#like god i want to swim soooooo bad but i'd probably just waste away in my parked car after because i couldn't drive home lol

[mylittleredgirl]

trying not to get jealous when i look around at all the people in my life here in Sick Season getting sick and having a fever and then like the very next day they're Fine and going back to work and doing fun stuff after work and going shopping and then doing something else and then wondering why they feel a little tired after all that because they have already forgotten they were sick. like sick is a contained event. and then the day after that day they don't even feel tired at all. i'm still feeling the extreme effort of washing my hair two days ago!! technically i suppose i'm still feeling the effects of getting mono when i was 19! like i'm very lucky these people still think i'm cool and want to hang out with me and get excited whenever i feel better enough to do things! some of them are even super cool about masking up on my behalf! but like that experience of talking about illness in the past tense sounds really cool i'd like to do that again someday.