#like that's the bitch about parasocial relationships!!! you're torn up and you're feeling all these weird emotions

[josephtrohman]

mannnnn i just feel so empty like i love all of the fall out boys but joes someone i look up to the most and its genuinely sad for me but its so understandable in these situations and im so happy hes putting himself first it just still sucks that it gets to me and how my brain rushes thru so many thoughts about some guy

i totally understand that! it's absolutely one of those things that it's normal to have a racing mind and billion complex thoughts about. i am much the same as you, honestly for a long time i've thought of myself as a half joe girl half patrick girl, and yknow it may just be the tidal wave of emotions i feel, but this is making me realize just how much joe is actually #1 in my heart. i said it in a tag that all four of them are my special lil guys, but joe is MY MAN and he has been for almost as long as i've loved fall out boy, which is a long time, so that makes it sooo hard!!

also, it's normal to feel - for lack of a better term - selfish and want him to still be around because you feel like you...need him? but you still accept that there's something they've got to do because, parasocially or not, you LOVE him and you only want the best for him. as they always say, two things can be true at once and it sucks and it's not fair and it hurts but it means you're very mature and everything that you can move past the "selfish" part and still be happy that he's doing what he needs despite being sad about it <3