#lanni and thoma but its tanjirou and nezuko.. bro i cant remember what it was but there was this au i took something from..

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cruelty (blob)

”Haaa…Haa..” Lannion panted, feeling his heart pound in his ears and his feet beginning to ache under the heavy boots he wore to work.

The ice was chilling him — not worse than Thoma’s shallow breathing against his shoulder, a reminder that if he didn’t fucking move faster— his brother from another mother - the one person who was with him before they let conny, hao and sadie stay with them as they were street rats left to die — would be dead before he reached the town.

How did this happen? How was it that Lannion left home for a damn day to trade bullshit just to live in the town, and came back to their little hut — their Home, for crying out loud — trashed and the four people he considered his family were dead and gone infront of him.

conny, sadie and hao were cold, but thoma— thoma was warm, he could still save him- if only his feet would move faster!!

“Hold on, dude!” Lanni wheezed out, dragging his feet through the snow — “I’m gonna save you, promise!” he cried out.

thats one thing he hates about himself (he has many insecurities, but this one takes the cake) the most.

That he keeps breaking his promises.

He promises every time that he goes to trade that he’s gonna rack up enough to buy a feast, he promises every time to sadie and conny that he’d get them nice dresses to wear since theirs were so old and torn, he promises to hao and thoma that he’d get them as well some new clothes and more amenities.

he hates that he’s never able to keep them, all because of their situation as street rats.

every time he sees the excited light leave conny, sadie or hao’s eyes, he feels another piece of his heart break.

every time he has to watch thoma forcefully starve so the others could eat. he sees the calloused injuries on his hands and thoma waves it off.

he knows he needs bandages every time he attempts to sew up a new tear in conny’s stuffed rabbit- or their clothes - and stabs himself on accident with the needle.

He knows when thoma’s faking a smile for the kids, he knows that he’s doing it because he hates to see them look sad, even if they were simply a year younger than him.

And he hates that he has to just sit by and watch while thoma worked himself ragged, and then had the audacity to tell him that he needs to slow down and rest when thoma himself has been exhausted like all hell every single day.

but he cant lose thoma - he’s already lost sadie, hao and conny- they’re so close, just a few more miles and he can get treatment- the weight on his back lifts, and soon-

“AAAAAAAAARRRGGHHH!!!!!”

claws dig into his shoulders and lannion gasps.

something hadn’t just tackled them, that was thoma. that was thoma who was painfully digging his claws into his shoulders.

“GYAAAAAAHHHH!!!!” and thoma begins thrashing and growling, clawing onto lannion’s haori and sending them off of the side of the mountain.

“AAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!”

And lannion lands into the snow, heaving.

The snow. it.. saved me?

He gets up in an instant, panickedly looking around for thoma.

thoma’s standing up on two weak feet, his body hunched forward and the blanket on his shoulders slipping off, still bloody.

“thoma!” Lanni shouted, “thoma, you okay?! listen, you dont have to walk, i can carry you to town and we can get you-“

thoma whips his head up, fangs gritted and eyes splitting into sixpoint pupils, then, he jumps at him.

“YAGH!-“ lanni manages to shove the butt of the rifle he traded into his mouth, struggling to push back against thoma’s feral attempts to bite him.

then, he feels something pressing against his wind pipe and oh god its thoma choking him—

Old man Yuugo was right? that demons were real?

no- nonono!! Thoma’s a human, he’s always been!

So Why..

“thoma!” lanni manages to gasp out “im sorry-“ he chokes “im sorry that i wasn’t there!– you were hurting, all of you were- im sorry that im such a horrible person!-“ he feels his face going blue and black dotting his vision.

“Thoma! you aren’t a demon!-“ he’s on the brink of blacking out “Please! Dont turn into one, man! dont do this to me!-“

thoma’s growls only got louder, and lanni cant stay conscious any longer- but when he finally blacks out.. he swears he feels salty tears drip onto his face…