#like I'm kinda understanding why a lot of fanart looks like they are copying the style

[kakyogay]

I may have not finished an artfight attack that has been a wip for a long ass time but I did draw these guys

also uh the hyperfixation might start hyperfixating idk it's not looking good for me chat

[aidenlydia]

How long have you been drawing? I really like your art styl. I've been wanting to learn how to draw, but I'm worried I won't ever be able to pick it up or have the patience or know how to start.

(video includes some of my art from 2017-2019)

Drawing has always been a hobby of mine, but I only got serious about it around 2017. The most important thing is motivation, that's why a lot of people get started with fanart and learn the fundamentals through it. Try drawing things you love! References are your best friend, I have entire folders for every character I draw.

All artstyles are a combination of process and appearance preference: I don't use multiple layers for lineart (my sketches are the lineart and I clean them up with an eraser) and semi-realism is the easiest for me because I was mostly into traditional realism at first - I learned I like fine details, clean but sketchy lines and rough textured brushes. It's kinda like handwriting, you already have your own unique way of drawing, but you can shape it to your developing tastes with practice.

For most folk anime and comic styles are usually easier to learn, because they simplify everything already. Especially at the very beginning copying other people's art and manga/comic panels is a great way to get into drawing, figuring out your preferences and build up muscle memory (don't upload copied art, but traced photos are fine).

Remember that the art you enjoy seeing and the art you enjoy making can look vastly different. Having multiple styles, changing over time and experimenting are very natural things.

To this day I struggle drawing chibis and cartoons because I've only studied realism :') Even semi-realism has only recently clicked for me by closely looking at other people's art, so don't stress yourself with only focusing on the fundamentals.

Another tip that really helped me understand better in the beginning was watching various artists draw in real time, just observing them can really clarify the process and break it down. It's also a lot less lonely than learning all alone - there's lots of art youtubers and tutorials.

Here are a few:

How to start drawing for beginners

What our brains do when we draw

How to learn to draw (as an adult)

Learn the sketching basics

Obligatory Drawfee episode

Tips for changing artstyles/get unstuck from patterns

Doodle date (caus they're wholesome and fun)

Guided drawing practice with Nathan

[ssunandmunn]

hazbin hotel leaks + spoilers

save yourself and report the videos/ images circulating on x n tiktok cuz let's be real, that’s how it got viral

(eng is not my first language, excuse the use of incorrect gramatical sentences)

i usually keep my mouth quite when talking about fandom stuff cuz i seriously don’t care after watching the canon once, i mostly move to fanarts and fanfics and ignore everything else; i only do fanart and never say a thing, also cuz 50% of fandoms discussions are about ships or controversial shut in the bts which idc as long as i can enjoy a good story, the good visual work of animators/ fanartists, bla bla bla

with that said, i have a lot of thoughts with the hazbin hotel leaks + spoilers

read with caution

first things first, i made a 40 minute audio yapping about this with my friends (who haven't watched hazbin yet, and one of them has but like, they’re not super interested and we don’t talk about it) and i feel like sharing it (not the audio, just what i said)

i found the leaks while scrolling through tiktok, i thought it was fanmade just like many people, but rather well made, i scrolled past it quickly because fanmades audios kinda give me cringe but since the art was well made i was gonna watch it later, then i scrolled a bit more and found out it was an actual leak

after reading a ton of comments about how they hate rosie now, and about it being senseless, i found myself remembering how much people was hating on lilith and eve with the theory that they owned alastor's soul

and tbh i think that’s just misogynistic; we barely know lilith far more than she's probably in heaven; and for eve? i have pity for her, because, not to be that person but everyone points their finger at her just because she ate a goddanm apple, which luci and lili convinced her to eat, and we don’t even know the full story about that either, hell, we don't even know how she looks like, i love the theories that she has brown hair and is brown skinned or even that she's just a copy of lilith, yet we don’t know if that's canon, and it doesn’t matter

but i don’t like the way they just happen to have "owning" alastor in common, and just having theories antagonizing them for that little idea, which is fair, i'm not saying evil women are bad or whatever, i actually think that’s kinda hot, but now with the leaks it just showed a different flavor of people for me

i read a lot of comments or people complaning cuz now they "hate her", "their friendship is ruined" or "it doesn’t make sense"

the latter type of comments, i understand them, i won't deny im a radiorose shipper, both platonically and romantically, and in every prudly (does that word exist? i mean like a prude ok) and kinky way as well, yet, y'all are forgetting one thing: they are all in hell, every single of the main cast is in hell, yes, some seem kinda more innocent than others; vaggie - iykyk, niffty and even husk or cherry (and i think pen too, i didn’t watched his leaks -or any other leaks tbh- only the radiorose ones cuz my fyp knows me, but you get it) but that doesn’t mean they're not guilty for what ever they did to be in hell

that's why i believe that we shouldn't expect them to behave like normal people - they're no longer people, they're sinners, they did something bad and have lost all sense of moral, that's why i kinda understand that both alastor and rosie might have been faking it, yet, if you think about twice, she’s probably not that bad, manipulative and cruel and narcissitic like every overlord? yes, but since alastor took charlie right away to rosie when she had girlfriend problems means they still have some sort of trusting in eachother; also why would rosie offer him having deals with others like nothing if she only wants like torture him or idk - she wants something but she doesn’t seem as bad as the way alastor behaves towards husk, which to me he seems kinda physically abusive, meanwhile i can rosie being mentally/ psychologically abusive (i feel i worded that wrong, but u get it)

which, to be powerful overlords, seems ok for me - "but friendship doesn’t work now since there’s power imbalance" my dear child, there’s always gonna be power imbalance in between in every relationship in your life, it can economically, mentally, culturally, bla bla bla, half of my friends are in a better situation than me, and the others just not, and that affects the way we socialize with one another

anyway, now, with the massive dislike towards rosie i just have to say that i feel that people are just plain mysoginist, maybe im approaching this wrongly, but seriously, u go from hating lilith/ eve (i thought about roo too, but she has no background to defend her) to rosie; just because of a man? not cool - also, people seemed to like her just because alastor liked her, now he doesn’t "like" her u don’t like her? 💀

i understand the hate towards valentino, for being who he is and all that, but being abusive apparently is allowed for alastor and not for others around him? i won't hide that alastor is my most disliked character in this cartoon, i don’t hate him, but he is unsavory for me and is overrated, his backstory is super boring, having rosie allegedly owning his soul since he was alive sounded super fun and far more interesting rather than just being powerful because radio was popular back in his day, but with all the leaks and people praying for it fake and discarted makes me feel bad for the writers, and the animators and everyone in the staff

they are already over exploited for people to not like the product, and basically begging for it to be changed when that’s a lot of money, i know that probably nothing will change and people are just being dramatic, me doing this post in kinda dramatic too, but seriously, it almost looks like this is alastor's show and not charlie's or the full hotel crew

also they made a big deal for alastor not being handsome enough in their human form, idk i just feel like ??? alastor is not the center of the universe, of this universe we know has hazbin!!!

to be a misandric man, he got lot of mysoginistic fans

just to conclude, i find the leaks and leakers super annoying, hope they do burn in hell - and if you find leaks, report the posts and videos as much as you can and scroll away

and to be honest, the fact that rosie owns alastor doesn’t bother me that much, as i said before, i think it's fun and interesting, and as a high shipper of them (an a rosie lover/ fan) it just gives me ideas to daydream about them 24/7 even more

i hope it's not fake and they keep it, and that there’s a great story behind their relationship, i have to say that before this i had not much hope for the hhs2, i kinda just wanted more radiorose interaction and i was kinda craving niffty + rosie interaction too, i hope with all this dynamic, niffty doesn’t hate rosie or viceversa or both ways, i find them both unhinged and lovely and could make a kinda similar dynamic like the one niff has with alastor

i think i said everything i wanted to say (and even more, cuz after i did that long audio for my friends, more leaked stuff started to stalk me) and that audio of mine also included some opinions about helluva boss, but that’s for another day

if you read this i'm glad you did and, well, i put this here because i have no one to talk about it without feeling i'm annoying

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[flame2ashes]

Choose violence ask game, 12 thru 18, go!

This is gonna be Mass Effect and maybe also Dragon Age, sorry not sorry

12. the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

This is so hard to answer because I think every character has its fanbase. But I'm also gonna say Ashley Williams Mass Effect. She's my bestie. She's my sister figure. She's my girlfriend. She deserves better

13. worst blorboficiation

ngl I don't know which one to choose. I want to say Grunt as Shepard's child - baby even - seeing as 1) Grunt is a teenager at best, 2) making "Shepard is Grunt's parent" a blanket characterization is annoying af, and 3) it's always always always always female Shepard who's the parent

(Throwback to that time when I was like "There should be more Shepard is Grunt's dad jokes" and people reblogged it like "How can I make this about female Shepard")

14. that one thing you see in fics all the time

Oh wait yeah there's a reason why I stopped reading Shakarian fic: they kept making it so that Kaidan was Shepard's ex. Stop!!! Leave him out of it!!! I don't read these fics for Shepard to break up with Kaidan on Horizon and then immediately rebound with Garrus!!! Kaidan deserves better than to be some mad ex!!! And Garrus deserves better than to be a rebound!!!

(Not to be like "Shakarians ruined Shakarian" but goddddddddd)

Also I feel like every other DAI fic I clicked on had this: novelization of game scenes. I'm not here to read copy/pasted dialogue!!! If I wanted to I'd just go play the games!!!

Also DAI-related: fics tagged Dorian/Iron Bull and when you click on them they're a background pairing at best. This especially when the other main pairing is a female Inquisitor with either Cullen or Solas. Filter those pairings out and you get a much narrower result. Then again those fics probably make Dorian out to be the Inquisitor's gay best friend anyway fjkdlajfkds

15. that one thing you see in fanart all the time

Not exactly "all the time," but I've seen this trend where Shepards who romance Garrus have his colony markings on their face and it's like. I'm not sure what the intention is for Shepard to have Garrus' colony markings. And I wouldn't really judge it as "cultural appropriation" because it's about a fictional culture. But also why???

Also ensemble fanart that's just the alien characters :(

16. you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)

I'm gonna be real. I don't understand why people like the original Citadel Councilors so much. I don't even mean this in a "The Councilors suck because they don't believe you" kind of way, I mean it in the "We literally only see the Councilors in a certain context and nothing really beyond that, why do people want to romance them so much???" It took me a few playthroughs before I actually saved them and it really didn't feel like I missed out on anything, including their characters

Tho I feel like this for a lot of the minor characters lol. Nihlus and Kal'Reegar, at least, have the reason of "They look cool," though I'm also wondering why so many people like them

Also, Garrus as a dom. I have no idea why that's a thing. He would be a service top at best

17. there should be more of this type of fic/art

Two things:

1) More fic/art on the civilian perspective. People who see Shepard on TV and are like "Wow that guy kinda sucks". Civilian perspectives on the Reaper War. Civilian perspectives on the post-Reaper War outcome. Do you understand what I meannnnn

2) More post-ME3 fics where Shepard is dead and stays dead. No "Shepard died but everyone tries to figure out how to bring them back to life and it has some hopeful ending that they find Shepard or it ends with Shepard coming back to life" shit. I want ensemble fics on how everyone has to move on from Shepard's death in the midst of a recovering galaxy while it risks yet another mass conflict. Coming to terms with the fact that their saviour was another flawed human being. Using Shepard's memory to further an agenda. Do you understand what I meannnnn

(Though a fic where they try to find Shepard and they realize that Shepard is gone forever...I'd read it 👀)

18. it's absolutely criminal that the fandom has been sleeping on...

For Mass Effect? I was gonna say human characters, but honestly? Any of the minor species. Volus. Hanar. Batarians. Vorcha. tbf BioWare is also sleeping on them, so it's everyone's fault all around. I remember hearing that there was meant to be lore for the Vorcha but then they cut it. And for what

For Dragon Age? Literally playing as a non-elf character

[taboo-delusion]

Hey, I was (and still am) going through the same thing. Exact same thinking. (Pardon the ADHD topic-hopping, but I promise it's all leading to the same place.) So from personal, recent, and fluctuating recurrence, lemme give you (and anyone else who reads this) some advice:

It's okay to have an addiction. That's what helps your brain feel better. It's okay because there's nothing inherently or morally wrong about needing a lot more help than a single person can provide. Humans are social creatures by design. We lasted this long by helping each other.

How much fan content do you see? Fanart, fanfics, fanedits, even cover songs are just audio fanart of the original. We are propelled to love. So when someone you love is in pain, of course you're going to hurt, too. Because you don't want them to 'suffer like I did', even if they 'have it worse'.

Trauma is not a competition. All trauma is valid, no matter how insignificant it may seem or feel to anyone. All trauma is valid. (But that is also not an excuse to traumatize other people. Apologize. Admit with full truth that you regret hurting them and for what. This will open room for discussion without yelling.)

Teenage rebellion happens for two reasons: 1. The kids realizing that they don't have to put up with being treated badly. They fight back. They feel the hurt of the world and want it to stop. 2. The kids who don't understand why the others are fighting, but think it kinda looks cool, so they copy it and (usually) end up fighting the wrong side, in an attempt to be 'cool' or 'populaur' or 'trendy'.

The entire world is in it's rebellious phase right now. It started with the wide-eyed tears of empathy. And now we're at the part where you don't even bother to brush your teeth. We're just tired... so fucking tired. We still want to help, we still want to fix it. But everything is just a big, zoomed-out version of the toxic parents yelling at the teenager for giving money to a homeless person.

You are not the reason you receive the disdain your parents didn't know how to vent. They are the product of a system from a few ancient people's issues.

Be a screw-up. Be a dumbass. Be silly and goofy and weird and cringey and embarrassing. Everyone has. You grew up watching only other people's success or failures. Both of which were intense, drastic, or devastating. If there's one thing movies are good at selling us, it's lies as ambitions.

Life is so bad, I get concerned at people who don't have an addiction. That tells me they're too self-important or too popularity-obsessed to admit when they need help. That rarely ends well. We have coffee, social media, video games, work, alcohol, drugs, sex, asmr, religion, music and anything else that makes you feel better.

Depression is a parasite that literally destroys your braincells, and it starts when genuine love and care mix with realizing that everyone is a person with thier own complex and mundane tragic life , just like you.

Feel like an asshole sometimes. You might be right or wrong, but either way, remember that we are all people. We have all hurt and been hurt.

If you remember nothing else from this, remember: Everyone has done something embarrassing. Everyone has been an asshole. Everyone has gotten scared, gotten too loud, gotten not enough sleep. If these are things that everybody feels, why is there so little sympathy for them?

I get your point. I do. I'm so tired. I have my addictions, and you have yours. We don't have bad days, we have bad weeks. But what matters most is finding out what you need if your life, and going after it.

You want to help everyone. You want the world to be a better place. A happier place. A world where people don't have to choose between working themselves to suicide or being homeless. A world where no one gets abused, and no one gets traumatized.

Although the last one is impossible (accidents happen), all of it CAN be helped. It starts with people like you. People like me. And honestly, I've never heard anyone say this, so until your post, I thought it was just me. Thanks.

Anyway-

You're exhausted, not because caring about someone is hard work; no... care, concern, and love for others is the easy part. The hard part is trying to learn how to help without hurting. The second part is trial, error, regret, and finally- learning. Learning that everybody needs help in very different ways.

Learning that those ways can sometimes contradict some of the help you've done and want to do.

Learning that so much happens all the time. And some things have gotten better, and some have gotten worse. Realizing that despite everyone's efforts, there's still so much pain.

So what happens next?

Remembering that evolution took millions of years to get this far. I wonder how many more it has to go.

Remembering that the world isn't black and white; everyone has equal potential to cause both help and harm, both sometimes indirectly.

To put it simply; You're tired because you care for so much, and sad because you can't fix it by yourself. You're mad because someone suffers who definitely does not deserve it. You're deflated because you realize just how bad the world is, how many people are in so much pain.

You have so much love and empathy to give that has nowhere to go, and it's going to cause an eruption eventually. You are a flurry of grief for a dying world that can't remember where it left its last shred of hope.

And with the shred it left, comes the forgotten memory that the world you mourn is not yet gone.

Yes, you are tired. The bags under your eyes display the burden your heart refuses to leave. Yes. Burden. Because it fucking hurts. Anything worth carrying through a fire is a burden worth bearing to your death. And it is worth every step.

True love is real, but it's not fairy tail magic. It's hard work. But they never tell you that patience is only gained from what you aren't allowed to show. 

To help others. Not just to make them or yourself feel better, but intending to solve the problem entirely… It's exhausting. Fix the world? Maybe. But for now, rest. It sounds and feels bad to say, but until so many people agree that things change within a month… the best you can do is focus on what makes you happy. Help people along the way, if you can. For now, ignore everything else. But remember; there will always be a problem somewhere. But there will also always be someone willing to help. 

But first, weary soul, you must rest. Set your alarm and another if you need. You cannot help hold the weight with tears alone. Rest, rest, move around, and rest as much as you need. Eventually, you'll be less tired. Then, you'll wake up one day and find that you're ready for another round. Strained muscles can't fight. And everyone in the ring is practically torn apart at this point.

Please believe me when I say EVERYONE thinks that they 'don't have it bad enough' to complain. That's a manipulation tactic. When it pops up in your head, find a way to change the wording or add onto it to make it better. (btw, the most minor examples of mental trauma are bullying (non-physical example: mocking, fake dates, etc.), divorce, & frequently moving from house to house. It's that simple. It doesn't make you any more fragile than anybody, and all trauma is valid.)

Empathy, Sympathy, Understanding, Patience, Compromise, Learning. And above all;

Determination.

TLDR: Pace yourself. Love is a burden we choose to bear and together, we can lift it out of the flames. It is entirely worth the effort, no matter who you are. Not. A. Single. Damn. Exception. THIS IS FOR EVERYONE!!

P.s. when your brain tells you that people don't care or pretend to care about you, that's only an echo of the people who actually didn't.

Example: My partner and I have almost nothing in common. She is nowhere near my type and I have absolutely no reason to love her. And yet... Here we are. I love her more than I've loved anyone. So much more than I thought I ever could love. Ask me why or how, and I'll come up blank. But I do. So, so deeply. So go for it. Go help the world, but please pace yourself!!

(Literally nodding off as I write this, so good luck. Hope isn't ready for the end just yet.)

(Sorry for a long post, here's a wolverine quote:)

X-Men: Days Of Future Past {2014}

been struggling with compassion fatigue lately and idrk what to do. i'm just pouring everything i have into getting through the day. i don't really know how to handle anything that isn't addiction related. it sucks. i keep beating myself up about it, because there are people struggling a lot more than me, and i feel like an asshole. i wish i had more to give out to others. but i just don't.