#like boohoo my mum taught me her signature because she trusted me with it and i didn't even abuse that power :(

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my mum was difficult with a lot of things when i was growing up (i was brought up as your typical eldest daughter), my parents were the type to ask why i didn't get 100 when i brought home a 99. but inexplicably my mum taught me her signature when i was 12 so i could sign school stuff in her stead if i ever forgot to ask her to sign something (permission slips, tests, etc). so i guess she did trust me a little bit, she must have known i wouldn't abuse it. and i didn't, specifically because i knew she trusted me. well played, i guess. make me a people pleaser who feels guilty about everything, and then give me the power to break the rules, knowing i'm too fucked up to do it. yes i am pissed off about that. i didn't even get to maliciously fake my mum's signature which is a rite of passage for every kid, because any time i did fake it i knew i had my mum's permission, and any time i knew i wouldn't have her permission i just didn't do it because it would be betraying her trust. we weren't even close or anything like we weren't a sentimental kind of family when i was a kid. i just felt guilty in general