#lame jobless ppl

[moguyam]

It's my last week at work

SOON NO MORE STINKY SHOES

feels very weird.

My contract is ending and unfortunately it's not possible to continue. But really, i am happy that I finally get to relax more and enjoy the summer and play all the games I've been putting off since work started!!!!! Like damn, I survived this work period for over a year, even though it felt really exhausting at times (7-8 working days... not going to miss you. thank god this wasn't the case all the time but still often enough)....

This just really hit me again; this honestly was my first work experience ever in my life . ... i'm soon 35 and only now I got real experience where I got actual salary for the first time ever. Not just benefits after benefits. Like real salary i earned myself. This feels absolutely insane to me that I was able to do this but at the same time i'm ashamed why I was able to do this only now. I know i have my reasons but it doesn't make that feeling go away that i'm just lame and lazy and something i accomplished is just normal what others have experienced way earlier...... I hate that it's so hard to feel proud of myself and I hope my brain shut up about this. Also. As a person who has social anxiety, going to work has helped with that slowly. I'm really glad this place was mostly for ppl like me so things weren't too overwhelming. It just.. kinda saddens me that my only way of socializing outside of home is now ending. I had a sense of belonging.

super thankful for my husband for always cheering me up, always saying encouraging words and believing in me...... cooking when i got home..... 🥺🫶🫶

I'm not sure what will happen next, for starters i just wanna chill and u know what, it's so funny ffxiv dawntrail releases right after i go to jobless again hahaha like... it's like a reward for making it this far...!

[byghostface]

Adding to this, I seriously need these ppl to s​top bringing their own delusional and twist proship conceptions onto Nika, and out to make her ooc to make their dysfunctional proship work. Like shut the fuck up and leave her alone!!💥Jobless + envious behavior to drag her into your sick and twist proship fantasies💥🪨🪨

​No one want to see you proshipers lame and coy statement on Flatline or spurs shit in her tag be serious

flatline haters need to shut the fuck up like idk what to tell u but ur delusional proship is never going to happen and it would never happen even before jon being aged up and nika's introduction lmao

[convndrums]

finallY HOLY *BLEEP* it’s here.... destroy the mf’n like button on  m’post if ur interested in plotting n i’ll slide right into ur ims [ kai vc ] kees kees xx

- ̗̀  BOWIE DAISE HARMON━ INVENTED WIGS   ̖́ -

aLRIHT so this is bowie/bo x

works as a receptionist in a tattoo parlor (squid’s !nk, added 2 the locations page xx) but she def knows how to tattoo ppl but does that mostly @ social gatherings w friends, parties n stuff xx

kween of wigs ! (thought i was indecisive with kstew’s hair but boi......) dyes her hair a lot but still would wear a wig if she wants 2 complete an aesthetic. 

dark™ n it shows but she usually keeps up a #lit persona despite the depressión, past addictions, failed career choices and anxieté.

sings. s i n g s. deliberately does awful at karaoke nites bc she’s not an asshole x

got into singing as a career and her record label ruined her life consistently for two years until she wrote her damn debut album and was ultimately happy it didn’t do well (she meant for it to and if it didn’t, she was absolutely considering sue of cide again she was DONE) so they’d drop her ass and they did and she’s revived but too traumatized to get into it again, fawk that. 

had her v*ner phase (drag me). known SOLELY by her association with a circle of popular n lame viners alike and her featuring them in her mundane ass vines, nothing else (six seconds out of a conv with no context, zooms in on them with music playing in the bg like there’s zero creativity/effort n complete boredom here thats her #Niche n there’s humor to it, she supposes) and then being featured in their vlogs, either fully shown or her distinct fucked up laugh in the bg, you’d know. 

“i look like a little boy.” ---- bowie, at the mirror. 5 times a day. she does. wears platform heels for added height and night slips as outing wear whenever she could.

- ̗̀  SHAHEEN YOUSEF BIN BAZ ━ INVENTED MESS   ̖́ -

n this is shah

he is something.... been through someTHINGS mostly but still is something

a brilliant nerd; used to hack purely for the skill and the distraction from his schoolwork, currently a hacker for a living. jobless essentially but it brings good money.

used to be in a hacker collective but sort of left them when shit went down and he had to ghost and pull away for a while, but he still keeps contact.

basically, found something he shouldn't have found, got roped into something he didn’t really sign up for, met people who sort of helped him out of that mess only to pull him into a path he didn’t think he’d find himself in, so now he has been involved in multiple cons and such by a bunch of people (digitally; as a hacker in the comfort of his preferred area mostly) and ultimately had to be present during a heavy altercation that he’s scarred by but then again... what isn’t he scarred by.

he doesn’t want to come as close to that again, though. it really did fuck his shit up and he’s known to be ANXIOUS AS ALL HELL, so that was too much. he’s still calming down and it’s been seven months

is currently relaxing in his apartment at soho, tending to his beautiful garden that he loves so fucking much, learning to cook stuff other than ramen bc he’s not broke & in college anymore and he has time, minding his own business, being serene n enjoying his monies.

trigger-anxious. never shot a gun in his entire life until seven months ago and he absolutely will not hesitate to do it again if pressured, b*tch (has done it. multiple of times. when things get way too intense with difficult people during his ‘job’ and the nerves were wrackin’, hand was twitchin’) some switch in his head turned the fuck off, hence the serene lifestyle he desperately needs bc man if he doesn’t sort his head out.......

tender. talks in a very.... soft tone. not dead, but dying inside but there’s a light; a flickering, bright one in there.....

muslim and isn’t really lowkey or highkey about it. questions his faith but has his own ideas of it and is entirely his own individual. 

mumbles in arabic which he’s fluent in along with urdo. grew up in very ethnic family and skypes his aunts every saturday.

a good friend who tries; will be of support if he can give it. holds conversations well even if he’s not feeling them bc he’s not r00d and usually avoids outings or any type of social situation that would have them there for too long. if not, he’d find himself leaving every once in a while to breathe