#like maybe I could deal with no dishwasher if I wasn't washing all of my dishes to ensure they didn't have mouse poop on them

[pbandjesse]

I am thinking of today as a day of recovery. I tried very hard to not have a ton of guilt. And I think I did a good job overall.

It was just way to hot today. It wasn't even actually hot it was just wildly humid. Thankfully I didn't know that until I left our bedroom.

I slept really late. I was out out and when I woke up I was like okay if it's before 10 I'll keep sleeping. But it was actually 1045 so I got up. And I felt pretty good. I apparently needed the sleep and I wasn't going to be mad at myself about that.

I opened the door though and was shocked how warm it was. I was like. Shocked. Stuck my hand outside and it was so warm and I wasn't thrilled. This was my battle all day.

I got washed up and dressed and actually put eyeliner and eyeshadow on. And I did a good job but I didn't like it. I am like used to my own face and I think I actually like my regular face better right now. Amazing. Growth. I think I'll play with other eye looks and see what happens. But maybe I'm just a mascara girl now. Usually that's just what I wear in the summer and do more liner in the winter but it's fun to play with new things and not be self conscious about my eyes without anything.

So I ended up washing everything off my face. And I had apple toast for breakfast.

I would chill in the couch and thought about going somewhere but it was just to hot. And my jumpsuit was honestly a little to warm. Plus the straps pulled in my shoulders when I sat down. And was just a little frustrated with that.

I vacuumed and did some cleaning. I ran the dishwasher and would go in my studio and actually did some sewing. I stuffed a bunch of bears but I don't have my preferred eye sizes and so I don't love any of them and that is frustrating. They are still cute but a little wonkier then normal. In the half price basket they go.

I sort of just laid around. Worked on the computer in some lesson stuff for the projects with the national guard. And it was a nice day. I eventually decided I wouldn't go out today and changed into a lighter dress to deal with how warm it was.

James would stop at the store to get some stuff before they came home. They had gotten a two liter of soda and it broke their backpack zipper and then the soda exploded on them and I felt so bad!! But they were alright.

James ordered us pizza. And I worked on a project sheet proposal for the musuem. I am going to make plushie foods for them but I'm not exactly sure if the purpose anymore (is it for dramatic play? Is it just fruits and veggies? Should it be components for meals?) So I wrote out my ideas and concerns and gave some photo examples of things I could reasonably make. I also need to know a budget so I can start picking up materials. I want to get them started before my schedule gets crazy between the musuem and the wedding. We will see what happens.

We had our pizza and it was a good afternoon. I continued to be to hot but I eventually turned the ac back on and hoped that the storm would just start so the heat would be better.

I took a shower and felt good. Brandon came over to watch the new game of thrones spin off show. It sounds like it's been pretty intense so I hope they are having fun.

I have been enjoying my night. Me and mom talked for 40 minutes and that felt good. A lot of my fears and upsets about the wedding have started to calm down and I think saying it out loud to her made me feel better.

Now I am ready to go to sleep. Tomorrow James has off too and we are going to the barber for them to get a hair cut. I don't know what else we are doing but I hope it's a nice day.

I hope you have a nice day too. Take care of each other. Goodnight!