#kanya in english

[tasavvur-ki-duniya]

Even if you have found someone who loves you back, the battle doesn't end here. Sometimes, not sometimes but all the time, love is not enough. You need to be respected, you need to be understood, you need to be communicated, the one-sided relationship of giving is not enough only for the sake of he/she loves me back, your love for each other must be constant despite the fights between you, you must be ready for a change in yourself, you need to point out each other's toxic traits and be open/ready to work on them. If your partner is insecure and overthinks every single detail, you're the one who is supposed to understand it. Instead of being mad, assure him/her. Loving IS A BIG DEAL.

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4 Beneficial Points about Mukhyamantri Kanya Suraksha Yojana

          Mukhyamantri Kanya Suraksha Yojana – ये योजना बिहार सरकार के द्वारा राज्य की बालिकाओं के लिए शुरू की गयी थी। इस योजना को बिहार के मुख्यमंत्री के द्वारा 2018 को शुरू किया गया था। इस  योजना का उदेश राज्य की बालिकाओं को पढ़ाई के लिए प्रोत्साहित करना है, और भ्रूण हत्या को रोकना है। ये योजना कन्या उथान योजना की तरह ही है. इस योजना को “बेटी पढ़ाओ, बेटी बचाओ” अभियान के तहत शुरू किया गया है। इस…

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Propaganda

Deborah Kerr (Bonjour Tristesse, An Affair to Remember, The King and I)— For several decades she held the record for most Oscar nominations without a win (6 in total), and she was a prolific leading lady throughout the 40s and 50s. She's best known today for the romance An Affair to Remember with Cary Grant, and as the governess in The King and I. Many people have this erroneous perception of her as extremely prim, proper, and virginal, but this could not be further from the truth. When she first came to Hollywood under MGM she was typecast into boring decorative roles, but broke sexual boundaries for herself and Hollywood generally in From Here to Eternity, when she made out (horizontally!) with Burt Lancaster (on top of him!) in the famous Beach Scene. She went on to play many sexually conflicted women, a character type that would define most of her post- Eternity work. She continued to break Hays Code boundaries with Tea and Sympathy, which addresses homosexuality/homophobia head-on, and even did a topless scene in The Gypsy Moths 1969!! One of the only classic stars to do so. She deserves a more nuanced and frankly a hotter legacy than she currently has!!!

Devika Rani (Achhut Kanya)—She was grandniece of Rabindranath Tagore (laureate). She was sent to boarding school in England at age nine and grew up there. After completing her schooling, she joined the Royal Academy of Dramatic Art (RADA) and the Royal Academy of Music to study acting and music, at a time when aristocratic women did not enter showbiz. She studied filmmaking in Berlin. It is well known that she underwent training at the UFA Studios in the art and technique of acting under Eric Pommer, and other aspects of film production including costume and set designing and make-up, under eminent directors like GW Pabst, Fritz Lang, Emil Jannings and Josef von Sternberg. She is also reported to have worked with Marlene Dietrich. She had a multi-faceted personality and took on many responsibilities of film production at Bombay Talkies, a studio that she co-founded with Himanshu Rai in Mumbai in 1934. She often took care of hair and make up, supervised set design and editing, scouted for new talent and mentored them. She was the face of Bombay Talkies, and also the reason behind the political and financial backing the studio received, at a time when even women from red light districts refused to work as actresses. She was the first recipient of the Dadasaheb Phalke Award, when it was instituted in 1970.

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Deborah Kerr:

I think she was one of my first crushes before I realised I was bi in The King and I when I watched it as a kid honestly. The kissing scene in From Here to Eternity is iconic for a reason. Actually tried to learn the accents for the characters she was playing if they weren't English which is more than pretty much anyone else was doing then. Played very restrained characters who frequently seemed to be desperate not to be so restrained. Did horror movies without venturing into hagsploitation tropes. Gave Marni Nixon the credit she deserved for her share of the singing in The King and I.

Anne Larsen is a peak late 1950s bisexual with big MILF energy. Have you seen the behind the scenes pics of her wearing a suit?? Have you????? Vote Deb as Anne Larsen.

Nominated for an Oscar six (6) times and never won, but besides her having actual talent (hot), and besides her looking Like That (very hot, also beautiful), she was always playing women who are, like, crazy repressed. Which makes it fun and easy for me to read these characters as queer. Icon!!!! You know what's hot? Playing ambiguously gay in vintage Hollywood.

Her face and talent and body, yes, ofc, duh. But also!!! Her HANDS!!!! I may be but a simple lesbian, but she is the best hactor (hand actor) that ever lived and that's HOT! For propriety's sake I feel I must redact a large portion of my commentary on this subject. Anyway. She's hot in her most famous roles (mentioned above), and also some of her sexiest hacting is on display in An Affair to Remember (her hand on the bannister when Cary Grant kisses her off-screen??? HELLO???), Tea and Sympathy (when she's trying to persuade Tom not to go out and she keeps flexing her hands like she wants to reach out to him but can't??? ALLY BEHAVIOR! WE STAN!), and The Innocents (which opens and closes with extended shots of her hands bc director Jack Clayton was also an ally and he did that for ME). Much of her appeal also lies in the fact that she often played deeply repressed characters and you know what's hot? When those uptight characters finally unravel. It's sexy. It's cathartic. It's erotic. Plus, she's beautiful to look at in both black & white and technicolor, and the more of her films you see, the more you can't help but fall in love!

Literally is in thee most famously sexy scene of all time (or maybe just during the hays code era which is what we're talking about HELLO), which is the beach scene with Burt Lancaster in from here to eternity. To quote a tumblr post of a screen capture of a tweet of a video of joy behar on the view: "y'know, there used to be movies where they were kissing on the beach... From Here to Eternity. They're kissing-- Burt Lancaster and Deborah Kerr are Kissing on the Beach and then the WAVES crash!! You know exactly what they did!"

She might have a reputation of being chaste and virginal or whatever, but we all know it's the quiet ones who are certifiable FREAKS

Devika Rani:

Achhut Kanya (1936) is the only one of hers I've seen but hot DAMN

[ghostofhyuck]

NCT Dream as your manliligaw

AN: This is written in filipino, check the english ver here! i just wrote a filo version because i'm feeding into my delulu with Dreamies as filipino manliligaw. Kung sino man yung nag-request na ito, salamat sa iyo beh HAHAHAHAHA sana maka-secure ka ng tds3 tickets <3

Mark Lee

Mark Lee as your manliligaw means botong-boto ang magulang mo sa kanya. Mabait, sweet, tapos palaging nagmamano kapag bumibisita sa inyong bahay. Tapos palagi pang sumasama sa inyo tuwing Linggo kapag sisimba. PUTANGINA. Close pa siya sa mga bata mong kapatid o pinsan, palaging hinahanap sa iyo, nasaan daw si "Kuya Mark." Mark Lee na marunong mag-gitara kaya hinaharana ka, kung anong kanta kayang-kaya niya. Siguradong may isang opm song na dinedicate niya sa iyo (Cup of Joe panigurado o Adie). Napakilala mo na siguro siya sa buong angkan mo tapos botong-boto sila sa kanya. Kailan mo ba iyan sasagutin, huwag mo na raw pakawalan.

Huang Renjun

Huang Renjun as your manliligaw means palagi kayong nasa coffee shop tumatambay. Sinasamahan ka niya mag-aral habang siya gumagawa ng plates niya. Palagi ka niyang nililibre ng drinks at siguradong saulo na niya yung order mo, paminsan nga may kasama pang pastry. Renjun na isang fine arts major, kaya in the random moments, magugulat ka na lang mukha mo na pala ang kanyang ginuguhit. Sobrang romanticized life mo kapag kasama mo siya. Kahit pa nagcocommute lang kayo sa jeep kapag kasama mo siya, parang ang saya ng buhay mo. At some point gumala siya sa Dangwa tas binilhan ka ng flower bouquet kasi trip niya lang tapos dadalhin ka sa Intramuros habang palubog na araw. OH DIBA ANG SWEET. 

Lee Jeno

Lee Jeno as your manliligaw means ang swerte mo. GIRL!? Ilang buwan pa lang siya nanliligaw pero sobrang komportable mo na around him. Ang sweet, tapos palagi ka niyang sinusundo sa school mo OR if pareho kayo ng university, inaabangan niya na matapos klase mo tapos foodtrip kayo sa labas. Madalas tumatambay lang kayo sa condo niya kasi napaka-nonchalant naman na 'to. Pero okay lang, kasi kapag inaaya ka niya mag-date, gandahan mo ang damit mo kasi it's either sa Makati or around BGC kayo kakain. Si Jeno rin yung kapag naglalakad kayo, nasa may kalsada siya banda tapos inaasod ka talaga doon sa lakaran para safe ka, hawak niya kamay mo, tapos tinatabi ka niya kapag may mabubunggo ka na tao HUY.

Lee Donghyuck

Lee Haechan as your manliligaw means may clingy ka na manliligaw! Palaging may update para sa iyo, palagi kang may 'good morning, ingat ka palagi' tapos tinatawag ka in the most random nickname. Hindi nakakasakal, sobrang comforting pa sa iyo. Palaging nandiyan para sa iyo, para pakinggan lahat ng rants mo sa buhay tapos yayakapin ka na lang kasi grabe, ang comforting siguro ng hugs niya. Si Haechan na kahit clingy, hinahayaan kang gumala o kaya sinamahan ka sa mga inuman (kapag inaya mo siya) para in case na malasing ka, nandiyan siya para ihatid ka niya pauwi kasi may tiwala magulang mo sa kanya eh, "Pass pre, ihahatid ko pa ito." GANYAN SIYA ANO BA!

Na Jaemin

Na Jaemin na manliligaw mo means botong-boto magulang mo pt. 2. Sweet, caring, tapos palaging may dalang pagkain tuwing bibisita sa inyo. Eto yung manliligaw mo na may kotse kaya hatid-sundo ka palagi. Sinisigurado na nakapasok ka na sa loob ng bahay niyo bago siya umalis, tapos may "nakauwi na po ako <3" update kapag nakauwi na siya kasi ayaw niyang nag-aalala ka. Sa sobrang boto ng magulang mo sa kanya, hinahayaan na nila ikaw magpagabi kasama si Jaemin. Palagi kayong may roadtrip. Tatambay sa NLEX/SLEX stopover, bibili ng pagkain, tapos nakaupo lang sa kotse habang nagkekwentuhan, nag-aasaran, momol EME. 

Zhong Chenle

Zhong Chenle as your manliligaw means sobrang spoiled ka. Palaging may regalo para sa iyo, kung ano man ang gusto mo. Plushie sa Miniso, Sonny Angels or Smiski, bibilhan ka niya iyon. Madalas kasi kapag nakakakita siya ng mga cute na bagay, naaalala ka niya. Pipicturan niya tapos ipapadala sa iyo. Magugulat ka na lang binili na pala niya iyon para sa iyo. Si Chenle na parte ng varsity team ng inyong university kaya naman todo bigay kapag nandiyan ka para manood ng laban nila. Kikindatan ka kapag naka-score o kaya ituturo ka ALAM MO IYON, tapos binigay niya yung spare jersey niya sa iyo kapag tapos na ang uaap season YIEEEEEE. 

Park Jisung

Park Jisung as your manliligaw na napaka-mahiyain sa una. Noong una kayong nagkita ang awkward! Sa may ihawan kayo sa labas ng uni niyo napadpad tapos ang tahimik pero naglakas-loob naman siya na kausapin ka. Siya nagbayad sa first date niyo kahit na you insist na hati na lang kayo, tapos hinatid ka niya sa dorm mo o sa sakayan! Simula non, naging routine niyo na na hinahatid ka niya bago siya umuwi, tapos siya palaging may dala ng bag mo para hindi ka mabigatan SHET. Tapos si Jisung na mahilig na katawagan ka tuwing gabi, messenger vidcall man iyan o discord call, basta marinig niya lang boses, tapos mag-uusap kayo tungkol sa walang-kwentang mga bagay. HAYSTT!!

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me after finally deciding i’m willing to make habol sa crush ko because i liked him even more when i went out with him. he’s genuinely kind, not just to people he likes, his humor is very tito, very princess treatment ako when we went out (paano ako hindi aasa). he’s a fucking smart-ass, he’s family-oriented, and he’s financially stable. and he’s not compensating for anything, i find him super cute. i could also listen to him talk all day!! eto yung pinaka nagustuhan ko, ang sarap niya pakinggan magsalita. english tapos ang smart niya pa pakinggan. pero nung kalagitnaan naman baka narealize niya na more on tagalog ako so nagtagalog na siya. grabeeee ayoko na ng iba, isa na lang crush ko siya na lang. as in nung lumabas kame napaisip ako na mygosh nasaan ang standards ko sa mga past relationships ko. and if this doesn’t work out, he set the bar pretty high. ganito deserve ko at gusto ko.

tapos yung mga ate ko pinapaasa din ako na baka kaya hindi na siya nagmessage ulit kase after ng date nagmessage ako sa kanya sabi ko “thank you kanina, good night!” tapos nagreply siya, “thank you din kahit hindi ka masyado kumain. good night!” tapos hineart ko. sabi nila bakit ko daw ginoodnight agad baka inisip niya hindi ko daw siya gusto. tapos daw hineart ko lang reply niya. besh gusto ko kase mag good morning siya saken sa umaga hahaha. pero yon. this week ask ko ulit siya lumabas, if he says yes, thank You Lord. if he says no, tatanda na tayo magisa mga besh. if you’re thinking i can’t take a No, technically he didn’t reject me. and for years, women have been pursued this way— ligawan hanggang sa mag-oo. i’m just one woman, i’m not going to singlehandedly destroy your precious patriarchy. plus if he says No, i’ll stop. calm down 💓

[riyangiis]

omgg yujin as your filo bf who has kanal humor and is street smart and you as his gf who's an englishera and has aircon humor??

b4 he's like yung mga boys na genggeng pero madaming babae na may crush sa kanya kasi pogi siya HAHA

that time may crush siya sayo kasi kahit englishera ka at di mo maintindihan yung iba ang sweet mo in general?? ☹️ he loves the fact na may aircon humor ka kasi minsan minsan he's messing you with anything he can come up with.. esp jejemon typings😭😭

you don't know how you started talking to each other kahit ang different niyo from each other.. it all started when you added him sa fb, you just add whoever you know irl kahit di mo ka-close kaya marami kang mutuals na nasa school mo.. ang delusional ni yujin na akala niya in-add mo siya kasi gusto mo mag first move.. ehh ganun tlga ung mga babae na may crush sa kanya, they add him sa fb, nagrereact sila sa story niya, yun lang..

pero dahil bold at delusional si yujin he's the first one to chat.. "ate how are you?? nagtatanong lang ako haha" ps he's younger than you for the effect HAHA 1 year lang ang age difference niyo..

"?? ang random pero ok lang, ikaw??"

yun ang sinabi mo sa kanya.. syempre you can't leave him on read kasi rude yan diba? sana you left him on read na lang..

when he saw that you responded to him he was over the moon😭😭 kung ano ano sinasabi niya sa dump niya..

then after that he started talking to you more, nag-improve na ung english niya and nag-improve naman ung filipino mo😬

kayo na bahala d2 pagod na ako

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misis ko

genre - fluff, TAGLISH, bf!mark x f!reader

warnings - slight mentions of drinking/getting drunk

english ver.

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Paulit-ulit na chinicheck ang iyong telepono para sa oras, na nagpapakita ng 'hoy gusto ko na umuwi kasi inip na ako pero ayoko e-disturb yung bonding mo.'

'Love, okay ka pa?' Lumapit yung lalaki sa likod ng upuan mo pagkatapos niya tumayo para ikuha yung mga inumin para sa mga kasama niya.

Nakatayo si Mark sa left side mo, dahan-dahang hawak yung right side ng mukha mo, sumandal ka sa iyong upuan habang tumingin ka sa kanya, 'Ok pa, sleepy lang konti.'

Itinaas mo yung inumin mo nang mas malapit sa iyong labi, para hindi ka na nauuhaw. Pero kinuha ni Mark yung tasa mo at lumuhod mas malapit sa iyong katawan. 'Uwi na tayo? Tara,' sabi niya. Habang nakahawak sa iyong waist, nakataas ang kilay at nakatutok ang mga mata para sa iyong sagot, admiring you, kung paano bumagsak ang mga eyelids mo kapag naramdaman mo ang paghawak niya sayo.

Tinatapik ang iyong thigh para magising ka, pumunta siya sa lamesa, kinuha ang kanyang jacket na nakasabit sa likod ng kanyang upuan. 'Una na kami, hatid ko muna misis ko,' sabi ni Mark, dabbing up yung mga kaibigan niya bago focusing ang lahat ng attention niya sa iyong katawan na nakasandal ngayon sa pillar. Hinawakan niya yung purse mo at inilagay ang kanyang jacket sa iyong mga balikat, nakayakap siya sa iyong katawan para sa iyong support.

'Ingat kayo, pare!' Sigaw ng isang kaibigan bago itaas ang kanyang inum kay Mark tapos nodding and waving goodbye.

Antok ka pa, pero napasalamat ka pa kay Mark at sa self-control niya. Dahil alam niya na may pagpipilian siya, naglalasing kasama ang kanyang mga kaibigan at mamaneho mo siya o uminom lang ng isang beses sa 5+ oras na hangout para patuloy na ma-check up ka, kahit na alam yong dalawa na ikaw dapat ang gumawa na yun.

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[akonaman]

Habang nasa meeting kanina they were sharing smile stories for the week and wala akong mashare pero for the sake of sharing shinare ko na lang yung progress ng anak ko lol. I applied for wfh set up kahit ok naman ako onsite kase I’m worried na di magsalita yung anak ko kahit “mama” di niya masabi kahit 8 mos old na siya that time. I know malaking factor talaga yung may kakausap sa kanya and makikipag communicate patiently. Moving forward na kaka 2 nya lang and 1 year na ko sa WFH set up, maya maya naman ang “mama” mommy” niya. HAHA.

I am just so happy na she could now communicate kaso puro english naman haha. So lahat ng tao sa bahay nag aadjust na para makausap siya dugo talaga ilong namin kaka english nya. But im grateful kase nagbunga naman yung sacrifices ko. Sometimes we really have to make hard decisions for a long term reward and tho nahirapan ako for a year in this set up, atleast im seeing progress sa anak ko. Eto yung pinangako ko sa sarili ko na gusto ko lalaki yung anak ko na kasama ako. Unlike sa naranasan ko nung bata ako na puro kamag anak lang namin/yaya yung nag aasikaso.

My little cutie patotie is not a baby anymore 🥺 Sometimes she would say “thank you ma” pag she feels overwhelmed with my hugs and kisses ommo 🫶

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" between the lines "

SYNOPSIS. yn plays a role written by her greatest what if, wonwoo. PAIRING. author!wonwoo x actress!reader GENRE/S. filo (written in filipino + english) smau, fluff, angst, humor mejj

part seventeen | teka lang

previous ➤ part sixteen next ➤ part eighteen between the lines ➤ masterlist

from reese, with love <3

manager mode jeonghan my beloved <333 grabe talaga soft spot ko sa kanya huhu sdfghjkl also grabe ang pogi talaga ni wonwoo nakakiyak !! and fml soon !! andami laging ganap sa caratland nakakaloka dfghj

[tasavvur-ki-duniya]

The "bear and man theory" generally refers to a hypothetical question that has recently gone viral on social media, particularly TikTok. The question asks women whether they would rather be stuck in the woods with a random man or a bear. Surprisingly, many women have expressed a preference for the bear over a man. but the thing is we're not choosing the bear because we think we'd survive right?

imagine a woman today, staring down this insane choice between a bear and a man. The fear hits hard because, weirdly enough, the bear seems like the safer bet. She knows exactly what a bear wants—it's either going to attack or leave her be. But with a man, it's a whole different kind of fear. His intentions could be a complete mystery—kind one minute, harmful the next. This unpredictability makes the clear-cut danger of the bear almost feel like a relief. The sheer anxiety of not knowing what to expect from a man these days is enough to make anyone consider the bear option, no matter how crazy it sounds.

[shinebriggght]

Today marks the 2nd day since I joined the company. Inexplain saamin yung mga benefits as a part of the CUPE ng NB. Katakot takot na tax ang mababawas sa sahod namin pero kami rin naman ang mag bebenefit kaya it’s a good deal din. Magagamit naman siya within the country and even if we decided to travel, tapos naaksidente kami, magagamit din siya basta tatawag lang sa med insurance kaya sino ako para magreklamo?

So nagstart na rin pala kami sa Education namin. Education pala tawag sa mga Trainings and Certificates na needed before magstart sa med floor. Tapos yung educator namin, he had to translate every french word to english kasi dalawa kaming zero french sa klase hahaha and I was listening intently kung paano nila dinedeliver bawat word. Yung kasama ko namang indian, nagkaproblema sa log ins niya kaya tumawag ulit sila kasama ni Jennifer sa Service NB para sa log ins niya while me, nakanganga don sa nagsasalita at nag eexplain in french ng module. From then onwards, nag basa basa na lang kami hanggang sa makaapat kami na module. Bukas naman daw haha. Pwede daw pala i access at home but naaaah. Hindi ko dadalhin ang trabaho sa bahay. 😅

Nive sent me a messaged earlier. Meron na naman kaming magiging kapitbahay na ibang lahi. Not very good in English daw siya kay itong si Nive, pinakiusapan ako na i assist ko daw. Oki lang naman kaya lang mag 7pm na. For sure si Nive di na yun mag da drive ng mahigit isang daang kilometro para ihatid yung bago sa hospital. So baka bukas na sila dadating. Oki lang naman din if bukas baka nga si Nive na rin ang sasama sa kanya mag grocery. Hayyyy. Antok na me as I type this hahaha!

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Linden Travers (The Lady Vanishes)—if you watch a lot of old English movies, Linden Travers is always turning up, making you go "wait, where have I seen her before?" She has insane cheekbones that could cut glass and this glassy, fragile way of holding herself—like she's eighteen seconds away from coming apart at the seams.

Devika Rani (Achhut Kanya)— Achhut Kanya (1936) is the only one of hers I've seen but hot DAMN

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Devika Rani:

Linden Travers:

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my thoughts on religion that nobody asked for :)

Like many Hindu children, I had my annaprashan (a first rice ceremony) at 7 months old. Bengalis tend to believe that odd months (5 and 7) are particularly auspicious times to hold such ceremonies for baby girls. Conversely, baby boys would have their annaprashans on even months. Immigrating to Canada left us in a desperate search for community and companionship, the best place to find this, of course, was by connecting with any given Hindu Society in any given county. I remember attending various pujas for various deities, having a shallow understanding of their lores and mythologies, and learning the different songs and hymns used to worship them to sing on a stage after the evening prayers. 

Scindia Kanya Vidyalaya, the girls-only boarding school that I attended for 5th and 6th grade when we lived in Gwalior had a 97% Hindu majority student body. We celebrated the usual holidays, of course, though this time the performances and sermons were more spectacular, and were held in an auditorium instead of a rented out church basement. We were given days off from our classes, special meals, and were able to wear clothes and accessories that were not a part of our uniforms. Despite all of the pomp and circumstance, I can’t seem to remember exactly why we were celebrating these holidays. I haven’t attended a formal puja in 6 years. 

When I was around 7, I remember a particularly eclectic aunty showing up to a Bengali function. She had just flown in from her travels around Nepal, proudly proclaiming that she was a newly converted Buddhist. From her purse she pulled out a Sanskrit prayer book filled with Buddhist chants that she could not read. She had English transcriptions of each syllable under each line that told her how to pronouncers each phrase and which words to stress and not stress. Regardless, she made a show of praying aloud in front of everyone before dinner, and vowed to learn how to read Sanskrit as a step in her path to enlightenment. 

Many of the other guests were not particularly impressed by her, but my mother was taken immediately. She asked the aunty where she purchased her copy of the Vinaya Pitaka and was immediately gifted the spare one which had been kept in her bag in case she was asked this very question. For six months afterwards, my mom would pray every single morning and every single night, chanting those same repetitive lines over and over and over again, buying more books with insights into the teachings of Gautama. She however, did not need handwritten English transcriptions. She would follow up those prayers with a solid 20 minutes of silent meditation, and would break that silence to scold me every time I tried to distract her. I can’t recall exactly when she stopped praying, and I can’t find any of those books that she bought in the house today. 

That same year, she became friendly with our neighbours, whose names I cannot remember. What I can remember is the smell of khoresh fesenjoon the mother would make while preparing for Iftar during the days she would babysit me after school while my mother was at work. She taught me how to determine which direction north/northeast was when praying, explained Mecca to me, how it was the holiest, most sacred piece of land in the universe, and shook me awake when I would fall asleep on the prayer rug. I once asked her if she was bald under her hijab, she then asked me if I was empty in the head. 

The  language they spoke, the way they kneeled down to pray, and the kameezes and kurtas and saris they would wear for religious holidays all bore a striking resemblance to Hinduism for me, at that age I don’t even think I thought of them as different religions. But there was something much more intimate, much more profound that I could sense in the way that they prayed. For years afterwards I would dream of Mecca as a magical, spiritual, fantastical city with glittering stone pathways and magnificent towering marble architecture that could solve all of one’s problems and conquer all of one’s fears just by existing. I also remember vividly seeing gigantic orange dragons in those same dreams. To this day I cannot draw any correlation between the two, but whenever I think of Islam, I think of dragons. 

In 2015, shortly after we moved back to Canada, my mother and I were baptized. At the time there were no Hindu societies in the Drayton Valley-Devon area, but there was one single Multicultural society. Once again in search of community we joined it immediately. The president of the Multicultural society, Bharti Khulisia, was an Indonesian woman of Indian descent who had lived in Drayton Valley for over 15 years. She was married to a foul-mouthed (though well-meaning) man named Dennis who has some sort of generic but lucrative job in the trades. Bharti Aunty told me that I reminded her of her granddaughter, and told my mother that she reminded her of herself when she was younger. Immediately, we were hooked. She was also a devout Christian who had gone on missions across South America. She would take my mom to church on most Sundays, who began taking me shortly after. I remember being annoyed at having to stand during the 20 (twenty!!!) minutes of singing at the beginning of each session, and otherwise being mostly indifferent towards the sermons. I did enjoy the post-church barbecues, though. 

Months after we began attending church, Bharti Aunty convinced my mother to get us both baptized for reasons that I can’t quite recall (again). I had to write a small speech about finding Christ, was dunked into a hot tub of cold water at some sort of ceremonial hall, and was given a free t-shirt to change into and a baptismal certificate afterward. Neither of which I can find today. 

When I started making my own money, I bought copies of each religious book and scanned them over again to see if anything would resonate, if anything would stick. The Quran (the Hindi translation, sorry), the Bible (which I skimmed, admittedly), the Bhagavad Gita (took me a solid eight months to get through that thing), and the Vinaya Pataka (I’ll get around to reading the other two Patakas eventually) were all profound in their own respective ways, all evoked emotion and revelation, all managed to mould and shape my morality, and all seemed to kill my perception of what I thought God was. The problem that I had not anticipated was that everything, in fact, had stuck. 

Fortunately by then, I had discovered mathematics. The insurmountable weight that was taken off my shoulders when I realized that everything was a statistical anomaly and/or prediction, when billions upon billions of years of physics and chemistry and biology happily worked together to create the world that we live in, that the reason we are here on this earth, asking these questions and contemplating these concepts is simply due to the unknowable mathematical coding of the universe that dictated the consecutive major events that gave us consciousness in the first place, cannot be overstated. It was so immensely freeing to place all of my beliefs onto something far greater and far more complex than I could ever fathom, something so beyond me that I didn’t even need to fully understand it to know that it was there. To believe in something unshakable, to base my beliefs in something that surpassed the powers and expectations of any being on earth. To read through my math textbooks, to listen to TED-Talks in order to gain insight and clarity on my silly little mortal problems. 

But what if I’m wrong? What if there is a God? And what if they are angry at me, positively incensed at me for denying them completely? Do I place my bets based on the statistical evidence of how likely it is for a single religion to be true? If I do end up in hell, will I be satisfied that I remained steadfast to my beliefs or will I spend an eternal punishment being regretful that I had not subscribed to the correct one?

Isn’t questioning your faith one of the biggest components of being faithful anyways?

[jmdbjk]

White Day, Pt. 2

For our second date of the evening, JK changed into a spiffy crisp white button down and proceeded to fluff and primp his hair for 3 minutes. He hasn’t forgotten all the hair styling tips. Look at him scrunching up the top for some extra fullness. You don’t spend ten years in the stylist’s chair and not learn a few tips about how to manipulate your hair.

Jimin showed up in the comments and JK went off the rails a little bit, trying to show off his wardrobe change and then tried using his smooth lines to make sure Jimin doesn’t wander off ...

Come on Jimin, isn’t it a little late to be playing hard-to-get? COME BACK! PAY ATTENTION!

A commenter said let’s date for 5 minutes and JK said, sure... then he tried to scroll back and find the name of the person so he’d know what to call them... and their name was John Kanya? Did the translator mean Jeon Kanya? HAHAHAHHAAH! Way to go Kanya! One step ahead!

He shared a song that he said Tae really likes and then he tried to search for a song request in the comments. He called Siri a punk because Siri couldn’t understand JK’s pronunciation of “old love.” Bless him...

Oh but when he found it, GOOD JOB whoever requested that song! So dreamy and romantic for our date night with JK! 

And yes, he had the music turned up loud and was yelling at us over the music JUST LIKE IF WE WERE ACTUALLY IN THE CLUB! I can see why he enjoys the interaction with us on Weverse live. It really is easy for him to connect with us and have real interactions in real time (as long as Army isn’t behaving like he’s 15 years old again.) 

The sweetest thing was he saved these songs to his library AND he practiced speaking English at the same time. Armys did good here. He was having fun.

He reads English very well, and I’m sure he understands 99% of what he hears. Its the pronunciation and conversational vocabulary parts that are tricky. 

And then he opened up to us a little bit...

I can see why he ditched Instagram. It’s too fake and impersonal.

Y’all, I started laughing out loud when the next song request came on and the vibe of it made him proclaim he should be drinking whiskey shots and not highballs HAHAHAHAHA! He is a blast. FYI, there are cocktails made with a mixture of whiskeys and they have names like 3 Wisemen (Jack Daniels, Johnnie Walker and Jim Beam) and Four Horsemen (Jim Beam, Jameson, Johnnie Walker, and Jack Daniels). Ugh. I am a whiskey sipper, not a whiskey shooter. And apparently, JK is also NOT a whiskey shooter either. So playful.

And philosophical JK rolled around and he told us he says again and again, he can’t be our #1 priority, that we should prioritize our own lives and whatever obligations we have going on. He said this while putting more of Bam’s eye drops in his eyes and over-dramatically acting like he was crying. 

For about the next twenty minutes he tried to get in the mood to sing and then he saw Namjoon in the comments and they had an adorable exchange which ended with JK singing a song that Namjoon suggested. 

I wonder if Joon had an ulterior motive behind asking JK to sing a variety of genres...you know our leader is always thinking... regardless, Kookie was having fun.

This goofball... said he was pacing himself as far as drinking because he had to really go to the bathroom. But we would have never known right? His reason: because he is such a pro. LMAO!

Oh! and then Namjoon came back in the comments and told JK to hurry up and release an album! THAT’S RIGHT JOONIE! LIGHT A FIRE UNDER JK’S ASS! And JK said he has a plan...well... from the mouth of the man who said he wasn’t a planner... oh then he elaborates that NOT having a plan is in itself a plan. STOP TRYING TO WORM YOUR WAY OUT OF THIS! 

He rambled on and on how he’s not lived with a plan up until now. Kookie-pookie, that’s because you’ve never had to manage your own time before. I think he was being vague in that he really doesn’t have a plan to release anything. He does not have that fire burning in his belly that Jimin, Hobi, Namjoon and Yoongi have. Each of those members have different fires burning. Jungkookie is living up to his free-spirit ways. He is very confident in himself and he has confidence that Army will always love him and he’ll stay on the path that shows him being himself. I said what I said. Or he may drop an album tomorrow. Who knows? We sure don’t. 

He really is the opposite of a Gen Z-er. Except for his use of social media. Which is null and void mostly. Typical Gen-Z in that aspect.

He closed our second date of White Day by confiding with us that he had to pee really really bad. 

[ofwhiims]

-------- TYLER SUWANNARAT

( apo nattawin. 28. young adult. he/him. ) can you guess who that is? i know! it’s ( tyler suwannarat ).  did you know that their star sign is a ( leo )? the last that i’ve heard about them, they’ve been residing in the town of (tomarang ). i would say that they would be considered ( charming, mischievous and a party animal. ) i wouldn’t worry though. mainly because they’re actually a (  human )! interesting, huh? what’s also really interesting is around town they are known as ( the ebullient ) if you were wondering i’ve also seen them working as ( executive chef  ).  i feel as though their current aspiration in life is ( fabulously wealthy ) even with all this information …. i can’t help but wonder what they’re really like face to face. what do you think about them so far.

STATISTICS

Name: tyler suwannarat

Age:  27

Gender: cis man

Pronouns:  he/him

D.O.B:  august 4th 1996

P.O.B: tomarang

Nationality:  thai

Ethnicity: thai

Current Occupation: executive chef

ROMANCE & ATTRACTION

Relationship Status: single

Sexual Orientation: bi-sexual

APPEARANCE

Height:  6’

Build: lean/muscular 

Hair-Colour: black/briwb

Eye-colour: brown

Piercings: n/a

FAMILY

Parents: anuman suwannarat & kanya suwannarat

Siblings: n/a

PERSONALITY

Positive:  charming, adventurous, charismatic,  outgoing, romantic

Negative: mischievous, materialistic, flirty, 

Likes: cooking, mixology, baking, partying,  late night drives, surfing

Dislikes: being cold, mushrooms, hangovers

HOBBIES & SKILLS

Notable Skills: cooking, mixology, surfing

Languages Spoken: thai, english 

BACKGROUND

tyler never grew up with an affluent background, both his parents were low levels in their careers. yet they always did their best to make sure he was cared for and provided for. but he couldn’t deny that he strived for more out of life than his mother and father had. tyler has a drive for success and a genuine passion for his career. he’s vibrant, and mischievous,  and hopes to one day raise a family where he can provide for more than just their needs, but everyone’s wants as well. 

[voasprofile]

huli na ng aking ika'y minahal/loving you too late

fem!yuu

maybe ooc vil

slight azul x yuu

filipino and english version

FILIPINO VERSION

ang pagmamahal ng tao sayo ay 'di dapat inaabuso, dahil ang pagmahal ay parang tayo din. Pag unti-unti nating pinamimigay nang walang kapalit, ay mauubos din ito

si Vil ay hindi ordinaryong lalake, sa dinami daming nagkagusto sa kanya, ang mata niya ay di maalis kay Yuu

babeng di makukumpara sa iba, mala perlas ang kutis, gandang tulad ng bagong bukang rosas, ngiting nagbibigay liwanag kahit sa pinakamadilim na gabi

si Yuu ay nasanay na sa mga manliligaw na may gusto sa kanya, buwan-buwan may bagong darating.

"sa mata ko ay ikaw lang ang babae sa mundo"

"hindi kita kayang lokohin. At nang tumingin ka lang sa aking direksyon, ay parang biniyayaan na ako ng diyos"

"hindi ako tulad ng ibang lalaki, na gagamitin at paglalaruan ka lang"

sa daming beses na niya ito narinig ay parang naririndi na siya. Kaya nagulat siya na meron pading malakas na loob na magpakita at lokohin siya

si Vil na ilang buwan na pinag-iisipan ang desisyon at pag-ipon ng kumpiyansa, ay nasira ang loob

nasanay na din si Vil na siya ang hinahabol ng mga babae, kaya bakit? Bakit ang unang beses na totoong nagka-gusto siya, ay hindi siya gusto neto?

si Yuu alam na ang mga sasabihin neto

"mahal na ata kita"

"gusto kong pasayahin ka"

"hindi kita lolokohin"

sa galit ni Yuu, agad-agad niya itong tinanggihan. Gaano ka laki ang kaakuhan? Gaano siya kahangin? 

sa tingin ba niya na pag-narinig ito ni Yuu na agad-agad siyang magkaka gusto dito?

hindi, hindi niya tinanggap ang malalim na damdamin ni Vil

pero hindi nagpa-pigil si Vil

mga liham, regalo, rosas lahat nang mai-isip na pwede i regalo ay niregalo na niya

pero si Yuu ay nagka-gusto sa iba, lalaking nakatutok lang sa kanyang pag-aaral, lalaking walang oras na maibigay sa kanya, lalaking nakatutok sa kanyang pangarap, lalaking nag-ngangalang Azul

araw gabi nasa isip ni Yuu eto

'gaano kaya ka lambot ang kanyang buhok'

'ang ganda ng kanyang tawa, parang anghel ang bumaba sa langit para sa aking mga mata'

nang nakita ni Vil na wala na siyang pagkakataon, ay lumayo na siya. Ayaw niya din abalahin si Yuu

si Yuu na hindi napansin ang pagka-wala ng presensya ni Vil sa kanyang buhay

ilang buwan lumipas at nawala na din ang kanyang nararamdaman, at parang may kulang sa buhay niya

ano ang kulang?

ang pagmamahal na dati niyang naramdaman, taos-pusong papuri na dating sinabi sa kanya, ang magandang pakiramdam na ibinigay sa kanya. Sino nga ba siya?

yung taong gusto siya kahit hindi maayos ang kanyang itsura, taong may oras para sa kanya para lang mapasaya siya, ang taong nag-mamahal sa kanya

ah, si Vil

pero sinaktan na ni Yuu noon siya, mapapatawad kaya ni Vil si Yuu?

ilang araw nag-ipon ng lakas loob si Yuu, para mag-hingi ng patawad, at ilabas ang kanyang nararamdaman

dahil sa saya at gustong makita agad si Vil, ay napa tingin ito sa social media ni Vil

ay, huli na ba si Yuu?

parang tinutuya siya ng mga larawan

si Vil may kasamang babae, masaya, naghahawak kamay

ay, kasalanan to ni Yuu eh

kung hindi lang siya pahuli huli

gabing-gabi na nag-scroll sa kanyang profile ay parang pang-araw-araw na ritwal para kay Yuu

hindi matanggap na sinayang niya ang pagkakataon niya kay Vil

mahal na mahal siya dati ni Vil tapos sinayang lang niya

kung maaga kaya nalaman ni Yuu ang kanyang totoong nararamdaman, meron kayang pagkakataon na maging sila?

ENGLISH VERSION

people's love should not be abused, because love is like us. If we gradually give away pieces without anything in return, we will be all used up

Vil was not an ordinary man, many girls like him pursue him even. But his eyes can't be taken off of Yuu

a girl incomparable to others, complexion like that of a pearl, beauty like a newly blossomed rose, smile that lights up even the darkest nights

Yuu is used to those who pursue her, every month a new one arrives

"in my eyes you are the only woman in the world"

"I won't fool you, as when you looked at my direction, it was as if God had blessed me"

"I'm not like other men, who will only use and play with you"

she had heard it so many times that it's seems like she's going deaf. So she was surprised that someone had the courage to show up and fool her

Vil who had been mulling over the decision for months and gathering confidence, was devastated

Vil had gotten used to being the one being chased, so why? Why did the first girl he truly liked not like him back?

Yuu already knows every line that came out of his mouth

"I think I love you"

"I want to make you happy"

"I will not fool you"

due to Yuu's anger, she rejected him. How big was his ego? How big was his head?

did he think that once Yuu hears this, she'll immediately fall in love?

no. She didn't accept Vil's feelings

but Vil didn't let it hold him back

love letters, gift, roses, everything that can be gifted was gifted

but Yuu fell in love with someone else. A man focused with his studies, a man who was focused with his dreams, a man who didn't have time for her, a man named Azul 

he was on Yuu's mind day and night

'how soft is his hair?'

'his laugh is enchanting, like an angel descended from heaven for my eyes'

when Vil saw that he had no chance, he walked away. He didn't want to bother Yuu

Yuu who didn't notice the absence of Vil's presence in his life 

a few months passed and her feelings disappeared, and it seemed like something was missing from her life

what was missing?

the love she used to receive, heartfelt praise she used too receive, the good feeling he gave her. Who gave it to her?

a person who likes her even if she doesn't look the best, a person who has time for her just to make her happy, the person who loves her

ah, it's Vil

but Yuu had hurt him before , can he ever forgive her?

Yuu mustered the courage, to ask for forgiveness, and show her feelings

because of her impatience to see Vil, she immediately went to his social media page

oh, was Yuu too late?

the pictures seems to be mocking her

vil, with a woman, happy, and holding hands

oh, it's Yuu's fault

always beating around the bush, if only she wasn't too late

late nights scrolling through his profile is a daily ritual for Yuu

Yuu couldn't accept that she wasted her chance with Vil

Vil used to love her so much, and she just wasted it

if Yuu knew earlier about her true feelings, would there be a chance for them to be together?