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[dark-angel-74]

Quick to Trigger : Decision Making.

Monday Night, on my way to pick up my oldest child from a sport function, my car got a flat tire (which makes number 4 in 2 weeks)....anyway... I called my mom and she was on her way when I was pulled over -because I was driving in the grass because I hate the clunking of driving on a flat on pavement and it's better to drive on grass or dirt so the wheel doesn't get dented or busted or bent - they thought I was drunk 🥴 I recognized the sheriff and just started bawling on the spot. Him and another sheriff led me to a side street to get off the highway..... and that's when I learned 2 things.. I had TWO flat tires and my license is suspended 😭🥴🙃😐 anyway the sheriff that I recognized told me that he's only giving me a warning (since I didn't actually break any laws and they couldn't issue a corresponding traffic ticket) and left me to wait for my mom. So I sit and try to get my anxiety down and it just wasn't working for real. I have no money and now that I know my license is suspended, I can't do the one thing I've been doing to make money which is Door Dashing. --Which really doesn't hurt my feelings. Door Dash is dead out here this time of year, I hardly made enough to justify 6 or 7 hours away from home on any given day.-- I had a moment not gunna lie, I beat the s**t out of my steering wheel and straight up screamed and cussed out my car. 🤣😭😤😫 When my mom picked me up (and we left my car to go pick up my kid) I told her I was gunna leave it there. I messaged the Gas Station Guy ((🤣 funny story I met this guy at a gas station some weeks back and he wanted to buy my car... Strange to me with it being a shit box 2006 Ford focus .. but anyway I took his number and told him he'd be first in line whenever I get rid of it)) asked him he still wanted it and he did I told him it had a couple flats and where it was. I told him he could have it $400 he said he didn't have money or a job so couldn't pay for it. . ..... Long story (Not really) shirt. I gave my car away.

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We went back to it after picking up my kid we cleaned it out. (I left all the parts I bought for it in the trunk too. 🤣😫😤😭🙃🥴🤣😐😤🥴🤣🥴 Complete back brakes Assembly, new drums, brake line kit and master cylinder. And also my shop name and number for discount or returns at O'Reilly's) and while cleaning it out I found the title in the glove box from when I went to Kansas last. So I signed the the title, left it and the pen with the key in the visor.

Anyway I think I lost the plot of my thought process here hahahaha

Waking up the next day and realizing that I once again did not have a running vehicle, did give me substantial anxiety.... But I was not mad that I would no longer have to sink money into a car that wasn't dependable.

and now I can focus my energy and funds towards getting a proper new engine and oil pump for my truck. (That has been parked and out of commission since August of 2023) By the time I get my truck on the road I will be able to get my license reinstated. My family kept telling me that I should have at least scrapped it but with what I did I made someone happy and I have one less BIG problem to think about and waste resources on.

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In conclusion I wanted to ask. Was this decision impulsive and rash? Or can the reasoning be easily seen? I ask this because my entire family is telling me that I should have at least brought the car home and thought about it before just leaving it like I did. And honestly I didn't want to think about it anymore. I didn't want to have to THINK about THAT CAR anymore. I didn't want to drive 19 miles back home on 2 flat tires because no body has any money left to keep buying $40 tires ..... And one of the flats was one I just replaced the Friday before. 😤😐 So I made the decision to leave it like I did because I didn't WANT to THINK about it.

Is it quick to trigger? Yes. Can it be compared to the quick decision making requirements of pulling a real trigger? Also, yes.