#leftatlondon voice

[seefasters]

"the same lady shows up in different time periods on different planets" haha clara used to do that

[electrificata]

Wheres the trans siberian orchestra post

[catboymoments]

Me listening to LeftAtLondon at 9 am on a weekday because I wanted to get a feel for Juno’s voice and like.

Her voice is sooooo pretty I love it. More Tgirl voices please I love them

YAYYYYY

[lgbt-tiktoks]

Caption: [Happy to announce that I'm no longer doing any tiktoks. I'm solely doing 2009 era gaming youtube videos from now on. (The video continues to show her video along with the captions) ]

[wifiwuxians]

auto tagging is a blight. people reblogging my art w the tag ‘my art’ lol no its MY art thank u 

[opposumghost]

Taking a note from @leftatlondon with those distorted snares. Thank you t.i.a.p.f.y.h! Starting the beat for song three. I wrote these bastards years ago so it's just a manner of taking chord voicings on guitar and making them work for synths. I'm just making a bedroom pop ep now.

i hate mixing and mastering a track, it's like 99% of the time you spend on a song and you can never get the fucking vocals to not over power the instruments or for the instruments to overpower the vocals. HOW MUCH REVERB IS OVERKILL?!

[nijimurakyo]

WO i didn't realize one of my favorite artists was following me

[thirteens-earring]

i need to listen to more gaga proper i keep just listening to remixes

[bumblequinn]

oh hey the color names thing was partly my doing! (particularly blue fast and i think also purple smart??) so glad it became a thing 😋

One thing I appreciated from the old fandom days were all the stupid nicknames for the main characters. Like, Twilight was Twiggles and Purple Smart and Book Horse, and Rainbow was Skittles and Blue Fast and Top Cunt (like Top Gun, but a cunt). I really liked ‘Squiggletail’ for Rarity.

CACKLING AT TOP CUNT HGJFHSJKGHSFHGJKF

[pfaerie]

if you're ever bored and don't know what to draw please consider this; daniel buys this for johnny as a joke but loves seeing him wearing it

[leftatlondon voice] what about debbie harry?

[adulthooliganism]

DID stuff ! very long. more just for my own tracking. also it's 9pm and someone is ? cutting/grinding metal outside ? stop it

it's like learning more about DID is cool and great because it's like natpuff leftatlondon voice Aha I Do That

(p sure natpuff said she actually also has DID but that's not relevant here just a fun fact love she ✨)

and it's validating! because it's not like. sometimes i will read abt something And Then start experiencing those symptoms (part of my disorder) but these things r just. oh my brain just works like that and it's "normal" for my disorder (inherently not "normal" or whatever who even give a shit). however along with that is the whole I Have Dissociative Identity Disorder thing which is .

it's also awful. because it reinforces that hey, fucked shit happened to someone in here and they're holding that so i don't have to. i can hear them crying sometimes but when i knock on the door to help they run. i remember the big picture. i remember the drug addiction and the abandonment but i don't feel anything about it. because it didn't happen to me.

ever since i was little ive had this very clear image in my brain of throwing bad thoughts over a brick wall. it's a fully white space, save for a red brick wall that stretches to each side infinitely. i can see the top of the brick wall, but for a long time no matter how close i tried to get to the top it would extend further like an optical illusion. i would watch this black plastic garbage bag tie itself around the thought, sometimes double or triple bagging if needed, and it would hurl itself over the wall. and the thought would be gone.

recently though, ive managed to peek over the wall a couple times. and ive seen the ruins of whatever's behind it. it's a fucking wasteland back there. but every time i try to reach over and grab something, i get forcibly dissociated out of control again. someone else, usually [_], takes over and im not allowed back.

sometimes i look in the mirror and im like thats me :> and sometimes i look in the mirror and im like :/ and Sometimes i look in the mirror and ive never seen that face before . im smart enough to understand how fucking mirrors work. i know it's a reflection of what i appear as. but ive literally never seen that person before in my 21 years of life.

someone hates being called chris. a couple of us, actually. only one has come forward with another name and they're not even one of the ones who Hates the name chris

and realizing that regularly experiencing things like this. is maybe not "normal" or whatever. and that i maybe should work towards integrating the fragments, even if not to "fully" integrated but at least workable and communicable. because this whole blacking out for days at a time and coming back to not knowing where i was or what i did or who i saw or what i said? not recognizing my own damn face in the mirror? yeah maybe that's. maybe that's not good.

also part of it is like. not accepting you have it. right. which lots of us don't. im the only one who like... really acknowledges it? chris and jazzy both Know but they're not like. idk. they don't accept it. they're worried about people's perceptions too much and don't want people to know we're insane or whatever. it's not insanity. it was a failure in the integration of our identity during our development coupled with repeated trauma. and it's just how it works.

i think im being kicked out now ✌️

[catboymoments]

I don't. Know if uve done chihiros already for the headcanon game but I would leik to hear ur thoughts on her 🙏🙏

I SAW THIS ASK AND GOT SO EXCITED I LOVE MISS CHIHIROOOOOOS

- headcanon of all time is she is transfem trans girl trans woman she is estrogenpilled.

- she loves all things sweet Lolita and ruffly and cute… aside from being a computer nerd she’s a bit of a fashion nerd too. Miss girl loves her bloomers

- she streams on twitch sometimes but she only starts showing her face when she becomes more confident I think? But even so I don’t think she would publicly come out until Japan hypothetically became more progressive regarding trans rights. People tend to forget that Japan isn’t a fantasy anime land and is a real country with problems, including lots of restrictions on lgbt people.

- she may be cute and girly, but she often gets into the adhd grindset where she doesn’t get up from her computer room for days. Her friends have to come remind her to eat and sleep sometimes. She can be a bit of a gremlin.

- I do think she eventually weans off of the puberty blockers and allows herself to start E, but when this happens (I’m not an endocrinologist so don’t go nuts idk if this happens) the residual testosterone in her system makes her height SHOOT UP. both her parents are very tall, and she grows to be like. 5’8. I do think her voice gets a little deeper, but she has that really pretty alto tgirl voice that’s sooooo comforting? She’s not a natural baritone by any means but she does freak out a little when her voice begins to crack. I think she would talk to tenko about this stuff and tenko would show her Nat leftatlondon and her music and how girls can be trans and have deeper voices and still be girls. Love her.

Miss chihiros is the patron saint of transfems in stem and I love her so much

[cognito-ergo-hazard]

it’s important to me that everyone know that if you ever see me use the words “what the fuck” as a full sentence i am 100% saying them in the same voice as the mom at the end of @leftatlondon‘s “coming out as homophobic” video

[lgbt-tiktoks]

Do you know of any tiktoks with trans women singing? I'm really dysphoric with singing and seeing other ladies like me might help

Hi! I know the singer Left at London sings a lot on her account (leftatlondon). I found a few other videos but I’ll have to link them since they weren’t savable. If I find more I’ll edit this post or post them on this blog under “singing”. Voice dysphoria really sucks and I hope these may help some.

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMJnL6XRB/

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMJnLY5Fm/

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMJnLhewj/

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMJn8ENSR/ (This song is a little loud if that is something that may bother you)

[bringmoreknives]

@iero me seeing pics of gerard’s thigh rip from warped or pro rev: *leftatlondon vine voice* hahaha i do that!

[stupidstupidratcreatures]

I think ur voice would sound flowery , kinda like leftatlondon?

THIS IS REALLY SWEET [CRIES] I HAVE NO IDEA HOW U GOT THERE BUT THIS IS REALLY REALLY SWEET