#like thats so fucking dismissive of the japanese and what the US put them through

[bloody-hands-pure-hearts1329]

They hate me Part 3

Thats part 3 of my selfinsert fic who started as a dream enjoy^^

Chapter 3

Two weeks later the Shredder kept searching for me almost every night the brothers had to go out on patrol now to stop the foot ninjas. I on the other hand tried to remember my old life I decided to train and realized quick as Splinter did some tests with that I am master on the Kusari Gama. It made me feel much better to know that I was not weak and could fight against the foot if needed too. All I needed was to get stronger as quick as possible, only Splinter watched over me as I went to the gym so I would not go to far, my body was still in it’s healing process from the long coma and from what this bastard did to me.

Inside my head I had now a door with countless locks to keep this memory far away blocked out form me. All that was important now was to safe my family. Even thought they wouldnt want to be saved. I believe they are not as evil if I can change they can do the same.

"WE ARE BACK!" Mikey screams over the whole lair making me stop my training and walk out of the gym over to them.

Mikey is the only turtle I allow to touch me...I dont know why I can’t stand if Raph or Donnie touch me. Leo never tried so I do dont know how I will react to his touch. Mikey hugged me tight and hugged him back before he tells me all about the patrol and how kicked some bad guys butt’s.

Raph walks over and I immedatly back away. He looks down at me his eyes showing that he felt hurt because of me treating him this way. But I cant help it if he touches me I feel like I am back to this horrible place. I know its unfair and I hate myself for it but I could nothing about it...maybe with time it would stop.

"What is your problem!" he growls at me and grabs me by my wrist. I scream and start panicking and my body shakes madly.

"LET ME GO!" I scream him begging.

"NO FUCK I HAVE ENOUGH OF THIS SHIT LOOK AT ME!" he shouts at me. His brothers look in shock at us not knowing what to do. I look in to his eyes.

"I BEAT THIS BASTARD UP FOR YOU AND IF THE OTHERS DIDNT COME I HAD KILLED HIM! SO STOP FUCKING TREAT ME LIKE HIM!" he shouted in my face I could see the anger and hurt in his golden orbs. He lets me go and walks angry past me, I stay there staring before him.

I look down feeling tears in my eyes the hand of my wrist he held on to slowly clenching to fist.

"Elle?" asked Donnie coming closer.

"It’s fine I deserved this Donnie he is right I treat you like you did this to me but you didn’t! I am sorry" I tell him before turn my back on all and walk away to lock myself in my room.

There I took deep breaths before I walked to my bed to lay down and shut my eyes trying to once again make myself remember my old life. I dont know how but suddenly

Flashback

I found myself in a flashback. I was ordered to the Shredder as I walked in the door behind me closed and I found myself smirking at him. "You already missed me my master?" my voice was tempting and low as I looked at this monster like he was the best man on earth. I screamed inside for it to stop as he grabbed my flashback self hard walking me over to his desk to throw his all of it before laying me down on top starting to rip open my blouse and skirt. "Enough talking my deadly flower" he whispered to my lips before I feel his handy wandering down my body.

"NIIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEET! BASCHALUSTA NIET!" I scream and open my eyes my heart pounting in up to my ears this way I didn’t heard my door getting kicked in by someone all I knew I found myself second later in strong arms rocking me while I try all to calm down my breathing and my wild beating heart.

After what felt like hours I finally calmed down and opened my eyes to see to my surprise Raphael being the one holden me. His eyes where still closed as he rocked sitting on his side ways on his lap with my knees up pressed with the rest of my body against the cold and hard surface of his plastron.

"Raphael?" I say my voice really low but it still reaches him and he opens his eyes looking down at me. "I..."

"Wanna scream again?" he asks and wants to let me go.

"NO! Please stay!" I hear myself saying, he stops immedatly and put his arms tighter around me as I start shaking again.

"I am...sorry" I whisper again he only lets out a chirpping sound I look at him in confusion. This makes him blush and look away I use this opportunity and kiss his cheek it was only few seconds but I felt myself blushing like a teen after it while my heart was beating up to my neck. He lets me go and I quick turn my back on him. "Thank you" I whisper with slightly shaking voice.

Raph growls mumbles something before I feel his hand on mine.

"If something I am in the gym" he told me while caressing before he left me, sitting there staring at pics of the guys Mikey made for me. It showed Leo in meditation, Raphael lifting, Donnie working on something while his tongue showed out and him posing sexy for me while leaning on a surfboard.

It made me smile and slightly chuckle while caressing their faces on every picture no matter what I had this guys on my side and only with them I will find a way to save my family.

At the foot clan lair

Shredder was cooking, how could this freaks take away his Elvira?! He was disgusted by the thought of this turtle freaks being around her. He stood up from his throne and walked over to the big window looking out.

“Don’t think you can hide from me! You belong to me!" he said and clenched his fist. He smashed his fist against the thick glass as remembered the way I looked at him in fear and disgust.

"Watashi wa anata o mitsukete, anata no kaibutsu ga watashi no te de shinu no o miru yō ni shimasu!!" (I will find you and will make you watch your freaks die by my hands! ) he swore while looking down at the city his rage growing with every day his men came down beat up by the turtles.It knocked on the door and growled a short

"Come in!" before the door opened to show Erik the brother of the woman who made him send out his men every night to find her.

"Mister Little what a surprise" he says and walks back to his throne to take sit down gesturing the foot member to take a seat on one of the chairs before him. "What can I do for you?" the master asks the young man calm hiding his anger inside.

"I know a way to get my sister back master" Erik tells him with a evil smirk.

"Oh really interesting tell me" the Shredder fold his hands leaning on them while looking curious at the man before him.

"She needs to think I changed sides, we need to make it look like I am hunted down by you and the turtles to..."

"She is not stupid she will look behind this but if you got hurt not enough to die but enough to make them take you back to the lair, this way you will have two days to gain her trust and get her to leave the lair in the night with you to a place. Let’s say you and your mother managed to flee from me so you bring her to a manhole to her hiding place. If you get there she will be awaited by me!" he smirks over this seemingly perfect plan.

Erik stays silent it was never a good idea to say your opinions  to his sadistic master. He only nods and asks him if he is allowed to leave. "Yeah go to your room I will send Karai for you to make this tomorrow to make the first part of our plan work" the Shredder dismisses my brother.

My brother walks down the floor to the lift to get back to his room. "Its all your fault sis, how can you stay with those freaks? I dont regonize you at all!" he walks quick out and slams the door behind him. Angry he put all in his living room to wall so nothing could disturb his training, he let his rage out in form a hard training with his katana. Enjoying sounds it makes as it cuts through the air.

Same time with the turtles

I leave my room to walk over to Splinter and knock on the door of his room. He calls me in and slide his japanese door to the side bowing slightly as I say: "I am sorry for disturbing you and Leo but I need to talk with you master Splinter and I am afraid it can’t wait" Both look at me I try to be as respectful as possible.

"Leo please leave me and Miss Little for a while" the old rat told his son who nods Leo walks past me I give him a apologizing smile and he waves it off with a slight head shaking.

"Come in and sit down can I offer you some green tea my child?" Splinter asks me with  gentle smile.

I nod smiling walking over to him sitting down before him and watch him as he pours some of the tea in a cup for me. I blow on it before I take a sip and smile wide after it, it felt so good to feel the warmth spreading through my body.

"Thank you its really delicious." I compliment the tea he smiles nodding at me. "I am here because I well I wanted to ask if there is a technique to restore me memories. I still can’t remember much and what I do is confusing me only. So if there is a way to make me remember all at once please show me master Splinter" I beg him while holding on tight to the cup.

"There is a techinque but it could be hurtful, I think it would be better if you let your memories restore slowly by itself without forcing it" he explains to me what I thought he would tell me.

A sigh leaves my lips I am disappionted that he didnt want to help me remember my old life.

"Guess I tried" I whisper taking antoher sip of the tea while feeling his eyes on me.

"Your soul is broken my child you need to first learn to fight the demons your hiding behind this many looks inside you" he shocks me, how could he know how I this door I imagined to protect myself from what happens looks like?

"How?"

"This will stay my secret for now my child" he told me smirking, I finish my tea and get up.

"Okay well thank you four your advice master Splinter" I tell him smiling and walk out even more confused than before.

"Elvira?" I hear Leo ask and turn around to him.

"Yes?" I ask him walking over to him.

"You look like you could use and hour of meditation why dont you join me?" he asks me I look at him still confused because he all this time he kept his distance from me.

"Okay" I nod and follow him to his meditation room, there I sit down beside him on the gym mattrass covered floor.

We meditate in silence I really try to empty my head and get this many thoughts in order but I cant stop them.

"I give up!" I scream out making Leo look at me.

"I cant live like this! I feel like going insane I don’t know what was real and was is dreamed up about my life!" I tell him after he asks me feel his hand on my shoulder while he trys to calm me down.

I didn’t push him off I just look at him before i pull him in closer and my lips against his, I didn’t know why the fuck I did it. But it felt like I need this right now. He is tense at first then he surprises me by kissing me back,

“What the fuck is going on here!” A voice far away in my head screams at me, as I get on to his lap and let him take over the kiss moaning over his hands rubbing my back.

Then I open my eyes in shock and quick get off him.

"I am sorry I didn’t...mean to..." I tell him before pull open the door running away past Mikey to my room locking myself inside it.

"What is wrong with me!" I ask to myself while sitting down with my back to the door, wanting to slap me for taking advantage of Leo’s kidness like that!