#like i def could've added more connective tissue. i was just a bit over half the wc limit so that was def smth i couldve done. ugh | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

catboy-jupiter · 1 day ago

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i'll be like "i'm a god of writing" and then an hour passes after i post or submit something and i'll be like "i'm so dumb there's so much i could've done better if only i'd waited a bit and looked at it with fresh eyes i would've noticed how much it sucks & what i could've improved that looks so much like first draft material there's so many revisions i could make why i am i so impulsive and overconfident" and then i'll start writing something else and be like "i'm a god of writing" again

#the woes of having both a superiority and inferiority complex #also i think this might be similar to how i only get performance anxiety AFTER the performance is done. i'm always like this #i'll be super chill before a play & during it but then the play ends and i'm like “fuck they must've hated my acting” or whatever #or i'll be super chill while singing but then it ends and i go “man i sung way too quietly & i think i was out of pitch i suck”#and once again as soon as i go back to doing it again i go “wow im super great at this im amazing”#on related news i applied to a zine with 2 out of 3 snippets being ones i started writing as soon as i decided i was actually gonna apply #& i decided i wanted to apply 5hrs before i sent the application #so uh. i wrote ~2.7k words within 5 hrs & didnt give myself time to edit it bc im a dumbass w/ no concept of time #(“the applications close jan 2nd so i need to get this done asap” dude there's like a week til then why the rush- oh youve already sent it)#tbf they're more like 2nd drafts? one is a scene i'd kind of written b4 but w/ the intent of no one seeing it so i completely rewrote it #& the other is a very VERY loose eng translation of like the first quarter of one of my one-shots. when u compare its more of a rewrite rly #but still i'm looking at them now & im getting 2nd thoughts i shouldve waited eughhh #if you're a mod of that zine pls look away hahahaha.....#unless you liked those last 2 snippets & r impressed with the fact they were rushed. if so then yea im a god of writing ik ik #but to be fr tho i actually think snippet 2 is pretty strong but i think the 3rd one is... very weak. there's not much cohesion #like i def could've added more connective tissue. i was just a bit over half the wc limit so that was def smth i couldve done. ugh

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