#last one was too sweet here's some PAINNN

[acrochetedgundam]

torokatober 2024 day 21/31 - tears

“Where is he?”

“Right this way, Agent Bloom,” a younger Preventer calls, waving him toward her. “He’s this way.”

He follows her, but once they turn a corner and he sees Quatre further down the hallway, his head bowed and held in his hands, he sprints off ahead of her. “Quatre,” he breathes, falling to his knees in front of the blond, who looks up at him in surprise.

He’s covered in blood. On his hands, all over his suit. Splattered across his face, save for where his tears have carved paths through them. “It’s not..it’s not mine,” Quatre sobs before collapsing against him, burying his face into his chest.

Trowa knows this already. Knows that Quatre was not harmed, but the sight of so much blood on him steals the breath from his lungs, reminds him of darker moments from the war. He clutches Quatre to him, presses a kiss against his temple and silently thanks every god he’s ever heard of for his safety.

“It’s Rashid,” Quatre says, stammering and choking on his words. “They shot Rashid,” he manages, before dissolving into fitful sobs.

He knows this, too. Une had briefed him on the way over. They had been at a groundbreaking ceremony for a rebuilding of an apartment block that had been damaged and had since become unlivable after the Barton Rebellion. Quatre wasn’t even part of the ceremony; he’d only attended to support Relena. To represent the continued unity between the Colonies and the Earth.

Six Dekim sympathizers had opened fire.

Rashid, with his quick thinking and quicker reflexes, had gotten Quatre to the ground and shielded him with his own body. He’d been struck twice, once through his thigh and once through his hip. The leg wound had bled profusely, and once the shooting had stopped, Quatre had used his hands to staunch the bleeding, likely saving his life.

Heero had ushered Relena to safety, sparing her from any injury. The other Preventer agents at the event had quickly dispelled the shooters, but not before thirty- eight people in total had been shot. At the time of his briefing, seven had died.

There had been skirmishes, sure, incidents here and there, but it marked the deadliest terror attack since the Eve Wars. His stomach rolls. The war, everything they went through…what was all of it for if they couldn’t hold this peace?

Normally, he would accompany Quatre as a security detail to these sorts of events, but he had been with Duo, staking out an arms deal between the remnant factions of the Barton Foundation. A decoy that he now sees was clearly intended to stretch Preventer resources in Brussels. They’ll do better next time. They have to.

“He’s going to be okay, Quat,” he murmurs against blonde hair, rubbing soothing patterns along Quatre’s back, if only to keep his own hands from trembling. “It’s going to be okay.”

(on ao3)

[citronsblog]

Here you guys go :)

Clueless cuddles- Leon x Reader x Mondo

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"Leon!" You ran over to your boyfriend and jumped in his lap. He started laughing at your behavior and leaned down to give you a kiss.

"Whatcha doing babe?" He gave you another kiss on the cheek. For someone who claims to be punk he sure is affectionate.

"I'm waiting for Mondo to get home! Im hoping he didn't get into another fight again. That doof worries me." You held onto Leon's hand and cuddled into his chest.

"Don't worry babe, he'll be fine! He always is, plus! He has us to take care of him remember?" You smiled and looked at the timer on the microwave seeing how it was late at night.

You only hummed a reply to your boyfriend waiting for your other one to get home. Getting up from your spot, much to Leon's protest, you walked into the kitchen and turned on a few lights.

"I feel like making you guys some dinner tonight.. are you craving anything?" You turn around only to run into the red-heads chest.

He laughed and rapped his arms around you put his head on yours.

"Yeah, you." Your cheeks went a soft pink to this and you swatted at him. You two continued to play fight for a few more seconds until the rattle of the front door could be hear. You shot your head that direction and Leon smirked at you.

"Race ya~" he whispered and took off. Oh it's on. You ran the same way you and Leon both almost there. You give Leon a shove and beat him to Mondo.

"Sweetie your back!" Hugging your other boyfriend you could practically hear the smile in his response. "Yeah, I'm here doll face, where's Leon?" You laughed and pointed to the floor where he laid there pretending to be hurt.

"Oh the painnn the horrorr, the only thing that will save me is a bunch of kisses from my partners~" he peaked one eye open at us and mondo rolled his eyes.

"Come here you dummy." Mondo lifted up Leon with ease and you followed him into the living room. He set Leon down and gave him a kiss. He whispered something in his ear that seemed to pique Leon's interest.

They both turn to you where you were sitting on the couch and tackle you with a hug and a bunch of kisses. As you were being attacked by kisses you starting giggling which made the two boys smile.

"Heh ok ok I give in! What do you guys want?" You wiped away the tears which were forming in your eyes. Mondo smiled and shook his head, "Cuddles?" Leon laughed at that and nudged him on the shoulder.

"In a little bit first we have to eat. Oh and why were you home so late?! It's cold outside! And dark and I'm pretty sure it's snowing!" You scoffed him lightly. Of course you meant well but you were worried for your boyfriends health.

"I'm sorry baby I was getting something for you two." He shook and stood up. "So what are we going to have?"

"I don't know I asked Leon but he didn't tell me what he wanted."

"Well I don't know what I want, Mondo what do you want."

"Dude I don't know, Y/n what do you want?"

"Are you kidding me? I'm asking you guys for a reason!"

Mondo and Leon sighed it was at times like these that you guys were never able to decide.

"Ooooh I know! We can write down things that sound good and put them on one of the websites with a spinner wheel and what ever it lands on is what we eat!" Leon said with the most serious face. You looked over to mondo and shrugged

"That's not a half-bad idea... ok so what sounds good?"

"I dunno Leon what sounds good to you?"

"I'm not sure," he yawned out, "What sounds good to you Y/n?"

You looked between the two of them and sighed. "Geez we suck at picking out food."

They both sighed. You walked over to the computer and typed up a orange chicken recipe.

"How about a stir fry?" The two boys looked up

excitedly and nodded. You then spent the next 15 minutes preparing the food, the next 40 minutes cooking and the last 5 preparing the plates.

You were done in a hour and your two boyfriends were practically drooling over the counter. You looked up and grinned at them. "Alrighty Im finished! If you want some it will cost ya!"

Leon snapped out of the daze and whipped the corner of his mouth where the drool was coming from. "What do you mean cost us?"

You took your pointer finger and tapped It on your lips. Mondo instantly got the memo and walked around the counter into the kitchen. He grabbed your hips and leaned in for a deep passionate kiss. He dipped you down for a little show as if he was a better kisser then Leon. Which obviously when one of them starts showing off the other one will.

Mondo brought you back up and you two parted. You were still out of breath and mondo was grabbing a plate of food. "Thanks for the meal babe!"

You looked over to Leon who looked pissed that mondo got a kiss before him. He had the look on his face that said, 'if it's a challenge you want then it's a challenge you get' he walked around mondo and over to you. He held your face carefully and started to compliment you. "You are so beautiful I hope you know that." You smiled at him, "I love you y/n, you mean the world to me," he let out a playful scoff, "you as well mondo." Leon then went in and stole a sweet and gentle kiss from you. It made you laugh because of his pointy hair tickling your face.

"You are such a dork, I love you too." You have Leon his food and grabbed some for you. You sat between the two boys and started eating. "I love you too mondo I didn't forget about you so don't worry." He smiled with food still in his mouth. You started cackling while Leon scolded him for smiling with food in his mouth, even though Leon was talking with food in his mouth...

No matter what though you still loved your two idiots. They were there for you, always helping when you got hurt or just being the most supportive boyfriends there are.

After dinner you and mondo  did the dishes while Leon sung for you two. Mondo complementing your cooking. You walked upstairs to your shared bedroom and laid in the middle. The two boys followed you and cuddled you for the night keeping you warm.

"Hey you two?"

You got a little hum from mondo and Leon turned to face you.

"Thank you, for everything. Thank you for being with me, you guys have done so much for me and I wish I could return your favor."

Leon smiled sweetly and mondo replied to you

"Baby you have retuned the favor. By being here and loving us, making us food, helping us when we get hurt, or just ugh! I don't know I'm not good with this love crap but just know that we love you and you've done more then enough."

Leon gave you a kiss and added on, "Y/n you are always here supporting us and you are one of the best things that have happened to us so thank you." He turned over again on and side and yawned, "please get some sleep babe your health is important."

He let out a sleepy goodnight and went to sleep. You turned over to mondo and gave him and kiss. He put his arms around and you cuddled you. "I love you y/n, goodnight."

Yeah they're the best boyfriends in the world and you wouldn't trade them for anything.

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Uh yeah I don’t like how this turned out I think the format for reading it is wonky. Also feel free to send in requests!

[oncefutureemrys]

I'm gonna talk about one of my favourite fics bc why not,, it's called I'll tell you my sins (and you can sharpen your knife) by snailguy on ao3 if you want to read it, but do so before reading this ask bc it's all just spoilers.

IT BROKE MY HEART??????? I READ IT A FEW MONTHS AGO AND I'M. NOT. OVER. IT.

... tbh I don't think I ever will

like

merlin saved arthur using magic and arthur saw him, it was really obvious

and he, of course, felt betrayed and had some mixed feelings but-

HE WAS *REALLY* HURT, I MEAN R E A L L Y

so what does he do?

... okay like merlin is having a breakdown and is trying to explain himself and arthur just - he just tells him to kneel. and to be quiet. and you know I'm reading that and I see where its going and I feel like I have something stich in my throat and I'm losing it already

and merlin naturally does as he's told and is sobbing quietly and is trying not to cry but is upset bc he also realised what's gonna happen

and arthur he- he is fighting with himself. he's hurt, he's sad, he's about to do the hardest thing in his whole life. and then- then the writer gives me hope!!!!!!

ARTHUR ASKS MERLIN IF HE CAN ASK HIM KNE QUESTION. and our lil bean says 'anything' and now I'm crying.

and arthur asks him is was ever going to tell him. merlin says he wanted to. none of them misses the unsaid no.

and,, and so many things happen, so. many details are included, it's so beautifully written-- that drop of blood on a blue neckerchief - that shift in Arthur's expression - how merlin still thought about shaving his king---- just--

and then it finally happens

arthur- he slips merlin's throat with excalibur and merlin is choking on his own blood and-------

and all merlin can think about is how everyone will hate him, bc of his magic, how everyone's lives will be easier without him and i-- I just--

and then he remembers all the little things he'll miss. he thinks about butterflies, the sun, waking up in his bed, riding a horse, and now he's crying bc he will never again experience any of this. and he curses kilgharrah and destiny and everything and--

and he- he---- he's gone---

and the nature mourns him.

I WAS HEARTBROKEN AFTER IT. I WAS BROKEN DAMMIT- AND I ABORE IT. I LOVE THAT FIC SO MUCH, IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL, IT'S SO STRONG AND FILLED WITH EMOTION-

.. I needed to rant about it somewhere and you reblogged that post- I had to.

so, I'm sorry for this late response, I was a bit busy finishing some stuff, but I read the fic you were talking aboUT AND AHHHH IT WAS SO BEAUTIFULLY WRITTEN WHATT!

here's the link for the fic I highly recommend but do check those tags because it's very angsty and MCD!

BUT YES FOR REAL HBWAHJDWD THIS FIC HURT ME IN SOOOO MANY WAYSSS I FEEL YOUUUU

LITERALLY THE LEVEL OF DETAIL OF THIS FIC I CANNOTTT IT WAS INCREDIBLEE!! THE WAY THAT YOU COULD TELL ARTHUR WAS WRESTLING WITH THIS DECISION, THE WAY THAT MERLIN FELT SO SAD FOR HAVING DONE THIS TO MERLIN -- LITERALLY I WAS ALSO BEING KILLED LIKE WAJBDHAHJWHJDWJD BRUHHHH THIS FIC HURTTSSS

but omgg WHEN MERLIN WAS SLOWLY DYING AND HE WAS THINKING OF ALL THE LITTLE MEMORIES OF THE REST OF THEM -- STOPPPP STOPP WBADHWJ MY HEART CANNOT TAKE THIS PAINNN THATS NOT FAIR

okay, here's a part of the fic that I loved:

Tears slipped from his eyes, still, as he realised he'd never again wake to Gaius' tinkering in the other room or the birds singing outside his window or hold his mother and breathe her in, that sweet smell of flowers and herbs and the wind, and it'd been far too long since he last saw her and he missed her so much and would she miss him? He'd never laugh as Gwaine flicked his hair in a mockery of some noblewoman that had visited, never feel safe in the hold of Lancelot's warm gaze as he showed him some new spell he'd learned, never finish learning how to braid hair with Gwen or hear her laugh as he tripped over nothing or help her with her chores on the days her father's death weighed on her. He'd never feel Percival or Leon's comforting hands on his shoulder or learn more effective ways to sharpen Arthur's swords from Elyan because he understood how tiresome being a servant could be from Gwen and would help in any way he could. He'd never feel the wind in his hair or see a butterfly or hold a rabbit or look for silly shapes in the clouds or ride a horse or do anything and it scared him because he never realised how much those small things meant to him until they were gone and he'd never get them back, never. Arthur had left him here to rot and there was nothing he could do, couldn't even move or breathe or call for help and he was so scared, so so scared and he didn't want to die, he wasn't ready, please come back, please help me, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, please—

THIS ENTIRE SECTION. I WAS NOT READY. NO THANK YOU, NO SIRRR NOT TODAY.

THE WAY THAT THAT ENTIRE LAST SECTION HURTTT ME ON SUCH A LEVELLLL WAS UNCALLED FOR BHWBABWHDBWJD ANON THIS WAS AN AMAZING FIC BUT ALSO WHY WOULD YOU HURTTT ME LIKE THISSSS BAHJBHDBWJABDW

but that ending was so beautifully done, the emotions WERE SO RAW AND BEAUTIFUL i absolutely loved itttt bwhbadaw literally can see why you might not ever be over it beCAUSE I DONT THINK ILL EVER BE OVER IT.

hhehe thanks for the painnn and the sufferringgg hahaha glad you told me about it though, it was an amazing read!!

anyway

anonymously tell me anything including fics that will break my heart thanks