#let’s all just ignore the scenario and focus on the gif i made bc hes so pretty it hurts a bit

[thotsforvillainrights]

Hi, I doesn't want to bother u or some but I would like to request for toya setsuno with fem s/o that have a ex boyfriend that really abusive (like punching, slapping her face, choking, cursing, humiliate and another negative things) and s/o was now like pretend like nothing happened to her bc of her past and she doesn't want anyone to worried about s/o and keep smiling. S/o is very loyal person do anything for someone that she love and keep those person smile

I'm so sorry if u not up for something like this I just love angst and toya need more love from us and I'm sorry if I have a bad English actually English is not my first language. Feel free to ignore this if u want 😊

(Please, you are not bothering me. Feel free to request any time. I apologize for the wait! Btw, your English is just fine! I can understand you and hope that I have correctly given you what you wanted. Also I’ve made the reader neutral so mostly everyone can fit into this if they wanted ^_^ Thank you so much!)

~Walls~

headcanon|scenario|imagine|match-up

There was something wrong. 

There was something very wrong and he knew it.

You always tossed and turned in your sleep a couple of times every month. Sometimes you’d wake up crying without thinking that he saw, but he always did. Others times he’d catch you drifting off in thought and looking as if you’d seen a ghost. Toya wasn’t a rocket scientist, but he damn sure was observant. This was especially true when it came to person he loved the most in the world: you. Every little tic never went unseen by him. Even the event last Monday of you breaking into silent tears and thinking your were successfully hiding it from him. He saw it, every single time. There was something wrong with you and he couldn’t keep letting it slip like this. The only reason he didn’t check on you by now was his very own fear. He worried this must be the result of him upsetting you in some way or other. Why else would you be acting like this? Another point would be the fact that you told him everything (or so he thought). You told him whenever you feel sick, or when you want to go somewhere. You tell him things openly so what else could be the reason for hiding from him like this? 

“You aint got a lick of focus right now and that’s making our group look like shit.” Hojo’s voice complained distantly. Toya shook his head and zoned back into the task at hand. Hojo leaned over him and watched him struggle with work a bit more before sighing and grabbing his shoulder to pull him around face to face. “Alright, you’re either drunk or your mind isn’t on what it needs to be. Come clean so we can get this work done and I can go to the bar with Deidoro already.” Tabe moved from his spot to listen to the conversation as well. Setsuno sighed and looked down at his hands. “It’s Y/n. For most the time in our relationship she/he/they’ve been normal but sometimes for a couple of months things get a little out of place. Y/N seems almost unhappy and I think it might be because of me maybe.” Hojo sighed and swatted away the imaginary metaphorical grey cloud hanging above Setsuno’s head. “Listen man, you are one of the most good people I know. Sometimes I question how you even belong in the yakuza at all. With that being said, you’re also one of the most anxious people I know. I’m talking about how you take something and snowball it out of control with your anxiety. So Y/N’s acting weird sometimes, so what! That doesn’t mean she/he/they’re upset with you. I mean y/n would’ve told you by now right???” Hojo’s words were making a heap of sense now. “Talk to them.” Tabe added his point. The men were right after all. Toya tended to blow things out of proportion far too often. Perhaps it was damage done on his psyche by his distateful ex that led him to think like this. Either way, he made the plan to take the logical approach and actually have a talk with you when he got off of work.

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You stood in the kitchen sobbing into the over mitt when the sound of the front door unlocking quickly made you stir into action. As he opened the door, you tossed the mitt onto the counter and began rushing to the bathroom. “Hold it!” Toya raising his voice made you pause in your tracks. Having only negative experiences with a man raising his voice has caused some interesting responses in you that you hated. You felt like a trained dog sometimes. “Y/N, please...please turn around and look at me.” After a long pause you complied, silently cursing under your breath and turning to look at him with teary swollen eyes. “Damn it, I knew there was something wrong and I still took this long to ask you.” He rushed to you and began wiping the stray tearsc from your eyes. “I figured you must hate me by the way you’ve been acting lately but I thought I’d first ask to make sure. Just say the words and I promise I’ll leave you be. Anything to make you happy, even if that means leaving you despite my love for you.” 

“What? NO! I don’t want you to leave me please don’t! What are you talking about???” Your eyes began watering again at the thought of a wonderful man like him walking out of your life. “What am I talking about? I mean I’ve noticed how you’ve been acting lately and it makes me so sad to see you so distressed Y/N. You never tell me anything about it, even though you’re honest about most things. It’s breaking my heart watching you hide how you feel from me. I only figured it must be because I’m doing something that’s making you unhappy with the relationship.” The conclusion he came to was making you sad. Had he really been watching all this time? If so, had you really been making him feel like this the whole time? “Y/N your walls are too high even for me to scale. Do ya think you could drop a latter at least?” He joked with you lightly, the soft look in his eye welcoming you to gently open up even just a bit. You sighed and finally began to come clean to him. 

(READER TW: abuse talk)

“My ex Hotaru was a monster in human skin. Around everyone else he seemed perfect, but in private it was a different story. The first few weeks of dating he even had me fooled that he was perfect. As time went on, he was beginning to get angrier and angrier at the smallest things. I couldn’t hang out with any of my friends, I was barely allowed to see family with him around. He controlled my phone and internet usage, and often did cellphone checks nearly everyday to make sure things were to his liking. Every little fuck up would result in him putting his hands on me. If I missed a spot cleaning up, he would punch me in a spot where the bruise could be covered up. Burning dinner? That was the first time he slapped me so hard my teeth/gums bled. I lost the keys one morning and he ended up being late for work. He rushed out that morning because he wanted to be on time. I thought everything was fine for once, but when he returned he nearly killed me by choking. That really cool birth mark under my arm that you talk about? It’s no birth mark, it a spiral branding he did on me using his old car cigarette lighter. He would beat me by mornings and curse me out by night. I had even suspected he was cheating on me. Well eventually my suspicions were proven to be right. I should have been sad the day he packed up and left to be with his affair lover, but on that day instead of crying in pain, i rejoiced with my tears. It wasn’t until I met you that I learned what real love looked like. You’ve shown me a real relationship and for that I am forever grateful to have you. So no, please don’t leave me!”

You broke down and began sobbing into his arms as he wrapped them securely around you. He rocked you side to side a bit, and rubbed your back gently. When you had finally let out some of your pain, Toya pulled away to kiss each of your tear covered cheeks. “I’m so proud of you for opening up about your pain. Please don’t hide these things from me Y/N because no matter how well you can fake a smile, you’re still human at the end of the day. Letting so much trauma sit on top of your conscious like that is not healthy.”

“I just hide it because I know how much you’ve been through too. Although it doesn’t mirror my experience in intensity, I still want you to keep smiling so I hide it just to stop myself from bringing you down too. I love you and I’d do anything for you.”

“Well you’re right about it not mirroring me for sure. You win the award for shittiest ex.” Toya lightly joked with you. “However, I’m best at smiling when I honestly know that you’re happy. To be happy, sometimes we need to let out the toxic things that make us unhappy. Keeping all of that in must be making you sick by now. If you’d truly do anything for me, make sure to always tell me how you feel. Okay love?” He looked at you with such pure honesty in his eyes that you felt a weight being lifted from your chest. “Okay.” You agreed. He smiled and pulled you into a tight hug, silently ensuring you of his faithfulness and support no matter what you may be going through.

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soulmate au - mark

↳ requested by: no one

↳ type: bullet scenario

↳ warning(s): angst...just....angst...please proceed w caution

↳ a/n: @ mark stans,,,,,,,,,,pls don’t come for me after reading this thanks i’m looking at you nic

you hated the soulmate system, you hated it for taking away your father, you hated the tattooed words on your wrist, you hated it all

you hated it so much that you even went to the length of covering up your tattoo whenever you went out in public, bc seeing the very last words your soulmate says before they die...it hurts to think about

especially considering the words your soulmate is going to say....it’s not exactly an easy thing to hear

and you’ve also heard of people who had blank wrists, meaning that they will never get to hear the last words their soulmate will say to them before they die...because they’ll die first

your father had a blank wrist, and the last thing he said to your mother before he passed was “i love you, take care of our child” ....and those were the exact words that were inked onto your mother’s smooth skin

you never told anyone what your tattoo said, not your mom, your other family members, and even your best friend mark

however, in your defense, mark never told you what his was either, so ig you could say you two were even

unlike you though, mark was really into the whole soulmate idea, he loved it!

the fact that there’s someone out there waiting for him and him only makes him feel all warm and fuzzy inside

and you, despite your utter resentment towards the idea of soulmates, you didn’t wanna make mark feel bad so you just kept your mouth shut

and that actually worked pretty well.....until you reached senior year that is....

the thing is,,,mark’s had this huge fat crush on you ever since the sixth grade when you played w him all the time at recess

he’s always wanted to tell you how he felt but was too scared of ruining your friendship if things didn’t turn out the way he wanted

mark knew you hated committment, for reasons he didn’t know of, and when he asked you just shrugged and said “i just don’t like committment, simple as that”

so he knew if he confessed, he’d lose his best friend, so he’d rather keep his feelings to himself

but like i said....that method worked up until senior yr

ahh yes, your last year of high school has finally come, and w graduation only a few months away, it was safe to say you and mark were busy bees

you two would go out on study dates pretty much every single day, and since you two got distracted easily, you guys made an agreement to hold each other accountable; whoever went off topic and got distracted first was to buy the other person dinner afterwards

and for the past few times, mark’s had the unfortunate displeasure of losing and that night wasn’t any different :’)

this time, mark decided to buy you sushi and you two ate in the back of his pick-up truck

it was rlly late at night so the weather was super chilly and you kept shivering, so mark, being the absolute gentlemen he is, takes off his hoodie and gives it to you

you reject it at first but then he’s like it’s fine i’m not cold, just take it he was totally freezing but whatever thanks mark

so you put his hoodie on and when you do, you get a whiff of his cologne and your heart just,,,,does this weird thing,,,where it skips a beat and you’re like wtf heart calm down there buddy—

once you two are finished eating, you both decide to chill for a bit before going home, and that consists of you two playing so music and having a deep conversation

deep convos w mark weren’t unusual, you always found yourself (whenever you two were alone) talking about serious topics w mark bc he was so easy to talk to?? and he never judged you so you could say what you wanted

however,,,the topic mark touched on tonight,,,made you slightly uncomfortable,,,

“y/n...i know you refuse to tell me about your tattoo, but i’m just curious as to why?” and he looks at you w that look on his face and you’re just like shit what am i supposed to do??

so you decide to throw the question back at him “you never told me the reason why you’re hiding your tattoo either ya know?”

and he laughs bc yah you’re right,,,,and then he shifts so that he’s directly facing you, and you gulp at the serious look on his face

“how about this..if i tell you the reason why i won’t show my tattoo, will you tell me yours?”

you gape at him, jaw dropping and eyes widening

one part of you was telling you to say no, but the other part, the curious part of you, was urging you to say yes...and you were always a curious person so you succumbed to it

you nodded meekly at his proposal and mark smiled, clearing his throat before he shifted closer to you and locked eyes, your heart skipping a beat again

from this close proximity, you could easily admire the tiny details of mark’s face, especially under the light of the moon; his long lashes, his perfectly sculpted cheekbones, his sparkling doe eyes, you could see it all

“well...i guess i should just come right out with it...please don’t freak out okay?” he then lifts up the sleeve of his thin sweater, revealing his wrist......which was perfectly clean, no black-inked words in sight

you gasp and mark smiles sadly, covering up his wrist once more

almost immediately, you recall the meaning of a blank wrist and your vision blurs w tears

bc this boy, mark lee, despite knowing the fact that he’ll die before he got to hear his soulmate’s last words, he was still in love w the idea of soulmates and thought they were beautiful

“at first i was scared when i found out what a blank wrist meant, but then as i thought more about it, i realized that...maybe it’s better that way? i know it sounds crazy, but since i have the blank wrist, then that means my soulmate doesn’t, and that means they’ll be able to hear my last words to them.”

you listened carefully as he explained, but you couldn’t help but say “...you’ll never get to hear what your soulmate’s last words are to you tho..”

“yeah you’re right about that, but it’s better than them not knowing my last words to them”

and he smiles sadly once more and your heart aches; mark lee, the one who’s destined to leave this earth, is still thinking of the people he’s leaving behind

you sniffle, which makes mark chuckle and he carefully reaches out and tugs you into his chest, wrapping his arms around your shoulders and rubbing your back

“hey don’t cry y/n, it’s okay. i promise you i won’t leave before you do”

and you start crying just a little bit harder, forgetting that it was now your turn to tell him about your tattoo

the days occuring after mark’s shocking revelation were surprisingly very normal

mark still kept his wrist hidden and so did you, and not once after that night did he ask you about your tattoo, which you were grateful for

and if you didn’t already hate the soulmate system, you absolutely detested it now

first your father and now your best friend? the universe rlly loves to fuck up people’s lives doesn’t it?

mark urges you not to treat him any differently bc that’s now what he wants but you can’t help it, knowing that any day your best friend could be taken from you any day now hurt so much

but mark, oh mark, as usual he put others feelings before his own and made it his goal to cheer you up whenever you were sad

he’d take you out for ice cream, or to the movies, or if you were in desperate need of cheering up, he’d even invite yukhei to tag along w you guys bc he never failed to bring a smile to your face

and you appreciated his efforts, you rlly did, but the idea that mark wasn’t gonna be around to do those things in the future absolutely broke your heart

you made sure to remind mark how much you lovee him, just in case, and he would just get this goofy grin on his and say “i know”

but one day,,,you were out with your mom and hadn’t seen mark once

while you were out at the mall, you received a phone call from mark and when you answered it, you could tell he was pouting

“y/n you didn’t tell me you loved me today i’m offended”, you start laughing and roll your eyes

“sorry sorry, i love you mark...there happy?”

you heard a muffled shuffling sound and giggled, mark probably nodded his head and realized you couldn’t actually see him “very, thank you”

there was a pause on the line before mark spoke again, however this time he spoke very quicky before hanging up, and you were barely able to catch his words”

“i love you too y/n”

then the line went dead and you stood there for a few minutes, confused

and that’s when you felt it

a sharp sting of heat spread all across your arm in instant, sending you into a state of shock

the pain was so excruciating that you fell onto your knees and let out a loud shriek

your mother immediately kneels down, panicked and afraid, and is about to ask you what’s wrong when she sees it

you’re clutching your wrist

her eyes then glance over at your phone beside you, mark’s contact name still displayed on the screen

connecting the dots, your mother’s heart drops as she gently reaches out and takes your arm, ignoring the scared look on your face, and pulls down the sleeve of your sweater

once your eyes focus on the five little words on your wrist, everything stops

the pain stops, your heart stops, time stops

bc there...written on your wrist in perfect, neat cursive, are the words i love you too, y/n