doesn't care about you. Ohh, oops. Anyway. He's still not doing dishes. Guido's what he'd like to say is "neutral." He won't stop you from trying to get out unless there's something in it for him, but he also won't stop you from hangin' around, either. He's ignoring you until you speak to him, and if you plead with him, you'll most likely get the same three sentences, revolving.
"Maaaan, that's crazy..." or "Damn." or "Dunno, ask Leone."
Leone's fairly grateful for it, and perks up eventually at the 'help.'
Once Leone's feeling better, he'll give you the pampering you deserve, if you say he can touch you.
Until the next depression hits, and so on, and so forth. Just get really comfortable with whatever Guido's got on the tv for tonight.
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Actual Skel Anatomy Brainrot
So my posts about magical membranes, vertebrae, teeth and traits was the end of it... right?
Haha LSD you dumb fuck, this is your new hyperfixation for the week.
Kind of long, I did this for fun and I'm not really up-to-date on what everyone's collective hivemind of an opinion is on Skel headcanons, so if I repeat something someone's already said, just be cool that you're hearing the same viewpoint twice:
Yeah
A Skel's body is naturally more resistant to most anti-depressants and pills, which aids them in being one of the least likely monster types to die from illness, but makes them more vulnerable if they do happen to catch a cold. If the virus can get past the immunity system, your Skel is in for a hell of a ride.
It takes longer for a Skel to get drunk or high, when they do it effects their magic. Randomly melting into half-assed attacks (for example; Error would have the problem of constantly pouring sting out his eyes. Someone like Papyrus would unintentionally bluify someone/thing around himself.) which are always harmless.
Magic on medication or stimulant loses its strength and deals less than half the damage it's supposed to, although prescription meds aren't as stat draining as what was listed above.
Becomes harder to control in some cases, if your Skel has a more violent nature their magic might react extremely to aspirin or melatonin. That's the body trying to get rid of the unfamiliar chemicals, and goes about it the same way the personality type of the host does.
Skel's breathe to absorb oxygen, like everyone does, the oxygen is used to put more power for attacks and energy reserves. They can run faster, react quicker, and talk louder. They don't suffer from any side effects without air, and could happily exist in a vacuum. They also use breathing for their vocal cords.
Fun fact: a Skel's bite force is 235PSI, the same as a pitbull's, and can lock their jaws to the same ability when biting into something. Its a leftover trait from a much more primal age, like with humans still having wisdom teeth. (but yk, pitbull-esc strength is way cooler.) So Skels don't have many reasons to bite or maul.
Their teeth keep growing throughout their lives, sometimes if unchecked can result in overgrowth that makes it hard to eat or communicate, similar to 'overgrown beaks' in birds. Normally their teeth are worn down by the common habit of chewing or losing them. Skel's have three sets of teeth, their infant pair, adulters, and backup set.
Other Skel bone facts: there are different types of vertebrae, named after the expands it runs down. But intercross commonly.
Cervical-Thoracic, Thoracic-Lumbar, Cervical-Lumbar, to name a few variations
The two types of vertebrae builds are straight-edge and curved, curved is more likely for Cervical and Thoracic, while straight-edge is typically found further down the spine.
Tailbones! A Skel's tail doesn't get much longer than 6-8 inches, and tucks between the legs most of the time to act as extra membrane protection. It doesn't have the same flexibility of a dog or cat's, so they can't express emotion through it, nor does a tail have enough strength to act as a limb.
When the membrane is broken it'll bleed a thick red liquid, no matter the magic color. Happens frequently, sometimes the bones meant to protect the membrane end up piercing it on accident.
The membrane relies on the soul to repair itself if it gets damaged, if you don't have a soul, you're more likely to severe internal bleeding and gag reflex. Vomiting liquid magic also happens if one tries to absorb magic that isn't theirs, the body treats it like a virus.
Ngl it feels really good to find a cool creature to jump on and explore. Ik some of my bullshit would look strange in canon, but really, I just wanted to have fun and reimagine these characters and their body types. uhhhh ight I think that's it
#undertale#undertale au#utmv#small rant#headcanons#lots of headcanons#I haven't done a hecc dump ina long while tbh#there was originally more stuff about ecto but it was starting to get awkward#awkward as in I was halfway through explaining the birds and the bees#so I just decided to stop and deleted it all#don't give me that weird look when I said I thought about everything I meant I thought about everything#I don't half-ass anything in life#except for schoolwork and chores#Skel anatomy
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Aight something i need to get off my mind anout season 2: am i the only one that thinks Sinedd and Rocket needed more time interacting together?? Cause like... Sinedd is the WHOLE REASON why rocket gets into netherball and has his corruption arc throughout the season and i feel that their relationship was kinda rushed?
Sinedd shows Rocket netherball because Harris told him to do it,and Rocket just...TRUSTS sinedd and follows him to a shady ass place even though their only interactions were 4 years prior when Sinedd basically insulted him lol...i get he was depressed because of his suspension but really now
Rocket gets to play netherball and gets his first taste of a corruption arc, and Sinedd is...mad that Rocket is winning??for some reason?? Wasn't that the entire POINT of bringing rocket to netherball? So he can WIN?? I thought Sinedd was only doing this cuz he thought he would be rewarded by Harris, so why is he mad that Rocket is winning when Sinedds whole job was MAKING SURE ROCKET WINS??
Rocket and Sinedd have some weird gay co-dependent relationship tension thing going on where i think both of them realise it's toxic but neither of them give a shit because they're each doing it for their own self gain. Ok i buy that
Rocket, out of nowhere, challenges Sinedd to a netherball match out of what seems to be pure hatred. And i do mean OUT OF NOWHERE, Sinedd didn't even fucking do anything if i remember correctly 💀 idk i just think rocket didn't have a really good reason for it,i get he was selfish and angry and aggressive but that doesn't mean he just has to randomly call out Sinedd like he despises him for some reason
Rocket and Sinedd have their netherball match, and this is where it actually gets violent. I don't know if you remember,but Sinedd WHACKED ROCKET IN THE FUCKING FACE!! i remember it clearly cause it caught me off guard lol. Then Sinedd slips on his ankle like a dumbass and is in pain and can't play in the match anymore. While rocket wasn't directly responsible for sinedds injury, he mocks him and humiliates him. He wins,i dunno what he fuckin got out of it,but he wins regardless
Sinedd continues operating the netherball systems even after he loses his smog post pirates match. Though there's not much he can do now other than netherball. He doesn't talk to rocket anymore, and imma be honest i found it kinda weird that sinedd never really seemed angry at rocket for the fractured ankle other than silent seething. I always thought he'd blame him more for the shadows loss against the pirates, or at least be angry he had to play like that. Cause i remind you, sinedd had to play against the pirates 2 days after he FRACTURED HIS ANKLE
Rocket stops playing netherball and leaves with his team and Tia. He gives Sinedd a smug grin and tells him to deal with the fight happening and just fucking leaves. Straight up abandons Sinedd who at this point has absolutely no one in his life (his coach abandoned him, rocket left and netherball is over. We don't know if he still hangs out with his team or not)
And that's just .... The end of their relationship, no mentions after or anything. Rocket doesn't even comment about Sinedd or the Shadows when they watch the Xenons vs Shadows match. Just makes a comment about Luur. I think this is kinda lame and underworked, since without sinedd, rocket would have never even known about netherball. Would he still have problems? Sure, but i think they would be a lot less intense. Sinedd is the whole catalyst for this seasons problems. They REALLY couldnt have cut something out? I don't really remember if s2 had lots of filler, but they seriously couldn't have cut SOMETHING? i dunno, making fun of Micro-Ice when they refuse to do anything interesting with his character anymore....or 20 year old Micro-Ices relationship with a 16 year old that never goes anywhere and drags on and on...or D'jok repeating his arc from season 1 ALL OVER AGAIN...or Yukis constant insecurities (it was just a bit much, they felt the need to hammer it in over and over)...or the constant discussion of Ahito's illness...or the writers pretending that Mark is an interesting character and giving him screentime when he never was.......i don't remember if the pirates had as time consuming of a subplot as they did in season 1, but I'm sure there was something in there that could be cut. Some of these were obviously more important than others but i can't think of good examples right now
Feel free to add on anything i forgot. Also, all of that got screentime and Mei didn't. I seriously can't remember a single important thing she did that season other than covering for Tia when she left. While Mei isn't my favorite character or SK, she's still supposed to be a main character!! Cmon guys you REALLY couldnt give her even a little bit of screen time ? I think it's the same problem as Micro-Ice, they already had their arcs in s1 so the writers couldn't come up with anything interesting to do with them so they're just reduced to the love interests of specific characters (i think D'jok also had this problem of already having his arc finished so they just ... repeated it and hoped no one would notice lmao) . Also rant in the tags as per usual
#galactik football#sinedd#Rocket#I really don't like Yuki and Mark#Hate to say it but d'jok was kinda right lol Yuki IS a replacement#And mark........ I believe his existence has no justification. He's boring he's lame and he's annoying as hell#He constantly bullies micro ice and while that was obviously intended as friendly teasing...it doesn't come off that way#It has the vibe of a person badly pretending to be friendly so they can tease you and hide it under the guise of it#But everyone can pick up on it and it makes everyone uncomfortable. What did M-Ice do to deserve this constant insulting#Mark you're stupid you're ugly you're boring and you will NEVER be Rocket. Go fuck yourself you piece of shit#Wow that is the most emotion i think i ever felt thinking about Mark as a character. Proves my point further i think
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