#like we do have a group on whatsapp with all classmates but i dont have everyone's number saved

[roimp]

bro atleast introduce yourself when you're asking for the hw

[silver-cats]

so all the time I thought the ppl who were my acquaintances would go out without me every night 24/7 and wouldn’t include me in any of their plans and basically I thought we weren’t friends at all  me and them would make small talk in class but that’s it our friendship wasnt really a friendship at all (again hence ‘acquaintance’) but turns out this entire semester said acquaintances have been at home sleeping or reading or watching movies doing nothing basically like I have this entire semester they’ve never been out without me clubbing every night or whatever and not only that but like me they’ve been wanting to do something and be more social for the longest time but theyre just too lazy to organise something hence why they never messaged me (or anyone as a matter of fact) to do something and me being the overthinker I am I didnt want to organise something we could do together because a) like I said I already thought they did enough as it is, and if they never thought of inviting me to the many outings I thought they had then clearly I wasnt wanted so why bother them by “”making”” them” do something with me and b) and not to bring up high school trauma every 5 sec but growing up classmates (and even teachers sometimes) would tell me I was annoying and ive internalised a lot of that so to this day it makes me feel really insecure about going up to ppl to ask them to do something together but yeah turns out I was just overthinking these acquaintances like me and dont mind doing things with me they’re just too lazy to organise things for us to do and now not only do we have a WhatsApp gym group together (which is really fun actually as boring as it may sound to some ppl we go to the gym as a group of 5-6 at 12-1am and theres next to noone there so we can run round and just act childish, also gym obviously but) and Saturday we’re taking the train to another city together!!! living with anxiety isnt easy but im so proud of myself for challenging myself and taking steps to be more social because it seems to be really paying off. and sorry this is a long emo TMI post you guys but I feel too awkward to talk about how much im working on my anxiety in “real life”, this is pretty much my only outlet for sharing all my little achievements so ur all just going to have to deal