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[tenebriism]

Zenos: Post Return (EW and Onwards)

A battle he has sought and worked tirelessly to prepare for. A battle that is as explosive and exhausting as he has always desired. A battle he, indeed, emerges as the loser from, but no less satisfied. The Warrior of Light has defeated him yet again, and with his last breath, the crown prince could finally be at rest, once and for all, even if his body is to be left to rot at the edge of the world, forgotten.

... or not.

It's a punishment, he knows, and one he has certainly earned, but it makes it no less crushing to be traversing these lands once more. The Warrior of Light has already proven, time and time again, that he/she is STRONGER than Zenos, and having returned with but a fraction of his strength now, the prince no longer sees value in pursuing him/her. Worse so, all that he has done to match the Warrior of Light's strength, otherworldly or not, rebels against him, leaving him weakened and sick on occasion.

Headaches that feel as if his head is being split open. Inability to stand, to move. Nausea, a purge of whatever rests in his system, and if naught is there, sometimes blood. Forgetfulness, fever, body aches to a near agonizing extent... Zenos swears he suffer NOW more than he did prior, and he accepts it. He accepts it because he knows he DESERVES it, and not the sweet embrace of merciful death he'd thought he'd been gifted by his dearest friend. After all he has done, 'tis a wonder his suffering is not greater... but does he regret his actions? Nay. One should not assume him a changed man, for he still possesses a hauntingly non-existent level of care for both himself and those around him. Zenos Yae Galvus is a self aware monster through and through.

Yet, sometimes in the moments of his suffering, he wonders how it would feel to have someone care about him, when nobody has bothered to since he was but a child. He wonders if the Warrior of Light -- the only one he'd shared SOME type of connection with, despite its unconventional unhealthiness, thinks about him. Mayhap this rebirth has brought with it a glimmer of his humanity long lost to trauma and bloodthirst. A glimmer of a want for something he shan't ever have.