#like that's literally my emotional support coworker. he's the one who taught me everything. and we bond over 80s glam metal and stuff ;;

[robinsnest2111]

not to be too emotionally attached on main BUT

my coworker's been so nice to me and the birthday present was so sweet and he's been going through it the past couple weeks (which is his usual tbh. the poor guy is always going through it somehow. can't ever catch a break. very relatable) SO I really wanna gift him something nice in return and tbh... I've been thinking about giving him something related to one of his favourite bands, Poison. maybe a hoodie? and if I can't find anything printed, I'll buy the warmest coziest plain black hoodie I can find (he's almost always freezing in the winter, poor guy...) and appliqué the band logo onto the front by hand!!!

idk just. wanna give him presents ; _ ;

[kiindr]

Hi, so I saw that you said peeps can send in rants, and I realllllllllllly would love to rant. If you did not mean this, or do not want to reply - you can delete it. I will not be offended in the slightest! No trigger warnings, only family issues (and also please don't tire/burn yourself out with this blog. Even just listening/reading about others' issues is draining).

Backstory/context:

I'm a 24 year old female, recently diagnosed with autism. Not good socially, but not terrible. I'm kinda like Katniss Everdeen tbh.

I was working as a bartender at a wedding venue. The building is owned by a well-known wine creator/seller, who leases it to my aunty so she can do weddings there (so she owns 50% of the business, the other is with a friend/chef. They've known each other for 25 years).

I have just only been diagnosed with autism (I was diagnosed multiple times beforehand, so it's been a big few weeks). I have social anxiety and if things get too much, I usually have emotional reactions - but I've learned to walk away, go somewhere and cry for a bit, calm down, dry my tears and get back in there.

I've been working there for over a year now, and last week she fired me from my bartending job, saying I'm too emotional and that "I should be happy at work, because people can tell when I'm not."

It was done over text message by my manager who says I should go to the cafe to work (so they aren't 'firing' me per say, but they are ...) However, working at the cafe I would only be filling up waters, and getting drinks (what the other owner's 16-year-old daughter does.) They also won't let me work the one wedding this weekend. I'm just flabbergasted.

I had to message my aunty to see what was going on, because they'd been completely fine with me working this position for a year. I've put up with a lot from customers. Verbal abuse (being called c*nt, a stuck-up b*tch etc) all because I won't give them alcohol, as well as nearly being physically assaulted. So I've dealt with a lot of bullcrap.

But I've also done big weekends with 4 weddings, literally only 3 weeks ago and nothing was said then? I've never had any feedback. No one taught me (except my other aunty who was in this bartending position but she was drunk all the time. And she never got in trouble, like I'm talking stealing alcohol from the venue aka my aunty who owns the business, I'm also pretty sure she was stealing from the cash register and would take things - once a groom had cigars and before they even used them, she stole one???). So, what I'm trying to say, is I was a fantastic worker. In the whole year and a month I was there, I only had 6 days off total.

I was helpful to others, kept everything on track. So I can only deduce that business owner! aunty is upset with how I interacted with customers? But I asked my coworkers and they said I was fine??? That I was great until the customers started getting rude.

There's also been a new manage/supervisor, lets call him John. He's only a few years older than me, I previously worked with him for a small time when I was 18 at a hotel. He knows alcoholic! aunty because they've worked together for years at different hotels.

My stepdad and mum, who are very very supportive of me right now, think John has a bartender friend and his trying to get them into my job?

I just don't understand. I'm family, business owner! aunty has been an integral part in my life. She's been at big events and shown that she loves me. But right now it's like she hates me?

When I messaged her, it was basically, "you get too upset. I'm too worried that you will be emotional, you're overthinking this. The bar isn't right for you, it's been an ongoing concern and it's a business decision, not a personal one. I'm not texting anymore. Happy to talk face to face."

So I've said "okay when can we talk face to face" (even though I am sh*tting myself even at the thought. She's been described as a viper, and has started a family fight in the past; nearly having a punch on with my mum.)

AND SHE HASN'T REPLIED.

Sidenote: I don't want to work at the cafe because:

It's the principle of it; it's being demoted and it's embarrassing. But also the fact that no, I'm not too emotional. A workplace needs to be safe and keep their staff feeling safe (it's very unsafe - that's why there's such a high staff turn over.)

I don't want to work with alcoholic! aunty because she's done some really really traumatic things to me in the past (it was including a knife but I'm not going to go into that).

Anyyywwwaaayyyy, If you read all that. Thank you so much. I'm sorry it's so long. I hope you have a great day, a great month, a great life. You deserve it x

TW: family issues

hello, thank you for sending in your rant <3

wow, that really is a lot to go through. your reasons for not wishing to work at the cafe are totally valid. nothing is more important than your safety and providing such a basic need to one's employees is the most crucial responsibility of an employer.

it sounds like nobody is giving you any real and honest reasons as to why you're being technically fired. i can only imagine how frustrating that must feel.

from what you just told me, i can see how hard you have been working and how seriously you take your job. i hope that your aunt comes around and sees it. and even if she doesn't, i hope that you find a workplace that treats you well.

you deserve kindness, respect, and appreciation for your work. please take care <3

i'm sending you lots of support and comfort! please feel free to reach out again if you need to vent and you found this helpful :)

[rukia-simp]

Rukia’s Feelings

Let's discuss feelings in Bleach because there's a lot of double standards here and it hurts me to watch people think they've "debunked" arguments but they only told a vague fairy tale. That's why I'm saying that Rukia had fallen in love earlier than you think. In fact I would even say that she fell in love before Orihime. Orihime may have had a crush on Ichigo first, but she never said “love” until the arrancar saga.

Rukia fell in love first. In fact there's textual evidence for this. We all know this iconic scene. Kubo was never into romantic tales, however he wouldn't pull this BS out of his ass for shits and giggles. He's not that kind of writer. Every scene has purpose! Stop the disrespect!

This scene isn't meant for fanservice. It's meant for setting up motive. Why does Rukia want to leave?

Before I answer that. Ladies and Gentlemen, this is what literary analysis calls DRAMATIC IRONY. In which the audience knows something that characters might not know. For example like when we know Isshin is a Shinigami, but Ichigo doesn't know. We know Rukia's true feelings but Ichigo and other people don't because they obviously can't read her inner monologue. Ichigo can't read her motives until her tears tell him the truth. Now to answer the original question above. She left because she was afraid that if she stayed any longer in the living world, her already developing feelings would make it harder to leave later on. She needed to get out of Ichigo's proximity so that her attachment can't be used as leverage or puts him in danger. After all it was her emotional attachment to Kaien that allows her to identify every emotion that she's feeling at this moment in the story. She doesn't want to bring Ichigo the same demise as Kaien. It's because of her emotions that Kaien's death hit her so hard. Without emotions and that attachment to Kaien, it would have been just another death in the Soul Society. Why is this important? Because Rukia's trying to learn from her past. Ichigo's stubbornness messes up her plan, but it's also what ends up saving them in the long term. She runs away with the hope of forgetting all of her experiences with Ichigo. Ichigo did the same thing Kaien did with Rukia in the 13th division. Ichigo didn't make her feel alone or like an outcast. They both treated her the way she always hoped people would treat her. With respect, and as an equal. She never wanted to be put down nor be put on a pedestal because of her last name. Or because of her rank. But everyone did, even her future husband. The only two people who canonically didn’t was Ichigo and his cousin. Rukia just has a weak side for men like that. Rukia has a type unlike Orihime. We know why she loves Ichigo, but there's no clear reason as to why Orihime does. It's very broad, and not narrowed down to a specific reason. Which makes her crush easy to attack with no actual solid defense. I can tell you EXACTLY where Ichigo and Rukia's relationship changed from salty coworkers to immediately more than friends. I've reread Bleach multiple time, and have yet to see the exact moment where Ichigo and Orihime's feelings change. Most of it looks like it's offscreen.

Just so no one gets confused. I'm referring to this scene. This was where Ichigo and Rukia's relationship could never go back to being coworkers and friends.

Anyways, people like to argue that Orihime is the one that likes him so she is guaranteed that "happy" ending. I call BS because Nel and Riruka had just as much infatuation with our protagonist, but all I see is them getting the short end of the stick. Orihime IS NOT SPECIAL. But Rukia IS special. This woman "COINCIDENTALLY" has a paralleled past to our protagonist. She "COINCIDENTALLY" spent Ichigo's entire past arc as his only form of foundation and support. And she "COINCIDENTALLY" is the one to be asked about HER feelings because she's not as open about her emotions, since she's a SHINIGAMI. Shinigami have LITERALLY been taught to not be emotional. Duty before love. Rukia's characterization and occupation don’t allow her to confess straight up. Orihime has the privilege of no limitations. Rukia isn't as lucky! Why the hell would Kubo emphasize this so much for it be a fecking dead end?!

But that's why Rukia's confession is in the form of denial. Because in order to keep her IN CHARACTER, Kubo needs to write a confession that sounds like Rukia. He must emphasize how strong her feelings are. They are so strong that they overcome her usual stoicism, sternness.

Byakuya himself knew that Rukia only showed this much emotion towards Kaien. That's why he concluded that there's something special about Ichigo. He has identified the pattern.

All of this had purpose. I refuse to believe it was all for nothing. This scene was a confession, and just a sad reminder that unfortunately Ichigo and Rukia's ending was always on a tight rope. He put too much effort into their relationship. He put a freakish amount of effort into their relationship. And honestly this makes the story make more sense, in my opinion. Think about it like this. If Rukia was not in love in this scene then it wouldn’t be as memorable in the Ichiruki fandom. And Rukia would be a completely different character. By Rukia already having feelings they stimulate Ichigo into finding out his own feelings (which is in the Lost Agent Arc). And it makes sense because Rukia might fall easier, but she’s more passive when it comes to answering to her desires. Just look back at her past with Kaien, and her reaction towards his wife. She’s not the type to pursue feelings. But Ichigo is more aggressive than her. But he’s more dense as well. Ichigo is the type to initiate the relationship, but he has to be aware of it. How can you be aware of it if your dense? I mean the fact that Ichigo is dense about Orihime’s blatant feelings can’t be a coincidence. For me, it almost seems like Ichigo is dense, not because he’s not meant to see Orihime’s feelings, but because it makes it harder for him to identify his own feelings for a certain person (personally I thought and still think that it’s supposed to be Rukia). It delays endgames, and allows for more satisfying development. However, this could just be my optimism speaking, but I don't think Kubo is stupid. But that time frame for TYBW was ridiculous and I truly believe it was a factor in their final decisions. But I might be blinded by my optimism. Well anyway, this was another piece of analysis. Just want to call out some hypocrites. I'm right now putting on the table that Rukia arguably has just as much feelings for Ichigo. So the argument that Orihime is "obligated" to Ichigo's love is too vague. It's a horrible argument, but I'm always open to discussion. Respectfully of course. But then again this is social media so...

My next analysis is probably going to be on this gorgeous scene. I'm just going to explain its significance and what makes it an irrefutable Ichigo and Rukia moment. Please look forward to that! Thank you to everyone that read this far. Have a wonderful day!

Also no hate on Renji and Orihime. I know Renji thought he had good intentions, but if he's so special then he should have been able to fix it before 40 years of no interactions. And Orihime is a sweetie, but her unrealistic look on life is just too polar to my look on life. I'm a realist. I can't get behind that especially when she basically gets everything handed to her without much consequence. Reality would have hit normal women in the face if they were in Orihime's position. To me that's not a good message to teach to anyone.

Anyway thanks for reading! Love y’all!

[sup-hoes-its-me]

Skinny Love (Kakashi x Reader)

A/N: hello again. I'm in love with Kakashi this mans makes me heart go wild I swear. Hope you like seeing him on ur dash lol. Shy reader who is too afraid to confess how she feels to Kakashi. This is only part one and is essentially just fluff. The second part will be all angst and sadness so beware.

Ps. It took me so long to get this one done. I was struggling to find the right words.

Word count: 4000

"Come on, sensei. You like him," Sakura laughed, poking her superior in the arm. The group of women stood outside the training grounds after a day of hanging out and working on their jutsu. On occasion Y/N enjoyed taking the girls out and spending time with them. It was a relief to be away from all that testosterone. If only for a short time.

She just shook her head, smothering down the embarrassment she felt creeping up her neck. Her stomach churned whenever she recognized her feelings for the man. It was just so intense. "I would never feel that way about a coworker, you know that, Sakura."

"But he's not just a coworker to you, is he? He's also your close friend," Ino hummed.

"Perhaps, but haven't I taught you that it's bad to let emotions get in the way of work?"

The blond rolled her eyes, turning to fully face one of her sensei, who she would argue was deeply in denial. "Seriously why does it even matter? Kurenai-sensei and Asuma-sensei literally had a baby together. You should definitely tell Kakashi you like him."

Y/N tossed her head back against the wall, sighing. "Girls, I really don't like him. He's just my friend. He's nice to me and I appreciate that, but that doesn't mean I want to date him or anything." Her voice shook and clearly she had been caught.

She was always so bad at lying.

"Whatever you say, Y/N."

"It's just something I'd rather not dwell on, Sakura. I'm sorry for being so private about it, but it's a sensitive subject for me," the woman confessed, rubbing the back of her neck awkwardly.

"It's okay! You don't have to apologize. We get it! Feelings can definitely be complicated."

"I-I," she started, about to explain herself, but instead she rethought what she was about to say. There was no reason to actually reveal how she felt about the man. These times were tough, and there wasn't any room for making things even more messy with relationship drama. Y/N was more than happy just pretending they were friends and nothing more. As long as she had him just to talk to, she would be fine. As long as he always made it back alive, there was no reason to complain.

"You're right. Feelings are too complicated," she muttered, feeling herself practically deflate as she did so. Y/N was beginning to think she was just the one making everything complicated when it didn't have to be. Skipping around and lying about her feelings. Kakashi wouldn't ditch her if she just said something, she was sure of it.

Just as Sakura was about to reply, the voice of the man in question chimed in from down the path, "Y/N, we were looking for you."

"Yes, the third wheel to our tricycle of youth!"

Y/N felt a smile grow on her lips at the sounds of those voices, especially Gai's exclamation of youth. He was awfully weird, she thought, but that was what kept him so interesting. She turned to face the men walking in her direction. "Kakashi, Gai! What's up? The girls and I were just finishing our training."

"We're going out for drinks and thought you might like to join."

"Sounds great. It's been a long time since the three of us went out. For some reason we never have off at the same time anymore."

"Yeah, it's a shame. Missions have taken over our lives lately," Kakashi said tiredly. It was true. They really never had a second to rest. It was beginning to take its toll. Those were the consequences of war though. "How have you been?"

"Good, I, um..." she began, her eyes trailing up to Kakashi's. He watched back intently, patiently, and she felt something in her chest flutter up. He was always so handsome, she wondered how she could go so long without seeing his face. She just wanted to leap forward and give him a hug, wrap herself up in his warm arms for just a little while. That wasn't an option though, so she settled on some simple words. "I've missed you."

His eyes softened barely enough to be noticeable but she saw. Her heart continued to flutter up in her chest and she sighed, clutching her hands tighter behind her back. No doubt the girls standing just behind her were hyper-analyzing all their interactions, especially after revealing they held an interest in the pair's relationship.

He didn't have the chance to reply though, as Gai was the one to chime in. "Why thank you. I have to say, I've missed you as well, my kunoichi friend."

"Thanks, Gai." Even if the statement wasn't exactly pointed toward him, she was happy she had been missed.

"No problem! Now I hope you young ladies don't mind if we take L/N off your hands."

"No no. It's not a problem, Gai-sensei. I'm sure our moms want us home for dinner anyway. It's getting late after all."

"Yeah, we'll see you later, Y/N-sensei." The pink haired girl waved ss they started to make their way in the opposite direction toward town. Ino paused for a moment though.

"Don't forget what we talked about. You really shouldn't be so shy; it's gonna be okay," she said softly. Y/N sighed, nodding her head as if to say fine. In reality, she wouldn't do anything different. She wasn't feeling very open to changing herself or facing any of her fears. "See you around."

It was kinda sad that Y/N found comfort and support in a bunch of 15 year olds. She was an adult, couldn't she talk to other adults about her problems. These girls were just so accepting and she didn't feel awkward talking about immature things like crushes. Any other adult would just be too wrapped up in their own lives to care too much anyway.

"What was that about?"

"Nothing, Kakashi. We were just talking about random stuff. You know how curious they can be."

"You go out there and fight rogue shinobi every week. How could you be shy?" The green beast asked.

"It's really nothing. They're always assuming things about me. I'm reserved, but I wouldn't say I'm shy, per se…" She stopped to think for a quick second, tapping her foot on the ground. "Actually, I would say I'm just more conscious of the things I say and do than most other people. Not a bad thing at all."

Kakashi nodded. "It's good to keep a level head."

"Exactly. I'm Level headed. Thanks, Kakashi."

"Now let's head off to the bar! Sake for everyone!" Gai cheered, throwing his fist up in the air. She nodded, walking up beside the pair as they started off toward the restaurant of their choice, which she hoped was her favorite one with the tastiest fruit juice drinks. She was willing to put out good money to have one good, tispy night of drinks and snacking. It had already been weeks since she had a night off, one time wouldn't break the bank.

She stood to the right of them, just beside Kakashi. Every now and then she found herself drifting just a bit too close to him, her natural gait leaning toward the left. At one point, she found her hand skim dangerously close to his and she snatched it away to keep herself in check. Holding his hand perhaps was a dream of hers but she wasn't going to actually try anything.

It wasn't that she was afraid of Kakashi. Quite the opposite actually. She cared for him so deeply it sometimes made her stomach churn when she thought about it. He was her friend for ages, ever since she could really remember. He was one of the only people she could sit with and feel completely enveloped in a warm comfort, free of judgement and deceit. Gai as well, but Kakashi was different.

Maybe he could be a bit of pervert, and even sarcastic at times, but he was never rude. He had changed over the years from being a know-it-all, little jerk to someone everyone liked and admired, a kind and brave soul.

Unfortunately, it took bouts of death and loss to come about this change, but she wasn't going to ignore it. He was the best man she knew, and it only seemed natural she fell in love with him. He would probably never feel the same way. He had better things to worry about and other women to long for. He didn't have his entire life to wait around for a shy woman like herself. That was okay.

As long as he was alive and well, she would be happy.

Maybe one day she would gather the courage to grab his hand, to run her thumb over his knuckles and feel the callouses against her skin. Maybe one day she would have the courage to confess how she felt. Not now, but one day when she was comfortable.

"You okay?" He asked, pulling her out of her deepening thoughts. "You're walking really slow and uh, your hand…" The man motioned to where she was clutching her wrist against her chest.

"Yes, I'm fine. Just uh, my wrist is sore from training." She worked her hand in a circle, pretending to stretch it out. He rolled his visible eye, knowingly.

"Sure. Always skipping around the real issues."

"I'm really okay. I was just thinking hard about something."

"Anything to do with what you, Sakura, and Ino were talking about?" he suggested, raising a brow.

She groaned. He always knew what she was thinking. It was definitely one of his best and worst qualities depending on the situation. In this case, she felt awkward as she was so lost in thought about him. She felt like a fool. "Maybe it was. But that was girl time and now it's drinking time. Different topics of discussion."

"Well, mind telling me what's got you so caught up? It's gotta be important."

"It's personal."

"Ah, I see. Well, that's fine. When you want to talk about it, I'm always around."

There was silence for a moment, her thoughts running wild in her head. He was so kind, it wouldn't be bad to tell him how she felt. He would let her down easy, surely. And Gai would be there to cushion her embarrassment, no doubt. He would make things less awkward somehow. She was sure of it.

It was crazy. No way she would say anything. Definitely not.

"I'm interested in someone," Y/N found herself blurting out before she could stop herself. She just felt so much pressure building up in her chest and the only way she could relieve that feeling was to tell him something, anything about the predicament she was in. She wouldn't tell him exactly how she felt and about who, but she could vent.

Damn, all this and she didn't even have her first drink. That man really did something to her.

The men stopped in their path, their heads turning their attention solely to her. She felt her neck and cheeks begin to heat up and her palms start to sweat. Why would she say that? Dammit. She really was a fool.

"Really? Who?" Gai asked. "He'd be a fool to reject you, of course, beautiful flower of the leaf! You do not have to worry!"

"Gai...it's really not that simple. He is, um, out of my league, I guess you could say," she muttered nervously, rubbing her palms together to ease her anxiety. "He's just well, I don't know, the perfect guy ever."

She could feel Kakashi tense at her side, and her eyes scanned over him. He didn't look out of the ordinary but his energy had definitely changed. Strange.

"No one is out of your league, don't you dare say something like that! If he doesn't let you down easy, I will use my fists of justice to defend you! Tell me who this mystery man is."

"This is what Ino meant when she said you were being shy. You aren't going to tell him, are you?" Kakashi asked, and she noticed the bit of annoyance in his tone. She wondered if he was just upset she was talking about such silly things when they were ready to start drinking. She felt embarrassed. They were adults. Adults don't talk about this kind of thing. He doesn't want to hear about the guys she's interested in, or how she feels about them. Maybe Gai would be interested in it, but not a cool guy like Kakashi.

"Of course not. Like I said, he would just reject me anyway, there's no point," she told them. "And Gai, I can't just tell you who it is. You know you're a loud mouth; you'd go around telling everyone." She really didn't believe Gai would do that to her. He was far too conscious of others feelings for the most part. She just couldn't risk Kakashi knowing. She would keep it a secret from him.

"Oh come on! Just tell us! I'll help you out, be your wingman!"

"Maybe I'll tell you another time. When I'm more confident in myself."

"Well, what is it that has finally caught out dear friends heart in a web of love? Tell us!" Oh man. He really was nosy sometimes. He meant well, but occasionally he just didn't know when to stop. Kakashi kept his mouth shut because he understood she was getting uncomfortable, that or he was growing annoyed as she suspected.

Regardless, it was nice to get some of this off her chest, even if it was risky business.

"I don't really know. He's smart and considerate, and very brave. He's handsome as well, that's a plus," she smiled, listing off the things she liked about the man standing right in front of her. It felt so exhilarating, talking about her feeling so openly. It was terrifying and relieving at the same time. Y/N exhaled as she thought about him again, "He just makes me feel happy when I'm in my worst moments, that's all. I mean, what else could I ask for?"

"I see! He sounds like a good guy. Can't wait to meet him," he laughed until his eyes widened and he leaned in a bit closer to her face. He pointed his finger at his chest and questioned, "Unless of course, I already know him. It's not me, is it?

She found herself smiling just a little, her lips curving up at the absurdity of it all. "No definitely not. You don't have to worry about that."

"I'm wounded, but I understand. My youthfulness is just too strong for you."

As she thought of something to say, she began to question just why Kakashi hadn't said anything really at all. It was strange of him, letting the other man do all the talking when normally he asked her questions and at least tried to engage. Maybe he was feeling tired or bored with the conversation. She had to change the subject.

"So uh, let's get a move on before all the good booths are taken, yeah?"

"Actually, I'm getting tired. I think I'll just head home for the night, get ready for my mission in two days," the white haired jounin sighed. They both looked over to him, surprised, but Y/N knew why he needed to go. She had upset him somehow. So much for a fun night between the three of them.

"Kakashi, come on! Don't bail on us now!"

She took a step back and her eyes trailed up to his, which were narrowed, not angrily just as if he had been hurt or confused she couldn't tell which. "Oh, are you sure?" Her heart was sinking in her chest seeing him so conflicted.

"Yeah. Got a headache, too."

"Ah, okay. Well, I'll see you around sometime?"

"Yeah."

"Goodbye, rival. Hopefully you are feeling better tomorrow and we can have a real night of drinking indeed!"

And with that, he left to his apartment, leaving the other two behind. She felt her stomach begin to turn uncomfortably, sick from the thought of Kakashi just leaving them like that. He seemed so angry, she couldn't help but think it was all her fault. It wasn't in his nature to act that way.

They had already spent so much time apart already that it was tugging at her heart strings. She felt like they rarely saw each other anymore. For him to be angry at her and leave, that meant they would just see each other even less than before. It seemed like a nightmare come true. She really did miss him, like she had said. She missed the fun they would have together and the conversations they shared. She just missed him and there he went, gone off again without so much as a real goodbye.

The woman clutched at her stomach, feeling the tossing and turning overtake her sense with nausea.

Suddenly, before she could contain herself, tears began dripping down her cheeks, and she sucked in her breath. Hot tears warmed her cheeks, and frantically she wiped them away from her cheeks. Her arms wound around her waist and she hugged herself tightly inward, almost as if she would turn into a ball if she could.

"Y/N, what's wrong?! What happened?"

"It's Kakashi," she whispered, trying to keep herself from crying anymore but it only got worse.

"Kakashi? Because he left? It's okay, we can go drinking another night or-or you and I can just go alone. No problems," he tried to say but it wasn't going to work. She didn't want to go to dinner with Gai and she didn't want to wait until tomorrow, or whatever the next time they would all be together. She was being stupid and selfish, acting like a spoiled little baby with all this crying. She just couldn't stop herself.

"It's not that. There's something I haven't told anyone. I don't know what to do."

"It's gonna be fine whatever it is. Just calm down."

"No, I can't. It's so bad, Gai. I'm in love with him, it's him, and now he's mad at me and I don't know what I did wrong," she confessed, feeling all the words slipping out so easily. How is it that such strong emotions could just cause her to think so irrationally and just let something like this happen? A bout of confessing every feeling she had to her friend who may or may not go and relay all this information to Kakashi. It was stupid. She was just being stupid and reckless.

He nodded carefully, moving to take ahold of her shoulders to steady her. "It's gonna be okay. He's not mad at you, I promise. I know Kakashi and I'm sure he really was just feeling sick."

"Gai, I just...I don't want him to ever leave me, even over something stupid like this."

"Trust me, you don't have to worry about Kakashi leaving you. He would never do something like that. You are one of his closest friends. There's almost nothing you could do to make him do that, especially if you always have good intent at heart. Trust me, you really don't ever need to worry," Gai explained trying his best to reason with her. "You two do everything together. He never stops talking about you! He would never let you go."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, I am one hundred percent sure!"

"I-I need to go find him. I need to make sure he's not upset with me," she said as she pushed herself away from him. He waved to her as she started in the direction of Kakashi's apartment.

"Goodluck on your mission, Y/N, not that you'll need it."

______

Kakashi was just about to enter his apartment when she dashed up the stairs and turned the corner, going so fast she nearly slid into the wall. His eyes widened when he saw her, and he froze in his spot, not turning the key to the door just yet. Her face was flush and chest heaved. He could tell she rushed on her way.

"Y/N, did you run all the way here?"

She stood, catching her breath after just having run all the way across town to find him. Her heart raced as she looked up at him, and she clutched at the railing of the stairs for support. "I wanted to say sorry for whatever I said to make you angry with me. I didn't know I was being insensitive."

"I told you I was sick," he replied, but she knew better. And he knew she did. He wasn't dumb. They knew each other better than that and there was no pretending.

"I could tell that was a lie. I know you were angry and I felt terrible."

"Were you just crying?"

She exclaimed back, holding a hand over her heart to maybe try and ease the racing heartbeat, "Maybe. What about it?! I was hurt that I'd offended my friend, isn't that tear-worthy?" She took a few more deep breaths through her mouth, letting the air fill her up and calm her down. "Why were you so upset?"

"It's not important."

"No, no. It's important to me!"

The man paused, thinking over his next words carefully. He very well knew the real reason he ran away from their conversation like a coward. He actually thought it was obvious. It wouldn't hurt for her to know. He sighed, "If you really want to know. It's because I was tired of hearing about your love life. It's not exactly an entertaining subject."

She knew it but admittedly she would be lying if she said she didn't feel her heart break a little at those words. He didn't care about her feelings enough to just sit there and listen to her talk for a couple minutes? Was she that annoying? So many thoughts ran through her head, and each one made her sad. "I just didn't want to go a whole night with Gai talking about it," he added. "It's nothing to do with you."

"I'm sorry. I really shouldn't have brought it up."

"It's fine," he brushed off her apology. "I'm the one who asked about it in the first place."

"Why- why wouldn't you want to hear me talk about other men? Why would that be a sore subject for you?" She asked, her curiosity spiking up through the roof. It was strange, the whole situation. He had never backed down from a personal chat before, only this time.

He felt like a deer caught in the headlights suddenly. How was he supposed to reply to that without blowing his cover. "I just don't like the whole romance thing."

But they both knew that was a lie. He read romance for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. But if he wanted to keep his secrets, she would let him. There was no need to pry. She just hoped he would trust her enough in the future to explain what he meant. Secretly, she wished that it was because he was jealous. That he didn't want to hear about another man because he wanted to be that guy, her lover. It was a wild thought, a hopeless theory meant to be thrown out, but she could fantasize.

"Kakashi, we're still good? As friends and all? You'll go out with me and Gai another time then?"

He nodded, his lips quirking up into just a tiny smile. It was characteristic for her mind to go straight to the worst case scenario. He replied, "Of course. Like I said, it's not that bad. Don't worry about it."

"Okay. I'm glad. I really thought I messed up this time."

"I don't think there's anything you could do to make me hate you," he sighed, leaning his shoulder against his door frame. "The day I let you go is the day I die, Y/N."

She smiled, closing her eyes and finally taking a relaxed breath. It was done. He wasn't angry at all. He still cared for her and everything else she could hope for. As long as they could remain friends, it was all gonna be okay. She laughed, "That's what Gai said. Should have listened to him, huh?"

The both nodded and suddenly they were enveloped in a peaceful silence for a while. She stared down at her feet and he watched her quietly, admiring the way she could be so miserably shy yet so adorable at the same time.

"Do you wanna go catch dinner? Or uh, just drinks like we originally planned, if you want," he asked, running his hand through his hair. Her eyes brightened at the question, and he'd be stupid not to notice the new shine in them.

"Do you want to go find Gai first?"

"Actually, how about it just be you and me this time? We'll catch Gai tomorrow morning for breakfast instead."

"Two meals in two days...I'm not made of money."

"It's on me. Don't worry about it."

"Oh, jeez. So nice of you, Kakashi. Thank you! Where are we going?" she asked happily, walking up to him and rolling back in the balls of her feet.

"Wherever you want to go."

"I feel like I'm getting the special treatment. I'm so excited," she cheered, pulling him in the direction of the stairs by the edge of his sleeve.

He just smiled. It was all he could do. He had the most beautiful woman in the entire world in front of him ready to go on a not-exactly date. They were only friends, and she reaffirmed that today when she mentioned she was interested in someone else.

But for now he could pretend they were a thing. That they were dating and that she loved him and he could openly love her back. He would take her out to dinner and kick at her ankles under the table just to annoy her. And he would take a sip of her drink and pretend it was too sweet for him and watch as she struggled to drink a sip of his liquor.

And after he walks her home that night, he would hug her tight to his chest and he would think about kissing her, to pull down his mask for just a split second and press his lips to hers, but he would refrain. It just wasn't the right time. Maybe there would never be a right time either, and that was okay.

As long as they could have nights like these, as long as he would feel her in his arms, he was more than happy. He was in love.

Part Two is up.

[junioradventure]

A Month Into Teaching English in Korea: an Update

So, it’s roughly been a month since I’ve been teaching at my hagwon. I can’t believe that a month passed already! I wanted to post an update about how things have been. I’ve had my fair share of struggles, so stay tuned hahaha.

First of all, the curriculum we have to teach is really not that hard to adjust to. Since our school provides us with the materials, prep time is not too bad. It’s mostly printing out the students’ weekly homework reports (depends on the class), worksheets, and downloading audio files. Each class, I have to cover a unit in the textbook. It’s quite straightforward.

The problem mostly lies in the fact that a great deal of the material can be so bland... Which contributes to a lot of the lack of interest during class LOL. And it doesn’t help that the classes are only 40-50 minutes along, so there isn’t really a lot of time to fit in additional material that I might be able to do to boost interest in class. It’s a difficult situation, but it’s mostly something that I have to just accept, unless I have the time to try and fit in my own ideas for class.

Which leads me to some other issues I found during my first month of teaching. Although I really do like teaching some classes in particular, there are others that are more difficult because there are either a. sleepy students (some kids have fallen asleep in class, and they said it’s because they’re really tired) b. really quiet students, or c. really loud, disruptive, and wild students. Mind you, this is my first time teaching an actual class, so even though these kinds of students are pretty typical in any given classroom, it’s shocking when you actually experience having to teach them LOL. 

For the sleepy students, I really feel for them, they come here after their actual school, and then sometimes have to leave really late (9-10pm for middle schoolers!) and then they have to go home to do homework due the next day. I know the education system in Korea is no joke. It just feels really discouraging when there are those few that doze off in class. I know not to take it personally, but I still kind of do since I have to wake them up and encourage them to push through the material LOL. Thankfully, I only experienced this with two students. One of them stopped dozing off in class but has now turned into a really loud, disruptive, and wild student... The other is just constantly sleepy, but he’s really smart and can do the work in class easily. He just nods off quickly. I’m thinking of ways to make the class more active, but there’s only so much we can do since we have to get through the book material. Thankfully, this problem isn’t too huge.

As for the quieter students. I have this one class in particular where I ask questions and I am met with awkward silence *cues Stray Kids’ ‘Awkward Silence’* and they don’t really participate much. 

Me trying to be enthusiastic in class but the kids hit me with the ol’ silent treatment... *awkward smiles*

The first time I experienced this, I was so drained after. This really begs the question, which is worse, a class full of rowdy, crazy students, or a class where getting them to participate is like pulling teeth? Truth be told though, I don’t know much about this class, so maybe I should think more about what I can do. I’m sure they’re mostly, if not all introverts too, so that’s also a factor to keep in mind. It’s not a bad thing, just a different perspective!

And the crazy, loud ones... sigh. Although they do put a smile on my face, sometimes it’s just too much and it’s really mentally exhausting dealing with them. It doesn’t help that the kids don’t really see the foreign teacher as having a lot of authority in class, and that discipline is also not really a thing for us to carry out. I’ve found going to the Korean teachers for the appropriate advice and measures helps a lot. They got my back, which is such a relief. I’ve learned to be a bit firmer now since I started off really compassionate about their behavior, and I felt “too nice” too, until my coworker told me for certain wild ones, being firm and strict is necessary. Sound advice, and will continue to do so, but I’m still gonna be sweet when I can LOL.

However, I do like getting to know my students better, and sharing jokes and fun conversations in class! For example, a few students like Pokemon so I drew some on the white board for fun, and they were so hyped lol. One of them brought their switch to class to show me their Let’s go Pikachu team and I was like “OMG DON’T BRING IT TO SCHOOL THAT’S DANGEROUS, SOMEONE MIGHT TAKE IT” Lol. Oh wait, Koreans don’t steal. Never mind. HAHA. Also, some of my students are realizing that I like kpop too. One of them was really shook because I knew BTS’ “You Never Walk Alone” album title when they made a pun about it in class LOL. She was like, “Are you an ARMY?” with a shocked face HAHA. I’ll be able to chat with them about it as we progress through the semester, so that’s a fun way to bond with them~

How my students look and act some classes.

But overall, my job is not super stressful or horrible. I do have my share of stressors, but it’s still a job nonetheless! I am still getting into the routine of each teaching day, printing worksheets, posting homework, writing detention lists, submitting my daily reports, and extra assignments that come up. I had a hard time yesterday because I totally forgot about extra essays I had to give in class. It didn’t help that I was feeling under the weather and pretty bad about it, but that was a blow to me and I felt so overwhelmed. It’s taught me another lesson in stress management. I’m still not the best at letting things go and pass so that I can stop stressing about it, but I was thankful for my coworkers telling me that it will be okay, and I can just adjust the schedule next week to get the essays done in class! I know it will be fine, everything works out eventually!

Furthermore, especially for the real young ones, I don’t feel like just a teacher. I feel like a babysitter caretaker. I teach one class of first and second graders, and a lot of them just started attending this semester. They can get rambunctious, but they’re literal kids so it’s understandable! It does tire me out sometimes though, when I have to constantly tell them to finish their book work. I’m learning that I have to be there emotionally for them as well, when no one else can. 

Yesterday, one particular student who is easily the rowdiest kid in my class was feeling down. They started off class per usual, going up to me, hanging on me, and treating my tummy like their own personal pillow. He literally calls me his cushion... I think it’s kinda adorable in a way, and he is LOL. Anyway, not even halfway through class, he stopped doing his work and put his head down. The other kids were hooting and getting all bouncy because of it, and at first I didn’t think too much of it. One kid said he was faking. I continued class, but as time went by, he didn’t bounce back like how he usually does. I went up to him and asked him, in a calm and kind voice, “What’s wrong?” in English. He refused to look at me. 

Oh yeah, so my school has an “Only English” policy for foreign teacher classes. Which, in theory, makes a lot of sense. A ton of kids, ESPECIALLY these youngins, keep trying to make me speak Korean, or “find out” if I can, which I have to play coy about. But in situations like this, where emotional support is also something a teacher could provide, and asking him, “Why?” and, “What?” in English wasn’t helping, I asked him in Korean, “What happened?” He eventually murmured, “Something sad happened to me.” I asked him if we wanted to talk about it, but he said no. I also asked him if any of his classmates made him sad, or if I upset him (since I did tell him sternly to behave prior), but he said no again. Thankfully, it was already the end of class, and I told him to cheer up and enjoy the weekend. He nodded cutely, and seemed visibly better, and dare I say appreciative that I checked up personally on him.

It broke my heart to see him so gloomy about something I didn’t know about, but I genuinely hope the weekend gives him a lot of rest and fun with his family. Knowing him, he will bounce back and be as playful and rowdy as usual again. But it taught me another lesson.

Anyways, that’s all I can think of at the moment. This post got really long too, LOL. I’ll write down things whenever something else important happens in class! I know I’ll continue to learn from these experiences!

[starrcrossrose]

Here's what DBZ has done for me in only the last year

(Mind you, I've only been dedicated to watching for about 2 years, but that makes the last year even more amazing bc of the short time span)

This will be sort of a long post. But if you like sappy stuff like me, then read along!

1. It made me draw more

I was hardly ever drawing since I started my full-time, adult job in phone retail bc my stress levels were high and my creativity low. But ever since really delving into the DBZ series, I'm constantly in a mood to draw something. (Bless you, Yuya Takahashi, my art brain short-circuited when I started the Majin Buu arc)

2. I made new friends

I have nothing against the friends I currently have. Hell, the ones I still DO have since high school are my ride-or-die's. But, to have the ability to make new friends (and not bc of them being coworkers that I spend nearly every day with) just off of something we all share a passion for? Amazing. I even have one new friend I text like, every day and she is the sweetest thing. And all because we bonded originally over our love for DBZ! I'm now part of a group chat of girl who love Vegeta (bc, come on, how can you not?) and have found so much amazing art and writing that I even bought my first fanzine and have been planning on meeting most of these guys/gals in person someday!

3. It made me stop caring what others think

Ok, maybe not completely. Life and human emotion is a little more complicated than that. But, as I've made these new friends and seen their passion and creativity for a fandom that has been kicking and screaming (literally) for like, 20+ years is so AWESOME. And in observing this, and as my own love for the show grew, I started branching into territory I had never ventured to before, creatively. I started doing fanart. I started writing fanfiction which is something I never thought I would be able to do. I even posted publicly to my lifelong friends and family (some of whom used to make fun of me for liking anime when I was a kid) that I just didnt care anymore. I wanted to like what I wanted to like, and to have fun, dammit. I may have always seen like the type of person to do or say or wear whatever, but my mind was always thinking of what others thought of me. I no longer want to, and I've been slowly really growing out of that self-consciousness for a while without me realizing it. All because I was so in love with the world and characters of a fiction that ppl grew up on.

4. It taught me to keep fighting for myself

Listen. In our shitstorm of a world as of late, my mind was a mess. I was constantly living in the past, constantly fighting back anxiety and stress in waves that were often debilitating. I even rode the roughest wave of depression in YEARS, to the point of wanting to give up on ever doing something arts related again. But, I was still watching DBZ, still delving into the story of characters I had grown to love, and it was the ONE really bright thing I cared about that wasnt my husband at the time. On top of all that, watching DBZ has been, not quite a distraction, but a coping mechanism for a good/bad/sick day throughout the entire year. It has made me want to grow as a person, to be someone better and stronger than the person I am today. I've always been headstrong in my dreams, but adulting really wanted to suck those things out of me for good. DBZ has made me realize there is a shared passion in a show so beloved, that it has opened multiple doors of conversation for me, even at work! (I have Vegeta on my phone case, lol)

5. DBZ has taught me to never give up

This is such a cliche, something a lot of people have said about this show. But, to reference back to the above points, I really did want to give up everything early this year. I wanted to quit my job, to move states, to be alone. I wanted to never write or draw again bc "I was never going to be good enough" (silly me) to be recognized. But, with the comfort and assurance of my husband (God bless him) and through the comfort of watching a show that filled me with joy, I grew. My husband and I sold our art at a local parsde and actually made a profit! (Small profit, but I was expecting to only break even, so I was very surprised.) My favorite character in the show ended up being Vegeta, which surprised no one who knows me, but for reasons that I've come to understand bc, at first, I didnt know why I liked him so much. But, I began to get it. A character like Vegeta, who is constantly being one-upped, constantly being viewed as 2nd best, constantly struggling and training to be better, was exactly how I felt. And sometimes, I still feel that way. The art world is incredible, but also cruel and overwhelming. It's easy to beat ourselves up, but much harder to push ourselves off the ground when random people like to kick artists while we're down. .But, I brushed myself off, got to my feet, and basically gave the middle-finger to the world and to myself for ever considering giving up. I would be stronger. I would be better, in every aspect of my passions and dreams, and I would NOT give up. I wanted to be like Vegeta who, through growth and reflection, took pride not only in who he was, but eventually, in his OWN strength.

In Short (lol):

DBZ has literally changed my life in such a short span of time. And I am forever grateful to my husband for finally sitting my ass down and making me watch it, and also to the fandom, who has been nothing but supportive and friendly in my short time here. Thank you, Akira Toriyama, and thank you Toei Animation. You've literally helped a person who needed to see a show like this one more than she ever thought she would.

[kerie-prince]

Runaways

(photo not mine)

A/N: I wrote this in the perspective as “I, me” in hopes that it would be more enjoyable. I hope it is... I had really fun writing this. I wrote this in a rush of an hour. It all poured out. Anyway, enough being deep, enjoy the scenario.

Byun Baekhyun x Reader angst

Summary: Just because you run away with the boy you love doesn’t mean that life is like a happy ending. There’s so many bumps on the roads you walk with Baekhyun. In the end, it was still a good decision. Even if you get into a lot of fights

Word count: 1,828

We managed to not argue for a full three days. Running away from home sounded like a brilliant idea a year and a half ago, but we had no idea what it was really like to be on our own. We never knew that living together would accentuate our differences. We truly believed that life was going to be perfect.

It was easy for Baekhyun to run away. He had grew tired of having to live up to his parents expectations that his older brother provided. He grew tired of his “friends” only talking to him to get closer to his brother. The only people that cared about his wellbeing were his piano teacher, his housekeeper that practically raised him, and well… me.

I never really liked his older brother. He graduated from an Ivy League law school in America and suggested (more like enforced, if you ask me) Baekhyun to do the same. So, a load of money later, Baekhyun started his path of resentment towards his blood family. Everyday, he used to tell me, “Jagiya, you, Teacher Jung, and Miss Kwang are the only people in this world I consider family. You are the only ones that know what I really am. Who I really am. You know that, right?”

For me? I told my dad upfront I was ready to leave the house. To be responsible on my own. Surprisingly, my dad was supportive of me. So I’m not really a runaway. He even pays for my phone, just as long as I tell him where I’m at. My dad always taught me to be able to rely on myself when I needed it.

Back to arguing, after the honeymoon phase (which lasted a month), I figured out a lot of things about Baekhyun than I ever did in two years of knowing him. He… was really lazy. Which was a given since he was taken care of his whole life. I would lightly nag him to do this or that. He’d whine constantly and maybe mess things up, but I just put up with it most of the time. But then came the time I came back to the small apartment after a day of job hunting, and the place was a complete dump. I was completely drained, body aching from walking, and my own boyfriend was sitting in luxury with no worry about anything. We argued and didn’t talk for three days until we made up.

Then there was the time he came back home late from god knows where. He smelled like alcohol and had weird shit in his eye. I calmly asked what he was doing and he pulled out a thick, rubber-band bounded sum of cash from his jacket. I got scared. What was I supposed to think? Baekhyun coming home in ungodly hours wearing makeup and getting amounts of money that could get us a dream home.

I followed him one night, trying to prepare myself for the worst (although no matter the turnout, what was I going to do?). Caught off guard, I see this alleyway he’s walking down with a sign bared with gentle colored lights that wrote, “Night Walkers.” I had pulled my hoodie more over my head and remembered thinking “I can’t believe he’s working for a strip club.”

Walking in, the atmosphere was the complete opposite. Everyone was dressed elegantly in the underground club. The place took the breath away from my mouth, leaving me staring in a wide-eyed awe. Center of the club was Baekhyun doing what he did best, singing with his hands dancing on the piano keys. I couldn’t believe I didn’t trust him.

Just the thought alone brought shame to me. At the end of his performance, a woman, much prettier than me, much richer than me grabbed his arm and bowed to the applauding audience. He smiled and would wave his hands to the people around him. And by chance, he saw me, in the back by myself.

It didn’t take much of me to leave and go back “home.” I had stood up all night waiting for him to tell me everything. How did he get this job? Why didn’t he want to tell me? And who was that lady?

1 am came around and Baekhyun had changed from a clean suit to some ripped jeans and a colorful sweater with the makeup still on his face. He saw my body on the bed sitting upright and asked me, “Why did you follow me?”

“Why didn’t you tell me about what you were doing?” He visibly had gotten annoyed by my interrogation, which confused me because he had no right. “I’m working and getting money for us, what do I need to explain?”

Had he really said that? I still don’t believe it, but when they effortlessly fell out of his mouth, my own hand had effortlessly slapped him across the face. “Are you stupid? You think I would be happy with you coming home at 1 am with makeup on your face and that huge stack of money in your pocket? You think I would keep my mouth shut and walk around happily as long as we can keep up with rent?”

Ironically, I ran away that night. He had tried to come up with an excuse, even to the point that he thought that maybe, he could’ve let you in on something. That lady at the club was on the clear though. She was the owner of the club and married. But Baekhyun was keeping a secret and didn’t want to admit how stupid the secret was.

I hadn’t gone far, just to a motel literally a block away. And about four days later, I went back to the apartment and we made up like we always did.

Another thing we fought about; the guy who hit on me at work. Mind you, I always ignored him. Sure, he was annoying but avoidable. For the most part. I told Baekhyun about him and when I would sense him wanting to convince me to “talk to him,” I had made him promise not to try anything. I told him I had everything under control.

Oh, did I wish I was right. One day, we were stuck with closing the store and he insisted that he took me home. After an hour of saying no, he walked the opposite way making me feel eerie walking the poorly lit streets. I called Baekhyun to talk to me until I got home. But dumb ol’ me didn’t think that my co-worker would walk around and pop out of a dark alley and drag me with his dirty hands over my mouth.

He only talked to me, saying I had “one last chance to accept my heart, Y/N.” He pushed forward to forcefully kiss me. I had pursed my lips in refusing it but he felt that. He brought his hands to my face hand squeezed my lips out for him to take. His lips were chapped and his breaths came out of his nose heavily, slightly dried my tears.

Then I had felt a force bringing me down to the ground and saw him grabbing his face. He clumsily had gotten up and ran towards something. Or someone? Again, he was brought back down, blood slowly streaming down his forehead. Baekhyun’s voice was recognizable. “Filthy piece of shit,” was heard as he was beating him.

I remember it being the scariest thing I’ve ever seen. I just sat against the cold brick wall with my legs folded against my chest. Baekhyun hadn’t even gotten punched. The guy was begging for him to stop, looking at me for some moments crying out I’m sorry, I’m so sorry. Baekhyun went at it, even when he thought he wasn’t moving. I ran up and pulled him away from the guy. “Enough, you’re killing him!”

Baekhyun came to his wits and looked at him. His chest was very weakly rising and falling. I looked around and all there was were just blank streets, not one person around. Not even a homeless person. Baekhyun took my hand and made a run for it. We didn’t even need to, who would’ve caught us?

At home, I yelled at him, “Why the hell did you take it that far? He could be dead if I didn’t stop you on time!”

“Oh, so I shouldn’t have gone to help you when I heard you scream on the phone? This is the thanks I get for saving my girlfriend from a potential rapist?” Again, he wasn’t getting the point. He was always going in circles, thinking he was a hero.

“Coming to my rescue and almost killing someone are two different things, Baekhyun! Do you think police are going to let you fly with the ‘he almost raped my girlfriend’ excuse?” That fight lasted shorter than usual though. We made up that same night. Not the usual make up than the nights before. But had the same emotional intimacy than the others.

We left in a week, scared that my coworker would tell the police about Baekhyun any time. The place we’re at now is the new getaway apartment. I told my dad about the new move, but this time lied about why. You can’t just tell your dad that your boyfriend beat the literal shit out of someone to protect you.

So here we are, our new home in some countryside that I can’t pronounce the name of correctly. I still nag him about cleaning, but our big arguments turned into little misunderstandings. He got a pretty fair job, teaching little kids in the neighborhood how to play the piano and helped the little choir by some school nearby.

I stayed home, taking care of myself and some household things. Being two months pregnant was a surprise. Baekhyun is even more protective of me, not even wanting me to walk out of the house to grab the mail. “My little baby girl needs to grow well without danger. So make sure you’re taking care of her.” I teased him about not even asking if I was fine with taking care of myself. And I find it funny that he already assumes we’re having a girl.

“If we have a boy, we’re going to keep trying until I have a girl. And I want her to look exactly like me. No offence Y/N, but you’re not the best looking in the morning.” He would laugh as I chased him around the apartment hitting him with the dish rag.

We’re still figuring things out. We’re still learning more about each other. But even after all our fights, I fall in love with him more. Baekhyun is realistically far from perfect, as am I. It’s that reason that we fit so well together. So here’s to more adventures, to more learning, to more mistakes, and to more times of being together.

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[crazystressedasian]

so you just got fired—now what?

Well, no. I got fired yesterday after coming in late to my soul-sucking, tedious, menial office job. And I am the happiest that I have been in so long.

No, really. Getting fired from my $20 an hour front desk office job is the greatest, most calming thing that I have experienced in the last two years. Obviously, I know that getting fired is not a good thing. No one wants to get fired, no one likes losing their job. But you haven’t worked for my boss. Maybe you’ve worked for someone like him. In which case, I’m not telling you to get yourself fired. Quit. Put in your two-week notice. Flee. Never go back. Go home, hug your pet(s), and check your application status on indeed.com over a glass of wine. 

But I got fired. Blindsided completely, totally didn’t expect to be called into the boss’s office to get fired—fired. There were two mistakes made the night before:  1. I turned the phones off at 5:55pm instead of 6:00pm. 2. A man—who’s at least forty years older than me, hey, what’s up, asshole?—lied to my boss and said I hung up on him. No. You just didn’t the appointment that you wanted because —shocker, our schedules don’t revolve around yours and you’re not entitled to immediate attention and service just because you’ve been coming here for years and years. Neither of these reasons warrants being fired, but they fired me with an “Okay, you can go.”

I was just fired. I was so fired. They fired the shit out of me. 

I know the way I left the office left a tasteless impression and frankly, I'll be surprised if I ever work at an office again because I couldn't stop smiling. I think this is the happiest I've been in the last two months. Sure, it was a walk of shame. But for me, it was a walk of freedom. 

My boss is inclined to believe anything that his patients tell him about me just as he’s welcome to agree with them. The truth of the matter is that I had nothing left to say not because I don't care about this practice or that I don't respect him and the other providers. It's the fact that I know nothing I say would have mattered.

It's a lot like cutting off an infected limb that has long been infected. I could keep taking the antibiotics. I could keep trying to live my life with it constantly being dragged around and causing me pain. And I could just keep living with it. That's what working at this office has been for the last two weeks. 

Did I want to get fired? Absolutely not. But I did want to leave. And I kept putting it off because I didn't want to just go. I know what it was like working by myself at the front desk at a medical practice with more than one medical provider. A receptionist here did everything except take patients and prescribe medication. I talked to the always delightful insurance companies to make sure patients could get medications that weren’t medically necessary and radiology procedures that weren’t medically necessary on top of answering the phones as fucking peachy keenly as possible because the clientele are used to a certain level of care, which is code for “entitled rich assholes who would sell their pet Milani poodles before shelling out money to cover their medical bills”. I didn't want to put my coworker through that. But now I just don't care. 

Because being at this office is like being in a time warp. You're there and it's a loop of being told that you need to be faster and you need to do better. So you try to be faster and be better. But then you did this wrong. And you're also not allowed to do this. So you should be doing this. Because that's what you should have been doing to begin with. 

Being at the office was an ever-present reminder that nothing you said or did or felt matters. My boss and I both know that I wasn't trained well. Or at least if he didn’t, I hope that me saying so doesn't come as a surprise. Everything I learned, I learned from a coworker who only came in once a week to train me because she’d been working here for nearly 7 years and after having the youth literally sucked out of her, has mentally clocked out for the last 2. Everything else fell on the office manager who’s never working at the front desk and another girl who’s got, at most, 7 months more experience than I had. 

So I'm three months into the job still not really knowing how to work this job. And then five. Then six. Seven. And finally eight. And it's so hard working for people because when I make a mistake, they make sure that I feel like an idiot. Or that I'm worthless. But I know neither of which is true. I've never once "half-assed" this job. 

But oh, I turned the phones off at 5:55pm. And before that, oh, I had to be berated by a man older than my father because he couldn't be accommodated right away when it suited him best. I was told I was incompetent. I was blamed for the things completely out of my control. Because my boss doesn’t want to work anymore and yet, he does. He keeps coming to the office and taking new patients while never taking accountability or responsibility for his ever-overbooked schedule. He lets his OG patients—actually, no, he lets all his patients (new, old, young, ancient, blue, green, yellow, red) treat his staff like trash because when he doesn’t want to see people anymore, it’s our fault. We are incompetent, we don’t know how to accommodate his schedule, we don’t know how to schedule patients, etc. etc. Excuse after excuse after excuse because if there’s one thing a grown ass man who’s been practicing for more than thirty years still doesn’t know how to fucking hold himself accountable for his own greed.

Of course, I should have been used to it by now considering his patients I was as an employee no matter what I've tried to do or improve to show that I'm capable and competent. Not that it matters anymore, but the point I'm trying to make here is that it is impossible to please everyone. And it is even less possible to work for someone who doesn't have sympathy or compassion for their staff. 

He’d always told me that he welcomed criticism or feedback. 

Well, here it is. 

My boss spoke to me like I was either, again, an idiot or worthless. How can someone possibly improve here? There's no understanding or emotional support or even the sliver of an indication that he cared if one of—most of—his patients treated me like trash. Maybe he learned it from them. Or perhaps he taught them very well. 

Because even when I actively made the efforts to do better and try not to make the same mistakes, I was already making another and 3 out of 5 of my mistakes were made not knowing that I either shouldn't have done something or was not allowed. I was not told or taught until he took it upon himself to "teach" me. 

I wasn't doing a half-assed job. My training was half-assed. The feedback I got from you all was half-assed. And despite it all, I chose to give it my best with half of what I was given. Because the money was good. The money was fucking great for my first full-time job, are you kidding? I was getting $600 every week, more when I got that OT coin. It felt like the world was my oyster. I could save up for grad school, I could plan a trip, I could buy a pound of cocaine if that’s what I wanted to do.

But about two months ago, the money wasn’t even worth it anymore. The wounds that kept festering finally showed themselves. 

Of course I have made plenty of mistakes here. I have monumentally fucked up so many times and have been treated like a monumental fuckup to match each one. And every single time a patient made me feel like trash, without fail, I hoped that my boss would be sympathetic. If one of the other providers made me feel like an idiot, I hoped he would be willing to listen. I wanted to feel like I had a place there and would be supported, but I didn't and I wasn't. 

And there is no more left to say because this has been one of the best paying jobs I have ever had and the most rewarding experience I have had learning about other people and I thank him for that, but it is one of the worst experiences I've put myself through. And I thank the doctor for that. 

A spiteful side of me hopes this finds him well. I hope it offers some insight. So that maybe he can hire new staff that lasts longer than a healthy pregnancy. 

[ridewindingrivers]

Reading old journal entries is such a goddamn mind fuck at times. Other times I sob at the beauty of how happy I felt with every component of my life and how much has changed. I’m going to put this out into the void because it’s helping me to think and remember aspects of life and figure out what the fuck is happening right now (and what I want). Read if you like, it’s a lot to handle, and a very long text post. Sorry, I just needed to time warp and figure out where things went south. You might be upset I put this out there, and it might make your feelings more complicated, but I need this.

Fucking hell, from a post in December 2014, “I really just got to thinking how much I enjoy his company, him as a person; and recognized my yearning for the trail and that I don’t want anyone else by my side except him. Making me laugh, giving me encouragement, teaching my new ways to live outdoors, and sharing the vast wilderness craving with. ... It’s a bonding, friendly, sexing, tender, safe, calming, steady, engaging love. A deeper love.”

That time that Nana caught me snacking in the kitchen and talked to me about how she and Nanu don’t remember too much anymore (this was back in 2014). She sat at the table, put all my rings on, and laughed with me.

The time Dr. R got cancer and we paddled an entire river system together. He is cancer free.

Those times where we buckle down and get shit done. When my ambition is through the roof to the point of being unrealistic and then I’m brought back down to the ground.

Working through hurdles and understanding how to effectively communicate emotions - frustrations, gratitude. Realizing that love can be like that sometimes.

Moving into 2015...

The Duluth trip during spring break - in all its snowy, falling in a ditch, glory.

When I finally came to terms with all the bullshit with my dad. And cried about it at a bar with my best friend. Then drank beers together about it. Thanks L. I remember exactly where we sat, our orientation, and how raw that moment was.

“I crave him and as much as it scares me, it’s so goddamn exciting to have found something so wonderful to share with a very special person.” 

When Dr. Graves approached me at Science on Tap and told me that I have to do what is best for my growth as a scientist and continue to learn from other people.

The Michigan Entomological Society meeting and the Natural History workshops in Maine. <3 There are some good citations in here from the meeting... ooo

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 HUDSON BAY ADVENTURE <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

The flowers and fabulous welcome home sex.

Coming to realize that what makes me happy is having my own space - we haven’t had our own time or space in what feels like a year. That is a problem. 

The fleas at the friend’s house.

Colorado vacation - visiting RMNP and CSU before GRADUATING and moving out of the UP. The worst decision if I’m bein’ real.

Moving into 2016...

Being crammed in a room together with no way to express ourselves or DO OUR OWN THING. “Ever since we moved here, I feel we have been out of sync. One thing the summer and this past fall has taught us is that had it MADE when we were living at the Longyear apartment.” - still tru; maybe this is where things started to unravel....

The breakdown. The struggle to find employment.

“I’m tired of feeling anxious for the next step. Tired of feeling like “we have to get through this.”

“I feel discarded and tossed to the sharks.”

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 Meerakat came into our lives  <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

“Feeling crappy about my body.”

“Since we started at this job, we haven’t had time to do much of anything we enjoy and I think that caused us to feeling a little disconnected from who we are as individuals and to some extent - a couple.”

When my coworkers gave me a goodbye card. <3

I was awarded Honorable Mention for the NSF Graduate Research Fellowship Program. 

I tipped the kayak...

Birding, naturalizing out at Otis and the morel feast we had.

“We both have different  ways of dealing with leaving and it’s causing us to clash. I’m having mild doubts but I hope it’s just in my head. I feel bad for pursuing this. I’m trying to be encouraging and show some cool things, but it doesn’t feel like it helps or makes a difference.” Here. Red flag. Past me, why didn’t you listen? Your sense of adventure was going strong.

Planting potatoes, pulling garlic mustard, and going to the Polar Bear with Nanu and Nana.  <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Feeling like I don’t fit in at home and how I shouldn’t be a part of the family. I thought we built our own little family.

“I don’t feel comfortable in my own skin and it’s affecting our relationship.” Working on this one - it’s time.

The Dune Saloon and all it’s tasty beers and whitefish-ness. 

Floatin’ down the Boise Riva!

“Peak homesickness has struck.” But we drove to Oregon and had a fan-fucking-tastic time.

“I’m so thankful he is here.”

Planning to thru the AT. - Still an ambition. Or at least a long trail. All the long trails!

2017...

When McNair sent me packages to my apartment in Boise. <3 I felt so loved.

My frustrations with the people in the department and their fuckin’ egos.

“Today was: the last day of my first year of graduate school, stressful, annoying, aggravating, distracting.” 

“I would rather do small scale projects if I was more into them. If I thought of them myself.”

Ha, my feminine product usage data. A++!

Frontier Ruckus at the Neurolux for our anniversary.

Our butterfly collection outings in the foothills and mountains.

Biking to Harris Ranch and Lucky Peak.

Sunset Mountain.

“There were lots of butterflies out and I really wanted to chase them and have fun out there, but I felt bad doing that. I feel bad being me sometimes.” -The signs of an unhealthy relationship with your advisor...or inappropriate enthusiasm. 

“I feel like I’m having an identity crisis. I’m in a heavy depression, feel guilty for bringing him out here and away from home, feel guilty because he could be doing something else. I feel so bad all of the time and it fucking sucks. I want him to be happy and then I can be happy. Fuck. I hope all of this pays off in the end...”

Going to Michigan was a disaster.

“I have an uncontrollable desire to use this feeling of unhappiness and discomfort to motivate me to finish sooner. Do my shit and get on with my life.”

The note you wrote me on our three year anniversary that made “my heart tingle.” “I love falling asleep next to you, warm and safe, and I love waking up with you by my side. I cherish everyday with you because I never knew it could be this good. You are my soulmate, you’re my one and only.” What happened to this feeling? All I ever did was love you for you and love only you. I saved every single note you ever wrote to me. They are reminders of your strong, consistent love.

All of the lizards I would see out in the desert.

“I got angry drunk. I never get angry drunk. I legitimately think that being out here and unhappy has and is changing my attitude and body chemistry.”

“I decided to drop out of graduate school. It feels like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.”

Sawtooths, pronghorn, Bar Garnika, and Box Lake.

“I’m fricken pumped and ready to move back.”

When we drove through a storm that was literally pouring buckets in the Subaru with everything we own. Little Meera did so well.

Backpacking PIRO. Didn’t have the romantic appeal I was going for when I proposed the idea, but still a grand time none the less.

Superior Hiking Trail with Laurel and Coops <3

2018...

“I need to find a sense of self and figure out some kind of purpose. He leaves for camp in two months and I will be here alone. I have become disconnected from me and that makes me sad.” I think this is a result of no alone time to just be in stillness, like we had before.

A note from February, “Let’s continue those traditions together. Let’s do it all together. Let’s keep climbing mountains together, let’s keep walking trails. Let’s keep swimming in lakes, let’s keep skipping rocks. Let’s keep the wonder alive. Let’s do it all together.” - somehow I feel like I have let you down. I want to do all of these things together. “The future is daunting, sometimes the path is unclear. But if we hold on tight, we’ll hold each other together. And that is what gives me strength to face the future. You and me, me and you, US TOGETHER (with little Meera). Emily, I love you with everything I’ve got. We can face whatever comes our way. We are strong, a top tier red belt power couple.” Your words. Does this still mean anything? What happened between then and now? I know your job is tough, I know how much you love freedom. I’m happy you are free now and able to experiment and figure things out. But what about all of these words and memories? Surely that can’t be erased or forgotten because of one month apart or a cute new face to talk to. 

I’m hurt, confused, lonely, surrounded by literally everything that reminds me of you and thinking about forgetting our past HURTS! I don’t want to! I want a future with you. You’re my guy and I support you through everything. Even this decision, which I totally understand. I hope you manage to figure out your thoughts and feelings.

“My head is spinning.”

[dorothydelgadillo]

The F Word: What’s Up With Crying At Work?

Welcome to The F Word, where we, Skillcrush staffers Lauren Lang and Julia Sonenshein, discuss issues that impact all of us—both in and out of the workplace. We know that for us, coming to understand the f-word (in this case, feminism), and how important it is in the scope of our lives, didn’t happen overnight. We hope you’ll join us once a month as we meet to discuss power, workplace politics, and how exactly to respond when your male coworker asks you to take notes at that staff meeting. Again.

Julia: And we’re back! Lauren, today we are tackling a subject I have a lot of thoughts about—and I know you do too: crying at work. I’ve done it, you’ve done it, and I’m sure you, dear reader, have done it, too. In fact, in news that is completely devastating, one of the most popular search terms around the topic is “how to stop crying at work,” which means a lot of you are struggling.

I want to start by talking about the first time I cried in front of someone at work. It actually wasn’t until this job at Skillcrush, and it completely took me by surprise. I was having a video meeting with a coworker (Brian, our resident freelancing book club expert) when frustration about the day I was having just gripped me. Maybe it was because we work from home so I was sitting on my couch and it felt relaxed or maybe because Brian and I are close friends, but it just happened. I was totally shocked by it. It wasn’t just crying—it was in a meeting, and in front of a male coworker. He was extremely supportive and lovely, but that was a completely new experience.

But when I think back to the times when I’ve cried at work in the past, it’s a little heartbreaking. I always took deep, measured breaths until I was away from my coworkers and then cried in the bathroom, alone, not returning to my desk until I looked 100 percent back-to-normal. I kept concealer and mascara in my desk so I could reapply and nobody would be the wiser.

Over my career, I’ve cried at work for a number of reasons, but mostly it’s been out of frustration or anger. Maybe my coworkers screwed up something high stakes, or I screwed up and was furious at myself. But the fact that I have historically been so terrified to show myself crying tells me we have this huge problem: What’s the matter with crying, anyways?

Lauren, have you ever had the honor of crying at work? Let’s cry it out together.

Lauren: Hey Julia! I’m about to cry tears of excitement about this latest installment at any moment. GET READY.

So yes: I think back to when I have cried in my life, and 99 percent of the time it was not out of pure grief or loss. Instead, I’ve cried in exasperation during fights with family members or (now ex-) boyfriends. I’ve cried in my car after long days at work in which I felt I was disrespected or undermined. I’ve cried at sheer injustice, against me and against others.

The two times I cried at work were out of feelings of powerlessness and frustration—a visceral reaction to not feeling like I could physically speak actual words to advocate for myself. Once was in a performance review when I was being severely micromanaged by a terrible leader and felt like I wasn’t being treated respectfully for what I brought to the table. Another was when a different boss made a mistake and got angry at me for not catching her oversight.

In both of these positions I was rather junior (they were over a decade ago) and I felt like I had no voice. Emotions surrounding that lack of power bottled up and literally flowed out of my eyes because I wasn’t able to express them any other way. Both of these times were in front of superiors. Both times I apologized profusely and was told not to take everything so “personally,” as if piss-poor management and character assault weren’t personally happening to me. And both times, Julia, I felt SUCH SHAME. Like I was a stupid little girl throwing a tantrum. Like there was something wrong with me and I had committed a profoundly unprofessional offense. I was mortified; I wanted to run away and join a hippie commune somewhere where I’d never have to function in a typical job ever again.

Julia, why do you think crying at traditional workplaces is so taboo? What does this assumption say about how the professional world sees emotion?

Julia: I’m so with you. Frustration, anger, and bad days all happen, and it’s reasonable to need a way to express that. But I always felt that if I showed any ounce of vulnerability, I’d be undermined as a leader or taken less seriously as a colleague.

In my view, the assumption being made about emotion in the workplace is one that’s based on how we qualify emotion: The prevailing thought is that crying comes from feminine emotions like sadness and anxiety. And misogyny runs deep through the workplace: having a feminine reaction is unprofessional and not befitting of a leader. But this misses a critical point, which is that like both of our experiences noted, crying isn’t necessarily about sadness or anxiety. It’s often about fucking anger.

And we see anger in the workplace all the time, but it’s the version that’s somehow more palatable: male anger. I’ve seen shouting, doors slammed, papers thrown, all by men in positions of power, and nobody has ever questioned their temperamental ability to function. In fact, this is our collective ideal of a boss—a mercurial male CEO blustering about, shouting edicts. We call this “decisive,” or “strong leadership.” But really, these are just emotional outbursts that we tolerate, or even glorify.

But people who present as female who feel anger or frustration in the workplace are taught that crying is the only option. For a woman to yell, she’s shrill. If a woman slams a door, she’s unhinged. There’s no socially acceptable way for women to express anger or frustration at work besides crying, and then they’re punished for their overly emotional response.

Lauren, it feels to me like women are trapped in a paradox: We can’t cry, but we can’t do anything else, right? And why is it that angry women cry while angry men yell? Where do you think that comes from?

Lauren: It’s all that sugar and spice and everything nice! (Blech.)

It’s not enough that women can’t express anger—we’re not even supposed to feel it. It comes back to how women are conditioned even as children. Years of therapy eventually revealed that I was overly deferential to my employers—and any older or more powerful person in my life, really—because I felt subconsciously afraid of disappointing them, of not toeing the line and being the rule-following, people-pleasing, A-student “good girl” that I had always been in my youth. And when that conditioning came face-to-face with knowing that something was deeply wrong with how I was being treated, I experienced cognitive and emotional dissonance and literally COULD. NOT. HANDLE. IT.

Anger, indignation, annoyance, and rage are perfectly rational responses to the crap women and other marginalized people often face at work, whether it’s harassment or underestimation or something else. But when something perfectly anger-inducing occurs, and when women are taught that anything other than Stepford-wife “agreeableness” is wrong, and in fact that any reaction at all is an overreaction, what does that say about our feelings?

I’ll tell you what it says: It says that those feelings are invalid. It says that any woman’s feelings are just a gross byproduct of femininity—ugh, why do girls have to be so sensitive? Whatever happened, no matter what it was, it never merits the expression of icky female emotion we let slip through (raised voice, emphatic hand gestures, eye roll, sarcasm, neutral RBF, audible sigh).

But here’s where the brainwashing really comes in. If our feelings are wrong, then logic dictates that the events or interactions that have inspired those feelings, in turn, are somehow acceptable. After that initial surge of emotion, we rationalize them away:

Maybe I should have triple-checked those numbers she gave me. They probably asked me to change the toilet paper just because they know I’m responsible. My boss only screamed at me because he’s stressed. I should be doing more. If I didn’t want them to go behind my back, I should have been paying more attention.

Don’t take it so personally, right? It’s easier to just swallow shit and move on, and the patriarchy wins, and we wake up the next morning and say to ourselves, “Well, at least I didn’t CRY.”

But yeah, angry men can yell at work. No consequences. No one bats an eye. Assertive leaders are the best!

Fuck.

Julia, save me from the depths of my nihilism with a fanciful thought experiment. How do we create a culture where demonstrating emotion/being human is okay? What would it look like, and what effects might it have on creating better environments?

Julia: I mean, fuck is right.

Here’s my ideal working world: It’s a world that acknowledges that employees are not mindless drones but complex humans who sometimes experience a wide range of emotion: joy, frustration, excitement, anxiety, sadness, pride, and hope. In this world, emotion isn’t gendered: everyone can experience all of these (as, you know, humans do), in a way that’s constructive and supported.

It’s tough because I don’t necessarily want to see more men crying or more women slamming doors, but I do want to find a non-gendered, healthy way for everyone to express the negative emotions that just come up in everyday life. And I think that knot is so tangled—and goes to the root of those negative emotions in the first place. In this ideal world, men don’t talk over women in meetings. Men don’t monopolize credit on a team project. Men aren’t taught that aggression is the only outlet for anger, and women aren’t taught the same about crying. Women are valued as leaders without being undermined. We don’t have to question ourselves constantly for having human reactions to stressful situations. Finally, we’d all acknowledge that experiencing emotion is separate from the ability to do good work or to lead.

Getting there is a harder question to answer, but I can tell you what I try to do in my everyday as a manager and coworker: I try really hard to check in with my team about how they’re feeling, and when they ask me, I force myself to be vulnerable and honest if it’s a hard week. I recognize that this is because of the culture here—this starts from the top and our CEO sets that tone. I try to find words for when I’m angry that don’t downplay how I’m feeling, even if it goes against a lifetime of conditioning. I practice saying “I’m feeling frustrated about the so-and-so project, and we need to talk about what went wrong” so that I can be clear about my feelings in a way that’s constructive and where I get support.

On a broader scale, I think we all need to work to stop punishing women for experiencing the same emotions that men do, and to recalibrate our idea of what is power. There is great power in vulnerability as there is in aggression, and neither need be gendered.

Lauren, you’re in a unique position that I can’t speak to: You’re raising a young girl. I know that there’s only so much we can do at work and a host of ways in which we need to start so much earlier, so that the next generation of the workforce isn’t unlearning what we were taught. Given the incredible badass feminist that you are, I know you’re raising your daughter with different ideas than we were raised with, and I honestly think that if we want to get to the bottom of this, we have to start at the beginning. What does that look like?

Lauren: Great question! Yes: I have a seven-year-old daughter. She is fierce in ways I never was as a pliable little moppet. I admire her in so many ways, and she’s amazing in her confidence. It will be a benefit to her as she grows up and takes her rightful place as our future overlord.

But I see her struggle when she’s angry, and all sorts of passive-aggressive behaviors come flying out. She issues ridiculous ultimatums (“Well, I guess I’m just going to go READ in my ROOM for a HUNDRED YEARS!”) and refuses to tell me what’s wrong when something is obviously wrong: “No, really. I’m fine. Just FINE.” She’s like the juvenile embodiment of every soon-to-be-ex-girlfriend in the first 15 minutes of a rom com, except that I don’t have the option to break up with her.

I worry about this sometimes, because why can’t she just say what she thinks? Passive aggression is a strategy women have been using forever to combat their own powerlessness…but it’s not really a healthy way to communicate. Does she feel silenced in some way? Am I an abject failure as a feminist parent? But then I remember: feelings are hard enough for adults who have fully formed amygdalas, let alone little kids. She’s trying to figure out how to communicate feelings—and the choice of passive aggression somehow seems safer to her than just getting openly pissed.

So there’s a lot of talk right now about the difference between feelings and behavior. I try to validate the emotion (even if her behavior is less than ideal) so that she can accept that she’s angry. I also encourage her to find and use her voice so that we can actually have a conversation about how to fix things.

But as the most prominent female role model in her life, it’s also my responsibility to walk the walk. I verbalize my feelings openly. I tell her I love her all the time. I tell her how proud I am to be her mom. Sometimes I get angry at her because kids can be messy and annoying, and the maturity with which I handle that emotion depends on the amount of sleep I got the night before. If I make a mistake in how I handle a situation, I apologize and try to do better.

I am far from perfect, but for heaven’s sake, I’m not a fembot—I’m a person. IT IS OKAY TO BE A PERSON. She needs to know that. And honestly, so does everyone else.

from Web Developers World https://skillcrush.com/2017/11/21/crying-at-work-sexism/

[the-yaoi-galla]

Chris Pratt & Anna Faris Thank One Another In Emotional Speeches At Tear-Filled Hollywood Walk Of Fame Star Ceremony!

Chris Pratt was honored with a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame on Friday, and we can’t think of many stars we’d rather see accept.

No, not because he’s sweet and gracious and super hunky in a Tom Ford 3-piece. (All that stuff is fabulous though!) But we’re really excited because he brought along his wonderful fam!

Photos: Chris Goes Spider-Man For Men’s Fitness!

After live-tweeting the entire preparation ritual, Anna Faris gave a speech about her hubby that nearly brought us to tears, saying:

“This is actually a thank-you speech. I’m the beneficiary of all this because I get to spend every day with this wonderful man… I know that if our circumstances were different and we weren’t as fortunate to be standing here and living our Hollywood life, we would be happy in the woods together, I think.”

And their son, the adorable little Jack Pratt, was right there with them, being adorable in every pic. But he also stood as a reminder of their tough times; Jack was born premature and had health problems when he was very young.

But Anna says Chris helped her get through it all:

“He stood by me and held me and was my anchor.”

Awwwww. But she didn’t keep it too schmaltzy. She also shared one more Guardians Of The Galaxy Vol. 2 premiere secret:

“At the premiere of Guardians 2, on the red carpet he whispered something unbelievably inappropriate into my ear and it was awesome. Honey, I want to thank you for being the most incredible person. I love you so much.”

Then Chris went all-out and DID make us cry! It was one of the most grateful speeches we’ve ever heard. He began:

“I’m a man of faith and I believe that God works in mysterious ways and gives us signs and gifts in life and those gifts oftentimes come in the form of people. So I’ll just spend the rest of my time expressing gratitude for the people in my life who are gifts.”

And he did.

Photos: Stars Who Can Do Magic Tricks!

He thanked first his mother:

“She gave absolutely everything she had to raise us, every fiber of her being. And oftentimes we weren’t cash-rich, but we were never love-poor. You gave everything and you were always proud of me, way before this. When I was a waiter at Coco’s you just couldn’t get enough of me.”

His brother Cully:

“He is my star and always has been. He played a major supporting role in raising me, and was a big fan of mine and always guided me and I love you.”

His sister Angie:

“She taught me how to fight, she taught me how to value emotions, she taught me how to have a backbone and she made some profound sacrifices for our family, so that I could be down here chasing my dreams.”

James Gunn and the Guardians franchise:

“It’s changed so many lives: My life, my wife’s life, the lives of children in hospitals, the lives of my real estate agent, my great grandkids they’re all going to benefit.”

His team:

“I feel as though I’m just the shiny hood ornament on a well-oiled machine that they drive every single day.”

…and last but not least, Anna:

“I want to thank my wife Anna, I love you. You’ve given me so much. You gave me the greatest star in the galaxy in my little boy, I love him and I love you. We have bonded to make this molecule that is more important to me than air or water, and without it none of this means anything to me. With every challenge, with every day, week, month, decade, we become more bonded. You make me laugh like nobody else. You’re very caring, and thank you for your trust and your sacrifice and for your dedication and your heart. I will do my best to protect it, and in return I will give you all of those things as well. You have my heart, my dedication, my trust.”

Wow. So romantic!

See some of the best pics from the event (below)!

With tears of joy and pride I want to congratulate my friend @prattprattpratt who literally cemented his place in the history of Hollywood pic.twitter.com/SYQdRk7xWu Dave Bautista (@DaveBautista) April 21, 2017

Chris Pratt receiving his star today on #Hollywood Walk of Fame with his adorable family @prattprattpratt @AnnaKFaris. Congrats! pic.twitter.com/fTi4WaBOIh Steve Houchin (@SteveHouchinLA) April 21, 2017

That’s a great mom! Caught this cute pic of @AnnaKFaris and her son with some serious @Guardians fans at @prattprattpratt Star Ceremony pic.twitter.com/JgxFdzniQ6 Steve Houchin (@SteveHouchinLA) April 21, 2017

Watching @prattprattpratt’s speech as he gets his star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame, after both @annafaris & I gave our speeches. Kinda proud. Both Chris and Anna made me cry with their heartfelt and grateful sentiments about their relationship, the fans, their coworkers, and the lives they lead. A lot of these things can be stuffy affairs – I was lucky to be a part of something where all the people involved had such a deep love for each other. And I was incredibly touched that Kevin, Lou, and Victoria from Marvel showed up as did @zoesaldana, @davebautista, @michael_rooker and @pomin8r. I try so hard not to use the word blessed on Instagram, but there I go. What a lovely, amazing day. Meanwhile, Chris and Anna’s son Jack could care less about any of it (except he was very excited to meet Yondu, and he had a nice “oblodoblobiddlitoobut” conversation with him). A post shared by James Gunn (@jamesgunn) on Apr 21, 2017 at 2:14pm PDT

[Image via Getty Images.]

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Chris Pratt & Anna Faris Thank One Another In Emotional Speeches At Tear-Filled Hollywood Walk Of Fame Star Ceremony!

Chris Pratt was honored with a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame on Friday, and we can’t think of many stars we’d rather see accept.

No, not because he’s sweet and gracious and super hunky in a Tom Ford 3-piece. (All that stuff is fabulous though!) But we’re really excited because he brought along his wonderful fam!

Photos: Chris Goes Spider-Man For Men’s Fitness!

After live-tweeting the entire preparation ritual, Anna Faris gave a speech about her hubby that nearly brought us to tears, saying:

“This is actually a thank-you speech. I’m the beneficiary of all this because I get to spend every day with this wonderful man… I know that if our circumstances were different and we weren’t as fortunate to be standing here and living our Hollywood life, we would be happy in the woods together, I think.”

And their son, the adorable little Jack Pratt, was right there with them, being adorable in every pic. But he also stood as a reminder of their tough times; Jack was born premature and had health problems when he was very young.

But Anna says Chris helped her get through it all:

“He stood by me and held me and was my anchor.”

Awwwww. But she didn’t keep it too schmaltzy. She also shared one more Guardians Of The Galaxy Vol. 2 premiere secret:

“At the premiere of Guardians 2, on the red carpet he whispered something unbelievably inappropriate into my ear and it was awesome. Honey, I want to thank you for being the most incredible person. I love you so much.”

Then Chris went all-out and DID make us cry! It was one of the most grateful speeches we’ve ever heard. He began:

“I’m a man of faith and I believe that God works in mysterious ways and gives us signs and gifts in life and those gifts oftentimes come in the form of people. So I’ll just spend the rest of my time expressing gratitude for the people in my life who are gifts.”

And he did.

Photos: Stars Who Can Do Magic Tricks!

He thanked first his mother:

“She gave absolutely everything she had to raise us, every fiber of her being. And oftentimes we weren’t cash-rich, but we were never love-poor. You gave everything and you were always proud of me, way before this. When I was a waiter at Coco’s you just couldn’t get enough of me.”

His brother Cully:

“He is my star and always has been. He played a major supporting role in raising me, and was a big fan of mine and always guided me and I love you.”

His sister Angie:

“She taught me how to fight, she taught me how to value emotions, she taught me how to have a backbone and she made some profound sacrifices for our family, so that I could be down here chasing my dreams.”

James Gunn and the Guardians franchise:

“It’s changed so many lives: My life, my wife’s life, the lives of children in hospitals, the lives of my real estate agent, my great grandkids they’re all going to benefit.”

His team:

“I feel as though I’m just the shiny hood ornament on a well-oiled machine that they drive every single day.”

…and last but not least, Anna:

“I want to thank my wife Anna, I love you. You’ve given me so much. You gave me the greatest star in the galaxy in my little boy, I love him and I love you. We have bonded to make this molecule that is more important to me than air or water, and without it none of this means anything to me. With every challenge, with every day, week, month, decade, we become more bonded. You make me laugh like nobody else. You’re very caring, and thank you for your trust and your sacrifice and for your dedication and your heart. I will do my best to protect it, and in return I will give you all of those things as well. You have my heart, my dedication, my trust.”

Wow. So romantic!

See some of the best pics from the event (below)!

With tears of joy and pride I want to congratulate my friend @prattprattpratt who literally cemented his place in the history of Hollywood pic.twitter.com/SYQdRk7xWu Dave Bautista (@DaveBautista) April 21, 2017

Chris Pratt receiving his star today on #Hollywood Walk of Fame with his adorable family @prattprattpratt @AnnaKFaris. Congrats! pic.twitter.com/fTi4WaBOIh Steve Houchin (@SteveHouchinLA) April 21, 2017

That’s a great mom! Caught this cute pic of @AnnaKFaris and her son with some serious @Guardians fans at @prattprattpratt Star Ceremony pic.twitter.com/JgxFdzniQ6 Steve Houchin (@SteveHouchinLA) April 21, 2017

Watching @prattprattpratt’s speech as he gets his star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame, after both @annafaris & I gave our speeches. Kinda proud. Both Chris and Anna made me cry with their heartfelt and grateful sentiments about their relationship, the fans, their coworkers, and the lives they lead. A lot of these things can be stuffy affairs – I was lucky to be a part of something where all the people involved had such a deep love for each other. And I was incredibly touched that Kevin, Lou, and Victoria from Marvel showed up as did @zoesaldana, @davebautista, @michael_rooker and @pomin8r. I try so hard not to use the word blessed on Instagram, but there I go. What a lovely, amazing day. Meanwhile, Chris and Anna’s son Jack could care less about any of it (except he was very excited to meet Yondu, and he had a nice “oblodoblobiddlitoobut” conversation with him). A post shared by James Gunn (@jamesgunn) on Apr 21, 2017 at 2:14pm PDT

[Image via Getty Images.]

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Chris Pratt & Anna Faris Thank One Another In Emotional Speeches At Tear-Filled Hollywood Walk Of Fame Star Ceremony!

Chris Pratt was honored with a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame on Friday, and we can’t think of many stars we’d rather see accept.

No, not because he’s sweet and gracious and super hunky in a Tom Ford 3-piece. (All that stuff is fabulous though!) But we’re really excited because he brought along his wonderful fam!

Photos: Chris Goes Spider-Man For Men’s Fitness!

After live-tweeting the entire preparation ritual, Anna Faris gave a speech about her hubby that nearly brought us to tears, saying:

“This is actually a thank-you speech. I’m the beneficiary of all this because I get to spend every day with this wonderful man… I know that if our circumstances were different and we weren’t as fortunate to be standing here and living our Hollywood life, we would be happy in the woods together, I think.”

And their son, the adorable little Jack Pratt, was right there with them, being adorable in every pic. But he also stood as a reminder of their tough times; Jack was born premature and had health problems when he was very young.

But Anna says Chris helped her get through it all:

“He stood by me and held me and was my anchor.”

Awwwww. But she didn’t keep it too schmaltzy. She also shared one more Guardians Of The Galaxy Vol. 2 premiere secret:

“At the premiere of Guardians 2, on the red carpet he whispered something unbelievably inappropriate into my ear and it was awesome. Honey, I want to thank you for being the most incredible person. I love you so much.”

Then Chris went all-out and DID make us cry! It was one of the most grateful speeches we’ve ever heard. He began:

“I’m a man of faith and I believe that God works in mysterious ways and gives us signs and gifts in life and those gifts oftentimes come in the form of people. So I’ll just spend the rest of my time expressing gratitude for the people in my life who are gifts.”

And he did.

Photos: Stars Who Can Do Magic Tricks!

He thanked first his mother:

“She gave absolutely everything she had to raise us, every fiber of her being. And oftentimes we weren’t cash-rich, but we were never love-poor. You gave everything and you were always proud of me, way before this. When I was a waiter at Coco’s you just couldn’t get enough of me.”

His brother Cully:

“He is my star and always has been. He played a major supporting role in raising me, and was a big fan of mine and always guided me and I love you.”

His sister Angie:

“She taught me how to fight, she taught me how to value emotions, she taught me how to have a backbone and she made some profound sacrifices for our family, so that I could be down here chasing my dreams.”

James Gunn and the Guardians franchise:

“It’s changed so many lives: My life, my wife’s life, the lives of children in hospitals, the lives of my real estate agent, my great grandkids they’re all going to benefit.”

His team:

“I feel as though I’m just the shiny hood ornament on a well-oiled machine that they drive every single day.”

…and last but not least, Anna:

“I want to thank my wife Anna, I love you. You’ve given me so much. You gave me the greatest star in the galaxy in my little boy, I love him and I love you. We have bonded to make this molecule that is more important to me than air or water, and without it none of this means anything to me. With every challenge, with every day, week, month, decade, we become more bonded. You make me laugh like nobody else. You’re very caring, and thank you for your trust and your sacrifice and for your dedication and your heart. I will do my best to protect it, and in return I will give you all of those things as well. You have my heart, my dedication, my trust.”

Wow. So romantic!

See some of the best pics from the event (below)!

With tears of joy and pride I want to congratulate my friend @prattprattpratt who literally cemented his place in the history of Hollywood pic.twitter.com/SYQdRk7xWu Dave Bautista (@DaveBautista) April 21, 2017

Chris Pratt receiving his star today on #Hollywood Walk of Fame with his adorable family @prattprattpratt @AnnaKFaris. Congrats! pic.twitter.com/fTi4WaBOIh Steve Houchin (@SteveHouchinLA) April 21, 2017

That’s a great mom! Caught this cute pic of @AnnaKFaris and her son with some serious @Guardians fans at @prattprattpratt Star Ceremony pic.twitter.com/JgxFdzniQ6 Steve Houchin (@SteveHouchinLA) April 21, 2017

Watching @prattprattpratt’s speech as he gets his star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame, after both @annafaris & I gave our speeches. Kinda proud. Both Chris and Anna made me cry with their heartfelt and grateful sentiments about their relationship, the fans, their coworkers, and the lives they lead. A lot of these things can be stuffy affairs – I was lucky to be a part of something where all the people involved had such a deep love for each other. And I was incredibly touched that Kevin, Lou, and Victoria from Marvel showed up as did @zoesaldana, @davebautista, @michael_rooker and @pomin8r. I try so hard not to use the word blessed on Instagram, but there I go. What a lovely, amazing day. Meanwhile, Chris and Anna’s son Jack could care less about any of it (except he was very excited to meet Yondu, and he had a nice “oblodoblobiddlitoobut” conversation with him). A post shared by James Gunn (@jamesgunn) on Apr 21, 2017 at 2:14pm PDT

[Image via Getty Images.]

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Chris Pratt & Anna Faris Thank One Another In Emotional Speeches At Tear-Filled Hollywood Walk Of Fame Star Ceremony!

Chris Pratt was honored with a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame on Friday, and we can’t think of many stars we’d rather see accept.

No, not because he’s sweet and gracious and super hunky in a Tom Ford 3-piece. (All that stuff is fabulous though!) But we’re really excited because he brought along his wonderful fam!

Photos: Chris Goes Spider-Man For Men’s Fitness!

After live-tweeting the entire preparation ritual, Anna Faris gave a speech about her hubby that nearly brought us to tears, saying:

“This is actually a thank-you speech. I’m the beneficiary of all this because I get to spend every day with this wonderful man… I know that if our circumstances were different and we weren’t as fortunate to be standing here and living our Hollywood life, we would be happy in the woods together, I think.”

And their son, the adorable little Jack Pratt, was right there with them, being adorable in every pic. But he also stood as a reminder of their tough times; Jack was born premature and had health problems when he was very young.

But Anna says Chris helped her get through it all:

“He stood by me and held me and was my anchor.”

Awwwww. But she didn’t keep it too schmaltzy. She also shared one more Guardians Of The Galaxy Vol. 2 premiere secret:

“At the premiere of Guardians 2, on the red carpet he whispered something unbelievably inappropriate into my ear and it was awesome. Honey, I want to thank you for being the most incredible person. I love you so much.”

Then Chris went all-out and DID make us cry! It was one of the most grateful speeches we’ve ever heard. He began:

“I’m a man of faith and I believe that God works in mysterious ways and gives us signs and gifts in life and those gifts oftentimes come in the form of people. So I’ll just spend the rest of my time expressing gratitude for the people in my life who are gifts.”

And he did.

Photos: Stars Who Can Do Magic Tricks!

He thanked first his mother:

“She gave absolutely everything she had to raise us, every fiber of her being. And oftentimes we weren’t cash-rich, but we were never love-poor. You gave everything and you were always proud of me, way before this. When I was a waiter at Coco’s you just couldn’t get enough of me.”

His brother Cully:

“He is my star and always has been. He played a major supporting role in raising me, and was a big fan of mine and always guided me and I love you.”

His sister Angie:

“She taught me how to fight, she taught me how to value emotions, she taught me how to have a backbone and she made some profound sacrifices for our family, so that I could be down here chasing my dreams.”

James Gunn and the Guardians franchise:

“It’s changed so many lives: My life, my wife’s life, the lives of children in hospitals, the lives of my real estate agent, my great grandkids they’re all going to benefit.”

His team:

“I feel as though I’m just the shiny hood ornament on a well-oiled machine that they drive every single day.”

…and last but not least, Anna:

“I want to thank my wife Anna, I love you. You’ve given me so much. You gave me the greatest star in the galaxy in my little boy, I love him and I love you. We have bonded to make this molecule that is more important to me than air or water, and without it none of this means anything to me. With every challenge, with every day, week, month, decade, we become more bonded. You make me laugh like nobody else. You’re very caring, and thank you for your trust and your sacrifice and for your dedication and your heart. I will do my best to protect it, and in return I will give you all of those things as well. You have my heart, my dedication, my trust.”

Wow. So romantic!

See some of the best pics from the event (below)!

With tears of joy and pride I want to congratulate my friend @prattprattpratt who literally cemented his place in the history of Hollywood pic.twitter.com/SYQdRk7xWu Dave Bautista (@DaveBautista) April 21, 2017

Chris Pratt receiving his star today on #Hollywood Walk of Fame with his adorable family @prattprattpratt @AnnaKFaris. Congrats! pic.twitter.com/fTi4WaBOIh Steve Houchin (@SteveHouchinLA) April 21, 2017

That’s a great mom! Caught this cute pic of @AnnaKFaris and her son with some serious @Guardians fans at @prattprattpratt Star Ceremony pic.twitter.com/JgxFdzniQ6 Steve Houchin (@SteveHouchinLA) April 21, 2017

Watching @prattprattpratt’s speech as he gets his star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame, after both @annafaris & I gave our speeches. Kinda proud. Both Chris and Anna made me cry with their heartfelt and grateful sentiments about their relationship, the fans, their coworkers, and the lives they lead. A lot of these things can be stuffy affairs – I was lucky to be a part of something where all the people involved had such a deep love for each other. And I was incredibly touched that Kevin, Lou, and Victoria from Marvel showed up as did @zoesaldana, @davebautista, @michael_rooker and @pomin8r. I try so hard not to use the word blessed on Instagram, but there I go. What a lovely, amazing day. Meanwhile, Chris and Anna’s son Jack could care less about any of it (except he was very excited to meet Yondu, and he had a nice “oblodoblobiddlitoobut” conversation with him). A post shared by James Gunn (@jamesgunn) on Apr 21, 2017 at 2:14pm PDT

[Image via Getty Images.]

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Chris Pratt & Anna Faris Thank One Another In Emotional Speeches At Tear-Filled Hollywood Walk Of Fame Star Ceremony!

Chris Pratt was honored with a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame on Friday, and we can’t think of many stars we’d rather see accept.

No, not because he’s sweet and gracious and super hunky in a Tom Ford 3-piece. (All that stuff is fabulous though!) But we’re really excited because he brought along his wonderful fam!

Photos: Chris Goes Spider-Man For Men’s Fitness!

After live-tweeting the entire preparation ritual, Anna Faris gave a speech about her hubby that nearly brought us to tears, saying:

“This is actually a thank-you speech. I’m the beneficiary of all this because I get to spend every day with this wonderful man… I know that if our circumstances were different and we weren’t as fortunate to be standing here and living our Hollywood life, we would be happy in the woods together, I think.”

And their son, the adorable little Jack Pratt, was right there with them, being adorable in every pic. But he also stood as a reminder of their tough times; Jack was born premature and had health problems when he was very young.

But Anna says Chris helped her get through it all:

“He stood by me and held me and was my anchor.”

Awwwww. But she didn’t keep it too schmaltzy. She also shared one more Guardians Of The Galaxy Vol. 2 premiere secret:

“At the premiere of Guardians 2, on the red carpet he whispered something unbelievably inappropriate into my ear and it was awesome. Honey, I want to thank you for being the most incredible person. I love you so much.”

Then Chris went all-out and DID make us cry! It was one of the most grateful speeches we’ve ever heard. He began:

“I’m a man of faith and I believe that God works in mysterious ways and gives us signs and gifts in life and those gifts oftentimes come in the form of people. So I’ll just spend the rest of my time expressing gratitude for the people in my life who are gifts.”

And he did.

Photos: Stars Who Can Do Magic Tricks!

He thanked first his mother:

“She gave absolutely everything she had to raise us, every fiber of her being. And oftentimes we weren’t cash-rich, but we were never love-poor. You gave everything and you were always proud of me, way before this. When I was a waiter at Coco’s you just couldn’t get enough of me.”

His brother Cully:

“He is my star and always has been. He played a major supporting role in raising me, and was a big fan of mine and always guided me and I love you.”

His sister Angie:

“She taught me how to fight, she taught me how to value emotions, she taught me how to have a backbone and she made some profound sacrifices for our family, so that I could be down here chasing my dreams.”

James Gunn and the Guardians franchise:

“It’s changed so many lives: My life, my wife’s life, the lives of children in hospitals, the lives of my real estate agent, my great grandkids they’re all going to benefit.”

His team:

“I feel as though I’m just the shiny hood ornament on a well-oiled machine that they drive every single day.”

…and last but not least, Anna:

“I want to thank my wife Anna, I love you. You’ve given me so much. You gave me the greatest star in the galaxy in my little boy, I love him and I love you. We have bonded to make this molecule that is more important to me than air or water, and without it none of this means anything to me. With every challenge, with every day, week, month, decade, we become more bonded. You make me laugh like nobody else. You’re very caring, and thank you for your trust and your sacrifice and for your dedication and your heart. I will do my best to protect it, and in return I will give you all of those things as well. You have my heart, my dedication, my trust.”

Wow. So romantic!

See some of the best pics from the event (below)!

With tears of joy and pride I want to congratulate my friend @prattprattpratt who literally cemented his place in the history of Hollywood pic.twitter.com/SYQdRk7xWu Dave Bautista (@DaveBautista) April 21, 2017

Chris Pratt receiving his star today on #Hollywood Walk of Fame with his adorable family @prattprattpratt @AnnaKFaris. Congrats! pic.twitter.com/fTi4WaBOIh Steve Houchin (@SteveHouchinLA) April 21, 2017

That’s a great mom! Caught this cute pic of @AnnaKFaris and her son with some serious @Guardians fans at @prattprattpratt Star Ceremony pic.twitter.com/JgxFdzniQ6 Steve Houchin (@SteveHouchinLA) April 21, 2017

Watching @prattprattpratt’s speech as he gets his star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame, after both @annafaris & I gave our speeches. Kinda proud. Both Chris and Anna made me cry with their heartfelt and grateful sentiments about their relationship, the fans, their coworkers, and the lives they lead. A lot of these things can be stuffy affairs – I was lucky to be a part of something where all the people involved had such a deep love for each other. And I was incredibly touched that Kevin, Lou, and Victoria from Marvel showed up as did @zoesaldana, @davebautista, @michael_rooker and @pomin8r. I try so hard not to use the word blessed on Instagram, but there I go. What a lovely, amazing day. Meanwhile, Chris and Anna’s son Jack could care less about any of it (except he was very excited to meet Yondu, and he had a nice “oblodoblobiddlitoobut” conversation with him). A post shared by James Gunn (@jamesgunn) on Apr 21, 2017 at 2:14pm PDT

[Image via Getty Images.]

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Chris Pratt & Anna Faris Thank One Another In Emotional Speeches At Tear-Filled Hollywood Walk Of Fame Star Ceremony!

Chris Pratt was honored with a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame on Friday, and we can’t think of many stars we’d rather see accept.

No, not because he’s sweet and gracious and super hunky in a Tom Ford 3-piece. (All that stuff is fabulous though!) But we’re really excited because he brought along his wonderful fam!

Photos: Chris Goes Spider-Man For Men’s Fitness!

After live-tweeting the entire preparation ritual, Anna Faris gave a speech about her hubby that nearly brought us to tears, saying:

“This is actually a thank-you speech. I’m the beneficiary of all this because I get to spend every day with this wonderful man… I know that if our circumstances were different and we weren’t as fortunate to be standing here and living our Hollywood life, we would be happy in the woods together, I think.”

And their son, the adorable little Jack Pratt, was right there with them, being adorable in every pic. But he also stood as a reminder of their tough times; Jack was born premature and had health problems when he was very young.

But Anna says Chris helped her get through it all:

“He stood by me and held me and was my anchor.”

Awwwww. But she didn’t keep it too schmaltzy. She also shared one more Guardians Of The Galaxy Vol. 2 premiere secret:

“At the premiere of Guardians 2, on the red carpet he whispered something unbelievably inappropriate into my ear and it was awesome. Honey, I want to thank you for being the most incredible person. I love you so much.”

Then Chris went all-out and DID make us cry! It was one of the most grateful speeches we’ve ever heard. He began:

“I’m a man of faith and I believe that God works in mysterious ways and gives us signs and gifts in life and those gifts oftentimes come in the form of people. So I’ll just spend the rest of my time expressing gratitude for the people in my life who are gifts.”

And he did.

Photos: Stars Who Can Do Magic Tricks!

He thanked first his mother:

“She gave absolutely everything she had to raise us, every fiber of her being. And oftentimes we weren’t cash-rich, but we were never love-poor. You gave everything and you were always proud of me, way before this. When I was a waiter at Coco’s you just couldn’t get enough of me.”

His brother Cully:

“He is my star and always has been. He played a major supporting role in raising me, and was a big fan of mine and always guided me and I love you.”

His sister Angie:

“She taught me how to fight, she taught me how to value emotions, she taught me how to have a backbone and she made some profound sacrifices for our family, so that I could be down here chasing my dreams.”

James Gunn and the Guardians franchise:

“It’s changed so many lives: My life, my wife’s life, the lives of children in hospitals, the lives of my real estate agent, my great grandkids they’re all going to benefit.”

His team:

“I feel as though I’m just the shiny hood ornament on a well-oiled machine that they drive every single day.”

…and last but not least, Anna:

“I want to thank my wife Anna, I love you. You’ve given me so much. You gave me the greatest star in the galaxy in my little boy, I love him and I love you. We have bonded to make this molecule that is more important to me than air or water, and without it none of this means anything to me. With every challenge, with every day, week, month, decade, we become more bonded. You make me laugh like nobody else. You’re very caring, and thank you for your trust and your sacrifice and for your dedication and your heart. I will do my best to protect it, and in return I will give you all of those things as well. You have my heart, my dedication, my trust.”

Wow. So romantic!

See some of the best pics from the event (below)!

With tears of joy and pride I want to congratulate my friend @prattprattpratt who literally cemented his place in the history of Hollywood pic.twitter.com/SYQdRk7xWu Dave Bautista (@DaveBautista) April 21, 2017

Chris Pratt receiving his star today on #Hollywood Walk of Fame with his adorable family @prattprattpratt @AnnaKFaris. Congrats! pic.twitter.com/fTi4WaBOIh Steve Houchin (@SteveHouchinLA) April 21, 2017

That’s a great mom! Caught this cute pic of @AnnaKFaris and her son with some serious @Guardians fans at @prattprattpratt Star Ceremony pic.twitter.com/JgxFdzniQ6 Steve Houchin (@SteveHouchinLA) April 21, 2017

Watching @prattprattpratt’s speech as he gets his star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame, after both @annafaris & I gave our speeches. Kinda proud. Both Chris and Anna made me cry with their heartfelt and grateful sentiments about their relationship, the fans, their coworkers, and the lives they lead. A lot of these things can be stuffy affairs – I was lucky to be a part of something where all the people involved had such a deep love for each other. And I was incredibly touched that Kevin, Lou, and Victoria from Marvel showed up as did @zoesaldana, @davebautista, @michael_rooker and @pomin8r. I try so hard not to use the word blessed on Instagram, but there I go. What a lovely, amazing day. Meanwhile, Chris and Anna’s son Jack could care less about any of it (except he was very excited to meet Yondu, and he had a nice “oblodoblobiddlitoobut” conversation with him). A post shared by James Gunn (@jamesgunn) on Apr 21, 2017 at 2:14pm PDT

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