#liek I didn't realize that what I felt about down there was bottom dysphoria and now I can call it something

[yikesharringrove]

HELLO HEY HI so trans dude steve and billy dating but they haven't had sex in a hot second, steve thought it was just bottom dysphoria fucking him over but he has no problems when he gets himself off? so he just decides to ignore all the weird discomfort he was feeling and just let his boyf fuck him! and theyre having fun, getting into it and it feels good but steve just still feels that weird feeling and gets billy to stop and they talk, steve just explains that hes just not feeling it, maybe some bottom dysphoria but its more that he just doesnt want billy to see all that, everything's fine except for the fact that billy could look down and see all that (obviously billy is patient and listens and is fine with everything ya know?) by a few days later billy comes home with a surprise that he presents to steve but lets him know that its kind of a hit or miss type gift so don't feel bad if he doesnt like it. steve pulls out a strap on harness and a dildo thats pretty close to steves skin tone and billys rambling about how he didnt know what size dick steve wanted so he hopes its okay and steves just like thanks but i dont want to top, i dont want to fuck you, thats not the issue and billys like "oh i know, this is just to wear while we have sex, like a sex packer? you said you didnt like that i could see you so i thought this might help?" and steve kinda shrugs bc they can try and oh lordy does that work, steve has never felt such euphoria in his life! the dick bounces against his stomach but also rubs against him perfectly and billy will stroke it and while steve knows its just silicone it makes one hell of a difference

This made me go ✨💕🥰😁💫

Steve doesn’t quite understand his feelings about his body a lot of the time. Like, he experiences dysphoria about different things, and sometimes he thinks they’re kinda weird things to get dysphoria about, like wishing his waist was fuller, less of an hourglass shape, but not minding his hips being a little bit on the wider side. It’s confusing to him, and that’s why he doesn’t quite get this.

He doesn’t have bottom dysphoria when he’s by himself. He can play with himself, look at all that in the mirror and feel fine. He doesn’t really like to call it his pussy, or use words like that, because they just kinda stick oddly in his mouth.

But for some reason, something just kinda bugs him about Billy seeing all that. And Billy knows, obviously, he does. Steve told him all about his past, and they’ve had sex more times than Steve can count, so obviously, Billy’s got no qualms about dating a trans guy. Got no qualms about loving a trans guy.

But it just feels a little bit off to Steve when Billy pushes his thighs apart and looks down at him. It makes him want to shrivel up and slam his legs closed.

He tells Billy as much, with a blanket drawn up to his chin, looking anywhere other than Billy’s eyes, so kind and nice and understanding.

And Billy tells him it’s okay, that he doesn’t totally get it, but he gets it, and kisses Steve’s forehead and they don’t have sex for a week. They don’t even come close to it.

Until Billy brings him a poorly wrapped little present and says it’s okay if you don’t like it. I just had an idea.

And Steve just kinda holds the strap-on, and he’s like I don’t know if topping is the answer. I don’t really want to fuck you.

And Billy goes I just thought you could wear it. I thought maybe it would help the dysphoria. So that I want be looking at all that.

And Steve really saw no problem in trying.

And fuck, the first time they use it, and he’s got his dick slapping against his stomach as Billy rocks into him, and Billy spits into his palm and starts jerking Steve off in time with his pace, making sure to press firmly down so the base of the strap grinds perfectly where Steve needs it, and it’s all so good. Makes him feel so much gender euphoria he didn’t even know he was missing.

And it becomes his favorite accessory. Wearing it under a pair of sweats, palm himself in front of Billy, watches at it makes Billy’s own dick fill out.

And the first day Billy got on his knees between Steve’s thighs, pulled down his sweats and started going down on him, lewdly sucking off the dildo while gently pressing a few fingers inside Steve. Letting him buck into his mouth, tug on his hair.

Needless to say, their sex life skyrockets.