#like i don't wanna say I'm the grossest evilest sinner or something | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

gingerslemonade · 1 year ago

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Sometimes you just have to stumble the block from the restaurant to your apartment kind of tipsy in absolute awe of all the grace that God has given you throughout your life and wondering what He wants you to do with all of it, y'know

#like i don't wanna say I'm the grossest evilest sinner or something #because I'm not and i know I'm not #so it would be a lie to say so #but at the same time #I'm not a *great* person #i look around at my classmates and see so many holier and better people #who suffer more without complaint #and i might keep it inside i complain to God so much #but at the same time my whole life i have been afforded unimaginable grace #like i can hardly completely comprehend it from where i am now #which is honestly probably still in the thick of things #so i can't imagine how much it's gonna hit me in twenty or thirty years #but two things have been put so much on my heart #namely my grandma and the lgbt community #and the struggles I'm having with both seem almost the same #because i want to show the love and grace in the Church that i have been given #but that would have to involve saying that something's wrong now #and that always always always shoves people away from whatever you say #and in this case!!!! it's God!!!!! i would be shoving them away from God!!!!!!!!!!#the fullness of love that i an unremarkable person have been given #and i couldn't live with myself if i was the reason for creating distance between someone and God #so if you've made it this far. please. please. pray for me #i need it. i need it so much #I'm on the precipise of something #and maybe I'm close to finding my vocation and finding out what God wants me to do with my life #or maybe i had one too many glassses of wine at dinner #but either way #there are people who need your prayers more #but if you've got an Our Father to spare. i think i could use it

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